Jootsie's Journey

Hi everyone

dang I have been busy...i think i counted about 1200 calories yesterday. I dont know if I mentioned but I took my exercise ball to work and I am sitting on it at my desk during the day.

I didnt get a chance to walk tonight or yesterday, but as I watched top chef yesterday I did walking in place and some dancing..(i looked silly i am sure)

Today I have had
nonfat yogurt and kashi go lean

an orange

1 chicken breast
salad
Sesame Ginger dressing

a mcdonald hamburger (i was on the run)

a pudding

i dont think thats many calories..i havent had a chance to add

how is everyone...
 
Hi Jootsie,

Get that exercise in any way you can... even if you look silly. Anyway Silly is FUN!!!!

You're eating looks good to me. There are things much worse than one plain hamburger that you could have gotten at McDonald's.

I hope your doing well
Have a good night
~Jenna
 
argh..

struggling

gained back the 4 pounds

very depressed about it today --- maybe because i am exhausted from lack of sleep, stayed out till 2 am...last nite, went to see Nickelback/Daughtry/Stained last night......had a great time but very very tired. Ate too much over the weekend and yesterday (GRad parties)....

i didnt want to post this but feeling like crap that i cant stay in control of my bingeing
 
Its so hard to control the binging when our body is so tired ... it wants energy!

It is good that your realizing that you can't control the binging and what might be causing it. I know its upsetting that the four pounds are back but if you move past the binging this weekend(I know its easier said than done) and get back to eating healthy those pounds will come back off.

Stay strong and keep going.
~Jenna
 
Hey Jootsie..
I used to binge all the time ..
you will get to the point where you won't binge..

don't be too hard on yourself

just go back to the drawing board ..

you are doing good! Keep up the good work!
and those four pounds will fly off before you know it!

best wishes
always
natalie jo
 
Okay. I almost didnt come back but i NEED too. I had a really rough week last week. My one dtr had knee surgery and i had some other very personal stuff going on. I mean hard/emotional personal stuff where I cried for 2 full days. I also ate anything I wanted and drank anythign I wanted and I feel like crap.....

Yesterday was the worst...I felt bloated all day and unmotivated. I know I need to really make the commitment to myself....

What can I say, I will start all over today and try to be very honest in this diary about my emotions/my food intake....

Maybe also I should not limit myself for the first week. Maybe I should just eat "normally" and journal it so I see what self destructive behavior I have. Maybe I should journal my feelings with my eating....instead of trying to be so good so fast....I set myself up for failure.

What does my body feel like right now...bloated...out of shape...my knees hurt when i walk down the stairs. I feel unmotivated. I feel sexy about 50 percent of the time..but for real..i would like to have more sex ;-)...but my husband is also very overweight and it affects that part of our relationship...besides that and the fact we have had such tragedy in our life lately.

So i dont know what to have my goal be today, but i know i gotta not give up..ya know...

just not give up....
 
okay...just in a really bad mood...cuz of my weakness...

so i had a few low carb wraps today with some leftover chicken/tuna..

then i wanted something more so i had a few wheat thins..and i dont even like wheat thins......

i am wanting a smoothie..i guess i can look up recipes for low fat smoothies....i am thinking that would fill me up

i think i am pms'ing so bad....i cant shake this mood.....
 
Sorry to hear about your daugther.
You seem to be doing good great choices of foods and a nice variety.As for feeling old on a bike-here in germany 90 year olds rides bikes!!!Just think of the excercise your getting its so worth it!
 
I'm soo sorry for all you have had to deal with lately.
You seem to have made a first goal for yourself and that is to NOT give up. This is the first step to truly want to make a change and commit to it. You have to find what will work for you... if easing into life changes is what is going to allow you to stick with them then do that.

We're all here to support you in whichever way you choose you need to do this.

~Jenna
 
thanks everyone

i just got up from a long nap...and again i am hungry..truly hungry...i made a salad with some steak that the kid/hubby had for dinner...

and i took out the month free membership letter that i got at the benefit they did for my dtr after she died (drunk driving accident)....they gave it away as a gift and the person who received it gave it to me...i should really really use it and just go in...

the problem i have is that i truly truly truly get hungry to the point where lowfat diet type foods do not satisfy me...i try sandwhiches with low cal bread..lotsa veggies..but nothing seems to satisfy me..then i get really bummed that i cant eat and i say f it....

probably not much different than a lot of people here...

i think that i am not going to go crazy with the diet but i am going to just be me for awhile and adjust that way...keep journaling as to my feelings and run out to the gym here in a few...

just not give up right..thats the key not give up.....
 
went to the gym

30 minutes treadmill. i did one of the programmed tracks...the cross country one..where it inclines...

then i did arms....biceps/triceps and some shoulders

then i did 20 minutes on eliptical

the biggest loser was on style so i watched that while on eliptical and watched americas next top model while on treadmill

so i have 30 day free membership at this gymmmm....i am gonna try to go right after work or around 8pm when its slow...and when my cravings set in to eat.

back to work tomorrow...after week and 1/2 probably for the best so i am not hanging around this house thinking negative thoughts....
 
Great job at the gym Jootsie:)

You're off to a wonderful start. Finding a time that you feel most comfortable there... it makes it much easier.
 
Hi there Jootsie,

thank you so much for dropping into my journal. :) You are doing fabulous! As for the always being hungry deal, I used to be the same way.. well that is until I learned more about upping my fiber intake. To my surprise, that stuff works really well with making you feel full! hahaa Well that... and water.. lots of it. :) If you're not a big fan of water, then just squeeze a little bit of lemon in there or use Crystal Light type of powder drinks. :) Also, good job with the gym! I have YET to take my arse into one of those. hahaaa!

-Sheryl
 
back to work after 14 days off...probably will be sooo busy the first few days just reading email i will be able to keep my mind off of food

MissBooty...i have some crystal light packets in my desk drawer and so hopefully today i will be satisfied with that...

I am taking

a whole skinless chicken breast
some lettuce (some big fluffy kind..i dont know what its called but it is used for lettuce wraps alot)
a whole garden tomato

a nectarine and a plum

a can of tomato juice

a small ff yogurt

i wasnt gonna take any crackers but i have some wasa crackers..(is that what they are called..)...thats all they raved about in that biggest loser book and ya know what..i really find that they are like biting into corregated cardboard..but hey...i will deal with it..and it will give me the crunch i crave

i also have a few items in my desk...lowfat soup type items...and a frozen lowfat dinner in the fridge..

between all of this i think i can find my way to stay full..

talk later

joots
 
I think you can stay full with that. You made some great food choices to take to work with you:)
 
I did alright today

I think

I need to go grocery shopping badly. Our closest market closed not long ago and so its a couple mile drive for me to go. Not bad, but late at night when you are tired it sucks. I ran to the corner CVS and bought a dozen eggs..(boiled them to take to breakfast), some granola bars, and cottage cheese. Just till I can get to the store.


I ended up eating my bread pretty much all at dinner. I didnt eat any bread during the day...well I guess the graham crackers are bread.

For dinner, I ended up having about a cup of chicken noodle soup, that I had actually made for my daughter..with the broth from the chicken i boiled last night. I put lots of sage and spices in the broth..it was yummy..and two peices of bread...sorry...i was starving...

then i went and worked out. I did the nautilus. I thought maybe I would do one side of the room one night (legs, back) and do the other side (shoulders, chest) the other. And do some abs and arms every time i go. Freeweights on the arms. I dont like the nautilus for the biceps and triceps.....

Then i did about 20 minutes on the treadmill. I even ran a few minutes....i dont think i have the right shoes for that because i could feel the side of my foot getting wierd.....and then i did a full 30 minutes on the elliptical....and i did it at a pretty good pace. I was hoping to sweat more...i notice some of the guys were like sweating sooooo much and i only sweated a little. I guess I am not going to "sweat the small stuff"

But i am just right now...trying to slowly modify things....slowly..not drastically....especially my food. for lunch i cut up a chicken breast, and put a whole garden tomato and lettuce...and then put rice vinegar and just a TOUCH of italian dressing on it...just a touch..just to flavor. I love the rice vinegar...it is tangy slightly.....


For breakfast, I took some peach yogurt, and cut up my plum and mixed it with one graham cracker......

oh well trying a little variety ya know.

First day back at work and I certainly worked hard........

well thanks for listening (those who are)...

Joots
 
Great job at the gym today Joots!!!

You're really working it... your off to a great start.

Small changes are great... listen to your body and don't push it too far.

Everyone sweats different amounts... personally... i love to sweat like it means I worked out harder... but that isn't necessarily soo:)
 
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