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You’re doing a great job with those numbers! Maybe since it’s your TOM you’ll be in for another great drop very soon? I remember being where you are not to long ago. It’s a great feeling to be getting closer and closer to 200lb. Hopefully you break that barrier in a shorter period of time. It took me forever!
 
Thanks, Mandy! I'm hoping it's soon too. I was there not too awful long ago, and even down to 185ish around 6 months ago. It's rough having to break that barrier all over again, but this time it's for good. I am not doing this again. I refuse. lol! :)

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Chef and I went to the gym on Saturday. That was nice. I enjoyed going with him, so hopefully we can do that occasionally. I'll still be going with my best friend during the day, and he will mostly have to go at night after work, but we might be able to fit in one day a week together. After the gym we went birthday shopping and got all that done. We did a lot of walking, had dinner, and then went home and vegged out on the couch for the rest of the night.

Today I worked a little bit, took a nice long nap, and Chef made a delicious pork tenderloin with polenta for dinner. Oh, and he also made gluten free bread that was pretty yummy too! It's going to be nice to be able to have a sandwich again for lunch tomorrow! I'm excited! :)
 
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I think it's great that you try to fit in at least one day when you go together. When you're part of a couple, success can be really dependent upon your other half.
 
205.6 this morning. Grrrrr.

My calories have been on track, and I've been working out every other day pretty much. So it has to be water retention. I'm going to try to not let it bug me too much. I will take comfort in the fact that I realized this morning that my pants are definitely not as tight as they were just a month ago. I had to yank them up twice this morning. So that's good at least. I really need to take measurements one of these days.



ChefChiTown said:
She's sooooo screwed then, HAHAHA
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I am not... lol! You're doing great!
 
The pants generally tell the tale better than the scale does. This is why I rarely go outside without wearing a pair.
 
I had a pretty good food day today. My calories are right around 1200 right now. I might have a snack in a minute here though. I had chicken caesar salad for dinner. Which was extremely hard to do, as my birthday boy requested pizza for dinner. It smelled so good..haha! I'm still doing the gluten free thing, so the pizza we ordered was very off limits. I'm going to try to stick it out until Sunday or Monday, so I at least do a full two weeks. I noticed a change in the beginning, but nothing huge. Definitely not enough of a change to merit sticking to the hassle of the gluten free diet. If I go off of it on Sunday, and notice I feel like crap again, I can always go back on it I guess.

On an unrelated note... I'm sick of winter. I'm done with it. It needs to go away. Right now. Riiiiiiight nooooow. I want sunshine and green grass! Siiiiigh... only like 3 more months? That's just depressing. I'm going to bed. lol!
 
Back down to 204.2 this morning.

We just had tacos for dinner and I ate one too many. Ugh. They are my absolute favorite food though. I can't resist. I love them! Why do they have to be so good?! Grrrr!

Because of the extra taco, my calories are higher than I would of liked, around 1450. Which still isn't bad I guess. I'm sure I burned a bunch of calories shivering my butt off today. I wish anyway. haha! Chef and I went to my son's Valentine's Day sledding party at school(they have tomorrow off). It was 25 degrees out, which is a lot warmer than it has been... but the wind was brutal. The kids had a blast, of course, but all of us parents nearly froze to death. It was fun though. :)

Gym again tomorrow. I'm also going to do something on Saturday, maybe pilates?
 
Hmm.. might not be going to the gym tomorrow now. My daughter just starting throwing up. blech! Hopefully it's just a 24 hour bug, and my son doesn't catch it. *fingers crossed*

I did have the munchies, not so much anymore. I hate puke. :ack2:
 
204.0 this morning. Arrrgggghhhh!

I had a really good week with food and exercise, and this is how my scale repays me? Jerk. I know it'll cooperate one of these days. But until then, it is NOT my friend. :cuss:

I'm definitely having a blah kind of day. I've been thinking way too much. About a lot of different things, one of which is my motivation that is probably going to start dwindling soon. It's par for the course, and I know it's going to happen. Especially since I've realized that some of the reasons I want to lose weight, are probably just never going to happen. I'm not going into it, but how do you keep your motivation when you have nothing to be motivated for? Yeah, yeah, yeah...there's my health and all that jazz.. but ugh.. whatever. Depressing.

I need a huge piece of chocolate cake with chocolate frosting with a big glass of milk. Mmmmm. :drool5: No, NO! I can't! No, chocolate cake for me. :(

Ok, I think that was depressing enough for one post. haha! I'm gonna go finish watching the rest of The Cutting Edge... Yes, I love a cheesy ice skating movie, and I am not ashamed!
 
You need to talk to 290 Jen and ask her if she'd be pissed at a 204 weigh in. If what has been motivating you isn't there anymore, then find something else to motivate you. Don't think about losing weight. Was life easier and less depressing when you where at 290? Because giving up is heading back in that direction. You are the motivation to keep going. You can make progress, maintain, or regain. Which do you think quiting gets you? I'm still fat. I haven't had the success that you've had, but when I do There will be no going back to 349 Jeff. It's like going to work day in and day out and then setting fire to your paycheck.

You have this. You may not feel like it today, but you'll see. FWIW, I'm never in a shittier mood than when I'm adjusting to new dietary constraints. Hang in there!
 
Apparently my scale heard my whining yesterday... 203.2 this morning.

Tomorrow I'm going to the gym. I'm pretty sore right now. I was hoping that massage, exercising, eating better in general, and stretching was the reason that I was starting to feel better all over. I started to feel much more loose, less aching, and wasn't having joint pain all the time. Buuuuut... Friday night I started eating gluten again, and guess what's back? SIGH. I'm really hoping it's just a coincidence. Denial... Yes, that's what's I'm doing right now. haha! I really don't want to go back to gluten free, but it's just too big of a coincidence that a day after eating it, I started feeling like crap again. I just didn't think it was the gluten that was doing all the body ache stuff. I attributed the muscle/joint/ache improvement to all the exercise I was doing. I'm thinking that's not the case now, or not as much as I had hoped anyway. I do not want to go back to gluten free, but this really stinks too. I went from hardly any stiffness, pain, and jumping out of bed... back to 70 year old woman almost overnight. ugh! I'm going to give it a few days and see if it gets better, maybe I'm just having a couple of unusually bad days? ....Deny. Deny. Deny. :D

Quercus said:
You need to talk to 290 Jen and ask her if she'd be pissed at a 204 weigh in.
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290 Jen would tell me to quit my whining, suck it up, and shut the hell up.. haha! Good point, Quercus. I really do not want to go back to where I was. It was just a bad day, and that definitely put things in perspective. Thanks! :)
 
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I just realized today starts week 7 of the exercise challenge. I'm still hanging in there! I've been exercising at least 3 days a week! I've surprised myself, that's for sure.
 
Glad to hear your scale stopped being a goober. The gluten thing is a bummer, but not feeling like crap isn't. That's a pretty acute change to not be related. Going back to gluten free and having the symptoms fade away will make it pretty certain .

You're very fortunate to have someone that understands cooking that can come up with yummy gluten free meals.

Let's say I'm having a petite filet mignon, with braised green beans topped with toasted almonds, and roasted new potatoes with garlic and rosemary. Despite that not being something I eat, I would say that sounds pretty good. Now that very meal I could also describe by saying that I'm eating a gluten free meal which paints a picture in my mind of hippies in lab coats concocting bread analogs with amaranth and saw dust.
 
203.2 again this morning.

Still feeling very sore and achy today. My friend called this morning and had to cancel our gym plans. I'm not sure what I'm going to do for exercise now. I might just do the treadmill here at home, since the kids are home from school today.

Today's plans are to exercise, referee children, do the dishes, laundry, work a little bit, and I would like to get my measurements taken today at some point.


Quercus said:
You're very fortunate to have someone that understands cooking that can come up with yummy gluten free meals.
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Ahh, Yes, yes I do. Dating a chef does have it's advantages.
 
Here is a link that you and Chef might find handy. She also does vegan, but you can sub in animal products if it suits you. This is a friend of mine and I have been her guinea pig for a lot of her recipes and she does gluten free and vegan very well. She also has a link to her etsy shop were she sells some of these goodies. She doesn't have much on there at the moment, but that changes.
 
Cool! Thanks, Quercus!


I did 45 minutes on the treadmill tonight. My calories for the day are around 1250 so far. I posted a while ago about being sick of my phone and the crappy old music that was on it. After looking at treadmill attachments to hold my iPad, I remembered that I had my iTouch. I thought that it wasn't working, but I went ahead and tried it again tonight, and it worked! The sound wasn't working on it before. I had tried 2 different pairs of headphones with it, one of them a brand new pair, and it didn't work. But not tonight! So I went ahead and synced it, charged it, and used that tonight. So much nicer! I still want a shuffle though. I want something smaller that I can just clip to my shirt. That will be a reward for something else. I'm not sure what yet though. I don't really want to focus on numbers and the scale after I hit 199, so I'm at a loss as to what the reward should be for. :confused:
 
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All good suggestions... especially the kid one. haha! I might do the miles or gluten one. I haven't went back on the gluten free yet, but I'm sure I will be. Thanks! :)

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202.6 this morning.

I slept like absolute crap last night. I kept waking up every time I moved. I toss and turn a lot to begin with, and I do it more when I hurt, because it hurts to stay in one position for very long. And I'm stiff as a board, so turning over is not the easiest thing ever.

So, I'll be going back on the gluten free diet, probably tomorrow. It has to be the gluten that's making me hurt all over, and I'll know for sure if I go back on it and the pain goes away again. I'm guessing it will. It's just to big of a coincidence.

OH, another thing that I forgot to mention... The day after I started eating gluten again I had two migraine auras(just the aura, no pain) in the same day. I'm thinking that's probably not a coincidence either.

On a happier not, I'm extremely happy with my weigh-in this morning. Come on 199! I want to wear my new shoes... haha! I went ahead and bought them last weekend. We rarely get to the mall during the winter, so I wanted get them while we were there. So now I have them and they're sitting in their box by my bed. I have to look at them every morning. It's torture! I'm set on not wearing them until I hit my 199 goal though. I'm almost there! :)
 
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