Little John's trying again. And again. Aaaand again.

Do ANY beers actually taste better than horse piss? I have yet to try a beer that tastes edible. Of course I don't drink so I don't try many!
 
The answer to your question is yes, Mystic :) That reminds me, I picked up a banana creme beer this weekend that I need to try!
 
I'm here. Buried under the shame, the atrophy, and the gluttony, but I'm here.

I don't even know what I weigh, I know it's a big ugly number.

I need to figure out what my appetite is fighting in my brain and I need to resolve it. Sigh...
 
At least you´re still here, even if it´s in the background. Forget about shame, we all go through bad times. (I should know ;) ) Telling yourself how awful you´re doing doesn´t help one bit! Remember what you´ve done so far and compare where you are now to where you would have been if you´d never started to lose weight and get healthy. And yes, also try to figure out what´s making it so hard right now. You can do this and we will be here to cheer you on.

Btw: how are the fingers doing?
 
Thanks LM. I'm working on the shame, seems like I keep falling into the bad times. I suppose it could be worse, it could be heroin instead of chocolate chip cookies, but either way impact my quality of life.

So time to re-re-re-reboot. That's the part I hate the most, is saying that I really mean it this time, but I keep f'ing up, and in a bad way. Summer's always hard with all the activities we book. And I just don't like social situations where I can't think of anything witty to say, so I shove in some more cheese/chips/lemonade/cookies. Maybe I need to focus less on saying something witty, laws knows other people don't seem to.

Anyway, the fingers are doing OK - got the pins removed last week and I'm re-introducing them to tasks like picking up stuff and typing. Strange feeling - the index and ring are really sensitive right now, and a lot of things feel wet when they're not. The middle finger is under wraps because they needed to do some more stitches, one of the pins was playing hide-and-seek on the surgeon, so he had to open it up some. I was knocked out for the whole thing, so no issues here!

So my latest plan is to get back on the train I was doing before where I intermittent fasted in the morning and would go for a walk before I had lunch. It worked well before and I felt good the whole time. Mondays I'll I.F. until dinner.
 
Hm, let´s see... First things first: glad to hear the fingers are doing well! Digits are always tricky. Second: I feel you on the meaning it really really seriously honestly and mucking up anyway. However: as long as you keep trying again at least your weight won´t go up too much and by the time your mind is back where it should be it´ll start going down. Third: I am not great at social functions but the one thing that tends to work for me is get other people to talk about things they care about. Most people prefer having a reason to talk about themselves to listening anyway and people who don´t like to talk tend to understand you don´t have too much text either.
 
Glad your fingers are healing up!
Getting going again is the hard part.
As much as it's easy to get mad at ourselves when we gain weight back, 90% of us will at some point. Losing weight, and keeping it off, is incredibly difficult. It's just the way it is. if 90% of people will have the same issue, then you know that it is not 'just you'.
 
LaMa & Mystic have said it well. I think we all struggle LJ. It's bloody hard! Don't feel shame. We never stop learning & I don't know any perfect people xo Cate
 
Good news on the hands LJ.

Do try not to get too down on yourself for the diet issues. I think sometimes that's one of the causes of the spirals: we get so upset when we have a day where we go glutton that we say "oh well, I've screwed everything up, I guess there's no harm in just going off the deep end."

Which, of course, is dead wrong. If you have a bad Tuesday food wise, focus on making Wednesday and Thursday really good days. If you go nuts at lunch, focus on sticking to your plan for a good dinner. You're not going to be able to succeed without ever screwing up, I didn't and anybody else I've known who has had success has had plenty of slip ups. You just overwhelm them with long stretches of good days and they wind up not mattering.

Keep the chin up, and welcome back!!
 
LM, Mystic, cate, thanks for the kind words, you're right. I screwed up, but staying mad about it doesn't do anything.

Vee, Keeping the chins up! I know I'm allowed to screw up, it's just that the last two months have been more screw-up than anything. Summer can be tough that way.

So I've been on intermittent fasting since Monday. I broke my fast yesterday to a free luncheon with everything I like on the table, and forgot how many calories everything had. So that went poorly, but as everyone's said, there's no point beating myself up. I always forget how bad wings are for you. But moving on, I started a 24-hour fast last night at 6 pm. My only calories until 6 tonight will be black coffee with a little bit of cocoa powder. A whopping 15 calories.

Didn't exercise yesterday, we had some crazy storms in the afternoon and evening, so I stayed safely inside. I'll make up for it today with a nice walk during lunch and mowing the lawn this evening.
 
IF....you are a stronger man then I....considering I'm not a man. But still. Congrats on re-wagoning, fingers and all.
 
You can do it LJ!
I kinda do intermittent fasting but not the 5:2 one, I do the like 16 hours not eating, 8 hours eating or whatever. I'm not actually strict on it or anything, it just happens to be the way I like to end up eating.
 
IF isn't too much more difficult than any other approach to improve for me. I'm OK skipping breakfast, so long as I have my coffee, and I just need to watch the line in the sand for stopping at night. I did my first 24 hour yesterday, I was hungriest at 3:30, and then at dinner (6 pm). I think I'll view it as retraining my hunger.

MR, for now I'll stick with 6:1, with most days being 18:6. Just need to decide when that 6 hours should be.
 
So in 6:1 are you fasting totally for 1 day as apposed to 5:2 where you eat 500 or so on your 'fasting days'?
Good luck!
 
Yes, my "1" is 24 hours food-free. Except for the little bit of cocoa powder and cream in my coffee.

To be honest, still trying to figure out what's going to work best for me, and as usual, the weekends are harder to rope in. Mainly cuz dinner tends to be a little later and the pressure to do family meals during the day. So I'll do the best I can to push a fasting time of 16 hours, and hope my daughter doesn't pick up on it.

Hopefully getting my sutures removed tomorrow, and when I do, I can ease into my old exercise routine again. We shall see...
 
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