Sara/Tom: It's a little irritating...the kid in me who wants life to be "fair" is protesting at my body "dammnit, I think I'm doing everything 'right' and as soon as I relax and start feeling comfortable...you friggin betray me...it's not FAYR" wah, wah. But the grown-up is saying "Just remember it's an ongoing learning process...get a grip and get over it."
Blancita: You'll have to ask Mal...I read the straight hair/curly hair thing in her diary a couple months ago and it stuck in my mind because it was so darned funny.
Kim: that pic is disturbing on so many levels
For some reason I'm just curious...did she have a boob job at 30 and that's just how it looks 30 years later...or...God forbid...is that a new boob job?
So, I see where I screwed up. I
think I see how to fix it. Yesterday was like this "perfect storm" where all systems just sort of converged in middle and almost washed me out. My fault. When I stopped doing the daily calorie counting thing I figured that I could balance out the occasional "high day" with a day or two of "low days" just by reducing or eliminating calorie dense foods (i.e. fewer nuts). What I didn't think about is ...if I'm not sure of exactly how "high" that "higher" intake is, I obviously can't know how low to go, or for how long to extend that low. That's a problem. Because the one thing I've known for months is that I am probably sitting right above my setpoint, and I noticed from religiously inputting my calories every day that if I dip into too deep a deficit, or extend a slight one for more than a few days, my body goes a little haywire and my "feed me" hormones come out to play.
So, I think yesterday was just the point where my intake has been too low, combined with some anxiety, combined with PMS and....perfect storm.
So, the fix. Or fixes.
Quick fix, before the week-end even starts good I'm hitting the protein/fat/complex carb only trail cause that always, always locks my "feed me" beast away - at least short term.
Long term fix...On the occasional day when I'm going to be eating more than usual I'm just going to have to count the calories for that day so I'll know how much or how little to adjust for to keep a balance without going into a deficit. This isn't something I can guess about right now.
It's funny, cause I'm going clubbin' tomorrow night....and I'm now stuck sucking down water while everyone else is sucking down something more interesting. I'm actually cool with that cause I spent some time this morning re-reading through a diary I've kept since day one of my weight loss. And looking back at those days and days and days of slogging away, seeing how friggin happy I was with every 1/2 pound, 1/2 inch 1/2% of bodyfat lost...and how hard it was to lose them reminds me of how long and hard I've worked to get to this point....and why I refuse to give up and go back cause I've hit a bump along the road....once I could have/should have foreseen.
So, I'll eat my chicken and spinach for breakfast today (and probably lunch and dinner), and say "no" to Cosmos tomorrow night...and put my cals into fitday when the
planned occasional indulgence calls for it...cause these are just some of the things I know I have to do if I want to stay on track. And I'm cool with it. A little whiny, but cool with it.
Thursday foods:
fruits: 4-6 daily servings.
1 berry, 1 apple, 1 citrus, the rest chosen from:
apricots, banana, canteloupe, cherries, figs,
grapes, papaya, pineapple, prunes,
raisins, strawberries, watermelon
other:
cranberries
veggies: 6-7 daily servings, 2 dark green leafy, the rest from:
artichokes, avocado, beets,
broccoli, cabbage, carrots, califlower, chili pepper, daikon, garlic, ginger, mushrooms, onions, sweet potatoes, squash,
tomatoes
grain/nuts/seeds/legumes: 4-6 daily servings,
1 nut, 1 flax, 1 legume, the rest chosen from:
buckwheat, bulgar, lentils, oats (rolled or bran), pumpkin seeds,
rice, walnuts, wheat germ, whole wheat
whole wheat type:
ww flat out wraps
additional:
500 million (seriously, I have no idea) crackers
dairy :1 daily servings chosen from:
yogurt, soy milk,
cheese (any type)
cheese type:
4 cheese blend & low fat cottage cheese & cream cheese, & cheddar
meat: 3 daily servings chosen from
chicken, fish, lean beef
other: 1 daily serving each
olive oil
green or echitacea tea
optional crap (1 serving):
sugar free cookie
barbeque sauce
