Kadie :)

I wish! I just didn't have time. I don't eat after 6 o'clock either. If I do, I don't stop. I went shopping after my morning workout and breakfast and by the time I got home it was dinner time. :(
 
yesterday was kashi, carrots and peanut butter, a dr. pepper :( and pasta for dinner...
It wasn't a good day.
I did ride in the morning though.

This morning I rode again.
Kashi for breakfast.
My mom, my boyfriend's mom, and a few friends are doing weightwatchers. I think I'll give it a try. Any advice anyone?

I tried it once but I ended up eating more than normal because I eat less than my "points". I didn't stick with it long enough to see if it worked.
 
Recap of the day:
bike ride

kashi
sugar free pudding
milk
yogurt/granola
slice of cheese pizza
 
thats all you ate today?

I won't play mother hen, but are you sure you are eating enough? serioously...

OK, back to my corner now..

Excellent on the bike ride.. :)
 
I know. I've just been busy. It isn't an excuse but I'm not usually hungry when I'm preoccupied and I just don't think about eating. I'm working on it!

kashi
wheat crackers and lowfat cheese
2 pickles
salad with cucumbers, black olives, green peppers, and lots of pepper :)
mac n' cheese

<3
 
Shopping in St. Augustine today which means a lot of walking, but I forgot my pedometer. I did my usual bike ride this morning, about 9.5 miles.

Breakfast- carrot/pumpkin muffin and a 1/4 of unsalted walnuts
Lunch- 1/2 single serving 6" cheese pizza and 2 pickles
Dinner- Salad and pickles

I love pickles....

I lost another two pounds!
 
Nice job on the 2 lbs that went *poof*

I'd say you have the athletism and (apparent) youth to meet any weight loss goal you set out to do.

If I see any more near-starvation going on in here, I will bring the Twiny Stick and correct this deficiency.

:p ;) :D :)
 
OK, the Twinny Stick might have to be brought out anyway...

Hi Kadie, Welcome to the forum

You certainly have the motivation to reach your goals, but if you continue to eat too few calories, your body will go into starvation mode and SHUT down.

It won't process or burn calories well - your excercise, cycling or yoga will be for nothing if your body won't burn calories because it thinks a famine is upon you.

You'll lose muscle weight as well as fat, but muscle helps burn calories.

There are sensible ways of losing weight, and meeting certain levels of calories and nutritional values is primary.

I know you're busy (I had one of those busy, too low calorie days myself) but this seems to be a daily repeating pattern.

You really need to be able to work with your body to lose weight healthfully!

I don't mean to sound harsh, but I do hope you'll look into the daily calorie and nutritional input your body needs, not only to lose weight, but to be healthy too :)
 
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Thanks for your concerns guys. It really does mean a lot to me. It is kind of a long story why, I'll explain if you'd like to know, but it feels great to have people here who not only support my goals but care about how I reach them.

Today was shopping for dorm stuff, yay!
30 min. on the treadmil

breakfast :carrot/pumpkin muffin and skim milk
Snack: skim cheese stick
Lunch: 1/4 cup unsalted walnuts/Salad, cucumbers, black olives, feta/1 slice wheat bread
Dinner: wild grain rice and green beans

better? :)
 
Hello Kadie,

I've just finished reading your diary for the first time and I must say your goals are reasonable.

I have a few suggestions that seem to be working for me....they are figure out about how many calories you need a day and then plan out meals for a week and pack lunches and snacks the night before if you need them to go for the next day. That way you won't forget to eat something.

I don't know if you'd want to count calories ( I didn't but I've found it's easier for me to keep track of eating and snacking and such) but even just doing it once in a while to see how things are going might help you to know if you're eating enough.
 
Alright here goes.
Short Version: I was taking diet pills and eating about 500 calories a day on and off for 2 and 1/2 years.

Longer version: I have been a cheerleader/dancer/tennis player for most of my life. I never had a problem keeping off the weight and I figured it was from 3 hr/3 day a week competitive cheerleading practice, training, and dance practice. I was never the skinniest but I was about the height I am now (5'3) and 115 pounds, the suggested weight. When high school started I became a bit overwhelmed with clubs, practice, and all of my homework and began putting on a little weight. Having to wear a mini skirt and cropped top cheerleading uniform is good motivation to keep off the weight and I happen to get my hands on a large stash of diet pills with ephedra. I figured I'd give them a try and was amazed at how much energy I had. When I started taking them I was very careful to have 1600 calories a day including all the suggested daily amounts of everything. (I'm a vegetarian so I don't get my protein from meat which was my only real challenge) At that point in my life I actually wanted to be a personal trainer and nutritionist. I was seeing results, down to about 110 from 125 or so and I loved it. As soon as the competitive season was over I stopped taking the pills but kept eating healthy. Of course, I gained weight back. I knew I needed to stop taking the pills and didn't plan on using them again but getting back into that uniform was hard. When you go to events where literally thousands of girls are walking around with 6-pack abs and twig legs it's hard. I did well for about 4 months but gradually started taking them regularly again. It got to a point where, unintentionally, I would only have 300-500 calories a day. I just wasn't hungry because of the pills and wasn't taking the time out of my busy schedule to eat if I "didn't need to". No one in my family noticed, but I think they just thought I was losing weight because I was getting older and exercising more. My cheerleading squad and coaches were constantly complimenting me. Finally, one friend happened to notice while we were on a week long trip that I wasn't eating. I would never consider myself to have had an eating disorder. I wasn't ignoring my body and it's hunger, I was just taking something to make myself not have any. I know it's a strange concept but it makes sense to me. I don't know how I have gotten to this point looking back. My freshman year I began at 115-ish, ended it at 108. Sophomore was 120 and I ended it at about 112. 2 years later I'm 145, well 141 :). I have been afraid to diet and exercise like I used to mostly because I was afraid I would slip into old habits... I usually tell stories better but I don't have a lot of practice with this one. Sorry :(
 
Don't apologize at all - it was completely honest... and you told it beautifully...

It's a legitimate fear you have... but you've got people watching out for you -- who have weapons and not afraid to use them :D - who will point out when you're not doing something as good for oyu as it could be :)
 
A story worth telling Kadie. Thanks for being honest with yourself and sharing that with the forum.

keep fighting the good fight.
 
Oh Kadie,
Thank you for sharing that story - it does explain things a bit better. Do your parents now know you were taking the diet pills? What is your home support network like and are you still cheerleading?

If you want to lose weight AND keep it off, you really need to create a livable plan for you and your body. Starving it will only make issues harder for you in the long run. Your body will not burn calories efficiently if it's not getting enough calories.

You can lose weight, but the goal is to keep the weight off and be strong and healthy. You owe that to yourself. You deserve to be!

What's your current plan?
 
Thanks for all your support guys! Sorry it has been a few days. I went on vacation :) Well, the smile probably isn't so good on the scale but I am going to work really hard the next few days, before I get on the scale again. I don't want to be discouraged.
M2M- Right now I am not cheering but I may tryout when I get to school next month. If not, I will be auditioning for the dance team. Right now I am just doing 1-2 hours of cardio 6 days a week, yoga/pilates 3 days a week, and a bit of weight training whenever I can get to the gym-usually 1 or 2 days a week. I am on a 1200 calorie diet, really just plan on watching what I eat and not eating after 6pm (or whenever dinner is). I'm an awful late night snacker.

Friday wasn't too bad, considering it was a travel day mostly.
Breakfast was kashi
Lunch was a 6" veggie sub on wheat with a diet dr. pepper.
Snack was a few pringles, 1 oreo, and an apple.
Dinner was wheat spaghetti with my mom's homemade sauce <3

Didn't really get a chance to exercise but I did swim laps for about 30 minutes.

Saturday
Breakfast was shredded wheat
We went scalloping in the gulf so it was a long day on the boat (which means snorkeling and lots of swimming!)
Snack was a skim milk cheese stick and a 100 calorie pack ritz chips
Lunch was well actually I don't remember and it seems I didn't write it down either. I think it was a sandwich and some pringles.
Dinner was a veggie burger with a bun and 2 slices of cheese.

Sunday
Breakfast was shredded wheat and a cheese stick.
Made Chris go hiking with me. It was a bird watching trail but there were no trees so it was much hotter than I expected. Oh well, a little sun never hurt!
Lunch was a veggie burger with the bun and 2 slices of cheese.
Snack was chips :(
Dinner was tacos (2 tortillas, 1 hard shell, lettuce, lowfat cheese, veggies, and salsa)

Today was shredded wheat, soy meat sandwich and some almonds so far. Oh and I had an ice cream. I'm thinking I need a light dinner and a few hours in the gym to get back on track.

I missed you all!
 
Dinner last night was a quesedilla... not so good but not bad either.

I have a board meeting this weekend (Friday-Sunday) for Circle K... I am hoping I can have a better weekend than last. Eek...
 
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