Lisa's Final Countdown, The Good Days, the Bad, & the Ugly

[douknowjello]

Now on a less serious note My food for today.

bob evens light breakfast sandwich-300

banana-100
dried fruit-100
light ice cream bars-100

Dinner out (first time out with hubby in AGES):

mushroom swiss burger-600
fries-492

STILL NO POP

total calories-1692

edit* later ate an orange so 1772

I'm probably going to have a snack later still so I'll be back to update. Tonight is my Friday so tomorrow I can catch up with everyone

 

[Blancita]

Well that is absolutely horrific Lisa, so sorry you went through that. It makes me so angry to hear about you getting abused.

As far as the weight, I'm sure being judged is very difficult but honestly when you read about the metabolism and body functions it really hits home how very hard the excess fat is on your body. That's what worries me since you look very pretty in your pics. And that's why I'm routing SO HARD for you girl! If you have time, try reading some articles on wellnessresources.com, this guy is a clinical researcher and explains the body systems and how fat operates as a gland (rather than sitting there doing nothing like we thought) and produces dangerous hormones and system-wide inflammation.

 

[douknowjello]

Thanks Claudia But like I said all that really is in the past and I hardly ever think about it these days. My relationship with my mom now is a really good one amazingly because she's able to get the help she needed and work through stuff too. And honestly I don't want anyone feeling bad for me because as bad as it sounds like stuff was, I had just as many happy childhood moments too. So many other people have been through much worse and still chose to be happy positive people. I talked about it now only to show that we all do have choices of what we take with us and leave behind. It may be hard at first and we may have to make that decision every day to get past things but eventually it gets easier. It really is about letting stuff go so it can't hurt you anymore.

And ty for the link, I'll read it tomorrow even though I bet it's going to scare the crap out of me. The hormone thing is probably why I have pcos, and why so many people have it go away and their body seems to reset when the weight comes off. I'm glad to have you rooting for me and I really do feel like I've finally found a life style change that's going to let me lose this weight permanently instead of yo-yo-ing. Before I came to this forum I never had a way to look at what I was doing and why it wasn't working and get feedback and help from other people....well besides quack doctors who told me "just stop eating". Yea OK doc....cuz that's so helpful, lol.

 

[douknowjello]

So I'm had an idea for a new journal title...I'm thinking of doing something like "Project Happiness" ...some variation on that but maybe more catchy. Not sure though yet because I don't want to imply that I'm unhappy...but I think as I lose weight life will be alot more fun. And I still don't know if I just want to rename this journal or start a totally new one. But no rush...new year came and went so its not like I have a deadline, lol. Ok off to work, bleh

 

[bmohearn]

Project Healthiness?? Mission Possible??

 

[douknowjello]

Oh I like that first one too. I think somebody has the second one already though.

 

[douknowjello]

So this morning I didn't make the best choice. I took one of my girls to breakfast and had the lumberjack slam. I ate way too much but the good news is I'm not capable of eating like I used to. What makes me mad though is on the Denny's website it says the whole breakfast is 850 calories. Well I couldn't eat it all so I went and calculated off their individual menu and added it all up seperately accounting for what I didn't eat. So tell me why it came out more that way? I think Denny's is cheating because I think the higher calories is more accurate. So for breakfast I've had 1116 calories. The good thing is I don't see me being hungry the rest of the day and I'll just have to cool it at dinner, lol. And DENNY's, I'M KEEPIN MY EYES ON YOU!!!!!

 

[txsqlchick]

So this morning I didn't make the best choice. I took one of my girls to breakfast and had the lumberjack slam. I ate way too much but the good news is I'm not capable of eating like I used to. What makes me mad though is on the Denny's website it says the whole breakfast is 850 calories. Well I couldn't eat it all so I went and calculated off their individual menu and added it all up seperately accounting for what I didn't eat. So tell me why it came out more that way? I think Denny's is cheating because I think the higher calories is more accurate. So for breakfast I've had 1116 calories. The good thing is I don't see me being hungry the rest of the day and I'll just have to cool it at dinner, lol. And DENNY's, I'M KEEPIN MY EYES ON YOU!!!!!

Individual portions of eggs, bacon, etc. may be larger than what they put on your plate for the lumberjack slam. Denny's portions are notoriously stingy anyway; note how they arrange the paltry scrambled eggs to JUST cover the plate so you can't see the color of it through the eggs.

 

[bmohearn]

I've never even been to a denny's. I think the closest one to me is about 2 or more hours away.

So, you had a bad breakfast.

Tell yourself this:
"I am too positive to be doubtful, too optimistic to be fearful. And too determined to be defeated"

It was one bad meal, now dust off your knees and rock out the rest of the day!

 

[Mad4Chillas]

Oh man, I hate resturaunts that do stuff to you! It absoloutely makes you feel out of control. Especially since you didn't even eat all of the meal, I hate to think what your calories might be if you did! I dont understand how resturaunts can get away with serving outlandish portions of food like that without getting their license revoked! Haha,I guess until then all we can do is sit and steam about the bad food decision we made unconciously and maybe send them hate mail wrapped in a buttery pancake

 

[douknowjello]

Posting calories real quick but be back later

Dennys-1116

Dinner-Tilapia fish-100
noodle roni-450
steamed zucchini & mushrooms w/ butter-100

Total-1766

edit* ate pudding and two pieces of licorice (from hubby ;/) so 1886

So I still have room for some s/f pudding or fruit later. I was so full all day I didn't eat anything else and dinner was low cal so it actually worked out good Surprising since in the past the breakfast out would have been a signal to me to just pig out all day and not count calories. It still shocks me I can eat normally and stick to the plan!

 

[PaperAirPlanes]

Excellent work going to breakfast and keeping everything under control! I know how that goes, I try to trick myself into thinking "I'll ignore calories, it's okay, its just one meal" but one meal turns into all day and blah! But as long as you know what works and what doesn't, you're absolutely golden!!

 

[douknowjello]

yea I was totally entertaining the idea about just blowing it the whole day. But guess I got some good habits going cuz I came home and counted the calories anyway...especially after I ended up giving half of alot most of my food to one of the girls. I just couldn't eat it all like I used to. Then I was happily full all day so no reason to cheat anymore. Dinner was going to be spaghetti but I woke up late and decided to fix the fish instead cuz it was quicker and low cal. Hubby was happy but he's so silly. I laughed cuz he was raving about it ...tilapia is great cuz it's not so...fishy. He was all "it's so delicate...like a butterfly" lmao. The zucchini & mushrooms I did with it I steamed in one of those microwave bags somebody on here told me about. It came out awesome. Anyway as usual I'm exhausted and rambling so off to bed I go. Hoping for a great weigh in tomorrow Gnite all

 

[Blancita]

Making such huge changes Lisa! Counting calories, being honest with yourself about what you're eating, and still coming in low after that breakfast splurge. FUCKIN AWESOME is all I can say!!!!

 

[douknowjello]

and maybe send them hate mail wrapped in a buttery pancake

ROFLMAO!! Somehow I was so tired I didn't see that part last night. I read it this morning and about fell off the chair laughing Speaking of buttery pancakes, they say "margarine" in the calories for Denny's on their pancakes. I know that had to be butter cuz margarine doesn't sit on a pancake like that!! Oh well An occasional breakfast out isn't gonna cog the wheel.

 

[douknowjello]

I've never even been to a denny's. I think the closest one to me is about 2 or more hours away.

So, you had a bad breakfast.

Tell yourself this:
"I am too positive to be doubtful, too optimistic to be fearful. And too determined to be defeated"

It was one bad meal, now dust off your knees and rock out the rest of the day!

Wow....you've NEVER been to a Denny's? I've grown up around them since as early as I can remember! I thought they were like an american staple, lol. Not that you're missing alot. That's just surprising cuz I've always seen them...even when we moved across country from Cali to Ohio I saw them every 5 miles it seemed like, lol.

 

[douknowjello]

Making such huge changes Lisa! Counting calories, being honest with yourself about what you're eating, and still coming in low after that breakfast splurge. FUCKIN AWESOME is all I can say!!!!

THANK YOU!!! Now go have a talk with my scale perdy please? Cuz I estimated high all week and even if I was off I know I wasn't off by 7000 calories. I had a feeling though cuz Sunday my weight was up after I've been consistantly been at 314 and 313. And I've felt weird and tired and I know my hormones have been off. So today I'm at 315.2, and about to change my ticker accordingly. So according to the scale I'm up 2 pounds. But seriously something's not right so I'm not letting this derail me. And honestly the scale hasn't been bouncing around at all the last two months...just been steadily down so maybe I was due for a fluctuation. It's not time for TOM so not sure what's goin on. So I'm gonna start taking all my vitamins and some fiber and if I don't feel better by the end of this week I'm gonna go see the doctor. I'm due to get checked I think anyway and I've been so exhausted lately off and on....not like gradually tired but like insta tired. That weird feeling like somebody pulled my plug. I'm sure it's the pcos...but that's all the more reason for me to fight this because if I can get the weight down I may not HAVE pcos anymore. Funny though I have always had times of feeling like this when I'm losing weight. I thought you were supposed to have more energy and feel good!

 

[txsqlchick]

Wow....you've NEVER been to a Denny's? I've grown up around them since as early as I can remember! I thought they were like an american staple, lol. Not that you're missing alot. That's just surprising cuz I've always seen them...even when we moved across country from Cali to Ohio I saw them every 5 miles it seemed like, lol.

When I was a kid, we used to joke that "La Quinta" was Spanish for "next to Denny's". Not as many Denny's around here as there used to be, but my neighborhood went from "upper middle class" in my childhood to "mega stinking rich" now. And mega stinking rich people are too snooty for Denny's, so the local Denny's closed. We have one near where *I* live though! Heeheehee! My family and I go to a locally-owned greasy spoon in the barrio when we go out for breakfast though; they have the best breakfast value and the best service. It's awesome.

THANK YOU!!! Now go have a talk with my scale perdy please? Cuz I estimated high all week and even if I was off I know I wasn't off by 7000 calories. I had a feeling though cuz Sunday my weight was up after I've been consistantly been at 314 and 313. And I've felt weird and tired and I know my hormones have been off. So today I'm at 315.2, and about to change my ticker accordingly. So according to the scale I'm up 2 pounds. But seriously something's not right so I'm not letting this derail me. And honestly the scale hasn't been bouncing around at all the last two months...just been steadily down so maybe I was due for a fluctuation. It's not time for TOM so not sure what's goin on. So I'm gonna start taking all my vitamins and some fiber and if I don't feel better by the end of this week I'm gonna go see the doctor. I'm due to get checked I think anyway and I've been so exhausted lately off and on....not like gradually tired but like insta tired. That weird feeling like somebody pulled my plug. I'm sure it's the pcos...but that's all the more reason for me to fight this because if I can get the weight down I may not HAVE pcos anymore. Funny though I have always had times of feeling like this when I'm losing weight. I thought you were supposed to have more energy and feel good!

The scale is just one way to measure progress. When I first came here both Steve and mal beat on me about that and mal in particular urged me to take body measurements. Do you do that? If not...start! It's just like Steve says......scales measure bone, muscle, fat, water, poop, etc.

 

[douknowjello]

True, which I do know I should be doing that. But I'm so big now a tape measure doesn't even go around half my body atm. I've used string but being so round I have no idea if I'm measuring the same place each time. And being so huge in my stomach makes it hard to measure in other places. I can't kneel down to tie my own shoes...gotta sit on the couch and stick my foot out sideways. And I've tried to get hubby to help before... that was worse than me doing it myself. I didn't trust it being accurate for sure, lol. I'll never have my first readings but that'll be a good thing when I can get the tape measure around

 

[cinderelly]

So I'm had an idea for a new journal title...I'm thinking of doing something like "Project Happiness" ...some variation on that but maybe more catchy. Not sure though yet because I don't want to imply that I'm unhappy...but I think as I lose weight life will be alot more fun. And I still don't know if I just want to rename this journal or start a totally new one. But no rush...new year came and went so its not like I have a deadline, lol. Ok off to work, bleh

Oh oooppsss lol, I liked Project Healthiness...I htink Brandies suggestion was great!

So this morning I didn't make the best choice. I took one of my girls to breakfast and had the lumberjack slam. I ate way too much but the good news is I'm not capable of eating like I used to. What makes me mad though is on the Denny's website it says the whole breakfast is 850 calories. Well I couldn't eat it all so I went and calculated off their individual menu and added it all up seperately accounting for what I didn't eat. So tell me why it came out more that way? I think Denny's is cheating because I think the higher calories is more accurate. So for breakfast I've had 1116 calories. The good thing is I don't see me being hungry the rest of the day and I'll just have to cool it at dinner, lol. And DENNY's, I'M KEEPIN MY EYES ON YOU!!!!!

aaawww well your reconginzing it as a bad choice, acknowledging it and owning it, good for you!!!And ya I notice tha tall the time, I just cant eat anywhere near what I use too.

I've never even been to a denny's. I think the closest one to me is about 2 or more hours away.

It was one bad meal, now dust off your knees and rock out the rest of the day!

Great post my dear...WOW neverto a Denny's HUH...they are like 24 hr resturants that you can order anyhting at at any given time and they have some sinful stuff....we ue to go there after being out late or out drinking , LOL

Posting calories real quick but be back later

Dennys-1116

Dinner-Tilapia fish-100
two pieces of licorice (from hubby ;/) so 1886

Surprising since in the past the breakfast out would have been a signal to me to just pig out all day and not count calories. It still shocks me I can eat normally and stick to the plan!

Ive never had Tilapia before...

YUUUMM licorice, I need to go out and bu ytsome, i love the peel stuff YUM!!!

That is awesome that you didnt take it as a to hell with it day adn blow it, you still did great regardless of the little slip up...

yea I was totally entertaining the idea about just blowing it the whole day. But guess I got some good habits going cuz I came home and counted the calories anyway

True, which I do know I should be doing that. But I'm so big now a tape measure doesn't even go around half my body atm. I've used string but being so round I have no idea if I'm measuring the same place each time. And being so huge in my stomach makes it hard to measure in other places. I can't kneel down to tie my own shoes...gotta sit on the couch and stick my foot out sideways. And I've tried to get hubby to help before... that was worse than me doing it myself. I didn't trust it being accurate for sure, lol. I'll never have my first readings but that'll be a good thing when I can get the tape measure around

I say dont get discouraged abt the scale and go based off of how you feel and how your clothes are fitting!!!

Sorry I havent posted in a bit.Ive been fighting a damn cold and it has been winnning, LOL.Ive been trying to rest more...Our Stephy is back in the hospy agian, was released Weds agfternoon back in Fri afternoon...Still there but appearas to be slowly on the mend...been a lil stressful and crazy and Ive been going to the hospy on my own time around my shifts and such to see her...

I hope to chat soon