I never answered these questions, so I will now...
What is your current height and weight?
I'm 5'2 and a 1/2 and I weight 211.8 pounds...
If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be?
I dunno...I like 150, I know its still heavy for my weight, but it made me look nice and healthy...clothes fit good, if I get there, and still feel too heavy, Ill set a new goal.
At what weight would you like to be at four months from now?
I was HOPING for 15 pounds a month, thats probably too much, I guess 2 lbs per week x 16 weeks, would be 32 pounds by June....so, 179 lbs is more realistic .... 166 is the HOPE.
Why do you want to lose weight?
I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror, not home, not out, not in the bathroom of a bar, not full length...only maybe sometimes face only is okay. I also hate the way I look in photographs. I want to feel better in my clothes. I want men to look at me...I want to be able to join the gym and not be embarrassed about how I look, I want to be able to run without having my daughter laugh at me.... I want my brother off my case...I don't want my kids to be embarrassed of me anymore...I want to eat healthy and have healthy hair...I want to wear a bathing suit, I want to dive off a diving board, I have NEVER done that before!!! maybe even a cannonball! I don't want to be laughed at, I don't want someone to look at me, then whisper to the person next to them, "look at that fat person", I don't want people to be shocked that I can do aerobics, or yoga, or sled down a hill.. YES! FAT PEOPLE CAN DO THESE THINGS! I wanna pull the seatbelt on the plane nice and tight and have EXTRA SEATBELT!, I wanna be able to curl up in a ball like I used to, I want to be able to stand flat against a wall to adjust my posture without my giant ass getting in the way...I don't want to turn sideways to get thru a turnstile...
What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals?
me and my impulsiveness to just say FUCK IT... I am my own worst enemy.
Why do you think that you now have a weight problem?
hmmmm.. I can look back to my childhood, I alway loved sugar, used to steal it...used to mix up cake mixes in the basement and eat it raw..YUCK! I was sent to bed ALOT with no dinner, I went to bed hungry ALOT...used to have to sneak into the kitchen at night like a thief....tip toeing into the kitchen, praying no one would hear me, I would get into trouble for eating fattening foods... my brother could eat anything he wanted, it wasn't fair...Dad was always saying how pretty I was, if I just lost 10 lbs... sad thing was, I wasn't even fat!! Im fat now! anyways, I saw a special on bulimia, and I was like, COOL! I can eat and be thin! Oh it worked wonderfully...eating and vomiting.. til I get sick of bulimia, of course then the weight piled on.... I didn't have a good relationship with food....and still don't...
What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight?
eating healthy, nutritionally balanced foods, avoiding things i'm addicted to; processed sugar, flour and wheat, they are like drugs to me, I know this, I know this....
Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight?
vomiting did it my whole childhood and college years... not healthy I know.. then I lost weight on weight watchers, got down to 130...then I married an abusive man and started to not care about my weight, maybe the weight help me feel safe, I don't know... I lost a TON on atkins, but gained it back PLUS... and I have cut out sugar, flour and wheat before.. but said FUCK IT one day, and never went back...
What, if anything, has not worked for you in the past in helping you to lose weight? Why do you think it did not work?
It doesn't help to have my brother nagging at me, I get passive aggressive and act like i don't care about my weight...jenny craig didn't help.. I ate the whole days food by noon (lol)...only exercising doesnt work, I get soooooooooooooooooooo hungry!
Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time?
Yes, and im doing it.
Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook?
Im cooking at home, I havent eaten out since hitting up this venture.
How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go?
very rarely. wherever whoever is taking me takes me..its never my idea.and I always eat appetizers it seems like..
What are your three favorite foods?
sunflower seeds, lobster, spinach
What are your three favorite restaurants?
Olive Garden, chinese, Italian
What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food?
stick to my meal plan, dont allow the fuck-its, dont buy what I cant eat.
If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different?
oh my gosh!!!!!!!!! my giant ASS! beautiful face! my clothes would fall off me...
Do you eat when you are not hungry?
Yes
Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)?
Yes, I have
Do you hide your food or eat in secret?
I have done that in the past...but its been a very long time.
Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed?
Yes, and happy, and joyful, and bored...etc...
Do you eat as a reward?
ill have to think about this
Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer?
BIG Yes
What do you normally eat for a meal?
protein, veggie, salad this week... in the past, anything easy... the kids uneaten food...cereal and milk, pasta, break dunked into olive oil...whatever, no rhyme or reason, just what was easy..
What type of snacks do you eat?
cereal, fruit, sunflower seeds
In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing?
20 minutes of stretching and the step machine every morning
Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym? Home?
Home.
What, if anything, are your three favourite types of exercise?
swimming, stretching, biking
What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals?
Daily – my kids
Weekly – to see the scale go down
Monthly – to see my updated monthly photos.. I cant wait!!
Yearly – to reach my goals, maintain and inspire others
Do you have rewards for certain goals?
yes! a healthy happy new me!!
What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals?
the fuck-its...
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especially Josh Holloway (yummy Sawyer on LOST!) mmmm...
<~~~getting that into my head!