Lisa's Final Countdown, The Good Days, the Bad, & the Ugly
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douknowjello
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Hey guys 
Thanks for checking on me. I pop in here and then don't know what to write and end up reading but not saying much, at least not in my own journal. Not really like me normally, lol.
So I haven't been counting calories yet but still somehow managed to lose a pound the last week. I've been really stressed and more anxious as college approached and tonight I was almost in tears at the thought of doing another semester like last one. And it would have been exactly like last semester...chem 2....same teacher and schedule, plus my other classes. I have school loans so I have to stay half time or pay on them so that's been added pressure that I can't JUST take Chem and get through it. I'm a really good student but his class is very hard and with my work schedule where I work some ten hour night shifts and go to class exhausted with no sleep and then the class schedule itself....well I just couldn't do it.
So I was stressed about going this semester with the schedule I would have had in this bad weather, driving back and forth fifty times a day to another town. But now I'm stressed that I dropped all my classes...but not as much, lol. I know me and I just couldn't do it. I've taken breaks before so I know I'll go back...with my loans I have no choice. I'm applying for a deferment and hope I get it....usually no problem.
So my goal is to take this time and focus on me and get my health in order so when I go back I'm not dealing with some of the same issues...all weight related. Anyway it just dawned on me why I'm not writing as much...my ass hurts! lol
It's healing but I can't sit here for very long before it's really uncomfortable. Anyway I have to work tonight so I'll try to get on tomorrow...which I had a laptop
Thanks for checking on me. I pop in here and then don't know what to write and end up reading but not saying much, at least not in my own journal. Not really like me normally, lol. So I haven't been counting calories yet but still somehow managed to lose a pound the last week. I've been really stressed and more anxious as college approached and tonight I was almost in tears at the thought of doing another semester like last one. And it would have been exactly like last semester...chem 2....same teacher and schedule, plus my other classes. I have school loans so I have to stay half time or pay on them so that's been added pressure that I can't JUST take Chem and get through it. I'm a really good student but his class is very hard and with my work schedule where I work some ten hour night shifts and go to class exhausted with no sleep and then the class schedule itself....well I just couldn't do it.
So I was stressed about going this semester with the schedule I would have had in this bad weather, driving back and forth fifty times a day to another town. But now I'm stressed that I dropped all my classes...but not as much, lol. I know me and I just couldn't do it. I've taken breaks before so I know I'll go back...with my loans I have no choice. I'm applying for a deferment and hope I get it....usually no problem.
So my goal is to take this time and focus on me and get my health in order so when I go back I'm not dealing with some of the same issues...all weight related. Anyway it just dawned on me why I'm not writing as much...my ass hurts! lol
It's healing but I can't sit here for very long before it's really uncomfortable. Anyway I have to work tonight so I'll try to get on tomorrow...which I had a laptop
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bmohearn
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It sucks that you dropped out of school. As stressful as it was, my advice would have been to take everything one step at a time. But YOU are YOU, and know YOU. I really hope you go back. Concentrating on your health is very important as well, get youself healed, healthy, and back on the wagon.
Best wishes Lisa!
Best wishes Lisa!
Kristi
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Hey Lisa, just wanted to stop in and see how you are doing. I hope your tailbone gets better soon! That's gotta be a pain in the...haha ; )
About the college thing, you do what is right for you because you know how much you can handle. It wouldn't do you any good to let yourself get so stressed that your health is being compromised. Sometimes a little breather is all we need to start fresh and regroup. When you go back, you will feel more than ready to conquer that Chemistry class!!!
Miss all of you guys!
About the college thing, you do what is right for you because you know how much you can handle. It wouldn't do you any good to let yourself get so stressed that your health is being compromised. Sometimes a little breather is all we need to start fresh and regroup. When you go back, you will feel more than ready to conquer that Chemistry class!!!
Miss all of you guys!
douknowjello
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Thanks I just needed a semester off. My stress level has already come down immensely.
And wouldn't call it dropping out...just taking a break. I had to wake up and realize there's just no way I could have managed a schedule that had me only home long enough to get maybe 4 hours of sleep three nights a week. It was bad enough last semester trying to stay awake in class and pass quizes and exams then make my 45 minute commute home without driving off the road. This semester would have been so much worse. In the fall there'll be more classes that I need available with a chance at a workable schedule.
Funny though how I always push myself too hard and put too much on my plate, forcing myself to keep doing stuff until I'm at my breaking point and then feel guilty for stepping back. Then after I get myself into these impossible situations I stupidly can't figure out why I can't manage my stress, let alone stick to any form of a diet while I'm busy thinking I'm super woman and can do it all.
Was so nice today, I actually accomplished stuff because I wasn't overwhelmed. I even went grocery shopping. My fridge is full of fruits and veggies and stuff to cook at HOME
I just needed a semester off. My stress level has already come down immensely. And wouldn't call it dropping out...just taking a break. I had to wake up and realize there's just no way I could have managed a schedule that had me only home long enough to get maybe 4 hours of sleep three nights a week. It was bad enough last semester trying to stay awake in class and pass quizes and exams then make my 45 minute commute home without driving off the road. This semester would have been so much worse. In the fall there'll be more classes that I need available with a chance at a workable schedule.
Funny though how I always push myself too hard and put too much on my plate, forcing myself to keep doing stuff until I'm at my breaking point and then feel guilty for stepping back. Then after I get myself into these impossible situations I stupidly can't figure out why I can't manage my stress, let alone stick to any form of a diet while I'm busy thinking I'm super woman and can do it all.
Was so nice today, I actually accomplished stuff because I wasn't overwhelmed. I even went grocery shopping. My fridge is full of fruits and veggies and stuff to cook at HOME
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Curvie Girlie
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I'm sorry to hear about the loan situation You seem to have made the best choice and WOW what a nightmare with the stressload! Don't ever feel guilty about setting personal boundaries! We all need a break. Glad you're taking a breather, and I hope you assess your issues and feel much better, soon
You seem to have made the best choice and WOW what a nightmare with the stressload! Don't ever feel guilty about setting personal boundaries! We all need a break. Glad you're taking a breather, and I hope you assess your issues and feel much better, soon 
douknowjello
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Enjoy your break, you will do much better in classes when you get back to it
Thanks, I think so too. LOVE your avatar btw...can't go sexier than black leather, lol.
I'm sorry to hear about the loan situation
Yea my school loans hanging over my head are stressful....which debt always is, lol. Apparently there's tons of money just out there for grabs for school in the form of grants and scholarships but I can't seem to find them. All I get is internet scams or ones I don't qualify for through school.
And I'm glad I'm taking a breather too....it was a huge relief.
Yea sometimes I'm not sure what to say. Other times in my own journal I think I'm just not ready for whatever may pour out or people's responses to it, lol.
douknowjello
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Well I did really well today until dinner...I made some awesome meatloaf. Real food after all the crap we've been eating and I guess I had some self control issues. I'm 300 over what I set as my max calorie limit. It may be a rough start but at least it IS a start and I'm not consuming 3-4k like I probably was before, lol. I'll do better tomorrow My hubby was sure ecstatic to have real food for sure, lol.
apricots x 3 -51
banana-101
orange-80
s/f pudding-120
half pb & honey sandwich-190
red potatoes- 400
butter-300
meatloaf- 1086
total-2328
My hubby was sure ecstatic to have real food for sure, lol. apricots x 3 -51
banana-101
orange-80
s/f pudding-120
half pb & honey sandwich-190
red potatoes- 400
butter-300
meatloaf- 1086
total-2328
You're off to a great start sweetie . I just made meatloaf the other night and added 1 whole grated squash and grated baby carrots. It comes out so moist with the veggies in it and meanwhile H, who detests any form of veggies (he gets grossed out by them), didn't even notice the veggies haha.
Its always best to do what's needed to eliminate stress in your life. Getting back to your healthy ways will make this semester off really count for something great.
. I just made meatloaf the other night and added 1 whole grated squash and grated baby carrots. It comes out so moist with the veggies in it and meanwhile H, who detests any form of veggies (he gets grossed out by them), didn't even notice the veggies haha.Its always best to do what's needed to eliminate stress in your life. Getting back to your healthy ways will make this semester off really count for something great.
thecabbie
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Hi Lisa!!
Sorry I haven't dropped in much I've been kinda busy too. I totally get the idea of dropping out for a semester... I kinda wish I could sometimes, but my job is requiring that I finish as soon as I'm able to, so no breaks...
Anyway, I'll stop in when I can, anytime you see me online too...
Sorry I haven't dropped in much I've been kinda busy too. I totally get the idea of dropping out for a semester... I kinda wish I could sometimes, but my job is requiring that I finish as soon as I'm able to, so no breaks...
Anyway, I'll stop in when I can, anytime you see me online too...
140Days
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Heya Lisa. Just caught up on your exploits over the last.. well since before christmas LOL.
I guess we all need a break from things or we tend to snap. I think you've done the right thing with the taking a semester off. I tend to push myself hard and then fall to pieces when things don't go according to the plan. I needed the break, and I think it will recharge your soul to have some time.
Anyhow, must make this brief as I have about a million posts from the others in my posse to catch up on too. Promise to visit you more often Lisa
I guess we all need a break from things or we tend to snap. I think you've done the right thing with the taking a semester off. I tend to push myself hard and then fall to pieces when things don't go according to the plan. I needed the break, and I think it will recharge your soul to have some time.
Anyhow, must make this brief as I have about a million posts from the others in my posse to catch up on too. Promise to visit you more often Lisa
douknowjello
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You're off to a great start sweetie
Its always best to do what's needed to eliminate stress in your life. Getting back to your healthy ways will make this semester off really count for something great.
Thanks
I'll have to try that out adding the veggies. Would certainly make the meatloaf lower in calories, lol.
Hi Lisa!!
Sorry I haven't dropped in much I've been kinda busy too. I totally get the idea of dropping out for a semester... I kinda wish I could sometimes, but my job is requiring that I finish as soon as I'm able to, so no breaks...
Anyway, I'll stop in when I can, anytime you see me online too...
I really don't know how you do it. Two jobs and school...AND you still get in your exercise and keep track of your food. Amazing is all I can say...whatever your secret is you should market it...write a book or something and make some money
Heya Lisa. Just caught up on your exploits over the last.. well since before christmas LOL.
I guess we all need a break from things or we tend to snap. I think you've done the right thing with the taking a semester off. I tend to push myself hard and then fall to pieces when things don't go according to the plan. I needed the break, and I think it will recharge your soul to have some time.
Anyhow, must make this brief as I have about a million posts from the others in my posse to catch up on too. Promise to visit you more often Lisa
Exploits, lol. Makes it sound so exciting
Well I haven't been doing too well as you can see but I think I AM learning. Time to get this show on the road now though. SO glad you're back by the way! And thanks for taking time to read my journal, makes me feel special
douknowjello
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Today I got off work and somehow found some motivation to make another shopping trip. I was only going to run into walmart to pick up what I'd forgotten and ended up spending $200 on groceries :X. On the upside I got 44lbs of chicken breasts at 1.28 a pound And also 6 whole chickens to use on my new rotisserie at 88 cents a pound. I also hit a meat store by my work on the way home and got 10lbs of ground beef at 1.69 a pound. Boring I know but I was excited.
I was vaguely hungry earlier today but didn't eat until my hubby got home and fixed me a sandwich. Then I ate dinner. I spent hours cleaning my kitchen from the mess his friends left over the weekend...I swear there was not one clean glass in the cupboard. Then after I got done repackaging meat and cooking dinner it doesn't even look like I did anything today, lol.
So I'm running out of steam tonight but tomorrow I plan on making the hamburger into meatloaf and meatballs to freeze ahead. I'm also making spaghetti sauce and parsley parmesan chicken to freeze ahead as well and then packaging up the rest of the chicken for other stuff.
I was kinda bummed because I made this awesome dinner but used the package of chicken breasts I bought yesterday instead of opening the chicken I bought today. Then after I noticed my hubby wasn't enjoying his dinner and complained it was dark meat I rechecked and realized I'd somehow bought boneless skinless chicken thighs ;/. Arggg. I like it just fine but he doesn't so I was disappointed I'd gone to all that work only to have him not be able to enjoy it. Oh well I'll make it up to him tomorrow with something good. And with 44lbs of chicken breasts, no chance of me making that mistake again any time soon.
So here's what I've eaten today. I may get a light snack later but probably not because I'm seriously full. Guess I'll just be making up for going over yesterday.
meatloaf sandwich-475
chocolate- 60
bbq chicken-560
corn on cob w/ butter- 220
cantaloupe-120
Total - 1435
And also 6 whole chickens to use on my new rotisserie at 88 cents a pound. I also hit a meat store by my work on the way home and got 10lbs of ground beef at 1.69 a pound. Boring I know but I was excited. I was vaguely hungry earlier today but didn't eat until my hubby got home and fixed me a sandwich. Then I ate dinner. I spent hours cleaning my kitchen from the mess his friends left over the weekend...I swear there was not one clean glass in the cupboard. Then after I got done repackaging meat and cooking dinner it doesn't even look like I did anything today, lol.
So I'm running out of steam tonight but tomorrow I plan on making the hamburger into meatloaf and meatballs to freeze ahead. I'm also making spaghetti sauce and parsley parmesan chicken to freeze ahead as well and then packaging up the rest of the chicken for other stuff.
I was kinda bummed because I made this awesome dinner but used the package of chicken breasts I bought yesterday instead of opening the chicken I bought today. Then after I noticed my hubby wasn't enjoying his dinner and complained it was dark meat I rechecked and realized I'd somehow bought boneless skinless chicken thighs ;/. Arggg. I like it just fine but he doesn't so I was disappointed I'd gone to all that work only to have him not be able to enjoy it. Oh well I'll make it up to him tomorrow with something good
. And with 44lbs of chicken breasts, no chance of me making that mistake again any time soon. So here's what I've eaten today. I may get a light snack later but probably not because I'm seriously full. Guess I'll just be making up for going over yesterday.
meatloaf sandwich-475
chocolate- 60
bbq chicken-560
corn on cob w/ butter- 220
cantaloupe-120
Total - 1435
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douknowjello
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I don't know the name but I'll find out.
douknowjello
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Ok so yesterday I ate about another 200 calories in fruit and that's a high estimate. We were watching a show we taped and while hubby snacked on pudding and junk I ate grapes, a peach and part of an apple. So yesterday I was at about 1600, which definitely balances out the day before.
I must have been retaining water because I've lost 3 more pounds the last 4 days. Happy to see a new lower number regardless I need to switch diet tickers though...this one doesn't show dates and I had to go back through my journal to find it.
I must have been retaining water because I've lost 3 more pounds the last 4 days. Happy to see a new lower number regardless
I need to switch diet tickers though...this one doesn't show dates and I had to go back through my journal to find it.
tinkerbella
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3lbs in 4 days??!! i need to know your secret!!
Thanx for keeping me right in my calculations! I must be geting lazy with the diet paperwork!
Your doing great, keep going ( love the quote on you ticker....i need to develop some good habits!)
Thanx for keeping me right in my calculations! I must be geting lazy with the diet paperwork!
Your doing great, keep going
( love the quote on you ticker....i need to develop some good habits!)