Laura's Diary

Miss_Laura

Miss_Laura

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Hi everyone,

For those that didn't read my introduction I will start again. I am 27 years old and I am overweight. Through high school I was always on the heavier side but I wasn't what you would call obese. My weight started to pile on when I was at university and had the freedom of eating whatever I wanted whenever I wanted (pizza for morning tea, chinese for lunch and a couple of bottles of coke to keep me awake!)

Around July last year (2005) I weighed my heaviest 104.7kg and I knew I had to do something about it, so I got my big butt into gear and lost about 15kg. However I then remembered how nice junk food tastes and I fell of the wagon and gained about 6kg back. I have decided that it is time to do something about it before I get totally out of control.

I also have a good motivating factor that my boyfriend proposed to me a few weeks ago. Just thinking about all those eyes on me on my wedding day is enough to make me head for the gym!!

I also have PCOS. The best way to keep my symptoms under control and to live a long and healthy life is to loose weight which is exactly what I am trying to do!

Anyway here are the dreaded questions....

How much weight do you want to lose?
Last week when I weighed myself I was 96.0kg. In the last week I have lost 1.7kg, my ideal weight is 65 kg so that means I want to loose 31kg's.

What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight? I don't have a specific time frame... We haven't set a date for the wedding but I imagine it will be late 2007 or early 2008. However I have timeframes for other little goals. The first one is my parents are currently away and I would like to weigh 90kg when they get back (on 20/8/2006) and the next one is to be 85kg for our engagement party (no date set yet!)

How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)? My plan at this point is to count calories and to go to the gym at least 5 times a week. I am also currently seeing a personal trainer once a week and a dietician (every 3rd week) to help keep me on track

Who or what can support you in reaching your goal? My family is great especially my sister who is a fitness freak and is always encouraging me to go to the gym with her. My fiance is supportive with my plans however he still eats junk food in front of me! (I just keep telling myself it will make me a stronger person!)

How realistic is your goal? I think it is fairly realistic, once I get the initial 11 kg's off then I am hoping for about a 0.5kg a week weight loss which I think is definately doable (is that a word????)

When will you start? I started last week. I lost 1.7kg in my first week, which was higher than the 1.5 I was aiming for!!!

Anyway if I have left anything out of this novel then please feel free to ask!

Take Care
Laura
 
Not very happy with myself this weekend as I did no excercise and was unable to ignore my attacks of the munchies.

Saturday I slept in and didn't have time to go to the gym before work. Then when I got home from work instead of going straight to bed like I should have, I raided the pantry and ate some pretzels and some rice crackers. I guess the good thing is usually I would have stopped at McDonalds on the way home and consumed a quarter pounder meal. I passed 2 Mc's on the way home and remembered watching super size me the night before. For anyone else who is addicted to McDonalds like I am I highly recommend buying a copy of super size me, every time I want McDonalds I just need to watch the DVD.

Sunday I worked a morning shift and didn't finish work until 3:30pm, which is annoying as my gym shuts at 4pm on a Sunday. I should have gone for a walk but I lacked a bit of motivation, for some reason it is much easier for me to go to the gym for an hr than walk around the block, I don't know why.
I was going to go shopping after work but I was already feeling a bit peckish and I decided that was a recipe for disaster, so I went straight home. More munchies, pretzels and rice crackers again with a coke zero.

I am frustrated that I am feeling hungry as I never know if it is physical or psychological. Anyway at least I didn't eat anything too fattening. Definately back to the gym tomorrow, and fingers crossed there will be no snacking.

If anyone has any magical cures for the munchies then please let me know!!!
 
Yesterday I was very happy with myself. I worked a morning shift and stuck to the food I took to work. After work I went straight to the gym (I have to go straight from work or else once I get home I park my butt down and it sticks to the chair and refuses to get up again), did an hr on the treadmill and burnt off 900 calories.

Then got home, had a shower and ate dinner and settled in front of the TV to watch the Big Brother finale. Watching TV I ate an orange and didnt feel so good. I don't know if I was something I ate or if it was a bout of gastro that has been going around, but boy I was as sick as a dog. This went on all night and some of this morning. I finally feel a bit better although the stomach is still queasy. I got on the scales this morning (not my official weigh in but more out of curiousity than anything) and I'd lost 2kg in 1 day, which has to have been all fluid. It'll be interesting to see what happens on friday (weigh in day)

Today all i have eaten is 2 pieces of toast with vegemite and a small bag of rice crackers. I know I should eat something else but I just don't know how my stomach will take it.


Fingers crossed I will be feeling better tomorrow
 
Hey Laura,

I hope you are feeling better! I know the body react when you change you diet and if you do it drastic then you've might end up with some side affects like a headache or you stomach hurt. Or you could just have a 24 hour virus:) Anyway I hope it passes quickly whatever it is.
It is alwasy hard in the beginning to make new habits, but it will become easier in time. Sounds like a clichee but its true.
About any magical cure for the cravings you might have... Think willpower is the answer + make it harder to fall in. I cleaned out my cupboard for all the bad things, and when I go shopping it only gets to go home with me if its on the list. Ofcourse I am living alone so its easier just to deny it all...
Otherwise there is the toothbrushing trick. If you feel like eating something bad then brush you teeth with the toothpast that have a strong aftertaste in the mouth. That usually spoils the taste:)
Thats about it, the tricks I can come up with right now. Just hang in there you're on the right track and doing good:)
 
Hi Mahatt,

Thanks for taking the time to read my diary, it's very much appreciated :D


Mahatt said:
Otherwise there is the toothbrushing trick. If you feel like eating something bad then brush you teeth with the toothpast that have a strong aftertaste in the mouth. That usually spoils the taste:)
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Ohh good trick, thank you very much I will definately try it next time I have the munchies!!!

Take Care,
Laura
 
Was feeling a little bit better today, although I had to force myself to eat (omg am I the same person as 2 weeks ago??). I needed to go shopping which I did, I avoided the food court but suprisingly wasn't tempted at all. Went to a "normal" size clothes shop and tried on a pair of jeans (ok they were the biggest size but still a normal shop!!) and they fit! If anything they were a teeny tiny bit big, I decided not to buy them because hopefully in a months time they will be very big!

I then had to go and buy some chook food. I bought a 10 kg bag and lugged it around the shops and by the time I got back to my car I was exhausted, then it dawned on me. This time last year that bag of food was on me... I was 10kg heavier than I am now. I couldn't believe it. Then I thought imagine how much better I will feel when I am another 10kg lighter. And my poor body, why oh why am I making it work so much harder than it has too???

This afternoon I had a session with my personal trainer, I asked her to be nice to me because I have been sick and she sort of was. I was absolutely buggered by the time I was finished. I had planned to do 30 mins of cardio on the treadmill but I was just too tired. Will definately go to the gym tomorrow and do some then.
 
Weigh in Day

It was weigh in day today, so got on the scales before work and they read 92.9kg which is a loss of 1.4kg. I was actually a bit dissapointed that I lost less this week and I had the upset stomach, but I am on track to meet my goal weight by the time I have set myself. I think I will definately have to be good this week if I am to keep getting these numbers, but like the little engine that could "I think I can, I think I can!"

Went to the gym after work. Am going to try and be very good with my excercise this week! Aiming to go to the gym between 5 and 7 times this week.

I am a bit flat writing this entry as I have just learnt that a friend of the families has died of a heart attack, he was only in his early 50's. The only good thing I can find in this situation is I don't want to be in his position (yes he was overweight) and this makes me more determined to be healthy.
 
I'm sorry to hear about your family's friend Laura :( That is so very young!

As for you, it sounds like you are doing really well, and progress IS happening, just keep at it!
:)
 
Thanks M2M, I am definately planning to stick at it for awhile, every time I feel a bit disillusioned I look at my engagement, and picture all these people watching me on my wedding day... And the worst thing I think of the photo's that are going to be on the wall in years to come!
 
Hey Miss Laura,

You are doing so great, eventhough you've been sick. I am impressed! Just keep it up:)
 
Hi Miss Laura, finally got here to say thanks for posting in my diary. I've been slack for a few weeks. Its the best feeling when you can fit into "normal" size clothes. I know what its like buying from the plus size section. You so dont want to go back there sister. Yes, I think you did exceptional considering you were sick. 1.4kgs is nothing to sneeze at. Keep up the good work:)
 
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