It needs to happen NOW!!

sigh* so fat.

My face is clearing up really well..i love it.....i look like i'm wearing makeup when i'm actually not.

but i'm not losing weight......
 
Wow! Hi paulab! It's funny..I was thinking of posting yesterday, but I just didn't..hm! Thanks for checking in on me! I appreciate it.

I'm...around.
At this moment, I am studying for my second microecon midterm that will be in 50 minutes...I left the study room at 215am and fell asleep at 330am last nite, woke up at 7am this morning. I can feel my body tired..my arms are loopy. eck. I have a really important midterm to take tomorrowr at 8am, and fall registration pass time at 630am...and I have to work...and volunteer...and attend a kickback at a friend's house.
and then go home <3 mommmmmy!

After friday, I am pretty sure that I'm going to come back on the wagon, trust me, i've been lurking around this forum and i'm jealous of the people in the before-and-after pictures.

also, it's already hitting the 3 digits here. Walking to the library this morning, it's already 80 degrees, and consequently, I was sweaty! eck.

Food choices have been hard...but I try to incorporate the veggies and fruits where they're less noticable so i don't automatically turn away from them.

I still have my goals, obviously won't reach 155, but that's okay. (no, it's not okay)

I needed to work alot of hours this week and last week because I need to pay rent. I have this work ethic that is almost not necessary...being that I can just go to my mom and say "hi mommmyyyy", but....I'd rather say Hi mom for 300 rather that 600.

I'll be back later today.

Hellllllooo to everyone else. Carrie, you tried helping me back on, but i was resistent. someday I will listen.....to myself.
 
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

in the past 36-48 hours, i slept a total of 6 hours.
3 hours at home
1.5 hours on this hard desk
and another 1.5 hours
and i gotta work today.


good morning america
 
i'm back:waving:

hehehehehe.

So I went shopping for some shorts when I went home, the shorts I have here are all size 10s...and gosh, can anyone say camel toe? :puke: hahahahaha...

So I went to Costco and found some really cute Calvin Klein shorts! I bought a pair in a size 12, and a pair of Polo Ralph Lauren in a size 12, and some Adidas shorts in a size

The temperature up here is ridiculous, almost like Las Vegas weather...the wind has a touch of manure in it...the scent, of course. ewww.

I'm backkkkkkk. I finished my midterms on thursday and friday, and well, let's just leave it at that.

I feel very psychologically strong. I tested myself on Friday with a long day with no sleep, and I succeeded. <3

I'll be back later, I'm going to grill some chicken breast!!! ciao everyone!!
 
heyyy gymchica, i hope i stay around this time...
for the long haul.

my forearms are sore/tingly/weak...really weird...i guess my body isn't fully recovered from the caffeine-high over the weekend, i'm laying off energy drinks for 2 weeks (only drink them during midterms and finals)

gym'd tonight. my arms got SUPER jiggly....cardio, eh, i'm super uncomfortable in my workout clothes because...well, they're tight. so..i gotta figure something out fast. really fast. or progress will be zero to none.

it's funny how i spend more money when i'm poor (tight-budgeted) than when i'm "comfortable", thanks mom...now i'm stingy with every dollar.

idea: purchasing salads for lunch is SO MUCH CHEAPER than buying pizza, burritos, nachos...duh.
idea2: i make the best chicken breast, ever. the moist-est. ever.
idea3: it'd be really nice to wear my size 10 shorts/capries/bermuda shorts..i have....5 pairs. do you see how "obsessed" i am about being a size smaller? sigh*

i know that a size 10 is only 20 pounds away, laura, just get down to 160!!!!! >=(

don't ask how much i am, i won't post it until i'm down past 170.2 lbs...
 
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I've realized that many other diary holders don't just talk about their food intake and exercise..but about their life.

Well, i've been lagging in the details about my life...so here we go?
Our loan officer got murdered (wtf???), so our loan papers were delayed therefore denied..now we're waiting on another bank to finish them, in time...if not, we'll pay the bank for an extension. my mom really wants the house. to purchase a house that was once worth 900k for 540k in REALLY great conditions and PLENTY OF UPGRADES, how can we miss? although my room is the size of a shoebox, the rest of the house is fantastic. My mom speculates we'll get the key by mid-june, i hope i hope i hope!

i've thought about staying in college for another year, just so i can experience more things. as a few of you may know? or not...i graduated highschool in 2 years, so i'll technically be graduating college at 20, not 22. I think that is a bit too soon, maybe i'm afraid of the real world, yeah..that could be it.

med school or bio company?! what do i dooo do i want to work or continue going to school?! what do i do?! I miss my grandma, when i'd have confusions like this, i'd usually vent out to my grandma. I really want to make money...have that "gotta go to work" feeling 9-5pm, but I really want to go to med school....I reallllllllllly want to become a doctor. having severe flat feet, it would be smart of me to continue going to school so i won't have to work at the bottom of the ladder and work so hard.

i woke up this morning feeling incredibly lonely, the weather has definitely cooled down! yay! last week, i woke up to 70 degrees, this morning, i think it's about high 50s...it makes such a difference!

I made him chose either me or his "friend" (who he tried to get with, but she said no..and who he's made choices over her before)...and he chose her. i'm not so heartbroken about that (i think), i just really miss him. I stood up for myself, bravo, put my feelings as a priority, bravo, and i feel so strong and smart about my decision. I wouldn't have been able to be in his life, listen to all the bullshit he feeds me, and when I want to hang out, he says "oh i don't know..." CAUSE HE'S LEAVING HIS SCHEDULE OPEN FOR HER.

...assumptions? no. the truth. he says he's everything i want in my life now, hahaha, just cause he got a job now. he was umeployed after college for TWO YEARS, and is a regular pot smoker.....can someone slap some good ol' sense into me and tell me i made the right cut? thanks!

my face is so smooth! so smooth! darn acne scars gotta go, but smooth as heck! BENZOYL PEROXIDE <3

this week is finally calm, just a bit, I have another 20 page lab report due in...A WEEK. I also don't have class this memorial day weekend, woohoo

1/2 cup of organic soymilk vanilla
3/4 cup of whole grain honey oats from trader joe's (CHEERIOS ARE THE BEST)
1 cup of spinach, kidney beans, chicken, peas, thousand island dressing, tomatoes
2 cup of romaine lettuce, 3 ounces of chicken breast, 1 avocado, 2 slices of ww toast w/ cheese/horseradish spread, 1 cheese stick
1/2 avocado, 2 cup of romaine lettuce, 5 ounces of chicken breast, 1 slice of ww toast w/ cheese/horseradish spread
 
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I biked 10 miles today/yesterday. freakin crazy. outside. in the sun. with cars.

i'm tired of all the fat implications. that extra shy stare when i ask them to go to a korean bbq buffet. that extra shy stare when they ask me if i already ate dinner.

screw them all. let's prove them wrong!!!!!!!!!!

why eating all this salad? because the salad is rotting....and the loaf of bread is old in 3 days, and the chicken breast sat in the frig for a week before i marinated it. wooooopsies..
 
slept at 4am, woke up at 730am. need sleep? I can sleep in on weekends. I really want to finish my daily to-do lists i make for myself, maybe 24 hours ina day is not enough....but i am miss impossible!

:D

morning breakfast was 1/2 cup of soy milk with 3/4 cup of cheerios yum-oooo
 
laureelee07 said:
slept at 4am, woke up at 730am. need sleep? I can sleep in on weekends. I really want to finish my daily to-do lists i make for myself, maybe 24 hours ina day is not enough....but i am miss impossible!

:D

morning breakfast was 1/2 cup of soy milk with 3/4 cup of cheerios yum-oooo
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I understand that!! 24 hours never seems like enough. I read something that said Americans fit 36 hours of activity into a 24 hour day. I guess this is because of multi-tasking. In the past 3 days I've spent 24 hours in the library...oooh the joys of college. Obviously you understand!

Anyway you said you make the best chicken breast ever?? How do you do it???? Mine always sucks!

Anyway good luck on getting your to-do list done! :)
 
Howdy gym chica!

Chicken breast
I just marinate the sucker, this new seasoning from trader joe's is for poultry, it's like a buck fifty! cheap! sooo i sprinkle that on, parsley, and some black pepper...

1. get the pan hot with oil (i use enova) ON HIGH
2. lay those chicken breasts on the pan for 1 minute ON HIGH
3. once you see the edges turn white, you turn down the heat to medium-low and put a cover on the pan to retain all the moisture!!
4. put the timer on for 10 minutes...DON'T TOUCH THE CHICKEN
5. come back, turn it over for another 5 minutes, after, you should have the moistest chicken breast ever.

patience is important and slow cooking.

lunch today was a $4.83 salad, it was goooooood....better tasting than yesterday's.
when i got home at 7 i ate..
salad
1/3 of avocado
2 fried eggs
1 cup of rice
1 cup of kimchi
2 slices of ww toast w/ cheddar horseradish spread
1 cheese stick

1 drumstick ice cream and some ginger cookies (15)

mind you that i do NOT slice up my chicken breast to speed up cooking, it still cooks all the way through, imho, i prefer waiting 15 minutes for moist chicken than getting 5 minute hard chicken.

Gosh, this weight needs to come off....I can only wear my size 12 shorts so often, thankfully the weather is cooling down...like 15 degrees. <3

I write on my to-do list to go to the gym, but biking 5-10 miles right now is sufficient, imho. I just don't have the energy or time to go to the gym...especially when i'm lacking sleep.
 
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You can do it!! Are you taking summer classes? I'm sure you'll have much more time to dedicate to exercise (and sleep!) once summer rolls around. I have about 3 more weeks, and I cannot wait. :)

Oh and thanks for telling me how to cook chicken. I'll definitely have to give it a shot. Usually I just throw mine in the oven and let it cook. Last time I forgot about it so it was pretty hard and not very good. I made myself eat it though anyway (for 2 separate meals) because I spent money on it!
 
omg...i just tried to put on a pair of my jeans on and i had to do the sucking in maneuver...this jeans used to be loose! no sucking in at all required! size 10s! EVEN AFTER BEING WASHED AND DRIED!

i know when my body feels 180 lbs, and this is it, my face is super bloated and obviously my jeans don't fit the way they used to.

fuck.
 
gooood morning gymchica

yes, two classes per summer session + 15 hours/week work + 8 hours/week volunteering at the hospital

I REALLLLY want an open, stress-free schedule, so i can FOCUS on losing weight..GO TO THE GYM....last nite, i also got home after 3am from the library, i woke up at 7ish. i caught up with a classmate friend of mine and figured out that i'd have to start those darn MCATs this summer/this year if i want to get into med school in 2010...(because i was planning on taking a year off) now, because my GPA is so low, i'm thinking of being a nontraditional applicant, not straight out of college. i'm going to seriously consider the post-grad programs. I would like to speak to a counselor, but they are booked up to their necks. I have to call the office on Mondays at 8am for appointments! how crazy is that!

Next school year, or actually during the summer, I wanted to be a big sister or become a counselor at a boys and girls club, gosh i can't say stuff like this right now, my eyes are closing on me. *Yawwwwwwwwwwwwn*

i love going to the gym, doing cardio and pumping iron, now that i don't, it's obviously showing. i'm a fatty. my face is so round (but smooth and soft)

i'm going to go to work for 3 hours, hopefully i won't fall asleep in front of an open box of crickets. heheh!
 
Well if you're in no big hurry to graduate, maybe you should just take the summer off. Is that possible?? Everybody needs a break sometimes and then you'll be ready to go once fall comes (and probably in much better shape too!).
 
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