Jean's weight loss diary. :)

lykewoahxjean

lykewoahxjean

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Hello everyone.

Up until today, I had been using my before and after picture thread as sort of a diary, but I am finally ready to start a real weight loss diary. :)

I'll try and update every Monday, but if things are a little crazy, I may just have to wait until the next day.

I don't expect to have a whole lot of readers or anything, but just knowing that I have to update is going to make this thing easier for me, I believe. :)

Anyway, I suppose I should say a bit about myself.

My name is Jean, and I'm seventeen years old.

I've been on my weight loss journey since January 2008... that's when I weighed nearly 210 pounds.

I started seeing a dietitian, and in only two months, I lost a little over 30 pounds.

However, money started getting tight, and I had to stop seeing my doctor.

After the visits stopped, I went back to my old ways, and was eating a lot of fatty foods.

Surprisingly, I didn't gain anything back. I went back and forth between 174-178, which is what I weighed in at my last visit with the doctor.

After weighing in the 170s for a while, I decided that I still wasn't happy with my weight, and I needed to do something about it... now.

On July 19th 2008, I started counting my calories, I knew that I had to be on a diet, but without any guidance, it was going to be difficult.

I tried eating what I had been on the doctor's diet, but when I added everything up, I was eating less than 600 calories a day!

Without the medications that I was on, I knew I couldn't keep eating like that.

I now eat around 1,300 calories a day, and with my current activity level, I should lose 1 pound a week.

I'm not going to be getting much exercise for the next month, unfortunately.

My boyfriend's mother just had surgery, and she's not going to be able to do anything for about a month.

For that month, I have to stay with her and make sure that she's alright.

That means I will have no time for exercise, or anything else, really.

I have no problem staying with her, but I'm just not going to be able to exercise like I want.




Anyway, I've gone on for long enough.

Tomorrow is a Monday, too! I'll be updating in the morning. :)
 
good luck!

doing it naturally ( without the doctor medications ) might be more difficult, but you will definitely feel great knowing you did it all by yourself
 
8-25-08

Current weight: 158.4


So, it's morning, and I couldn't be any less happy about it.

I'm usually up really early, but man, this is really early.

Well, I weighed in this morning at 158.4.

That's good, I guess, I'm just so ready to be where I want to be. :)

I don't have much time this morning, unfortunately, so, I have to be going soon.

I promise that when I come back next week, the entry will be longer.

I may even come back sometime during the week.

Until then~
 
hey! You've made great progress so far. I'm glad you started a diary, I have followed your pic thread :)

Think about it, you're gonna have to do EVERYTHING for your bf's mom... that'll burn SOME energy! Try to run around the house when doing the things you HAVE to do anyway. Are there stairs? Run them each time you go to the toilet!

There are other ways of staying as active as possible when you can't exercise like you want to!

Ciao for now!!
 
Ankebuzz said:
hey! You've made great progress so far. I'm glad you started a diary, I have followed your pic thread :)

Think about it, you're gonna have to do EVERYTHING for your bf's mom... that'll burn SOME energy! Try to run around the house when doing the things you HAVE to do anyway. Are there stairs? Run them each time you go to the toilet!

There are other ways of staying as active as possible when you can't exercise like you want to!

Ciao for now!!
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Oh, you followed my thread? Oh wow, I wasn't aware that anyone really looked at it. That's awesome. ^____^

Well, the thing is, she's been pretty active herself, and while I do have to do certain things for her, she still does a ton of it herself.

There are stairs! :D

And, I suppose we think alike. Ha ha.

Actually, when I eat dinner, I allow myself a little bag of like 100 calorie sun chips. I leave all of my healthy snack food upstairs so I'll have to run up and get it. P:

Also, I have discovered something amazing in this kind of sticky situation.

An elliptical! :D

They have one outside that I never really noticed until today.

Maybe I can get a little time to exercise, after all.

It's outside too, and the heat is crazy. I guess that means I won't have to work out for too long, either. P:
 
Hey, my boyfriend's mother has an elliptical too... I love those things, and how lucky for you, hehe :reddevil: YOU'LL HAVE TO EXERCISE!!! Try at sunrise or sunset though, so it's a bit cooler. If you can build up to 20 mins that's enough. Try 4 sets of 5 mins or 2 sets of 10 mins... depending what you can do.

I am in the process of moving out of my parents' house and into a new place my boyfriend and I are renting. SO exciting! Moved most of the stuff yesterday.

Anyway, later!
 
8-29-08

Current weight: 157.8


Okay, so I know that I said I'd update every Monday, and only every Monday, but I've decided to make entries whenever I like... which is really the way it should be.

I don't think that I knew how much I'd want to be writing in here. :)

Anyway, a whole bunch has happened since Monday.

When I first came to stay with my boyfriend's mother, I weighed in at 158.8. I started living here last Saturday, the 23rd, and since then, I've lost exactly one pound. :)

I didn't really think I'd lose anything while staying here, but I have. :D

I've been finding things to do to keep myself active around the house.

They also have an elliptical, which I've been using once a day for about 20 minutes.

There are some days when I don't get a chance, but that's alright.

His mother has also had me going all over town for her, which is great.

I know she hates to make me go out, but it's actually helping me out. :)

So, basically, I've been running around Wal-mart like a mad woman all week trying to get her everything she needs. :)

I've changed up my diet a bit, as well.

I've stopped eating a lot of frozen dinners, because I've found that there are MUCH more filling things with half the calories and sodium.

I've been drinking a lot of green tea, as well. I hear that helps you burn stomach fat. o:

I eat about four mini-meals a day so that I don't get so hungry in between.

Even though I eat more often, it's still hard to get my mind off of food, but I've found ways. :)

I play guitar, and earlier this year I started a little solo acoustic project.

It went great at first, but then I kind of let it die. I'm hoping to pick that back up.

I know that will keep me busy, and I sure do have a hell of a lot to write music about. :)


Ah, I've gone on for long enough. I'll be back with another entry sometime. I'm not sure when that will be, though. I guess whenever I feel the urge! :)
 
Ankebuzz said:
Hey, my boyfriend's mother has an elliptical too... I love those things, and how lucky for you, hehe :reddevil: YOU'LL HAVE TO EXERCISE!!! Try at sunrise or sunset though, so it's a bit cooler. If you can build up to 20 mins that's enough. Try 4 sets of 5 mins or 2 sets of 10 mins... depending what you can do.

I am in the process of moving out of my parents' house and into a new place my boyfriend and I are renting. SO exciting! Moved most of the stuff yesterday.

Anyway, later!
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I usually just do the whole 20 minutes. I know that if I wait to do some later in the day, I'll never get to it. Ha ha.

Oh wow, that's so exciting. :)

Well, the thing is, I actually was living with my boyfriend and his family a few months ago. o:

I ended up moving back in with my mother, since the only reason I left was because of a few family issues that had to be worked out.

It was best that I was gone for that period of time.

Hopefully, next time I move, it will be because I really want to. :)

Well, good luck with the move. I hope everything goes well, which I'm sure that it will! :)
 
9-3-08

Current weight: 157.6


Alright, well, I know I should have made an entry on Monday, but I was a little discouraged, and when you feel sort of like a failure, the last thing you want to go do is tell everyone about it. xD

Okay, this is what has happened. I weighed myself on Saturday, I think, and the scale read 159.8.

I was shocked. I had no idea what I could have eaten to make my weight go up that high. I had eaten kind of badly, but I didn't think it could make the scale read 159-160!

I realize now that the weight was just water, but at the time, I was so upset, I didn't. It's actually almost time for my time of the month, and I always gain a few pounds of water when that happens.

So, I probably did the worst thing I could have done... eat.

I didn't go overboard, I stayed around 2000 calories, but I really didn't exercise.

I was kind of off in my own little world filled with fatty foods.

Well, I'm thinking that a little of the reason for eating was because of the pressure where I'm staying.

I know that only I can give into eating, but my boyfriend's mother really hasn't helped the situation.

It's kind of like she wants me to gain a whole bunch of weight, even though I know I'm probably wrong.

Like, here's something that happened on Sunday, I think.

My boyfriend, and his dad wanted to have something from Jersey Mike's to eat. If you don't know what that is, it's like a sub place, and you know, it's not really all bad food, but I knew I could eat healthier.

So, his mother was making the call to order some food, and she asked me if I wanted anything. She kept suggesting food that they had even though I kept saying no.

She finally gave up, but seemed to be offended afterwards.

I just couldn't understand why she would do anything to get me to eat foods that aren't good for me.

The next night, almost the same thing happened, except this time, I gave in.

I know it was wrong, but I tried to choose something healthy on the menu, anyway.

I was kind of angry with myself, but after eating, she almost seemed friendlier.

Strange, eh?

Well, I leave their house this weekend, and I'll be back at home.

I'm not really looking forward to going home, but I will be able to work out there, and I'll be able to eat what I like, without someone pressuring me to eat badly.

Until then, I'm going to keep eating only 1,300 calories a day, but I'm not going to be able to exercise anymore.

We're in the path of the tropical storm, Hanna, and if we get hit on Friday, I don't see myself being able to do much working out. P:

So, I'll write another entry when I get settled back into my house.

I'm going to be really busy for the next few days, but I'll be back, I promise. :)
 
Okay, I know I just made an entry this morning, but I needed to rant about something for a second.

Okay, so, my boyfriend's mother can finally drive now, and she went out this morning to get some medicine, and she came back with fried chicken from hardee's.

Oh, and she didn't forget to get every other food group that exists... it's just all fried.

Then, she told me that she expected me to eat it, and she pointed out a fried chicken finger meal thing that she got for me.

Does anyone have any advice on how I can say thanks, but no thanks without being rude? :/

I mean, it's hard enough having to stay away from certain foods that I'd love to eat, but it doesn't help when someone is trying to make you eat those foods.
 
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9-8-08

Current weight: 156.6


Hey guys. I was supposed to have left yesterday to go home, but I was asked to stay for another week.

Since I knew that I'd be going home soon, I kind of loosened up a bit on my diet over the weekend, and promised that I'd start back when I went home.

Well, I'm not home yet, but I really can't throw away a whole week just because I'm not at home.

If I get a chance to exercise, then I will.

I think I'm going to be running errands all week, though.

At least I'll be getting some exercise. :)



Oh, and I almost forgot.

I know that the weight today is lower than the last.

I have no idea how I lost that pound, but I have a feeling it was water.

It is that time of the month, you know.

Well, bye guys. I'll be back! :)
 
A weight loss survey thing? :D



1. What is your current height and weight?
I'm 5'6" and 156.6 pounds (or so).

2. If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be?
I've never been thin, so, I'm not sure what I'll look like 10-20 pounds from now. I'm thinking that 130 would be a good weight, though.

3. At what weight would you like to be at four months from now?
130, but I'd be so happy if I could get into the 120s.

4. Why do you want to lose weight?
My weight has stopped me from doing things my entire life. I've never been really confident, and I want to change that. I want to love myself. I also want to stay healthy. My family doesn't have a very good medical history.

5. Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion?
There's a lot of things I want to lose weight for, but mainly for the new year. In January, my boyfriend's brother and sister in-law are coming to visit from Texas. His sister in-law is a dancer, and yoga instructor. She's very active, and it shows. She's gorgeous, and she gets to wear tons of cute clothes. The first time I met her was when I was still 210 pounds. She's seen me since then, but it would really be awesome to just see her again, and this time, I feel hot too. :)

6. What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals?
What couldn't get in the way? Every pound that I've lost, I've lost this year. My family hasn't been a help though. I've been moving all over the place, and things have been very unstable. Still, I've stuck to it. If I can lose this weight, then I'm sure anyone can.

7. Why do you think that you now have a weight problem?
I've always been bigger, but I didn't balloon up to 210 until 2006-2007. I was dating a guy, and I felt as though I could really eat whatever I wanted. He didn't care about my appearance, so I didn't feel like I had to either.

8. What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight?
Well, my boyfriend and his family love to eat out. Maybe it's time to stop eating out, regardless of the place.

9. Have you lost weight in the past?
Before 2008, it was just a bunch of failed diet plans.

10. Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back?
I didn't want it bad enough. When I met my love, last December, he gave me a reason to want to better myself. He takes such good care of himself, and he's so goal oriented. He didn't care about my weight back then, but can you blame me for wanting to look hot for him? ;)

11. What, if anything, has not worked for you in the past in helping you to lose weight?
Diet pills. I can't tell you how many "miracle pills" I've tried. There is nothing that will do the work for you, but there are things out there to help you along.

12. Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time?
I did that for a few months, and it worked, but it got really old really fast.

13. Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook?
I don't usually cook, but that's just because I can't get my mother and grandmother out of the kitchen. P:

14. How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go?
I try not to eat out, but if I do, it's usually Chick'fil'a. They're not that bad compared to places like Burger King and Mc Donalds.

15. What are your three favorite foods?
Peanut Butter, Pesto on Penne noodles, and mashed potatoes. Ha ha, and guess what three things I can't really eat.

16. What are your three favorite restaurants?
China Imperial, Sakura, and The Macaroni Grill. I really like Chinese food. P:

17. What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food?
Instead of eating little portions of what I really want, why not eat bigger portions of things that aren't necessarily good. I mean, littler portions are great, but is it really worth it when you're hungry like five minutes later?

18. If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different?
I like this question. :) I'd have a nice flat tummy, slim arms, smaller legs. I'd still like to have big thighs, and a big butt, though. P: Maybe those areas could just be smoothed out.

19. Do you eat when you are not hungry?
I've been known to eat when I'm bored.

20. Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)?
I don't anymore.

21. Do you hide your food or eat in secret?
Nope. :)

22. Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed?
I have before, but I don't really anymore.

23. Do you eat as a reward?
No. I reward myself in other ways.

24. Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer?
Sometimes while I'm online, but never in front of the television.

25. What do you normally eat for a meal?
Well, I usually have oatmeal or cereal for breakfast. Maybe some toast with that. I like making my own low calorie cheese tacos for lunch, and maybe a nice big can of soup for dinner. Chicken noodle soup fills me up, and it's usually not more than 140 calories a can!

26. What type of snacks do you eat?
Anything from Quaker. Their little rice cakes are so good.

27. In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing?
I'm not doing anything right now, but after I get home, I'll start using the exercise bike again for about 30 minutes a day.

28. Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym? Home?
I exercise at home.

29. What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise?
Cycling, elliptical, swimming.

30. What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals?
I look at other peoples' success stories all the time. I also like to think about the day when I can see everyone that I haven't seen since my weight loss. Especially all of the girls who I don't like. ;)

31. Do you have rewards for certain goals?
When I hit my goal, I plan on shopping like I've never shopped before. :D I also think I'm going to take a vacation to see this guy who broke my heart. We're still kind of friends, and he's always asking me to visit him. I plan on taking my hot self up there and letting him see what he can't have, and Dustyn can.
 
9-10-08

Current weight: 154.4-155


Oh my God. I don't want to hurt my boyfriend's mother's feelings, but seriously, I know what I need to be eating, and she doesn't.

Her: "How many calories are you eating a day?"

Me: "Uh, around 1,300."

Her: "Well, I don't think you're eating healthy. You're not eating what you need to be eating. You need to eat more. I'm a nurse, and I know what you should be eating. I mean, it might not cause you problems right now, but if you continue to not eat right, you could become infertile when you get older."

I kid you not, she said that to me even though I eat extremely healthy and take a vitamin to make up for everything that I don't get in my food.

She knows about the vitamins. She knows what I eat, so why does she think that I need to eat Burger King all the time in order to stay healthy?

She is indeed a nurse. She works for a gynecologist. Not a dietitian. She may know a lot about dieting, but I think I know more.

I don't mean to sound all cocky when I say that, but I've been to a dietitian, and I stayed on that diet for a really long time.

I learned a ton about food, and what I need t be consuming in order to be healthy.

She's one of those people who claims that calorie counting doesn't work, too.

She's tried a lot of diets, and claims that none of them "worked".

Diets work. They may not all be healthy, but if you take in less than usual and exercise, you're bound to lose.

I just get so angry sometimes, because if I tell her that I don't want fast food or something, she actually gets mad and lectures me about my low calorie diet and exercise plan.

I'll be leaving on Sunday, so things will be more organized for sure, but right now things are so stressful.

I counted out my calories perfectly yesterday. It was like 1,250 even (I plan my meals for the day out in the morning).

Well, anyway. I was going to have some chicken noodle soup for dinner, along with a low cal sandwich.

It might not taste amazing, but it fills me up, and I don't get hungry until the next morning.

Well, I go down to get my dinner ready, and my boyfriend's mother is down there cooking.

Apparently, she thought that I'd like barbecue chicken and red rice for dinner.

If you live in the south, then you know how amazing red rice is. It is straight from the heavens, but it's not really all that good for you.

Well, I told her what I was having for dinner, and she told me that I needed to eat what she had made because she didn't think I had eaten enough that day.

She hadn't seen me eat anything the whole day. I was by myself for breakfast and lunch.

So, I looked over the meal, and ended up cutting a small piece of chicken for myself, and a few spoon fulls of the rice.

I was taking in about the same calories as I would have with the soup and sandwich, except with the chicken and rice, I was hungry 30 minutes later.

It's like, I know what I need to be eating, and she thinks she knows what I need to be eating.

It's really hard to deal with, but from now on I'm just going to have to put my foot down.

I'm almost in the 140s, and I can't let anyone or anything slow me down.

I just wish she wasn't this way.

Oh well.
 
9-17-08

Current weight: 153.8


AH! :D

Okay, so, I'm really excited. I weighed myself this morning and for the first time like ever, I am at a healthy BMI.

I may still be really flabby, and have a bit of a belly which is pretty unhealthy by itself, but still, my weight is considered healthy for my height. :)

Anyway, I've been working pretty hard lately, especially now that I'm home and now have access to all of my old exercise equipment.

I've found that doing 30 minutes on the exercise bike isn't enough anymore.

I'm going to kick it up today to 45 minutes. If I feel like it, I may go for an hour.

We'll see. :)

Unfortunately, I can't make a very long entry today. D:

I had really wanted to keep going, but now that I'm back home, my family is keeping me extremely busy instead of my boyfriend's mother. :/

I'll be back soon. Bai~ :)
 
Hey chicka, WOW I'm impressed!!!

My normal BMI goal is getting nearer and nearer now!!

Keep it up with the bike!
 
9-19-08

Current weight: 153-154


Okay, so I went to the mall yesterday with my boyfriend, and something extraordinary happened.

Well, maybe not that great, but this hasn't happened to me in a really long time.

I caught a guy checking me out. It wasn't just like he glanced at me, either.

He was staring.

We were walking through the mall, looking into the store entrances trying to find someplace to shop, and I glanced into Pac Sun, and there he was.

It was so funny too, because he started fixing his hair when he saw me.

I didn't think much of it, so we kept walking, and before we completely passed the store, I looked into another window into that store, and he was staring at me through that window too.

Now, I know this is probably only a big deal for me, but I've lived the last few years of my life not even believing that the opposite sex was capable of being attracted to me.

Apparently, I was wrong.

It was a nice feeling. :)

Oh, and I must confess that while in the mall, I slipped up a bit and had something from Krystal, but with the other stuff that I had eaten that day, it only added to to about 1,600 calories.

I didn't feel so bad considering that we walked around the mall for about three hours, and earlier that day I had worked out for a little over an hour.

I've changed up my exercise routine a bit. :)

It's not that I've changed it, really. I've just gone on for longer.

I work out on our exercise bike for an hour a day.

After that, I do a few exercises with the medicine ball.

I've added in some crunches too.

Basically, I've just added in a whole bunch of exercises that are going to help me build muscle so that when all of my fat goes away, I have something to be extra proud of.

Well, anyway, I'm really tired. I just got done working our for the day, and I'd say that it's about time for a sugar free pudding. P:

Bai~
 
9-22-08

Current weight: Unknown


Okay, so, I'm not exactly sure of my weight. My scale has been giving really phony readings lately, and I just can't trust it.

Maybe this is a good thing, though.

I noticed that I was weighing myself all the time, and getting discouraged if I had gained anything... even if it was just water.

So, maybe a break from the scale will be a good thing. :)

If I have gained anything, though, you can bet that it is muscle.

I've been on the exercise bike for an hour a day, and I've also been doing a lot of other exercises.

Crunches, squats, and even some with my medicine ball.

I think I may cut back on those a little, though.

I really just want to see my numbers go down when I get another scale, and even though the muscle will be what keeps those numbers up there, I really just want to see smaller digits. :)

I've been eating about the same amount of calories. 1,200-1,300.

It's been tough lately. I believe that's because a lot of birthdays have been happening.

Birthdays = cake.

And to think that it's only going to get worse with the holidays.

Hopefully I can find something good to take the place of all the sweets that will soon be entering my house. D:
 
9-25-2008

Current weight: 154ish


Have you ever just wanted to hide and do nothing all day?

That's kind of how I feel.

I've been at a plateau for the past two weeks, and nothing is working.

I started zig zagging with my calories yesterday, and so today I've eaten way more than I would have.

It's not too many calories, but it's more than usual.

It's made me feel horrible.

I'm bloated like crazy from all of the extra food.

I just feel like the fattest person in the whole world, and while I know that isn't true, it still has made me feel like crap.

I'm so ready for this whole thing to be over. I'm ready to be done with losing weight.

I want to be thin for the first time in my whole life, and it's just not happening.

Plateaus suck. End of story.
 
9-29-08

Current weight: Not sure. No scale.


My father asked me to stay at his house for the whole weekend at the last minute. He had to go out of town, so I did.

I didn't exactly have time to pack up all of my healthy food, and my dad's house is filled with junk food.

Long story short... I ate very badly, and it definitely shows. I'm so bloated.

I know that I shouldn't have eaten that way, but I did, and all I can do now is get back on track.

I woke up this morning and had a weight watchers english muffin with some grape jelly, and a low fat yogurt.

I then worked out for 30 minutes and did a few exercises with the medicine ball.

I feel better after having exercised, but I still need to stay away from bad foods today.

I know that it will be extra tempting today. :/





I've been kind of frustrated lately with my boyfriend's mother.

I stayed with her for a month and ran all of her errands for her, but I wasn't paid anything.

I was told that I was going to be paid for my time, but I really didn't leave her house with more than 20 dollars.

I remember her giving me a 20 dollar bill once after I came home from wal-mart for her. She said it was my "nursing allowance".

That was it.

Now she's still trying to have me run errands for her even though I'm no longer staying there. :/

I know that I should like really want to help, but seriously.
 
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