Lisa's Final Countdown, The Good Days, the Bad, & the Ugly

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THANKS BABE....it HIDES the HUGE arms....LMAO....PICS are DECIEVING!! ;)
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We all have stuff about us that we ourselves may not like but the pic isn't deceiving anyone about the fact you're beautiful. And I may not know you very well but from this forum it seems to me that goes for on the inside too. So no beatin yourself up!! lol
 
douknowjello said:
We all have stuff about us that we ourselves may not like but the pic isn't deceiving anyone about the fact you're beautiful. And I may not know you very well but from this forum it seems to me that goes for on the inside too. So no beatin yourself up!! lol
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AWWWWWW......:grouphug: AREN'T you a SWEEEETIE!!! :)

YOU too....very SWEET, MOTIVATED, and sound VERY DETERMINED!!!

I really APPRECIATE the comments...and I TOO have seen YOUR pics and HAVE been MEANING to tell you THAT YOU have VERY beautiful FEATURES yourself!!!!

YOU are ON YOUR way ALREADY woman, and NO ONE can STOP you NOW!! :iagree:
 
So I've found myself thinking today about something new....something I don't think I really have allowed myself to think about in the past...what's it like after losing ALOT of weight? I was half tempted to post and ask some people. After seeing so many success stories I think it's actually sinking in that I fully intend to lose a substancial amount of weight....more even than the one time I lost 80lbs and was still very heavy. I'm actually wondering what it's going to feel like when I get under 200lbs...will things be different...I think they'd have to be. Although I've read a bunch of stuff lately that says don't have high expectations and think everything is going to be better. But honestly how can it not be better? While I don't think being thin is going to fix everything....I'm finally realizing being fat has been pretty horrible for me and robbed me of alot. I can thank the forum for that...for causing me to really think about stuff. It's a good thing for sure.

I've already posted a start for my before & after thread and I said I didn't have any pics of me at my highest. Well I realized today while I was packing that isn't true. Painful as it may be...I do have pics and they are of my wedding. The wedding I had at the court house because I didn't want to make a big deal and be a fat bride stuffed like a sausage in white satin. There's some awesome dresses out there but there's not alot they can do for somebody short like me, over 300 lbs and who gains it so much in my stomach. I seriously regret not having a wedding but it was going to be painful either way at this weight. I haven't posted the pics yet but I will when I also can post some improvement pics too, probably in about a month. I know I've lost weight but I want to see a drastic change. Honestly though I really think if I get down to my goal weight I'm going to do a vow renewel ceremony and find my perfect dress...even if we just go to a park and don't spend money on anything else. Every woman should get to wear a wedding dress and have their day...instead of like me wearing a brown tshirt and peasant skirt from walmart that I already had ;/.

Meh...I'm such a whiner, lol. It feels really good to get some of this off my chest sometimes but then I reread what I've wrote and expect violin music to pop up any moment. Too funny.

Anyway I'm starving...wasn't hungry all day after breakfast until now. I'm going to reheat a rotisserie chicken we picked up and add some veggies on the side before I have to go to work. I have the next two days off after this to get some more packing done...almost there and so close to getting in our first home...yay :D I'm so excited.
 
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Ok so end result today:

Breakfast: 2 lc biscuits,
Sausage gravy
ham slice and scrambled eggs -----total 8 carbs

Lunch: none

Dinner: rotisserie chicken
steamed cauliflower and broccoli w/ butter -----total 4 carbs

Dessert: breyers low carb ice-cream ---- 12carbs

Total for the day: 24 carbs
 
oh yes! you really should have that second wedding!! how special would that be!?!

thanks for the support in my diary btw!! i didn't know you had a before and after thread started, i'll have to check it out :D
 
Hey,
I think the thoughts you are having are healthy and normal, and actually really good. I think its important to think consciously about how things will be different when you lose weight. It makes it seem more real. Which makes it seem more attainable. I only have 10 pounds left to go, but I struggle with picturing what it will be like when I get there, and what I will do then. It's almost like I never want to get there, because being on the journey is something I know how to do. So start picturing the end now. I think it can only help. And yes, every girl deserves a wedding in the dress of her choice. I'm not even engaged yet, but I still look forward to that day. I like the idea of renewing your vows. Keep up the good work. You can do it!
 
I'm so proud of you, good job with the cravings. Keep it up so you can get your perfect dress and vow renewal ceremony. You're doing great!

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I love you guys! I started to say you all have no idea how much your support means to me but then I realized you probably exactly do, lol. I never thought I could meet so many great people in one place and especially not in a forum.

Oh and my new avatar...I like this pic of me but it's me about 25 pounds lighter in it than I am now so I guess I'm cheating. But I figure I'll be there soon enough :p
 
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So I got off work a bit late this morning and a friend wanted me to go to breakfast with her and one of the girls we take care of. So even though I knew hubby would still be in bed I gave him a courtesy call....went something like this:

"Hey honey...just goin to breakfast with a friend so don't worry if you wake up and I'm not home yet...OH AND I'M NOT CHEATIN, love ya *pause*

OH I mean I'm not cheating on our diets....DAMN I mean I'm not cheatin on you either....crap...ok love ya bye

Apparently he had a good chuckle, then rolled over and went back to sleep. When I got home he said that I sounded as bad as his guy friends...digging a hole then burying myself tryin to talk my way out of it, lol. Oh and I really didn't cheat...amazingly after all those hashbrown & gravy cravings I stared hashbrowns in the face on their plates today and wasn't tempted. That made me happy :)

So anyway here's what I ate today:

Breakfast: eggs w/cheese, bacon, sausage, and a side salad w/ ranch before my breakfast came (I'm weird, it sounded good)

Lunch: chicken salad (chicken, mayo and some pickle), about a 10 pieces of pepperoni

For once I have absolutely NO idea what to fix for dinner so if anyone has any ideas :D

Today has been a great day btw, really enjoyed time with my friend. We ran some last minute papers in today for our house and looks like we'll be closing and getting the keys either Monday or Tuesday. I have the next two nights off and we're almost completely packed.

I'm really tired from so little sleep but really not willing to go to bed yet on my night off. I told myself I could have the night off from packing and stuff and to relax though. Hubby is at a friends but when he gets home I think we'll rent this movie that just hit pay-per-view that I've wanted to see. Tomorrow though it'll be finish up as much as I can at our apartment to move! YAY
 
Ok finishing up the day (I was too tired to cook)

Dinner: 2 light oscar meyer hot dogs

Dessert: breyers low carb icecream with Davinci sugar free carmel syrup (was so good)

Oh and I had a chocoperfection bar...two carbs. This is probably the only time I've had 12 chocolate bars sit in my cupboard this long. It's not that they are bad....they actually are decent and don't tear up my stomach and send me running for the bathroom like other s/f chocolate. But they're not quite as sweet and have an extra...waxy taste to them? I'm not sure waxy is the right word but it doesn't really melt in your mouth.

Too be honest I've eaten maybe 4 over the last month and everytime I do I keep thinking they have a familiar taste. Today I finally figured out why....well...see...ok when I was like 12 my mom would always buy the dog weird and fancy snacks. She bought dog chocolates and yea...I tried one, lol. Can't believe I admitted that but I'm sure it's not the worst thing I've eaten. So....the chocoperfection bars remind me of those dog chocolates, lmao. What can I say? The dog chocolates weren't that bad either.
 
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Haha, that is one of the best stories ever about the chocolate and the dogs! Hahaha.

I'm sure you're going to look like such a knock out at your vow renewal ceremony! Whoo!

And if you run out of ideas for dinner again, one thing I really like to do is throw about a tablespoon of margarine in a frying pan, and put onions, carrots, celery, mushrooms (or any other veggies you like) and cook them along with a chicken breast. It's yummy yummy and SO good for ya. Another thing I tried lately was a fish called tilapia or something like that. It sounds like cancer, but it actually tastes pretty good and is low in calories! It's great with a little lemon on top.
 
LOL. The reason chocolate tastes waxy and doesnt melt in your mouth is because its made with shortening and not with natural cocao butter. That's a key difference in all chocolates. Hersheys verses Godiva chocolate for instance. It is what makes the quality of of chocolate higher or lower. ( I'm a culinary arts major in college) I hope they wouldnt give high quality chocolate to the dog. LOL. you have been doing so well. I'm glad you have found this forum so helpful.
 
douknowjello said:
And Omega...thank you SO much for posting that. I read it and was so happy because most of those things are already things I'm doing. I know alot of people in the forums seem a bit against low-carb diets but are nice about it but maybe I'm calling it the wrong thing. I watch my carbs but I'm basically doing everything on that list under doctors advice for the insulin resistance. The only thing I haven't really done is watch which kinds of using strictly...I cook with mostly olive oil but I also use canola sometimes if I don't think the flavor is gonna matter so much because olive oil is so spendy. I cook at home now and not from boxes so even though I haven't looked I don't think I'm doing too bad for avoiding hydrogenated oils...we don't use margarine, only real butter.

I did wonder about those supplements though and I'll have to look it up...have you tried any? Right now I'm just making sure I take a daily vitamin and started taking b-complex as well as iron. Doctor is making me take the iron cuz everytime I stop I'm anemic. I used to be bad about taking stuff regularly but feeling tired and being bruised up all the time made it worth the effort, lol.
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I cannot call my food low carb because when I log my food through fitday it always says that my carbs are between 50% and 70% of my diet. Having said that I think that I eat low carb where it counts. We get a lot of carbs from fruit and veg and I eat tons of those which I think makes my carbs so high. I also eat quite a lot of cereal (which I really like and seem to help me somehow) but I try to go for cereal that is wholewheat and I have plenty milk. I have heard that it is ok to have carbs if I have protein with it.

I think that most people would think my food is low carb however because I have completely cut out pasta and rice. I also have pretty much cut out bread (although I have eaten it on a couple of occasions over the past year).

I use fry light a lot for cooking. It is a spray oil that is just one calorie per squirt and therefore uses little calories. I actually use the olive oil version of fry light.

For fat for doing things like baking fish I use olive spread. Obviously - since I dont eat bread there is no need for butter / margarine for that.

I havent tried those supplements so cannot comment on those. I do take a range of supplements already and feel quite good about the way that side of things is going. They are not specific for PCOS - but the supplements that I take are a multivitamin, omega-3 fishoil, zinc, starflower oil, garlic, high dose vitamin C and I take a calcium supplement if I think that my calcium will not make it to 1000mg for the day.

I found that I had to cut cheese completely out of my diet last spring as I was gaining weight every time that I ate any. I am not sure whether it is because of the sodium content or what - but I cut it out. A month ago I was persuaded to try cottage cheese and quark. Both of these have been ok for me - but they are the only forms of cheese that I have eaten for over a year. I suggest that you monitor how your body reacts to cheese.

Janice (Abbagirl) and I both swear that walking is a brilliant form of exercise for us. We both were apt to feel a little like we were living on an emotional knife edge (something about our hormones I guess). Anyway we both find that walking makes us feel tons more tranquil. And it has really helped our weight loss.

I tried to lose weight loads of times when I was young but could never get anywhere with it. Eventually I gave up and the hard lost pounds piled all back on again. I have finally got my weight down to a "normal" BMI - but I will be 49 years old later this month so it has come too late to sort out my fertility issues. I really wish that I could have managed to do this when I was younger.
 
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Omega said:
I have finally got my weight down to a "normal" BMI - but I will be 49 years old later this month so it has come too late to sort out my fertility issues. I really wish that I could have managed to do this when I was younger.
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Oh wow, my heart goes out to you on that...I know I've already said it but this makes me only appreciate your help even more because you really understand.

And your comment about the emotional edge, I've really struggled with that the last few years...going from feeling like myself to...well lets just say there were some times I got called a bitch and was living up to it in every sense of the word, lol. The uncontrollable crying jags weren't any fun either. The last year I haven't had those extremes but I still have times where I KNOW something is going on in my body and I'm moody. Changing my diet has REALLY really helped...I can't even describe how much. I think I'm doing everything pretty good right now but I'm sure I can fine tune things more so I'll probably be coming back with more questions :)

Oh and here's one now...did you find that Fry Light at a local store or online? Because I'm definitely going to have to get some.
 
gained 3lbs and insanely thirsty

I wasn't able to weigh yesterday but today I got on the scale today and I've gained 3lbs...in a day. I started to have that normal reaction and stopped myself because I know good and well that I did not gain 3 whole real pounds in a day. I flashed back to yesterday and think this is probably water retention from yesterday, then thought back to how thirsty I was yesterday and was a little more concerned.

I always have a bottle or glass of water with me or beside me and I'm sure having some days of being thirstier than others are normal. But yesterday it got pretty extreme and I'm wondering if anyone else with p.c.o.s. and insulin resistance experience this? I have a chair in the kitchen from when I was packing and last night one point I was so thirsty that instead of just refilling my glass I literally sat in front of the fridge with the door open. I filled my glass 4 times, first two with water, then a glass of ice tea, then another of water and just chugged. I know my breakfast had a little extra salt from the bacon and sausage but other than that I'm not sure what was going on there.

Also since I've gained 3lbs and I see the last two nights I had breyers lc ice cream...maybe thats something I'm going to have to put further down the list and have it only when I'm really wanting some ice cream, not just a snack or dessert.

Today so far I'm still thirsty but I haven't had a chug-a-thon in front of the fridge...yet. Anyone elses thoughts are very much welcome :)
 
Hi DKJ, just lurking in your diary here :).

I'm trying to harness some of that "start of the diet" motivation you've got going there. You are doing a spectacular job!!! Dont forget to visit when you're falling off a bit, as often happens after a while..that's when you need us the most but that's when people go AWOL.

Its especially interesting to read my friend Omega's posts. She is the SHIZNIT! LOL Particularly of interest is how you, Omega, focus more on types of foods than on total calories consumed. Many times over the past several months you've cut this or that out as you thought it hampered your weight loss. I honestly think you're onto something. Thanks to you and Ms. DKJ, I cut my carbs today HAHA. I've put on 5 pounds in the past 5 weeks, and I haven't been eating THAT out of control. Anyway, I had switched back to my old time favorite breakfast (from back when I was slimmer for most of my life) of a fresh bakery roll w/ butter. I used to have that or a bagel w/ butter every morning with no undesirable results. Over the course of dieting you've reminded me that I've been far more successful when eating more protein and less carbs -- and I agree, fruits and veggies are ALL GOOD, I'm talking about simple carbs (even whole grains), which seem to have a bad effect on my weight loss. I used to eat a high protein/low carb breakfast and wonder if this roll is not working for me.

As to the thirst, definitely keep an eye on that as it is often a symptom of illness. HOWEVER, remember that food has lots and lots of water so if you've significantly cut your calories, you're getting a lot less water than usual. Add to that that high protein and salt saps a lot of water and the diet itself could be the cause of the thirst.
 
Hey Blancita :) Glad you came out of lurking to post in my journal, lol. Although I don't mind writing to myself I like being able to share my thoughts and get feedback here. It keeps me constitant about posting where as I would have already lost a paper journal or ignored it, lol.

And yea I'm not necessarily recommending low carb for everyone cuz we're all different but I'm sure everyone has certain foods that don't work for them. I'm just cutting out alot of different foods because I was borderline diabetic and insulin resistant so I can definitely feel it when my body is pissed off about something I put in my stomach.

Since you mentioned illness I know alot of diabetics get very thirsty...but really hoping thats not why its coming into play. My sugar has been fine for so long since I've been on the metformin and changed my diet that I hardly test but maybe I should. Of course I also realized today that I've been missing my second dose of it alot lately ...not good.
 
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