It Starts...

January 11, 2009

Its been a while since I've checked in. This past week started out slow at work but turned quickly into chaos. I get frustrated alot at work because we have 2 tech's me being one of them and we work off a google calendar which has deadlines and what not on it, as either of us finish with something we mark it done with our initials.... just so happens everything from the last 2 weeks has MY initials.... Yes I am the low man on the pole but I don't find it quite fair when I am busy to continue to have the work pile on MY desk... There are 2 important deadlines Monday afternoon and I got sent out on a delivery Friday to the Westside.... 2 hours that I could have spent working on the plan sets instead of driving for 2 hours..... UHHHHHGGGG, I've been saying it for a long time but I think its really time to start looking for a new job in the RIGHT industry for ME!

Okay I'm done ranting.... otherwise things are good. I've really kicked things into high gear for this challenge... but more for myself I think. I'm not really feeling the love from my team and that's cool....I'm not much of a smack talker... I just like to get my shit done and not worry about anyone else I guess. I understand its a team thing and being the smallest I feel like I have to prove myself but why??? Hmm, I dunno..... I just know I am motivated right now and I'm hoping to hold on to it. School starts a week from Tuesday and thats when the REAL challenge begins...

Things with my Mom are going well. She had a rough first week but still managed to lose 3.5lbs. I was VERY happy with those results and I'm sure that next week will prove to be just as productive. There is a race on Valentine's day that Step and I were planning on doing, but I asked if she was interested in doing the walk and she IS... so Step will run and her and I will walk. It will be a HUGE step for her because anything that has to do with other people and exercise she shys away from feeling as though everyone is judging her.... ha sound familiar???? I think it will be good and an eye opener.

That's all for now. Its gorgeous out and Step and I are going to go for a run here in a little while then Juice it up!! Ha I love my juicer!!

Catch ya laters!
 
Thanks Paula, things are looking up for the most part.

Its Monday and I acutally don't mind being at work today. Its pretty steady so the time is going by rather quickly. Only 4 more hours and I'm free for the evening.

I had a good workout yesterday. 70 mins of The Firm body sculpt with a bar. It was a pretty tough workout but I powered though it. I was pretty defeated to being with though. I put on shorts to workout in and I havent been in shorts for some time and I ALWAYS think my legs look better than they do... and well it makes me think I have WAAAYYY more to lose than I think. I'm still pretty huge on the bottom and its pretty discusting.... It just so happened that yesterday morning while at the grocery store there was a young woman wearing short shorts who caught Step's eye... and I said sorry that I'm not that skinny nor will I ever have legs like hers.... sigh.... I could say someday... but honestly I dont know if I'll ever have the legs I want no matter how hard I try..... :(

Today is going well otherwise I suppose. Eating as usual is spot on and I plan for a long run tonight on the mill.

That's all for now....
 
I had a good workout yesterday. 70 mins of The Firm body sculpt with a bar. It was a pretty tough workout but I powered though it. I was pretty defeated to being with though. I put on shorts to workout in and I havent been in shorts for some time and I ALWAYS think my legs look better than they do... and well it makes me think I have WAAAYYY more to lose than I think. I'm still pretty huge on the bottom and its pretty discusting.... It just so happened that yesterday morning while at the grocery store there was a young woman wearing short shorts who caught Step's eye... and I said sorry that I'm not that skinny nor will I ever have legs like hers.... sigh.... I could say someday... but honestly I dont know if I'll ever have the legs I want no matter how hard I try..... :(

Ahhhh girlie, breakin' my heart here!! We have to accept our body types and love them. That girl may have had smaller thighs but I bet your waist was smaller!! Don't be so hard on yourself. You are so beautiful! Love your strong legs...they are what is carrying you through this life.

I'm the same way about shorts...I don't work out in them. At least not yet. I always wear capri or full length workout pants. The only time I bear my legs is when I swim in my full piece and man does my bootie look hideous. But you know what? I find it motivating. I want a firm tight butt and that is why I push myself so hard in my workouts.

I'm so glad you are on Team 1. Just because you are smaller doesn't mean you can't have a huge impact. Besides...losing those last few pounds are the hardest! If you could get to your goal in this challenge that would be amazing! That is what I am shooting to do. I want to be 135lbs at the end...but if I make it to the 130's I will consider it a success!!

Keep your chin up and love yourself!!
 
I'm not really feeling the love from my team and that's cool.

:cry:

Things with my Mom are going well. She had a rough first week but still managed to lose 3.5lbs.

:hurray: Who DOESN'T have a rough first week, right? Remind her that no one really cares or is judging her, as cold as that seems. You and Steph are sweet to walk with her!

I'm still pretty huge on the bottom and its pretty discusting.... It just so happened that yesterday morning while at the grocery store there was a young woman wearing short shorts who caught Step's eye... and I said sorry that I'm not that skinny nor will I ever have legs like hers.... sigh.... I could say someday... but honestly I dont know if I'll ever have the legs I want no matter how hard I try..... :(

Well, I will never have great SKIN no matter how hard I try. Or small feet, or dark lashes, or a line-less forhead, or a straight nose, or wavy hair, or less veiny arms......Dee! Steph loves you for YOU--if he had a problem with your legs (or anything else!) he wouldn't BE with you. Love your legs, not matter what! And remember, you're beautiful, have gorgeous eyes, fantastic skin, an ENVIABLE waist....the list goes on. Maybe you should start wearing midriffs--I betcha that same girl would be green with envy over that hour glass shape of yours!

Best luck on your efforts! :hug2:
 
Ahhhh girlie, breakin' my heart here!! We have to accept our body types and love them. That girl may have had smaller thighs but I bet your waist was smaller!! Don't be so hard on yourself. You are so beautiful! Love your strong legs...they are what is carrying you through this life.

I'm the same way about shorts...I don't work out in them. At least not yet. I always wear capri or full length workout pants. The only time I bear my legs is when I swim in my full piece and man does my bootie look hideous. But you know what? I find it motivating. I want a firm tight butt and that is why I push myself so hard in my workouts.

I'm so glad you are on Team 1. Just because you are smaller doesn't mean you can't have a huge impact. Besides...losing those last few pounds are the hardest! If you could get to your goal in this challenge that would be amazing! That is what I am shooting to do. I want to be 135lbs at the end...but if I make it to the 130's I will consider it a success!!

Keep your chin up and love yourself!!

Thanks Mel. I swear shorts are my enemy. I don't really wear them in public and when I do Step hates me because I ask him like every 2 seconds if I look okay.... and I know its annoying. And I've never worn shorts to workout in except at home.... always pants..... It does drive me to work harder but it seems like my lower half with always be HEAVY and not in a good way....

This challenge has really motivated me to push myself and keep me accountable which is what I need for these last few pounds.... I'm just hoping I can reach my goal by summer... But I really KNOW that I can do it before then.... I just need to stop talking about it and start doing it!!

Thanks for the kinds words and support Mel, it really means alot. I don't have any female support in my life right now... yeah all my gal pals know I want to lose but they think its excessive.... and I dont get positive vibes from them.... Its so nice to have women that GET IT. :) :hugs2:
 
Val:Thanks lady... I think I need a slap in the face sometimes. I try to be positive but I'm so used to picking out the bad and only seeing what still needs work. Telling myself I'm beautiful is seriously one of the hardest things I'm facing right now... because I honestly DONT believe it. But I'm trying....

Steve: Thanks, Its my game face. Couldn't bear to put up a boob shot so I figured this would do! :)
 
I just need to stop talking about it and start doing it!!

Dee, you ARE doing it!!! :smash: Hello, 700-950 calorie daily deficits!!! :eek2: Wish I could manage THAT!

I don't have any female support in my life right now... yeah all my gal pals know I want to lose but they think its excessive....

Ugh, STILL???!! I think maybe they're focusing on your 23-inch waist ;) Dee, it's hard to have a unique body composition, and I understand on a certain level--my upper half is that of a smaller girl than my thighs belong--I have a hard time squeezing them into pants and my ex boyfriend used to remark they were too big :cuss: Asshole! He didn't like muscular thighs, imagine that? WHATEVER! But it's a damn shame you don't have girl-love around you--I had already lamented that some time ago so I'm glad you get some help from us on here!
 
January 16, 2009

Thought I would check in. I’ve been posting more in the Team 1 thread lately. I really think this challenge has given me the motivation I need to get down these last few pounds. And when I say few I really mean like 20.

The spring semester begins next Tuesday. I am indifferent. I was going to take less classes and work more but it seems I will be taking 4 classes and working more. But I am hoping that this semester will be a walk in the park compared to last semester. I’m taking Nutrition 345 Vitamins and Minerals, C&J 225 Small Group Communication, C&J 314 Multicultural Communication, and Health ED 482 Multicultural Health. I am looking forward to the communication classes because they are very open discussion as compared to lecture, so the classes are smaller and you get to know people. Oddly enough I really enjoyed the public speaking course I took 2 semesters ago… and even odder I was the ONLY student to get an A.

I’ve been pretty disappointed with the nutrition teachers thus far but I’ve heard good things about the 345 teach. But I’m not going to get my hopes up. I have class Tues/Thurs from 8-12:15 and then just a single class Thurs from 4-6:30. So Ill work about 30 hours a week on top of that. I decided to take Thursdays off work completely so that I will have a nice study period in the afternoons.

I’ve also been researching running plans. I downloaded one last year but the amount of miles per week intimated me. I wasn’t ready for that kind of commitment. I am ready now, more because running is going to make my legs SEXY and honestly there is NOTHING I want more. I really do hate my legs. I am happy with the rest of my body but my lower half just doesn’t match the top… almost like I’m 2 halfs of different people. And I won’t lie I am super self conscientious about it and I think when I am having a “fat” day it’s because of my lower half… always… I don’t know how I can have a fat day when my top is to tiny ya know?

Anyway I’m rambling. It’s slow at work so I’m going to put a workout schedule together for myself and create a workout for my mom. Her and I are meeting on Sunday for her first workout, I think it’s going to be a slap in the face but then again I could be wrong!!
 
I’ve also been researching running plans. I downloaded one last year but the amount of miles per week intimated me. I wasn’t ready for that kind of commitment. I am ready now, more because running is going to make my legs SEXY and honestly there is NOTHING I want more. I really do hate my legs. I am happy with the rest of my body but my lower half just doesn’t match the top… almost like I’m 2 halfs of different people. And I won’t lie I am super self conscientious about it and I think when I am having a “fat” day it’s because of my lower half… always… I don’t know how I can have a fat day when my top is to tiny ya know?

The running will definitely make your legs look super sexy. My calves have never looked better. When I get these last 10lbs off my upper thighs and ass will look fantastic from all the running. You can do it to!!

Don't be afraid of the mileage. What is the worst that happens? You walk a bit of it? There were times during my marathon training that I couldn't imagine a 16 mile training run....but you know what? You put one foot in front of the other and keep trucking. You may walk for 45 secs here and there and then get back into the run, but you keep moving. Did you get a gps watch? If not, get one...it is a lifesaver!!

STOP hating on your body. Instead start thinking about how great your lower half is going to look and what you are going to do to make that happen. You need to love your body and thank it. It will love you back :)

I can say that I "hate" my crows feet around my eyes...lol It's not really hate though..it's more like a strong dislike. At 33 though, I've got to accept that I am not 21 anymore and I can't roll back the years. I am learning to love my fine lines. When I get to my goal though I am going to look into some facial treatments to minimize them. I consider it a "reward".
 
January 16, 2009

Thought I would check in. I’ve been posting more in the Team 1 thread lately. I really think this challenge has given me the motivation I need to get down these last few pounds. And when I say few I really mean like 20.

The spring semester begins next Tuesday. I am indifferent. I was going to take less classes and work more but it seems I will be taking 4 classes and working more. But I am hoping that this semester will be a walk in the park compared to last semester. I’m taking Nutrition 345 Vitamins and Minerals, C&J 225 Small Group Communication, C&J 314 Multicultural Communication, and Health ED 482 Multicultural Health. I am looking forward to the communication classes because they are very open discussion as compared to lecture, so the classes are smaller and you get to know people. Oddly enough I really enjoyed the public speaking course I took 2 semesters ago… and even odder I was the ONLY student to get an A.

I’ve been pretty disappointed with the nutrition teachers thus far but I’ve heard good things about the 345 teach. But I’m not going to get my hopes up. I have class Tues/Thurs from 8-12:15 and then just a single class Thurs from 4-6:30. So Ill work about 30 hours a week on top of that. I decided to take Thursdays off work completely so that I will have a nice study period in the afternoons.

I’ve also been researching running plans. I downloaded one last year but the amount of miles per week intimated me. I wasn’t ready for that kind of commitment. I am ready now, more because running is going to make my legs SEXY and honestly there is NOTHING I want more. I really do hate my legs. I am happy with the rest of my body but my lower half just doesn’t match the top… almost like I’m 2 halfs of different people. And I won’t lie I am super self conscientious about it and I think when I am having a “fat” day it’s because of my lower half… always… I don’t know how I can have a fat day when my top is to tiny ya know?

Anyway I’m rambling. It’s slow at work so I’m going to put a workout schedule together for myself and create a workout for my mom. Her and I are meeting on Sunday for her first workout, I think it’s going to be a slap in the face but then again I could be wrong!!

Uhh Dee. Your legs are sexy. I think you mean sexier!

Good luck with the workload coming up. Those classes sound fun. And it's great you are comfortable and enjoy the communication classes. Being able to confidently and clearly communicate is a very, very powerful tool.
 
The running will definitely make your legs look super sexy. My calves have never looked better. When I get these last 10lbs off my upper thighs and ass will look fantastic from all the running. You can do it to!!

I really think its done pretty good things so far. I actually have ankles now and my legs are slimmer but they still have a LONG way to go.

Don't be afraid of the mileage. What is the worst that happens? You walk a bit of it? There were times during my marathon training that I couldn't imagine a 16 mile training run....but you know what? You put one foot in front of the other and keep trucking. You may walk for 45 secs here and there and then get back into the run, but you keep moving. Did you get a gps watch? If not, get one...it is a lifesaver!!

Yeah I dont know what I am afraid of... maybe just the amount of time its going to take to run all those miles... I'm still pretty slow... But its time to buck up and DO IT ya know.

I haven't gotten a watch yet... they are kind of expensive, but I haven't really priced any out except the garmin forrunner which its around $300 or so... I just need to google search it. What kind do you have?

STOP hating on your body. Instead start thinking about how great your lower half is going to look and what you are going to do to make that happen. You need to love your body and thank it. It will love you back :)

I try but when I catch a glimpse in the mirror its hard not to pick... but like I said my legs are SLOWLY getting smaller and I think I just need to be patient.... I just want THIS summer to be the one I can FINALLY be comfortable and confident in whatever I'm wearing....

:):):)
 
Uhh Dee. Your legs are sexy. I think you mean sexier!

Good luck with the workload coming up. Those classes sound fun. And it's great you are comfortable and enjoy the communication classes. Being able to confidently and clearly communicate is a very, very powerful tool.

:blush5: Ummm, sure that's what I mean.

The more I think about school the more excited I get. And I agree communication is very important. I really wanted to take interpersonal communication rather than small group, but the classes didn't work with my schedule.... but even though its not required I think I might take it anyway because I will be working mostly with people 1 on 1.

Happy Friday!! :):)
 
Okay so I worked out a WO schedule for the next 12 weeks... ha I know sounds like a long time, but I just took the running plan and added in cross-training on the "rest" days. It looks like Satrudays will be long run day which works out great because my mom and I meet on Sundays for her workouts.

So next week it BEGINS!! Not every week is the same I tried to mix it up as much as possible with other cardio and strength days. The one consistant thing is salsa aerobics on Wednesdays and long runs on Saturdays.

With that... my WO schedule for next is:

Monday: Strength Train - Fully Body
Tuesday: 2 miles moderate pace - stretch
Wednesday: Salsa Aerobics
Thursday: 2.5 miles moderate pace - stretch
Friday: Heavy Circuit
Satruday: 3 miles conversational pace - stretch
Sunday: 2 EZ miles; WO w/mom

The weeks to follow are about the same as that, with some rest days Monday, Friday, or Sunday. I also threw in some hill training and will most likley throw in some cycling once the weather warms up... I'm itching for a good trail ride... and for summer to be here in general!!!!

I think if I stick to this plan I WILL be where I want by the end of the semester.... and that's the plan.

:) I would ask to wish me luck... but I GOT THIS!!!
 
I haven't gotten a watch yet... they are kind of expensive, but I haven't really priced any out except the garmin forrunner which its around $300 or so... I just need to google search it. What kind do you have?

I got the Garmin 305 off the Costco website for $180 several months ago. It has totally changed the way I run. I love seeing my pace, distance, time, all of that while I am running. It seriously is a great tool and I can't imagine running now w/out it. It takes the guess work out of trying to "map out" routes. You can just park your car...run out 1/2 the distance and then run back to your car. Easy as pie...
 
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