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jmnewsome

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i've been horrible at keeping my emotional journal while on my healthy, weight loss journey to a better life, so i'm hoping this will help me out here. (i love this board!)
anyway - for some background info - always been overweight, etc, but hit my highest weight after the birth of my youngest daughter. i was at 296. right now i'm at 267 (week before monthly cycle weight, so may not be accurate) and my goal is to be 165-170 (hopefully by my birthday next year, which is totally feasible). my biggest challenge is eating healthy 90% of the time. i don't have a problem working out (though with a recent foot injury it's a little hindered, so i'm working hard on keeping my diet very good!!!). anyway - i'm gonna put in the journals that i've written since this november. yeah - like i said - i have not been successful with my journal writing and i started this program in/around july.
this is a picture of me on my 29th birthday which was in october. i was at 259.
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october was a very hard month for me b/c i wanted to make it into the 250s and i did, so i celebrated and went way overboard for about 2 weeks. it was crazy and so not myself. anyway - so my TRUE life begins!
 
sun., nov 12, 2006

no exercise.
not been successful with healthy eating habits. my hormones really screw me up.
i think i have plantar fascitis in my left foot, so i definitely need to find some alternative workouts. probably circuit training or something.
diet was horrible, b/c i had pizza and didn't stop at just one slice - i just kept eating.
lift for life board is really motivational and helpful. i don't know how to stop myself from eating sometimes though.
day 2 with no cigarettes ((to explain this...i used to smoke about 3 or so years ago and when i get really hugely upset, i smoke. last time i spoked, my father died. a year and a few months ago. well, a couple days before i wrote this i was really stressed about my weight/fitness & foot problems, plus - i'm experiencing some pms symptoms that i've never had to deal with before...so there ya go))
 
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mon., nov. 13, 2006

i'm going to alter my routine a bit until i can get my foot in working order. so, m, w, f will be weights (upper body focus), and t & th will be a short cardio session. just 20-30 minutes. probably a workout video.
i've been in a slump of bad things so i really need to get going. i found a good weightloss blog/forum that i hope will help me. around tax time i'm looking into buying an elliptical. also a mountain bike. i can't wait to go biking with suzan.
cycle definitely starting today, so that helps a little bit in explaining why i've felt so ravenous! whew!
anyway - packing lunches the evening before is a definite plus and thank goodness my friends got me the foreman grill. i love it!
 
tue., nov 14, 2006

i actually did weights this morning b/c i forgot about the schedule i made for myself. i'm actually going to work on a calendar with the schedule already printed on it and hang it up. i need thing to be "official" and in my face and i seem to do better. it's all in my head, i'm sure, but it helps me, so whatever helps!
 
wed., nov., 15, 2006

:) today's my first official entry in "real time". i'm very excited i found this blog, b/c it's already helped me so much. i do still like the lift for life blog, as well, but this one is geared more toward what i need and what i'm looking for at the present time. it's exciting to see people that are in the same stages & situation that i am. i enjoy looking at all the motivational before & after pics, etc. i can't wait to be able to post some pics there of me! whoo hooo!!!! i've already changed tremendously, but i don't have any before photos, b/c you wouldn't really catch me posing anywhere.
anyway - no workout for me this morning. i had a hard time sleeping last night and did not wake in time. definitely can not get on the computer in the evening, b/c it keeps me awake. it's stimulating i guess.
anyway - awesome to be here! whoo hooo!!!!

so, in terms of workouts - i've decided to code each entry with a thumbs up or thumbs down. however, i can put smiles the body of my post if i'm in an overall good mood about where i'm at in my journey of health!
 
thr., nov. 16, 2006

;) it's raining today, seriously bad...anyway. i didn't exercise this morning, b/c i didn't go to bed like i should have last night. however, i'm giving today a thumb's up b/c not being able to exercise like i normally do has given me a lot of time to get my eating in order and really think about what i'm doing. also, having the "extra" time to consider things, i've decided that i am going to go ahead and start training for my group fitness certification. i'm no where near the weight or shape i should be in to do fitness instruction; however, why not study now and keep myself motivated?!? right? i'm very excited about that! i was struggling trying to figure out if i should go back to school, or pick up other hobbies, etc. and then a light just kinda came on and i said to myself, "why am i putting this off? this is what you really want to do so go ahead and get started!" so - that's really exciting.
also - drinking gads of water is really helping. i can just feel the difference in the way i feel in general and i'm not feeling way hungry all of the time and i never get thirsty, which is great!
this board is definitely going to help me through some hard times too, b/c i love reading other posts and seeing what others go through and knowing i'm not alone. also, it's just great for motivation, period!
so yeah - i just need to remind myself that sleep is also important, so i'll be able to get up early and get it together. i'm definitely moving in the right direction!
 
Hey girl! Where are you in NC, if you don't mind my asking? It's raining cats and dogs here too, with all the tornado activity in the area and all.

I was just reading through your diary and you seem very motivated. You CAN do this! Life gets in the way sometimes, but I like how you've perservered! Keep it up! *shakes pom poms*
 
Welcome to the forum! Glad to have you around! everyone is very helpful around here and we have a lot of fun! So I'm glad you came and I hope you enjoy it as much as I have!!:)
 
thanks for visiting my diary, ya'll! i try my hardest to stay motivated no matter what. of course, it's hard - but that's life and i wouldn't just give up on life altogether, so no way i'm giving up on the life I want!

visit whenever you like. i love company!:)
 
Your attitude is GREAT! I'll come around as often as I can to check on you and give you a boost whenever you need it!! Have a wonderful day!!! :) *shakes my pom poms* :D
 
LOL Yea, I love my pom poms! T2 made the first two for me and Wishes made the last one...I lined them up to look like a progression through my life stages. :p *shakes pom poms and dashes*
 
fri., nov. 17, 2006

:) no exercise today either; however, if you check out my signature you'll see i'm not complaining. this foot problem has opened another opportunity for me - focusing on my eating habits to put them back in check. it's been a real eye-opener and i'm glad i had this "down" time to work on it. i wasn't doing horrible when i did exercise all the time, but it's good to go over the diet once in a while, find some new things, etc.
anyway - so the county (i work for the county) has a holida challenge going. basically it's to see if people can maintain their weight through the holidays. i actually plan to keep steadily losing weight through the holiday/winter season, but this is awesome too. i got a couple of other people to join from my office, so that was kewl too. we'll see how they do. i hope i can keep them motivated.
also - there are times when i feel like some things just make sense. i'm not sure i believe in luck or fate, but it is great timing that the ACE group fitness tests will be held in NC on 11/3/07. that gives me a little less than a year to study - which is great - and to reach my goal! i'm extremely excited! and the thing is..i don't have to complete reach my goal to take the exam. i mean - i could take it now if i knew the material, but i want to show up and have them knowing that i walk the walk to be able to talk the talk, ya know? so - it's already been discussed with my David that the first of the year i will get my study materials and also all my mountain biking equipment. super excited about the mountain biking, b/c my friend, Suzan is gonna take me on the trails and also get me into some beginner adventure races. freakin' awesome! so yeah - there are lots of things to motivate me. besides the fact that i can buy smaller clothes and i just ordered a sweater from one of my favorite stores! (aeropostale - i probably spelled it wrong)
so yeah - i'll definitely get in The Firm aerobic video tomorrow while the girls are napping, so that works.
oh yeah - and i love honey glazed salmon. i finally tried the recipe out and grilled it on the foreman - it was actually pretty good. whoo hooo!
 
Hi JM!!! Just wanted to pop by and say great job at weigh in today!! You're off to a great start!! :D:D

And it's great that you can focus you attention on eating habits. That part of this whole process was a real eye opener for me. I never realized how much I actually put in my mouth on a daily basis :eek:.

Have a great Friday!! :D:D
 
yeah, no kidding. same for me. i've done it before and stayed pretty much on track, but when i'm not focusing on it i do consume at least 500 calories more from just taking a bite of this a taste of that, so yeah - it helps to "refresh" on the eating habits!

thanks for stopping in :)
 
mon., nov. 20, 2006

so - let's just say i completely bombed this weekend. hahahah! i didn't eat a lot, but what i did eat was horrible. i'm not sure if it's a combination of being lazy on the weekends and the fact that it's getting colder, or if my mind and will just aren't as strong as they used to be. i don't know. i didn't exercise and didn't eat well, and all the while in my mind i was thinking of all the things i'm going to do this week for exercise and health.
the true is, no matter how much i want to sway the other way during the holidays and not succumb to the pressure of all the great food and festivities, it's not going to happen. i enjoy the holidays and i love the idea of cooking loving, warm foods to share and eating them. that's just the truth. so yet again, another goal change. my goal for the holiday season is just not to over do it. when i have thanksgiving dinner or Christmas dinner, eat what i want, but don't stuff myself until i feel sick and the biggest part of the goal for this season (nov & dec) is to make sure i exercise.
so - i realize some may not condone my way of thinking, but for me, it's the only way i'm going to survive and not kill myself during this season. this is a process for the rest of my life and i can't go overboard saying i'm never going to have parties or go to social events, etc. and not have what i really want to have. i need to be realistic and that's how i've failed before is not allowing myself to be realistic in my efforts.
anyway - so there you have it. i'm human. go figure! hehehehehe!
 
slip ups will happen from time to time.. just remember to take it one meal at a time... what matters is what you do today... :D Keep going and you are doing great!
 
tue., nov. 21, 2006

((first - thanks to my friends for the encouragement - you gals rock!))
okay, so it's completely chillin' outside and rainy...cold, cold rain! so, not that i'm done with the weather report....hehehehehe!
it seems i can't get myself going. i read fitness stuff all day, everday and think...yeah - when i get home or when i get up...nothing happens. i've got to get back to being strict with myself. that's the only way i'm going to make it. i'm wishy-washy and hearing people tell me, "oh, just have some today," isn't good for me. some people can handle it and just have some, but i can't. i'd have more than some and then some more. i'm not sure where i actually jumped off the good, healthy wagon i was on, but i'm sure it started around my birthday and i've probably said that somewhere before in my journal. nevertheless - it's gotta stop. i don't like myself when i'm this way and the whole objective of me losing weight to be healthy is to like myself more, so that i can be better for the rest of my fam. i think somewhere along the way maybe i stopped reminding myself of that.
anyway - on the up side, there are rooms here in the office that aren't used and yesterday i spoke with the admin. asst. and she said i could use any of those room to exercise in during my lunch, so i'm very excited about that. bring my smaller TV and use the ps2 to play dvds and get to business. i'm very excited about that. so...
i have to be realistic....and no, i'm not gonna say starting next week, for me realistic means..i can't work out right now..i'm at work, but tonight @ 830 after the girls are in bed..it's work out time. wow! which just gave me another idea. i was worried, b/c i can't get up early anymore to work out...it just doesn't fit in and i need the sleep as well, so yeah - i could totally use the room for my weightlifting (i use dumbbells and the ball anyway) and then do cardio in the evening. ah, already my mind is sparking..this is a plus. i have to have my plans in writing or it seems i don't stick to them..i don't know why...but anyway...whoo hooo! i'm excited now.
i just have to keep reminding myself that i do love the summer and i'd love to look great at the same time. a little shallow or whatever you say...maybe, but for me it's more than that..it's about how i feel about myself and like some others...i'd like to have a pair of shorts and actually wear them out in public instead of looking ridiculous in jeans or capri pants. it's about feeling sexy and beautiful to myself. anyway - so yeah....
also, to those of you who may read this..i love the dave matthews band, so i was trying to set a goal for myself around june, which is concert season and they always come to NC around that time. so if you have any number suggestions, weight wise, let me know. i was thinking around 60 lbs. by june. do you feel that's a good goal? help me out! thanks!!!! :)
 
First of all I'd like to say, good for you for asking your boss about using that room to work out in! That's awesome and you're very fortunate to have a considerate boss!

As for the weight, I'd say a safe estimate is 1-2 pounds a week...granted they'll be weeks that there's more but that's the healthy range. I'm too lazy to do the math :p ...but that's a fair amount of weight between now and June.
 
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