Kaitie's Open Diary

Hello again Dariqueen and Cannon!

I'm trying very hard not to think about this teaching situation and I have high hopes that the fruits of my labors for the past 3 years (which have made my principal look VERY good (not to brag)) will be enough to have her cut someone else (sorry, that sounds so evil!) It's the self-preservation in me! Even though I don't want my cushy job to change, I'll take a change in schools (ugh, even the thought makes me cringe) or split schools over unemployment. Argh! Ok, going back to not thinking about it!

Wishes: I spent an hour and a half on the bike today and burnt 425 calories. You must use a very high level!

John is watching this really stupid movie called Dragon Wars---oy vey is it bad!!!
 
isthe 425 calories what the bike says or the heart rate monitor says? HRm will generally give you a higher number... becuase it's basiing it on how hard your heart is working - the monitor on the equipment is pretty generic.. and not always accurate...
 
Ok, so I'm annoyed. I lost 2.4 pounds last week (officially on Saturday) and since then, I've gained it all back! WTF!!! Saturdays eating sucked by I oly gained back .4 from that and then I freakin' ate like a rabbit on Sunday and did 15 miles on the bike and I gain weight??????????? All the numbers are fine so why does my body not reflect what the numbers say? Good calories and exercise and I gain weight??

Grr. I'm annoyed. I'm back to 156.4---Argh!!!
 
Hey Kaitie - Im sorry about all the stress going on in your life right now...

I would assume if you ate like a rabbit all day long and went 15 miles on the bike maybe you arent eating enough ???
 
must be the time of the year lol , i gained like 10lb in less than a week and i have been cycling and eating well! :O
I figure its temporary, easy come, easy go :D
 
LOL...well Wishes, I sure did show the scale who's boss today---2 brownies and a candy bar---that'll teach that scale to go up on me! Oy vey....if I complain tomorrow, someone slap me. :)
 
How do I solve the problem of lack of motivation?

I seriously don't want to be fat again and here I go....up, up, up the scale.

My problem is this: I think I'm in denial about having something wrong with me. When I eat I feel funny, when I don't eat I get shaky....all just very weird stuff....I'm starving to death right now and feel a little woozy but in my quest to lose weight I'm not eating until lunch time (30 minutes).

I know, I need to see the doctor---I totally thought that losing all this weight would keep me from getting (my own self diagnosis here) type 2 diabetes etc...

You'd think that seeing the numbers going in the wrong direction would be motivation, you'd think that me feeling weird would be motivation---gosh I'm a freakin' slug.
 
So... Mother Maleficent says -whatchoo waitin' for Pretty Miss - make an appointment..

If you aren't feeling up to snuff - go to the doctor - there's no reason to not feel like yourself and jsut worry...

What you're feeling could be a bazillion different things... but you won't know that -unless you get yourself checked..

And everyone is entitled to sluggish moments - you were going great blazes for a long time - you need a break -
 
Ok, after a horrible 10 pound gain in just two weeks I finally went to the doctor. Who gains 10 pounds in two weeks? I did not eat 49,000 calories!!! So I'm getting checked for diabetes and thyroid issues. Why couldn't I have hyper-thyroid problems....I could handle having to eat to not be too skinny.

Anyway, I'm at an obscenely indecent weight (and having major spelling issues with obscenely and indecent) and I'm not happy about it---not one freakin' bit.

I've forbidden myself from buying anything 'special' (material items) until I'm back down to the less evil number---which I'm not telling you.

Grr... well at least school is out in a few days and John and I can go back to our two-a-day exercise routines--morning and night. I refuse to be a fat ass...and I'm not goin' down without a fight.

This is a disgusting smiley....:puke:
 
School's out for summer and I'm back to taking care of myself. Let's both use this time to nurture to ourselves. Good job getting that stuff checked out. There are a lot of factors that can lead to sudden weight gain besides overindulging and it is a good idea to get them checked out.
 
Hello Cannon!!

I can't believe the year is over...I feel like you and I were talking about last year's school year ending just 3 seconds ago. Time flies---and yet stands still, if you know what I mean.

Today was fine, 2 graduation ceremonies (please tell me why kindergartners need a graduation ceremony?) and cub scouts....I'm pooped. Walked for half an hour on the treadmill (1.7 miles) and rode the bike for 15 minutes (4 miles). Tomorrow I'm getting my tests done so hopefully I can figure things out.

Ok.....time to watch the top chef reunion special!
 
Ok...bad eating day. Also, the scale went up .2 today even though I exercised my butt off yesterday.....grr.

Blood work was done and over with in 10 minutes...seriously I walked in and no one else was there (which is bizarre) so I was in and out and on time to work. Very strange, good but strange.

Gotta try harder tomorrow.
 
Hey there :)

That is all you can do, try harder the next day. You seem to have your mind in the right place, getting the exercise done is trick within itself sometimes. I'm planning on going to the gym tonite after work but I'm honestly still talking myself into it until I'm there, hehe.

Going to the doctor and getting bloodwork was a very good idea. I know it's a pain and can be scary too, but remember knowledge is power.

-Sam
 
OMH, dress buying fiasco today.

I'm fine with having to buy a dress a couple sizes bigger because of the boobs---it sucks but I can handle it, it's been that way forever and I've known it....so why today when I couldn't find a single dress in a size 12 (b/c of the boobs) to fit me and why the one size 14 that I cried while putting on was too big made me go bizerk...idk. Complete meltdown. Seriously, crying in the store while John kept trying to calm me down---it was a nightmare.

Weight was up yesterday and down today. No surprise, I ate like crap on Thursday so of course the Friday scale was going to suck---I even told myself not to get on it but stupid me. Anyway today's was better and idk about tomorrows. I didn't eat like crap but I did have ice cream (ok, a big ice cream cone--with yummy sprinkles) and idk why I even ate the wedding cake after the first bite made me gag but I did...so I guess I'm saying that tomorrow's weigh in might suck. Oy vey.
 
Ok so today's been pretty good. Almost fell asleep in church it was so hot. Scale was down this morning so 3.4 pounds until I can give myself a reward. I've got this nasty freaky bug bite, it itches really bad, it's hot and burns, and it's so BIG!! I swear it's almost the size of the bottom of a drinking glass.....it's crazy. I got it last night and no matter what I do, what I put on it it's still itching, burning, and hot. It's making me a little nervous--what kind of bug could do that?

2 more days of school---I wonder what they'll make us do tomorrow b/c we don't have any kids! I'm all packed up and ready for next year so I'll just be surfin' the internet for 7 hours tomorrow---getting paid for it but still---at least make me go to some stupid workshop, at least then I'd feel like I was doing something.

Ok, enough griping for now....
 
3 1/2 hours into my 'getting paid to do nothing' day....and I'm really bored. Weight was down again this morning so that's a good thing. I find that the more bored I get the lazier I get--which isn't a good thing. I need something to do or else the scale will not be kind tomorrow, I need something to burn off some calories.

Blah.....
 
Hey Wishes!

I went to the gym and used the rowing machine, which I've never used before, and it was kind of fun! I actually plan on doing it again today--shake things up a little with the cardio routine.

3.2 pounds until I can buy a little something special for myself!
 
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