Lisa's Final Countdown, The Good Days, the Bad, & the Ugly

newbride02 said:
i'm wondering w/ those symptoms...have you been tested for diabetes??
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Yep and I'm borderline diabetic/insulin resistant. Thats why I'm not just counting calories and actually cut out sugars and stuff. If I can eat different ly and lose weight it could be reversed and most likely will be.

My 3 month average the first time I went tested before ever being put on metformin .01% from being at the low end of diabetic. Then when my doctor looked at some of my blood sugar levels in the morning when I hadn't eaten for so many hours she said I was testing at diabetic levels. So I'm borderline diabetic and insulin resistant...which goes hand in hand with the polycystic ovarian syndrome I have. I've heard it both ways...that people with p.c.o.s. can become insulin resistant is what my doctor said. Then online I've read alot of articles that also said the insulin resistance cause the p.c.o.s. Either way I have both.

I'm just concerned about being that thirsty because my sugar is under control and has been for a while so I wondered if this still happened occasionally to people who were borderline diabetic of if I needed to worry it was for some other reason...or whether this can just occasionally happen to anyone on a diet.
 
i dont know hun...i'm not in my nursing classes yet, so i can't say one way or another....i really think you might want to just double check w/ your dct. gaining weight and being really thirsty ...don't know, its sending off a red flag to me.
 
Every once in a while, I'll get really, really, really thirsty - just like you described. No apparent trigger; it happens without exercise or salty food or anything. And I don't have any reason (other than paranoia) to think my blood sugar levels are abnormal. It does make me paranoid, though - when I was much heavier and it happened, I'd always worry about diabetes. That kind of thirst was never a long-term issue, though.
 
oh and i answered your question in my diary about where i live...yea, findlay ohio..where abouts do you live??? maybe we're neighbors, lol!!
 
Well...I could post my eating for today...which got off to an ok start but all my big talk and I screwed up today. My husband and I went out to a movie and decided to go out to dinner. We talked about it ahead and he told me he wouldn't be able to stay on a the diet if we did...and we went out to eat anyway and blew off our diet. We COULD have stayed on or diet at this restaurant...we had steak and could have had salads and vegetable with it instead of the potatoes and chili. And I've gone there and ignored the bread baskets before, instead I ate 4 rolls. We could have talked ourselves out of it but neither of us wanted to, obviously.

The negatives of this is not that I did it but the why. I've seen this coming for days...I'm sure anyone reading my journal and any of my posts can see I was talking myself out of it. I really did get over my craving for hashbrowns though.I had fries on my that didn't taste good to me and the old me would have ate them anyway, just because I normally couldn't have them. Instead I said screw that I'm not gonna eat it if it doesn't taste good, so I guess that's something. The rolls were excessive but also at least I brought my steak home and didn't eat myself sick. There was a time I could and would have eaten all that food and then ordered dessert too.

Anyway I don't think it's that bad that I did this. I mean one part of me thinks I should feel bad...but then another part of me doesn't. Giving in I guess is one way to get rid of a compulsion and I hate fighting the urge to cheat and not having it go away. Last time we did this back in May I felt satisfied for a good three weeks. Problem is I don't plan on cheating every three weeks, lol.

I can definitely see, and did see the things triggering this though. Stress for one and being very busy...this always has knocked me off track before. Second while doing this we've been super busy and trying to pack to move with everything in boxes I haven't been cooking the way I was with half my stuff packed up and there just isn't time to do the well planned out meals I was doing. I'm still cooking but it's more on the go and throwing stuff together and it hasn't been very satisfying.

I won't lie though....it was so nice to sit across from my husband and enjoy a night out and talk and eat without worrying about what I was putting in my mouth. Honestly if I wasn't dealing with insulin resistance I would just go on a balanced diet and watch my calories...then cheating wouldn't be so black and white. But I know for me when I eat certain things I feel like crap...which we'll see how I feel tomorrow, lol.

So...I'm still here. I screwed up and blew off my diet and it was pretty deliberate. I can't say I won't do it again either but hopefully it won't be for a while and come tomorrow I'm back on my diet. Right now I'm happy and full and on a carb high, lol.
 
Those days happen. A lot of the people on here like to look at it as a lifestyle change rather than a diet... so you have your rules that you stick to, but you aren't blowing yourself out of the water if you have a meal or two that aren't what you feel are the best for you. I know you're trying to do a low carb thing, and that's totally great, but at the same time it's just like any other plan that goes slightly off tracks. It'll only stay off until you decide to get it back on. Make tomorrow a better day than today!
 
RadiantPebble said:
Those days happen. A lot of the people on here like to look at it as a lifestyle change rather than a diet... so you have your rules that you stick to, but you aren't blowing yourself out of the water if you have a meal or two that aren't what you feel are the best for you. I know you're trying to do a low carb thing, and that's totally great, but at the same time it's just like any other plan that goes slightly off tracks. It'll only stay off until you decide to get it back on. Make tomorrow a better day than today!
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Thanks Radiant...that's the way I was looking at it too. Of course before I joined this forum I'd probably be beating myself up alot more but thats why I said part of the old me felt like I should feel bad but I really don't. I think that's because I don't feel out of control like this is going to keep happening every week or go on for days. It was an isolated deliberate dinner out and I know tomorrow I'll be back to eating at home and watching the bad carbs. If this was going on for days though then I definitely would be beating myself up but I think one meal off once in a while is fine, as long as I don't eat until I'm sick.

I do think I need to still work on changing the way I think though...looking at this as a big deal of "cheating" and then worrying when I DIDN'T feel guilty. I even hesitated before posting I ate out even though I know nobody is going to beat me over the head. Guess thats an old habit to secretly cheat and then hide it, lol. It definitely feels good to say "hey I cheated and so what, I'm still in control". Thanks for the support and positive reinforcement :)
 
Yay. I think it sounds like you did really good, but not eating those fries. You definitely have the right attitude, recognize what you could have done differently, but acknowledge what you did right, then get back on and have a great rest of the day and week.
I'ts so hard to change your habits and constantly resist eating yummy rolls and things. Anyway, have a great day tomorrow
 
newbride02 said:
i dont know hun...i'm not in my nursing classes yet, so i can't say one way or another....i really think you might want to just double check w/ your dct. gaining weight and being really thirsty ...don't know, its sending off a red flag to me.
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Yea I'm not too worried about the weight gain...probably water retention and with me weighing over 300 I can fluctuate quite a bit sometimes. But you're right I should double check with my doctor and I will when I see her. I don't have an appointment for a while so I"ll just wait until then unless it happens again. Ally has the same thing as me and said she has had it happen too so that makes me feel better. I'm just paranoid sometimes, but definitely if it happens again I'll call my doctor about it before the appointment.

And I live near Canton Ohio in a smaller outlying town...so northeastern Ohio :)
 
purpleshirt said:
Yay. I think it sounds like you did really good, but not eating those fries. You definitely have the right attitude, recognize what you could have done differently, but acknowledge what you did right, then get back on and have a great rest of the day and week.
I'ts so hard to change your habits and constantly resist eating yummy rolls and things. Anyway, have a great day tomorrow
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Thanks purpleshirt :) Yea I could have done worse...although eating 4 rolls was excessive...but they were sooo good, lol.
 
Who knew writing in my journal would be so addicting? Or posting in this forum, lol. Oh well I'm not tired enough to sleep but too tired to do anything else. I am mad at myself for not getting anything done today though. I tend to do that when I feel alot of pressure and then pull it out of the fire at the last minute. We're moving in less than 7 days and mostly packed but so much is left to do that I'm super stressed. Well hopefully a good nights sleep and I'll get a chunk done tomorrow.

Well since I'm up I thought I'd plan some reasonable weight loss goals. I know I probably should set my goal for 2 lbs but I just look at that and think it's not enough. I'd like to lose 3 but I'm afraid if I do set that goal and it doesn't average out I'll be upset so I've decided to meet in the middle at 2.5 a week for my goal. Weighing as much as I do I think this is more than reasonable.

So my first long term goal (about 6 months) is to lose 65 lbs by Christmas. That would put me around 265.

My second goal then is to lose 40 more pounds and be down to 225 by my birthday, May 10th.

I can't lie...I hope I lose more than that but I do have a hard time seeing myself below 200lbs.

I called some around to some gyms today and the YMCA to check some stuff and the cost. I was just trying to find somewhere to either swim or bike for a few months until my weight is down more. Bad news is they all wanted around $100 bucks to join and around 40 a month and everywhere but YMCA wanted a 1 year contract. No thanks.

I did find one plan where I could just pay a flat rate of $120 and go for three months and they have a pool but that'd be just for me only. So after calling the Comfort Inn on a tip from a friend, I finally got a plan :) The Comfort Inn in our town has an adult swim program...18 and up only, I LOVE that :D. It's 3 bucks a person or $20 for a month pass and you can swim from 8am-10pm most days of the week, just not on Saturdays. So I'm going to do that and get my husband to go and then instead of shelling out $120 to the gym I'm going to get a stationary bike at Walmart. They have alot of expensive ones but I saw a few for around a hundred bucks. I might find one cheaper before then used...that'd be even better.

So once I'm moved next week my goal is to either bike or swim 5 days a week and do one of my ab workout tapes 3x a week. I know I can build up from there as I get in better shape but I think if I can even just stuck to that, watch what I eat do the majority of my cooking at home I'll feel pretty successful. And if I don't eat at home I'm still swearing off fast food. I haven't missed it at all except for DQ blizzards...and I can make those at home.
 
douknowjello said:
Oh and here's one now...did you find that Fry Light at a local store or online? Because I'm definitely going to have to get some.
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I get fry light at my local large supermarket among the oils. I am pretty sure that these one cal sprays are available over there - probably with a different brand name. I am sure that I have seen people mention butter spray when listing their food in their diaries or for challenges.
 
congrats on finding cheap alternative to a gym, this swimming thing that you can dow ith your husband is awesome hopefully he will help motivate you. Just remember not to do too much too fast or you'll risk injuring yourself as well as burnout.

your goals look reasonable and i certainly hope you can achieve them.
 
OMG, fresh rolls are my absolute weakness. But guilt is a wasted emotion. I would think you will cheat again and that's OK, but the way you minimized the cheat meal by cutting the desert and bringing a part of your meal home is a great step forward! Good job in my book..
 
The bike and pool sound like great ideas! Jello, I can totally see you below 200, but for right now you're better to set those short goals first.
 
Hi lisa :):)

Thanx for pooping by my diary - thought i would check out yours!

My god you are doing well! It's fantastic that you found yourself alternatives to the gym :) You seem really focussed so keep up the great work!

I would agree tho that you need to set small easily achievable targets - like every 5 or 10lbs....just so that you are rewarding yourself and recognising your achievemnets!! Any excuse for a party :hurray: lol

Have a great day

Allie xx
 
Just wanted to say hi. I want to start swimming too, but I'm not really sure what to do. Let me know what you do, and if its working. Good idea to get the bike, too. I'd love to get some of my own equipment, but I'm not in a permanent house right now, plus I don't really have that much space.
 
WOW. You are REALLY motivating. You have everything planned out girl! I've always wanted a gym membership, but its not in the near future right now. I have to worry about paying for my last year of college, catching up on my bills for car insurance and credit card, saving for an apartment...HELL...PAYING FOR GAS! lol. But I want the same things in a gym. Pool, bike, and maybe a treadmill. Those goals sound good for you! But don't be too discouraged if you don't lose the weight by a certain goal time. I've done that before, and it never turns out well. I will beat myself up about something that is only a number. Hope you get everything done for the move next week!
 
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