Lisa's Final Countdown, The Good Days, the Bad, & the Ugly

I have a cat that sleeps with me at night, and he will make it quite clear to me when he's ready to leave my room. He licks my hands and feet, and makes sure that he is sitting right next to my head no matter how many times I move. I'm not even sure why I bring him in at night? lol I guess I enjoy the extra company.
 
Yea it's so great when they are cuddly and stay in one spot. We actually don't have a choice though because if we lock them out they cry pitifully at the door, lol.
 
Oh and if Maleficent sees this THANK YOU for changing my journal title for me :D Gonna have to start calling her Magnificent Maleficent :D
 
douknowjello said:
Thanks Paula, it's disappointing but hopefully when you guys get back from Vegas and start new challenges I can get on board for something then. I've been looking for a challenge to plug into but alot of them aren't very active or they had a deadline to start date that I missed the boat on because I just joined the forum. Starting to feel like the kid who gets picked last for kickball, lol. But anyway I'm sure if I just keep posting to my journal and wait the right club challenge will come along :D I know somebody will want me on a team cuz I'm about to kick some major ass in the weight loss dept when I add in cardio to my already awesome healthy eating plan :D I'm 20lbs down and can't wait to see 299 again!!
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July is a few days a way - and there will be a new monthly challenge starting then...
 
Hey there,

Just thought I would stop in and say hello. It looks like your off to a great start, and you seem really motivated, which is good :) My friend just got GB a couple months ago and now she has hit 299, which was a milestone for her, it had been awhile since she had seen it.

I did low-carb a few years ago, like some other posters on here. I lost a good amount of weight but eventually hit a wall. I think it will probably be great to help you get the bulk of your extra weight off but there might be a time where you have to re-introduce some healthy carbs back into your diet, I might be wrong, that is just basically what happened to me... I do kind of watch my carbs some now... I only eat pasta maybe 5 or 6 times a year without really realizing or missing it...

I think riding on a rollercoaster is a great goal to set. I actually just became "open" to them a few years ago. I was always such a wuss, and once I did one I loved them. Some scare the hell outta ya but they are so fun! I don't really have a weak stomach as far as rides go either, so I guess I'm lucky. I can't wait to see you reach your goals :)

-Sam
 
Thanks so much for your encouragement. I definitely know what you mean about hitting the wall low-carb. I'm definitely trying to do it the healthiest I can now. I really haven't felt too deprived and I've just learned to cook differently and try alot of recipes at home instead of eating out. I make bread at home and basically my biggest changes are no pototoes, no sugar, and I haven't had pasta until the last few days when we tried dreamfields. I don't really miss pasta that much but I miss hashbrowns, lol. Found a recipe to make them out of zuchini I may try but I know it won't be the same.

But if I find I do hit a wall again I know I have support here from other people who have and are doing the same thing :).
 
I posted this earlier in a thread about whats your motivation to lose weight and why. While I was writing it I honestly almost started to cry. This forum has made me do so much thinking about not only what I'm doing now but what I've done in the past and why.

I know I'm not the same person who was on self destruct and constantly sabotaged herself in the past. I don't hate myself now and I definitely know that I deserve to be happy and healthy. But while the reasons I got this way to begin with are no longer there....the damage remains to be undone and that's an undertaking.

So I'm reposting this here in my journal as a reminder to myself for the days when I'm struggling...thats when I'll come back and make myself look at this before I let myself give up.

I could post so many reasons here why I want to lose weight.

I could say it's because I'd like to actually find some clothing besides T-shirts and stretchy pants that didn't look like it was made from drapes or a circus tent. But then seeing as how I've been this size this long I don't think thats my motivation, although I will be SO happy when I'm into jeans again. I have a full closet of size 18's and 20's brand new to get into.

But honestly my motivations are these:

I want to be able to get up in the morning and finish my day and have the energy to do it all. Heck, I'd like to just get out of bed not hurting from head to toe.

I'd like to be able to go to a restaurant and not have to worry if I'm going to fit in the booth or not, or going anywhere and not worrying about fitting into a seat for that matter.

I'd like to be able to climb the stairs at my apartment with my arms full and not feel like I'm dying at the top.

I used to go on hiking trips even though I was heavy. Now I worry whether I can make it to the back of the bigger grocery stores without collapsing in pain.

After having a car accident 8 years ago that put me in a wheelchair for a year and knowing I was never supposed to walk again, I'd like to lose enough wait so I can stop being afraid I'm going to end up back in that wheelchair.

And even if none of these reasons were enough, I'd like to get my weight down so my husband and I can have children and I can be a mom before time runs out.

It's no longer just about how I appearance anymore. I walk around every day carrying the weight of two other people on my 5'1 tall body.

I'd like to live my life without worrying, without fear, without pain, without limitations caused by the weight.

I've already missed out on so much, vacations, having a real wedding....I'm determined that I am not going to miss out on one more day of my life.

And honestly if I hit a wall and what I'm doing isn't working I'll change it. If I have a day I screw up and lapse, well it's over and I'll start fresh but I WILL NOT any longer allow one day to turn into a week and then months of "I'll start again tomorrow" that never comes. Looking back I see all the little things I let get in my way and this time it's not going to happen. I'm here for my final weightloss countdown!
 
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douknowjello said:
Oh and if Maleficent sees this THANK YOU for changing my journal title for me :D Gonna have to start calling her Magnificent Maleficent :D
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I didn't even know we COULD change the titles! That's awesome! Mal really is magnificent!

A cruise would be a fun challenge! But, you are correct, probably expensive for a lot of people... I've been on one cruise and it was the most relaxing vacation I've ever been on... good stuff. :)

Six Flags would be alot of fun and if you've never been on a roller coaster, that would be a FANTASTIC accomplishment! YOU GO GIRL!!

As for the house, I hear ya... homes cost money lol but they are worth it. My husband and I are actually looking at down-sizing. Our main home is 6000 square feet and it's just us and two kids! I feel like it's not worth the money we spend cuz we only use about 4000 of it lol... anyway good luck on your home! That's really exciting! :D

Reading your motivations is very inspiring! If you ever get down, go back and read them!
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I'd like to live my life without worrying, without fear, without pain, without limitations caused by the weight... I'm determined that I am not going to miss out on one more day of my life.
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Having more energy on a daily basis, going to restaurants without fear, climbing stairs without running out of breath, hiking trips, roller coasters and CHILDREN... and you're walking after doctors said you wouldn't!? Girl, you better get that butt in shape and enjoy EVERY SINGLE STEP YOU TAKE! There are people who can only WISH they could walk. God gave you a miracle hun... don't waste it! You are off to an awesome start! Keep it up! :hurray:
 
It looks like you're making great progress! Those words you typed a couple of posts up really hit home with me also. I know you can do it. As for the soda, after you stop drinking it, the desire to taste it goes away. I did it cold turkey two years ago and haven't looked back since. It may not have helped me completely loose weight but it sure help me from gaining any more than I needed. Take care!

V
 
OH thanks for the heads up! I hadn't checked yet but I'll go look now. I'm so weird...I figured out how to organize my threads in seperate folders and got sidetracked doing that and was all happy, lol. But hey, I guess being easily amused isn't necessarily a bad thing.

And bmohearn, thanks for stopping by and leaving me the encouraging words. Believe me it never gets old :) I'm very motivated right now but sooner or later I'm gonna have one of my whiney days like everyone else full of excuses, even though right now I'm not seeing it. I'm sure somebody will come along and give me a good bitch slap and I'll be fine, lmao
 
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douknowjello said:
...sooner or later I'm gonna have one of my whiney days like everyone else full of excuses, even though right now I'm not seeing it. I'm sure somebody will come along and give me a good bitch slap and I'll be fine, lmao
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:smilielol5:Ha Lord knows we've all had our share of those on here! LOL
 
Hey Paula :waves: I really appreciate you and everyone else who comes by to check on me :)

So today I got up and all I've eaten so far is two slices of low carb bread with 50fifty jelly. I'm still looking for a really good bread recipe without the sugar and flour but this was the best so far. Anyway since then I haven't been hungry and had no desire to eat until now and it's 6pm. I have to work tonight so I probably won't have time to come back and post the rest of my meals but I'm about to go have a snack until hubby gets home and then probably just do steak and veggies.

I had a "first" today in a very long time. If I hadn't joined these forums I doubt I would have started this today but I got on my treadmill. I haven't done cardio in several years and I could tell but it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. However I'm going to have to work up like I thought. I managed to do 15 minutes fairly ok and then had to really push for the next 5. Listening to "Enigma" on my Ipod helped...you can't help but move with a little "T.N.T for the brain", lol. Unfortunately my leg started to hurt after the 15 minutes and at 20 let me know I was done.

I didn't want to hurt myself before I even get started since I'm not cleared to be doing this yet but I figure I can do two things; either just start with 15 min a day and work up to 30 or I can see if I'm able to do 15 minutes in the morning and then another 15 later in the day. We'll see how it goes, I'm just glad I started.

Sticking to my healthy eating isn't that much of a problem...yet..we'll see when I start up classes again in the fall at college and I'm disorganized with not as much time. I'm already thinking of ways to prevent that including freezer cooking as soon as we get moved and planning on taking stuff to work to cook there before I go to classes so I'm not starving and tempted to eat fast good. Anyway as I was saying...the diet isn't the hard part right now. Starting and sticking to an exercise program is going to be my weak area at first. I know in the past that once I got through the first 6 weeks I was golden but that was 7 yrs ago and I was so much younger, lol.
 
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Friday food log

ok here's what I actually ended up eating today:

Breakfast: 2 slices low carb bread (3.5 carbs per) w/ Fifty50 jelly (3 carbs)

Lunch: wasn't hungry

Snack: 3 pieces salami, 2 pieces of bolagna and about 6 or 7 pieces of pepperoni, and 2 slices chedder cheese (all packages said <1 or 0 carbs so guessing 3 carbs would cover it)

Dinner: grilled steak and salad with lettuce, tomoto, cucumber, sesame seeds, cheese and Waldens Honey Dijon Dressing (GREAT STUFF) (<3 carbs)

Total carbs: under 16


Hmm..not sure if thats a good thing but I really just wasn't hungry today

Oh and bonus points for me: 20 minutes treadmill/cardio
 
When you say "Enigma" is that the song by Trapt or a band? Funny thing for me I don't listen to music when I exercise at the park or at home, it breaks my concentration I guess. haha

I'm not sure about the nutrition, i'm still learning about that. But it looks much better than having fast food though. :cool:

I'm happy that you started on the treadmill, 20 minutes is a good starting point (or 15 also). When you build up to the 30 minutes, there's nothing wrong with doing 15 early and 15 in the evening. I think you'll still burn the same number of calories, assuming the intensity is equal. Always listen to your body though, if you feel like you're overdoing it, just slow it down a little. Good luck!

V
 
Thanks V, and I meant the band Enigma. Music with a beat is the only way I can get through cardio. My husband asked why I don't watch t.v. and I said cuz he'd walk in and find me standing there not moving eyes glued to the screen, lol.

And yea I've heard that it's fine to break up workouts...I don't see a problem with it either other than wondering if I should push that hard the first week working out in years and risk setting myself back if I over do it.

It's frustrating because I don't want to make excuses but the sad fact is I do have a disability thats aggravated by carrying this much weight. I have a plate in my hip, a rod that goes from my hip to my knee and half a knee cap and they left all this hardware in after. Used to be overdoing it just meant I was sore the next day...now I'm not sure what the limits are because I've never tried cardio at this weight with my "not-so-bionic" leg, lol.

Like I said in a previous post, we're closing on our first home next week and once we get moved I'm going to have to find some alternatives for cardio...whether I join the Y to swim or find a bike.
 
The bike and the swim will definitely be good, since they have a lower impact than walking, so those will be better starting points than walking. It completely slipped my mind. lol

And i'm sure it is harder to figure out what your limits are but you're losing weight right now because of eating healthier right? That's how I started last month and I could only milk it for that month, try to milk that as long as you can and then gradually start like with a swim one day and the stationary bike the next. As long as you're dropping pounds, you don't really need to rush into it. But i'm sure in no time, you'll get into a good groove! :cool:

V
 
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