Hi, Lisa & welcome to the forum. Firstly, you have no reason whatsoever to feel embarrassed or disgusting. You will find that you have much more in common with most of us in here than you may think. We don't have all the answers, but what we do have is a strong & supportive group of people, & this is a place where you should feel comfortable. We have all been there. We all have our own battles with self-esteem, comfort eating, loss of motivation......you name it! There is also a lot of expertise. As Tru said, share a little more about what you eat, any medical conditions etc & we will try to help you. You are valued by us. We have a lot of respect for one another & you are very welcome here.