Lea Jnice's Diary

what would really suck... is if you have the face of the beast (beauty & the beast) and you lost the weight... D: lmao xD

i think that is an achievable goal though =D
 
I have no idea if I can make it by then but thats my goal. I figure 10lbs a month. 2 lbs a week and I hopefully can get the last 50 or so lbs off before august. It will be my 22nd birthday! I didnt really have a 21st birthday so this year I want to go all out and buy the most skanky, Im a whore, I lost 103lbs dress I can find when I get to that point. I am sure I will have a break down in the dressing room. I just hope after all my work that I feel pretty. I wouldnt hate to lose all my weight and then continue to see a fat girl. Thats what happened the 1st time I lost 60lbs. I felt huge and I wasn't. I am a different person now though so I think I will be ok. anywhos thanks for the luck I will need it.

I want to be on a team. I need to find the new post about new teams.

I can so relate! As an adult I've only lost a significant amount of weight two times the most being 80lbs. Both times even though my clothes were smaller I still felt the same fatness and didn't see any difference in the mirror at all. Hoping since I have some support now in the form of this forum I can change how I look at it this time. I think we both will :) And great about you wanting to join a team. Just check the challenge thread and you should find the recent posts for new challenges. Have a great weekend ~Lisa
 
8 ways to tell

I thought this was an intresting article......(my comments are in parentheses)

8 Ways to know if you exercise too much




This morning I grudgingly crawled out of bed to go down to our building's gym for my morning workout ritual. Once inside, I passed a woman who I see working out once a week or so, and she called out to me, "You go to the gym too much!" Not really knowing what to say to that, I smiled and said, "No, not at all." I'm not really sure WHAT the right response would have been. Maybe just a polite smile? Maybe a little laugh? Maybe a cruel and judgmental, "No, actually YOU don't go to the gym ENOUGH!" The reality is, it is all about perspective, isn't it?( I have had people tell you at the gym that you are always here which I took as a positive thing. I also get pissed off when size 0 girls take my treadmill machines for longer than 20mins which is the max because some people really need the machines to burn off the food that normal people eat. I need work on my anger issues)


If you go to the gym for a 1/2 hour, 1 - 2 times a week, it might seem like too much if someone else goes for 1/2 an hour to 1 hour, 5 or 6 times a week. On the other hand, if you are regimented, it may seem like a person who goes once or twice a week isn't enough. Personally, I tend to get in 3 days or so of cardio and 2 to 3 days of strength training. That said, I'd hardly consider this 'too much.' ( I go to the gym 4 times a week and I go to classes once to twice a week, I workout about 6 times a week)


There IS such a thing, however, as overdoing it. And believe it or not, exercising too much is a real disease called anorexia athletica, which can be both physically and mentally damaging. Here are a couple of ways to know if you might be overdoing it: ( now can a plus size girl have anorexia athletica?)






Excuses are Unacceptable. Sure, it is great to push through and exercise, even if you feel a little tired or under the weather, but if you take this to an extreme, it can be detrimental. Further, if you feel guilty when you miss your routine, you may have unrealistic expectations. If you are injured, have a fever or haven't been getting sufficient sleep, you have a right to take a day off. Life happens, schedules get crazy, and sometimes, we just don't 'feel' like exercising. Cut yourself a break once in awhile.

(I always feel like crap when I miss a workout. I missed krav this past week and I felt awful)
Exercise is an Obligation. Although you may not always find exercise to be the most fun activity, it shouldn't become an obligation. Exercise has a lot of benefits and if you are doing it at appropriate intervals, you should enjoy it. ( I do enjoy it but like tonight I didnt want to go to the gym but I did because I have to.)
Weight becomes an Obsession. If you weigh yourself several times a day and obsess over a pound or two here or there, you might need to adjust your attitude. Exercise has a lot to offer, beyond weight loss. Focus on you cardiovascular health, your muscle mass and your energy levels instead. (I weigh myself everyday when I feel that its starting to comsume me I wait about 4 days)
Calories Become the Enemy. If every time you consume food, you calculate how much exercise it will take to burn off the calories, you are probably obsessively exercising. Further, if you don't like to relax and sit still because you are afraid that you aren't burning any calories, that isn't good either.(yeah ok I am gulity of this. I ate pizza tonight and felt like sheez-let because I knew I had to work it off when I got home)
Dramatic Weight Loss. If you have been overweight and started exercising, it will most likely result in weight loss. That said, if you are losing more than three pounds a week, you probably are pushing yourself too hard.(yeah not happening. I wish it was, I hit a plateau
Lack of Diversity. If you tend to work out two or more times a day, give up activities you love, turn down time with friends and neglect responsibilities for exercise, you need to slow down and take a step back. There is more to life than just exercise. Life is about enjoying many things.(ok so I would rather go to the gym on a friday night than go watch a movie, I like how I feel afterwards)
Constantly Injury Prone. If you are constantly injuring yourself or find that you have a lot of chronic pain, you could be overworking muscles and/or joints. Rest is just as important as exercise itself. You need to give your body the time it needs to recover from the exercise you do.(if I am too sore to walk than I miss a workout, If I can walk and its not major pain shooting up my leg than I am back in the gym the next day)
Loss of Energy. Although exercising can give you more energy, if you overdo it, you will most likely feel tired and worn out from pushing your body too much. (I am feeling so tired all the time. I dont sleep much)

How many of us are guilty of this.. I bet alot of us who have weightloss goals...
 
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its an obligation for me because, your results are in direct correlation with your efforts, if you dont workout more than likely your going to stop losing as quickly.
i enjoy working out, usually.
i do weigh myself ALOT!
i dont obsess over calories.
i just calculated... my average weight loss for the last 6 weeks has been 3.333 pounds a week =T
i dont like diversity therefore i dont lack it xD
and im not tooo accident prone...

im happy with what im doing! its working for me and this is just a major priority in my life right now of course i am going to be focused! LOL!!!
 
ahhhh my gosh!!! i love your freakin' hair!!!!

Thank you! I love my hair too! haha. I wore it the same forever and a couple months ago I went in and said I wanted something different and she razored it all over. I tease up the back and use chi hair spray/root lift. Then voila big scene hair : )
 
scene hair definitely suits you!!
i want something like that... but atm my hair is barely hitting my shoulders...
im trying to grow it back out... bleh and the shortest layers are about an inch past my hair
haha... whoops thats if i straighten it xD
 
First what a huge difference in your pics! You look gorgeous! And after reading that article I had to laugh. They're telling us americans are over weight and most of us aren't exercising at all or enough, then we get articles like that. I could read that and make a million excuses (more than I already do) not to exercise now, lol. Honestly I hate exercise so it's always gonna be an obligation. If it becomes compulsive then even better, lol. Least I'd have a healthy vice for a change.
 
First what a huge difference in your pics! You look gorgeous! And after reading that article I had to laugh. They're telling us americans are over weight and most of us aren't exercising at all or enough, then we get articles like that. I could read that and make a million excuses (more than I already do) not to exercise now, lol. Honestly I hate exercise so it's always gonna be an obligation. If it becomes compulsive then even better, lol. Least I'd have a healthy vice for a change.

Thanks for thinking so. I know what you mean. Even if I like what I am doing it still feels like a chore. Maybe its, because I am always disappointed because I can't do what I'd like to in the gym. I never feel like I am doing all I can even if I am. I coulda shoulda woulda..... of done something different.


on another note
I am still at 188 and very annoyed. Vegas is in 5 weeks. I ate 2 pieces of stuffed crust cheese pizza last night. I have a meeting with a new studio so I didnt get to cook. Hubs bought pizza since I couldnt cook. Im sure he was upset about it ;) Didnt get to go to the gym. I have Krav tonight and I really don't want to go, but I really really need to. I think 10 months of busting my ass at the gym has caught up with me. I feel like I just want to eat pizza and watch reality shows during the week. I can't wait until spring!!! I will enjoy bike riding,hiking,jogging,and going to the zoo when it opens to walk around(our zoo is free ; ) stl rocks. Anything to get me out of the walls of the gym. Some people hate workingout outside. If its nice I like doing things more active outdoors. Not just running on a treadmill and staring at a wall. I want to look at trees and feel the breeze.....

that is all.
 
Exercising outdoors with some headphones on...way better than on a piece of equipment for me. I have to trick myself not to be painfully aware of every dragging second while I'm plugging along on a treadmill or bike. If I'm just outside walking its almost effortless. Definitely can't wait for the weather to change. Course I'll have to take advantage of it as soon as it hit's 55 or 60 cuz summers here get humid. That's the main thing I miss about cali, the beautiful weather and all the gorgeous places to hike and walk trails. There was always somewhere new to go outdoors.
 
Ok ditched working out friday night. I had a bachlorette party saturday night. I had a hangover yesterday. Not fun. I want to know how many calories I consumed. I weighed myself 187 today. Not loosing because I am not working out as much as I should. Last week I only worked out twice. Hoping to get back on track this week. My food is ok. I shouldnt of drank the 3 beers,2 cherry bombs,one cherry sprite and vodka,and 2 tubey things that tasted like candy. Yeah tubey things=awesomeness. No clue what was in them. Hangovers suck. I really dont enjoy drinking. I drink more than I should maybe 3/4 times a year and I regret it every time. Im 21 and I should enjoy it, but I don't. I went to my 1st club over the weekend LOL. Yeah it was ok. A lot of drunk guys trying to hit on my friends. I did however have some guy say "dang you 4 girls are hot" and guess who was number 3 in line LMBO and I did have a compliment on my new glasses. As always I was told I looked cute. One of these days I will be the hot girl. Not the cute girl with a pretty face. KWIM. I guess cute girl is better than fat ass haha.:piggy:
 
Like I said I have been slacking on my workouts. Tonight I have my 1st boxing class. Im nervous. I punch like a girl and I couldn't tell you how to jab,or give a right hook correctly if my live depended on it. I might be able to do an uppercut. Maybe? Im just glad Im not fighting anyone lol. Hoping its more of a bag class.. I don't know everything involved in them. Im sure jump roping as a warm up will happen. I like jump roping but to do it non stop is freaking intense. I don't know how I used to do it as a kid for so long. Im excited to have my lime and green gloves in though lol. Yeah thats my motivation. Cool gloves. Whatever gets me there.....
 
I know I keep saying it but I so admire you for trying new things all the time. That takes alot of courage to put yourself out there the way you do and girl, you are looking great! Sometimes we get so busy looking ahead at where we're not that we forget what we've already accomplished. And you've done a damn good job already! SO don't forget that :D
 
I know I keep saying it but I so admire you for trying new things all the time. That takes alot of courage to put yourself out there the way you do and girl, you are looking great! Sometimes we get so busy looking ahead at where we're not that we forget what we've already accomplished. And you've done a damn good job already! SO don't forget that :D

Thanks hun I need to hear it. Sometimes I wonder if its really going to be worth it. I spend a lot of time focusing on loosing the weight not much time on that I am half way done. I weighed in at 186 today. So 52lbs down. I have slowed down on the weightloss major. : ( I have about 50 more to go. maybe more...boo I can't wait until i can say i lost over 100 lbs. I just wish it wasn't taking so long. I know I need to celebrate every lb lost, but its hard when you want to see the end result so badly.
Boxing was fun btw. It was intense. I liked it! I need to get faster. I guess I will get faster when I lose the extra baggage. Oh also my body fat percentage was 50 percent when I started! yes freaking 50 percent. My scale said I was 37 percent. Still high but I am doing good : ) According to my Adusted Body Fat Percentage I am just overweight not obese : )oh and my bmi. Im one lb away from no longer being obese. I will just be overweight haha.
 
yea obese is such a horrible word. I remember the first time I saw "morbidly obese" on a dr. chart...I cried and cried. You'd think though the more we lose the easier it'd get but I've lost significant amounts of weight before and even after 80lbs lost I felt like you did. Just was focused on where I wanted to be cuz I wanted it so badly. But you're going to get there :)
 
yea obese is such a horrible word. I remember the first time I saw "morbidly obese" on a dr. chart...I cried and cried. You'd think though the more we lose the easier it'd get but I've lost significant amounts of weight before and even after 80lbs lost I felt like you did. Just was focused on where I wanted to be cuz I wanted it so badly. But you're going to get there :)

A bmi of 40 is considered morbidly obese. I was at 39.6. When I 1st told my hubby that I was almost morbidly obese he said I was full of it. He just didnt see it I guess. I might of not weighed 300lbs, but I have a small frame. I can overlap my fingers on my wrist. I don't mind obese as much as morbidly. My
1st breakdown with weight was in 4th grade when I weighed in at 113lbs at the drs office. He said I needed to lose weight.Also my "grandfather"-grandmothers ex husband would weigh me everytime he saw me because I was too chubby...Yeah most likely another issue that has scarred me. I think a normal kid is supposed to be like 60lbs or something... At 9 I was already 53lbs overweight. Holy smokes I am about that now. Always the forever fat kid I suppose. I have to get over this "I am a victim" thing. I do believe my parents didn't see a problem with it. No kid should weigh 50 lbs more than their friends...Its hard to see yourself as thin when you never really have been there. I lost a lot of weight once but really I was still 140 lbs. I had about 15 lbs to lose at the time to be considered "thin". Again the small frame. so 140 doesnt seem that bad but I was shorter then as well. I just hope that once I hit my goal I will feel happy. Weightloss isn't my only happiness but it will lift my spirts if I feel better about myself.
 
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hey girl

sorry i havent posted lately =T
i have been busy with that challenge lol

just thought i would drop by and let you
know... im going to be gone for about a
month D: but i will be keeping up
with everything! sooo hopefully i will
be in the 180s club when i get back!

good luck! i will miss you!!!
 
A bmi of 40 is considered morbidly obese. I was at 39.6. When I 1st told my hubby that I was almost morbidly obese he said I was full of it. He just didnt see it I guess. I might of not weighed 300lbs, but I have a small frame. I can overlap my fingers on my wrist. I don't mind obese as much as morbidly. My
1st breakdown with weight was in 4th grade when I weighed in at 113lbs at the drs office. He said I needed to lose weight.Also my "grandfather"-grandmothers ex husband would weigh be everytime he say me because I was too chubby...Yeah most likely another issue that has scarred me. I think a normal kid is supposed to be like 60lbs or something... At 9 I was already 53lbs overweight. Holy smokes I am about that now. Always the forever fat kid I suppose. I have to get over this "I am a victim" thing. I do believe my parents didn't see a problem with it. No kid should weigh 50 lbs more than their friends...Its hard to see yourself as thin when you never really have been there. I lost a lot of weight once but really I was still 140 lbs. I had about 15 lbs to lose at the time to be considered "thin". Again the small frame. so 140 doesnt seem that bad but I was shorter then as well. I just hope that once I hit my goal I will feel happy. Weightloss isn't my only happiness but it will lift my spirts if I feel better about myself.

I can totally relate. I have been over weight my whole life too and always the fat kid. My mom had me on atkins when I was really little so I've seen pics of me not fat like at age 4 and 5. Then after that I'm chubby again so I as far as I knew I've never been thin. And my grandparents did the same thing as your grandfather. They'd make me do sit ups when I came to visit and ride me about my weight and tell me the best exercise was to push myself back from the table...I was like 10 ;/. It only got worse as I got older with them though and it hurt.

I'm only 5' tall so I'm carrying around two other people with me pretty much. The smallest I've been in the last 15 years is 238. That's when I'd lost 80 pounds but stupidly gained it all back. Never been thin either so it's unreal to me but I really hope I do it this time :). It's going to be weird for sure.
 
Im still alive.


Im just been a slacker.. I will be in vegas on tuesday for the week. Im shooting a wedding and then party hardying...

Hopefully I will have better things to blog about next month when I get back on track...
 
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