sat., nov. 25, 2006
so let's see....my diet totally stinks right now and somehow i've completely lost my motivations. well - i haven't lost them, i've ignored them, i guess would be a more accurate statement. so, getting out of the slump is going to be hard, but i've totally gotta make it work. i don't believe in excuses and i really don't have any other than i've not followed my sleep schedule the way i should and that makes everything else crumble. i know exactly what's going on, but reversing or stopping the pattern is way harder than it seems.
to add insult to those injuries - my foot is not getting better & i'm starting to think it's going to be a chronic thing - which totally happens. so now, i need to find the best way to deal with that and yes, i'm going to see the doc in january. til then...it's tape, ice, stretching - whatever i can do to keep the pain down. i've been lucky that there's been no swelling and the pain isn't constant which is great also.
erm..what else...i just can't get it together, but i'm going to do everything i can to re-focus. for a long time, we wouldn't keep any junk in the house, etc., but then i think i had a psycho pms one month and david actually bought the junk i wanted b/c his life felt threatened...(hahahhaa) anyway - he's super supportive and helps a lot (he does all the shopping...isn't that kewl of him...??) anyway, so yeah...we've been talking and he's totally gonna help me out too.
another discovery..i may not need to lose as much weight as i first planned, as it seems that my body fat percentage is not as bad as i thought, but now i'm trying to research the different between bmi and bf%. my bf% indicates that i'm in an acceptable range, but my bmi shows that i'm slightly obese, so i'm confused. anyway - i was aiming for 100 lbs, but i think i'd be happy at 170, which isn't that much less weight to lose, but a little. anyway -
so that's there i am. struggling right now..this has definitely been a low period, but i'm going to find my way back. i've gotta figure out things to do at home to keep me going. it seems if i'm out of the house, i'm fine, so maybe i need to go out more on the weekend to stay distracted..i dont know.
anyway - there ya have it. i'm not perfect..who knew??? geez! hahhaha