Am at my darling bf's tonight and he is making me supper. Taking a break from exercise. Stocked up on lettuce, parsley, cucumber, kale, celery and swiss chard for juice for the next few days. Cost $18. Will eat whatever is put in front of me the rest of the time. Today we got two walnut crunches from Tim Horton's and I ate only half of mine which satisfied me and gave me a treat.
Still feasting when I do drink juice, I fill up completely with two or three glasses of it even. I figure I'm 30-40% raw right now.
One way to eat less is to remember and commiserate with those who do not get enough to eat. I know it sounds pie in the sky but I think Audrey Hepburn said that. Remember those less fortunate. My bf is a light eater and sometimes it is because he doesn't have enough. That makes me more aware and okay with fasting for part of each day. The other day I meditated on "emptiness"and it began with the empty feeling in my belly. I am not intentionally starving myself but I have changed from taking food for granted to appreciating it more and it DOES TASTE BETTER. The last two nights I had toast with butter and I felt like I had died and gone to heaven, just something as simple as that tasted SO GOOD.
I feel as long as I drink a jug of juice once or twice a day I am doing myself a huge favour and I just appreciate so much the rest of the food I get to take in, whether a simple tuna melt or homemade freezer meal. I just devour my food now.
I am looking and feeling happy, secure in my relationship and working on being "okay"with whatever IS. Being okay if I'm home alone and not with my boyfriend. Being okay, you know, with the inherent unsatisfactoriness of life as it presents itself sometimes. Focussing on my joy and its constant availability to me. Sometimes there's nothing to do but wait and so I pass the time trying to enjoy myself. Well, I think dinner is about to be served so I will sign off for now. Kelly