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i'm trying tx...but since it wasn't in my plan i feel guilty hehe, well i'll sweat it off soon hehe

hey seny :) there are people like that everywhere, but i never paid much attention to them. i never had problems with finding friends...i can talk all night hehe and i never really had complexess about how i look. off course i never liked my body, but i always liked me. i remember a guy once told me, when i was 17..."Lena, when someone sees you and looks at your body he won't say omg sexy, but after talking to you for 5 minutes everyone just wants to marry you" hahaha. it was a great compliment. i just was confident enough to show everyone i was worth being friend to :) i still have wonderful friends, and two of my best friends can definitely try as supermodels, all skinny and tall and sexy and stylish lol.

so seny just ignore those, you'll find support in us and show all those mean girls that you are a great person. its their loss if they don't see it ! have a great day, and thanx for stopping by :)
 
heyyy :)
no worries about the pizza - it wasnt a lapse on your part and you will burn them off no probs anyhow
hope you have had a great day
 
Lena your very nice :)

The funny thing is people that get to know me say im the sweetest most caring sensitive guy im like a dream, but im fat and eww..

If people these days would only stop and try and get to know people with weight issues and such they would find that WE have the best personalitys in the world.

Personaly i was picked on and bullied throughought highschool for my weight so i feel lucky when a girl even talks to me =\ but honestly ive been told that im good looking by alot of people. just incredibly overweight :p
 
well guess waht?? you'll lose that weight!!! hehe.
don't worry you'll get a girl eventually, fat or not. i had some great relationships even if i was fat. i guess i'm just too charming hahaha. i just found out one of my exes is still hung up on me...and we broke up 10 years ago. i think he might need some pro help lol.
the truth is, people are judgemental when it comes to appearance, especially when they see you for the first time. just keep in mind that its their loss. and don't say you're lucky if a girl talks to you...she's lucky you want to talk to her :D noone is better than you just because they're skinny :)
 
hehehehe dobar dan i tebi 12pack :)
its so strange to see croatian on this forum hehehe. so you're from my part of the world living in canada?
 
lena410 said:
the truth is, people are judgemental when it comes to appearance, especially when they see you for the first time. just keep in mind that its their loss. and don't say you're lucky if a girl talks to you...she's lucky you want to talk to her :D noone is better than you just because they're skinny :)
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All well said...have a good day chicky!!! I hear ya abt the exercise challenege, tha tis why I like it, it motivates me to do my 30 mins a day and pushes me to keep me on track!!!
 
Both my parents were Croatian, but I was born in Canada. The majority of my family is still there. English was actually my second language (couldn't speak much english when I started school) but now I'm pretty rusty at Croatian.
 
well if you want to practice no problem

@cinderelly
since our challenge is over in a week, maybe we should continue immediately with new one :D

i have some bad and good news. but first bad... i'm sick again. grrrrrrr i'm so angry because i just got rid of one cold and now new one came. someone would think that woth all the vitamins i get from fruits and veggies my imune system would be better too. SCREW YOU COLD...GET THE HELL OUT!!!!

and now the good... i got new contract at work... and they want me permanently :D. so happy for that. in croatia this is really rare. the secodn news is that i aced my TOEFL (Test of English as Foreign Language) and got invited by Central European University in Budapest for an interview regarding my acceptance for my masters degree :) i say these three outdo the bad one so i'm really happy.

i messed up only one thing. i celebrated these good news on friday with my best friend Tina and we had a bit too mutch to drink . had vodka-juice times god knows how many i had, i think about 7 and one pina colada (it juts kept coming, either from people working there at the club, or some old friends we haven't seen in awhile lol). i came home at 4 am so no wonder for the cold i guess.

anyway, let me write what i had or will have today

breakfast: three thin slices of wholewheat bread with tuna pate (about 450 cals)
lunch: chicken soup (homemade), leek, peas and carrots stirfried and two turkey breasts filets
snack: soya pudding (chocolate flavoured)
dinner: probabily some kind of salad

and lots of fluids :) (mostly water...don't worry, no more vodka for me - I'LL BE GOOD lol)

Lena
 
Hi Lena :) Just stopped by and read your diary. You are doing great so far, 8lbs! I also started getting manicures as rewards, it felt good to do something for myself other then buy clothes or go out to eat! I still do it and have added a few more things ! I love your list on your first post of your diary, your are definietly heading in the right direction. I'll keep checking back to see how your doing! And don't worry about your night out with drinks and friends :) You deserved it! I still have a few things here and there that aren't part of my plan. If I don't have some of those cravings every once awhile I am less likely to binge and eat a whole box of chocolate! hehe just don't beat yourself up :)

Hope you had a great weekend! :D
 
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Wow, congratulations on the job contract, test results and interview--I'd definitely say all those outweigh a cold!
 
Im workin on a new challenege ther eis a suggetion thread somewhere...and Hey I am here for tea, what kind do you have ??? LOL
 
bethy thank you :) glad to see you doing better.

cinderelly you can have any kind, i have them all (you can even have hot chocolate...i'm having all the forbidden stuff here and they're all calorie free, can you imagine that??? lol)


sophie, don't worry i'm definitely working my butt off tonight, i have this big urge to jump the entire class hehehe. i think that's a good thing :)

had a good day today, apart from having this cold, but again it won't stop me going to the aerobics tonight. i'm a bit nervous about tomorrow's interview. i hate it when i don't know what they might be asking hehe. don't know what i'll have for dinner, but i think i'll have plain green salad with one tea spoon olive oil and some vinegar. sometimes the simple is the best :)
 
i will think about you working really hard at aerobics and it will make me run harder :] we are all in this thing together
oodles of luck for the interview
 
Sophie335 said:
i will think about you working really hard at aerobics and it will make me run harder :] we are all in this thing together
oodles of luck for the interview
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thank you sooooooo muyh sophie :) i'll think about you too. gotta keep each other motivated :) and thanx for good wishes for that interview


txturtlegirl said:
Wow, Lena! Those things (test, interview, contract) are FANTASTIC!! I hope it all works out the way you want!
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hey tx thank you so much :) its so good to see you...how are those scrubs... are you swimming in them yet :D
 
lena410 said:
hey tx thank you so much :) its so good to see you...how are those scrubs... are you swimming in them yet :D
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LOL No, not yet. Haven't looked at the scale yet after the last few crappy days. I'm afraid to even go there. :( So, I'm just gonna ignore the scale for the next few days and concentrate on the exercise and water and all.:)
 
i feel crappy too, this cold seems to be transforming into flu. i can't even think straight. i did my workout yestreday normally but i'm sneezing and have temperature all day. on top of it, when i got home from work my mom made pizza and i just didn't have the strength to argue. then i got my phone call from budapest..it wnet rather well, except for the part when the man asked me about the books i've read, and i started telling him which authors i read and he stopped at one and asked which book...AND I COULDN'T REMEMBER THE TITLE!!!!! so i'm not really too sattisfied how that went, but i guess if its not meant to be it's not meant to be.

the biggest truth is i'm nervous and angry at my father. he has drinking problem since i was little and this is something he'll never admit. anyway he was good for the past few months and now he started again. and he and his drinking is one of the reasons why i started eating as a child. the other was that i was sexually abused by a distant relative (without penetration, i remember him showing me his privates...i was 8 he was then 27). this is now a big problem for me. i don't know why but when my dad starts drinking i feel extremely vulnerable,annoyed, agitated, hurt, frustrated...i feel like kicking him because words are useless...i've tried many times. so i guess i need to vent here...

i aplogize in advance for the following, don't get to worried this is really just venting.

EVERYONE PLUG YOUR EARS

I HATE THAT DAMN BOTTLE YOU HAVE INFRONT OF YOU, YOUR GLASSY EYES YOUR MUMBLING AND TALKING STUPID THINGS. WHY DO YOUALWAYS HAVE TO DO THIS. HURT ME AND MOM???????? WHY DAMN YOU! WHENEVER YOU'RE LIKE THIS I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING IN YOUR EAR HOW STUPID CAN YOU BE? BITTER? ANGRY? YOU THINK??????????? SOMETIMES I HATE YOU SO MUCH . I WANT MY DAD BACK. I DON'T WANT TO EAT M Y ANGER. BUT HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO GET RID OF THIS FEELING IN MY STOMACK, THIS URGE FOR COMFORT....I ONLY KNOW FOOD TO GIVE ME. I KNOW EATING A BIG SANDWICH WILL GIVE ME THAT... NO IT WON'T IT WILL ONLY MAKE ME FULL PHISICALLY. THE PROBLEM IS NOT GOING AWAY. DAMN YOU BOTTLE FOR MESSING UP OUR LIVES. I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!!!!!!!

I never read what i write there...it doesn't matter. its something i'll need to do more these days. i don't want to make up any kind of excuses.
 
Hi Lena - Wow. Sometimes venting can be the best medicine. I have a little red journal in my nightstand by my bed for just such occasions. If I can't sleep, I just write it all down and by morning I'm feeling much less stressed.

Hope you're feeling better. *hugs* :)
 
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