tue., dec. 5, 2006
i had some things to take care of yesterday and today, so i didn't get any lifting in during lunch; however, i do have plans for cardio tonight, probably some richard simmons (i just enjoy it more). this weekend wasn't super great. i wasn't lazy, which was a breakthrough, but i kinda "walked" through cardio & didn't eat well at all.
i'm learning to accept the fact that i won't always eat well and instead of punishing myself or being upset about it forever, i just think to myself...if you want it..have it...but don't complain when your weight doesn't move or your stomach is upset.
most people make resolutions to lose weight. well, i'm already doing that. my resolutions have more to do with my mindset and how i treat others. to top the list is being a better family person - meaning kids, & David...realize that most times when i'm yacking at him...it's not him...it's b/c somebody ticked me off earlier and now i have someone to attack. so yeah - just be a better family person. secondly - cut myself some slack and realize that i can't always do everything right now, but in due time, if i work hard and don't pity myself..it'll come and i'll be well deserving of it. thirdly - just plain don't forget about myself. in having children (and this may happen to many) i kinda put myself on hold. i don't buy things for myself and i'm not talking about things i don't need, but i mean...for the very reason that my foot was jacked up...i didn't buy myself new shoes, b/c i wanted to keep the money to make sure i wouldn't need it for something else. we weren't in need of anything specific at the time, but i didn't want to spend the money on myself. fourthly - and this is key...not losing weight, but...doing what i can to be more healthy. that's a big one for me. i'm well on my way, but still - if i'm terribly stressed and wanna rip hair out, instead of doing something constructive i'll smoke a cigarette or think who cares...i'm goin' for the pizza (even if i've already had my one meal of pizza for the week). those kinds of things will ruin me. again, this is not for everybody, but just me.
so yeah - there you have it. slow & steady may not win the race as quickly, but ultimately they will prevail!