Kelly's Bringing It!!

*small children cover your ears*
Well shit.

My lymph nodes are painful and swollen, and got a mild fever. Its official, i'm infected. Dammit. I cannot believe I just got done talking about how I never get sick, and got sick. What kind of crap is that?!
*sigh* All I suppose I can hope for is being sick makes me lose a couple pounds lol. Feeling incredibly gross today, throat is starting to hurt, all I've had is some noodle soup. Nothing sounds good and nothing tastes right. Although i'm lucky if my throat really starts to hurt my delicious blended shakes should make that all better.
Its totally throwing a kink into my second month of workouts though, I haven't gotten a work out in in like three days because of this crap. I actually haven't done much of anything other than curl up on the couch under a blanket and drink a lot of tea.
*sigh*
speaking of... i'm gonna go curl up on the couch and drink a lot of tea.
 
Its only 8am and already I wanna shank something.
We had a big thunder storm last night. Which is fine, except that means the dog we're babysitting has to stay inside at night. Which sucks, because he's a 17 year old husky who would rather sleep during the day and wander around and get into stuff at night. Was woken up every hour to him knocking crap over or pooping in the floor or being generally noisy and irritating. at 3am the rain stopped so I put him outside and went back to sleep. at 4am I woke up to loud thunder and rain again, so I had to get up and go out in the storm to bring him back inside, then spent a good 20 minutes trying to get him to sit still so I could dry him off. He didn't like that. Then some really loud thunder started and he wouldn't stop pestering me because he was scared of it. So around 5am I finally said screw it and just got up.

Got a nice fever today, probably in no small part to wandering around in the rain in the middle of the night trying to get that damn dog to come back inside. BAH.

On a good note, I applied for a job in austin last night, after spending 2 hours trying to write my resume. Its hard to concentrate when you're all doped up on cold medicine lol
I also am starting a blog to review spa products, and have had two pretty cool companies interested in being in it. yays!

ok back to the suffering. *zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz*
 
Nothing exciting to report on the kelly front. still sick.
Thought I was getting better but it just moved from my head to my chest. I guess it was nice of it to let me breathe before it made me hack a bunch.

yesterday was probably the worst i've felt, and I admit to giving in to my biggest comfort food. Chicken, mashed potatoes, and a roll. Thats probably a weird comfort food to you people lol but when I was a kid my mom loved popeyes chicken. I didnt like the crust, so she'd give me pieces with the crust taken off, and i'd make mini sandwiches with the roll and mashed potatoes and put chicken in there and eat it, and for some reason that was so cool to me as a kid lol. So I ate that yesterday though only maybe half of what was brought home for me :( partly because I felt kind of guilty for eating it, partly because I can't taste anything so my appetite was nil. I guess I was being pitiful and sulky and sick, and didn't care either way.

So yeah there's that, this is me admitting to eating non-diet things! But considering how rarely I do that, I'm only expecting one or two spanks from you people cause i'm a good girl most of the time.

My weight hasn't changed since i've been sick. Been passing the time playing in makeup. As usual. My pigments came in the mail yesterday (SWEEEEEET) so I've been fooling around with those, making them into lip glosses and trying them out on my eyes (the pigments not the glosses) etc etc. Haven't heard about the job app yet (darn) but ordered two giant eye shadow palettes that should be here next week. I'm starting to think doing makeup for people is my excuse for buying crap that will ultimately end up being used on me the most lol.
 
Hallo I'm new to the thread unfortunately I would have posted sooner but I try to read allll the thread so had to do it in bits hehe! Sorry that you are unwell and dw about the comfort food, you were sick and in need of comfort, damn right would I have done the same! I'm sure you'll get back on the wagon in no time you have already come so far! I wish you all the luck!
 
thanks Rouge, I'm not too worried about the comfort food. I am irritated that I haven't been able to work out, this stupid cold has totally screwed up my P90X routine. I should be at at least 200 by now :( its easy to tell other people "hey your body doesn't know your schedule it will lose when its ready to" and still feel annoyed at it when it happens to you. But it gets easier the longer I'm on this diet to think about long term goals. I mean my very first week, I had no real concept at all of the reality of how much ... hm... consistent behavior would go into taking it all off. I don't like to say "will power" because I really don't think thats it, I think its just routine and being aware of what you eat, and making the change a priority long enough for it to become routine. And now at week... hell I dont know... 15, 16? something like that... I've only lost about 25lbs, but if I had never TRIED, i'd still be 230 or higher. Even if I keep losing as slow as I have, I'll still hit my goal, just a few months later. So what? Its not like I can just blow it off and eat crap when I do, maintenance will probably be the hardest part.

I noticed a few non-scale happies lately, even with all the being sick and non-weight-losing going on.
1. all my undies seem to be too big. except for the ones that used to be too small. TMI, but i'm wearing some right now that I literally never wore after I bought them because they were too small. The only reason I notice this is because they are string bikini cut, and I can remember how the strings on the side cut into my hips when I first put them on. sooo sexy right? They're perfect now.

2. My 16's now have S.B.S. saggy butt syndrome. right out of the dryer and everything. I think in another 15lbs maybe less i'll be in a solid 14, down from an 18 when I started and a 20 at my highest!

3. I am suddenly getting compliments on how nice I look. I've been waiting for some non-prompted compliments from non-biased sources to see if other people would notice anything different. Well 25lbs later they finally are.

4. Long ago (and far away of course) I bought a shirt. it was too small (i'm notorious for not wanting to try on things in the store) so I gave it to my mom. yeaaars ago. I tried it on the other day. It fits.

5. There's a cute shirt of my bf's thats all soft and snuggly that I always wanted to sleep in, but being on the curvy side, and y'know how mens shirts aren't made to compensate for the uh... chestal areal...it was too tight to sleep comfortably in. I slept in it last night perfectly comfortable.

6. I dont remember if I mentioned this on here or not, but I wear a ring on my left ring finger that was a gift from the bf on our 1 year anniversary. Its now so loose on it I'm afraid it will fall off. It never actually fit on my right ring finger, and now I have to wear it over there and it fits just fine. Having to get used to wearing it on that side though, it feels weird.

so at least some good things are coming even though I feel like i'm stuck :)
 
So in celebration of the random 2lbs that left me this morning, but mostly just because i'm still sick and bored, I declare it SURVEY SUNDAY.

What is your name? Kelly!

How old are you? 25! oh my this is easy so far.

When is your birthday? april

Are you looking forward to it? not really

Why? well its too far away to really be thinking about

Are you happy? i'm generally a content person. i'm not jumping up and down over anything specific today.

What makes you happiest? silly things. new hobbies. traditions. black lights. roller coasters. monetary stability lol

Are you afraid of something? dentists. they scare the crap outta me.

What is your favorite cartoon? I always liked old nickelodeon stuff. rugrats (the OLD one), doug, etc.

Have you ever hit a deer? THAT DEER HIT ME DAMMIT! and yes, I clipped a deer on halloween, in the middle of the night, in a freaking del sol (which if you dont know, is a car so small it should have been demolished, all it did was break my headlight)

Do you drink? no. used to, but found out about a year ago my liver doesn't work right, causing my vitamin D to be virtually nonexistent, and after 3 months of blood work once a week (oh joy, needles), they never figured out why its broken. I wasn't ordered to stop drinking, but I did anyway. I sort of need my liver lol

Do you prefer beer or liquor? My favorite drink (when I did) is whiskey. Knob Creek specifically. I know, a girl who drinks whiskey, heaven forbid.

What is your favorite non-alcoholic drink? water.

What kind of cell phone do you have? an old as dirt razor.

Do you like it? it serves its purpose.

Do you hate it when people call you "dear"? no one calls me that except my bf now and then, so no.

To whom have you sent the most text messages? the bf i'm sure

What did you do for new year's eve? hah. Last new years I was out in an 18 wheeler at some random truck stop. (if you havent read through my thread, the bf was a truck driver for a while and I was out in the truck with him for about 8 months in a row. so virtually every cool holiday last year was spent in a truck.)

were there lots of pictures? oh god no, we were working. probably freezing to death and tired. Everyone should be nice to truck drivers, that job is hard. working 24/7, crazy hours, for shit pay.

what concerts do you want to see? I'm actually not a concert-goer. I know, weird for someone of my generation, apparently. The idea of being smushed together with a bunch of drunks doesn't really do it for me. I'm more of a small venue girl if I ever do go see someone.

Do you have any tattoos? yes actually I have 6.

What about piercings? yes, 8. Can't tell from my pic can you! I'm the body mod ninja.

What is your favorite place to chill out? home.

What is your favorite song to play on guitar hero? hah. the hard ones. I'm a pro on that game.

Do you work out? well yeah, not counting this week i've been sick.

Do you wear any jewelry? Not especially. I've found if I don't wear it 24/7, i'll just lose it. I usually only wear 2 piercings and a ring.

What is your goal for the year? hopefully to hit my goal before the year is over.

What do you think about when you first wake up? more sleep

Have you ever eaten sushi? of course. not in a long time though.

Did you like it? it is delicious goodness.

List three things you can't live without: I can live without anything, really. except maybe soap. I'd prefer to have that.

Do you get choked up during dramatic movies? You mean chick flicks? I don't watch them, honestly. I'm not a fan of drama for drama's sake. Like when a character does something stupid just to make the story get more complicated. its irritating.

What is your biggest pet peeve? loud, selfish, socially inept people.

have you ever liked someone that all of your friends hate? no

Do you want children? No. And for some reason I have to explain that one a lot, then people with kids get all offended as if my decision affects them.

Why/Why not? Ok, very briefly. I've sat around watching kids my age pop out youngins as soon as they got out of high school with no regard to what goes into it, and subsequently i've watched them struggle with the realization that it doesn't end once you're done being all cute and pregnant. I watch them go into debt (something i'm militantly against, btw), live in horrible housing, and try to make ends meet by selling everything they own. I'm far too young, too selfish, too POOR and my life is too unstable to consider babies. The only way i'd -ever- consider it is if i'm MORE than financially stable, OWN a house (not a mortgage, I mean actually own), and have the time available to make sure that kid is raised correctly, not babysat by a tv. Its funny, i'm trying to be responsible with a huge life changing decision like being a parent, and my extended family think i'm weird for not wanting kids, while at the same time theyre about to go bankrupt because having a cute little family was more important than making sure you could pay for one.

Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket? nope, never ever.

Did you get over your ex, or are you over him/her? well yeah

Are you currently with someone? yup

Do you love him/her? yup

Who said "I love you" first? he did

Where? hah. outside a pool hall. he played for a living for a while and we'd go about twice a week out to one to play. I think he was drunk lol

Would you date your ex again? of course not.

What is your longest relationship? the one i'm currently in.

What is your most significant relationship? the one i'm currently in!

What is the most romantic thing a significant other can do? heck I don't know. something thoughtful

Do you like pet names? I don't overly like them, they're just a natural part of being with someone a long time.

Do you have any? just your standard ones.

Is there anything that you won't tolerate in a relationship? well yeah, I hope everyone has a line somewhere.

Do you believe in living together before engagement/marriage? absolutely. how do you know you'll even get along living in the same space for the REST OF YOUR LIFE if you don't?

Where did you meet your significant other? in a pool hall. go figure.

Have you ever broken up? Nope

Have you ever broken someone's heart? not to my knowledge.

What is your significant other's birthday? its 8 days after mine, 2 years earlier.

What is your anniversary? november 18 08

Does this person know you better than anyone else? he's up there, yeah

Is this person younger than you? no, 2 years older

Would you marry this person? eventually
 
........
Wow things get real boring in here when all I have to say is "still sick."
so. still sick. -think- i'm starting to get a little better, but don't want to jinx myself.
weight is being weird. 204. 202. 206. wtf. some people think its the meds i've been taking. and I know my water intake has been off since on days like yesterday where I feel REALLY bad, I try to sleep a lot and am therefore obviously not drinking.
Trying to make up for it. I so wanted to see 200 by the 12th, but I don't know if thats going to happen since its.. what... 5 days away. Bah!

So i'm gonna try to stay off the cold meds today, catch up on my water and get some veggies in and really do as much as I can to get things rolling. I ain't gonna let a cold screw me up, no siree!
 
Bronchitis? REALLY?
Who the bloody hell gets bronchitis in summer??!!

The second I started feeling better physically, my cough got way worse. Cant fully inhale or exhale without triggering it, sleeping like crap, and I can't cough or speak for long without getting light headed. Sounds like there's a frigging soggy maraca in my chest. ok that was gross, my bad.

STILL stuck spending most of my day... here... on the couch... not moving... can't even freaking walk through walmart without feeling faint and hacking all over the place. I feel like a hermit, and starting to go a little psycho from boredom. I've actually created a twitter, a new fb page, a blog on blogger and on wordpress, then linked them all together through hootsuite just out of bordom being sick. crocheted 2 hats. wrote two reviews for my blog (btw its thekellyreviews on twitter, go to the link to my blog and you'll get a coupon code for 5 bucks off a purchase from the last place I reviewed) watched every single episode of ghost hunters, destination truth, my ghost stories and celebrity ghost stories that I can find on the internet. (random kelly fact, I like to put scary shows on as background noise when i'm doing other things like crocheting or whatever, that way I can listen to it but if I get scared I have something else to focus on. I know, i'm a dork. I used to have The Shining on repeat when i'd clean house)

BOOOOREEEEDDDD *cough wheeze*
 
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*pulls out hair*
I can't get over this damn hump being sick put me in.
I'm 90% better btw (FINALLY), but my weight has been playing sick, sick games with me. 203. 202. 204. 203. 204. 203. whhhaaaatheeeeblankityblankblankblank?

I feel like this entire last month almost has been a complete waste, and the longer I had to sit around on my ass and do nothing but wait to get well, and the longer I saw diddly squat on the scale, the more my motivation and good nature about all this crap seeped away. I think today is the first day in 4 months i've been really down about it. I'm always all shiny happy and motivated and annoyingly positive about it. Today i'm just... not.
I'm sick of seeing the same damn number on the scale, and sick of being sick and sick of not being able to work out and sick of repeating "well I should be HERE by now" over and over to myself. Just totally bummed that i'm so close to 199, and everything has stalled.
My eating has been fine, although my sleep has been screwed up lately. After a month of taking sleepy-time medicine at night, when I finally stopped taking it, i'm having a hard time sleeping. I dont know why -that- would eff up my weight loss though. Some people think its the medicine, some people think its just cause I was sick, and to stfu and let my body do its thing lol. Well I have news for you body. you're done doing your thing, do MY thing!


In other news. I had a promising phone call from a potential job the other day. I'm trying to get back to the austin area. My bf already secured a job there so he's already there, and i'm stuck trying to get a job there from 3 hours away. I sent in my resume and they called the very next day, so that -seems- like a good plan, though nothings been decided yet and i'll have to drive down for an interview and such at some point. So that was some good news to hear, i've been trying for 2 freaking months to find jobs out there.

AND EVEN WITH ALL THE WEIGHT FRUSTRATION I've noticed one or two nice things non-weight related. I've discovered yet another pair of pants (well black capri thingies really) that are too big. almost laughably too big. they'll still stay on my butt, but any time I get up from a chair or reach up high for something they start falling off. I think its time to retire them. I've also noticed that my face has thinned out, and I suddenly have dimples that I never had before. Weird.
 
CONFESSION TIME. joy.
A couple days after my last post, I had a.... bad day. Probably the only "bad" day i've had in my diet this entire 4 months of dieting. Just a lot of stress adding up, argued with the boyfriend, irritated to still be here at my mom's waiting on jobs to call me back, irritated with my step dad and my 5 step siblings running around breaking my stuff and being loud, sick of sleeping on a couch, sick of being 3 hours away from my bf for the last 3 months, sick of feeling useless, sick of not having my own space...
ETC ETC ETC ETC

I was bad. Could have been worse, but I was still bad.

chocolate syrup in my coffee
TWO plain cake donuts (thank god I hate icing)
sweet cream cheese-filled pretzel bites
FRIED mozzarella sticks
breaded spicy chicken breast
1 single serving bag of doritos
2 chocolate/peanut butter granola bars
a handful of candy the kids got from a homecoming parade
and to top it all off, a hamburger and fries from a fast food place.

So I had the entire next day of being unbelievably sick to my stomach to ponder why I did that to myself. Aside from a couple lean pockets and 1 trip to have mexican food for lunch with my mom, I've been a freaking angel with my eating since May 23rd when I started. So where did my resolve go all of a sudden?
*shrug*
I have no real answer, other than stress, compounded with paying attention to every single little thing that goes in my mouth for 4 months, and being sick and feeling unmotivated and crappy lately all just made me feel... trapped.

I'm not going to over think it though. Shit happens. I DID learn my lesson though, holy crap. I felt like death the entire next day, AND my weight popped up at 205.2 I am glad to say its back at 204 today, after getting back in the right mind frame.

So I've RENEWED MY RESOLVE! I did this for 3 months before the last month was spent sick, I can do it for another 3 months now that i'm better. I'm going to keep track of my food honestly in here so that doesn't happen again!
Yesterday I had coffee, a shake and a banana for breakfast, A small sandwich and baby carrots for lunch (gluten free bread, 150 cals for 2 slices. turkey, tomato, onion, fat free cheese and mustard), shake for a snack, grilled chicken and steamed broccoli for dinner.

Today, shake for breakfast, shake for snack, 4-5oz of tuna mixed with artichoke/garlic tapenade for lunch. I'll have another shake later, and home made tortilla soup (minus the tortillas) and a V8 for dinner. And of course, I drink LOTS of water. At least thats one thing i've never struggled with.
 
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201.5!
I was 204 this morning!
I love my shakes. It looks SO UNBELIEVABLY GOOD to see a brand new low after weeks of being stuck!
soooo happy. Hope I see 199 really soon!
 
GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT

As of today, I have officially lost 30 pounds.
THIRTY!
Never thought i'd be so happy to weigh 200 pounds lol. And just one more to see that gorgeous onederland I hear so much about!

I can't tell you how lucky i'm feeling that it looks like the weight I had gained from being sick and that 1 bad binge day was all water weight. When I woke up yesterday I was 204, by the time I went to bed I was 201.5, which I don't think has -ever- happened to me before. friggin ever.

I'm almost afraid to be getting into the 100s. Like i'm afraid i'll see 199, the stall again. I'd just be happy to move nice and smoothly down into the 190s, at least a few pounds away from 199 so I dont have to worry about waking up one morning and randomly seeing that 2 again!
 
I was going to wait and do this when I hit 199, but 200 works just fine, its a nice round -30 instead of -31. I'm weird that way.
MEASURING TIIIIME! This is what my starting measurements were at 230lbs, and what they are as of today!

Bust 44-42.5
Under bust 37-34
Waist 36-33
Belly Button 47-42
Hips 51-45
Thigh 24.5-23.5
Bicep 11-10.5
Calf- 16-15

22 Inches!
 
ok last entry for today I swear.
Trying to make an effort to keep up with my eating in here! Today wasn't bad, but it wasn't as consistent as I'd like to be in terms of eating every 3 hours or so.

breakfast- shake (100 cals)
snack- shake and banana (200 cals)
lunch- leftover homemade tortilla soup (minus the tortilla chips) and 2 thin slices of summer sausage. (200 cals)
No snack after, I took a nap around 2 and didnt wake up till almost 5.
dinner- I had 1 tempura shrimp that I pulled the breading off of(6 cals?), and 1 garlic chicken lean pocket (260 cals)
snack- I'm going to have a can of V8(70 cals) and maybe another shake before bed cause my calories look kinda low.

lean pockets are gonna be the death of me. I'm big on convenience I guess lol, and i'd rather make something I can throw in the microwave for 2 minutes than cook on the stove. I was going to make brussel sprouts and chicken, but someone ate all my chicken! and my bag of frozen brussel sprouts is huge, and no one else likes them so I keep putting off eating them. I guess i'll just divide up the bag.

Anyways, weighing in at 200 this morning, now sitting at 201. considering I usually gain 3 pounds during the day from eating, I'm hoping thats a good sign I'll see a 199 soon!


despite all of that though, i'm feeling strangely down today. just random stabs of sadness, totally uncharacteristic of me and i cant seem to shake it.
probably just hormones exacerbated by stress mentioned a few posts back. TOMs supposed to hit probably in less than a week, hoping that doesn't mess me up being so close to onederland.
 
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Guess who's a nice round, totally awesome 199?


THIS GIRL!

*celebrates*
I have only 9 more to go to hit my goal for halloween, and only 26 more to get into the "healthy" range for my BMI (take that for what its worth, I know bmi charts are generalized) and I want to hit that by the beginning of 2011. Thats what... 3 months away? Its gonna be tight, but if i'm lucky i'll get close!
 
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