It needs to happen NOW!!

back on the wagon, who said i got back on the wagon?

......you got the idea.

I am so soaked to get my bike back tomorrow afternoon, assuming that it is then that it'll be ready.

Tomorrow I can't guarantee anything....All I can guarantee myself is 1) i will study for my economics midterm on thursday 2) finish my discussion and results draft for critique on thursday.

Diet-wise? no

Thanks so much for stopping by my page, y'all.

The job site is 1.5 miles away from the edge of my campus so, I have decided that I will bike the distance! (there is no other option than actually getting my car and driving out there, and there is no way i'm getting a parking permit...again!) I hope my bike will hold up. I start my training this Friday at 1pm!! YESSS!!

This is technically my very first job. ever?. ever....Kind of...the church praise team keyboardist doesn't count.

Which reminds me, I also have another bike, the bike I used prior to getting this one, I will get that fixed and put it somewhere on campus so I can have a backup bike. It sucks walking the largest UC campus with flat feet. and a fatty backpack. sucksss =(
 
I am so sick. of food. My ass is sick of food too.

It has been a stressful week.

No excuse. No excuse.

Bike wheel looks NOTHING like the original, but it works mighty fine. It better, for 86 bucks.

I am so broke. my mom asked for her money back...so I think for June, I'll have to pay my own rent....shit, I hope I don't get fired.

I want to workout soooooooooooo bad.........I hate living like this. It makes me feel so miserable. I LOOK miserable.

After I get my finances right, I'm going to go get some face products, I look tired all the time. I need some pore minimizer, face brightener, concealer for my eyebags, and maybe some nonmaterialistic happiness.
 
I have a trip interview and it's due on April 29th...this Tuesday.

I shouldn't have jumped off the wagon because I know I would've been in such good shape for my interview pants.

poo.

I hope everyone is doing well.
 
Hi girl,
Sorry you're having such a stressful time. Just try to relax and get as much rest as possible. Everything will work out in the end. It's important to try to spend some time for yourself, treating yourself right in the midst of everything. Have you ever tried yoga or meditation? It helped me a lot my last year.
 
I want to go to Bolivia for my winter break to promote health! Mostly dental and medical...They are looking for financially-secured passionate individuals. I really want to go, i've never been to a third world country!! and since volunteering at the hospital, i really enjoyed helping people...i love it! =)

plus, It'll look super good on my resume and my application to med school...

sigh* what a waste of a saturday...
 
I love your idea of going to Bolivia. That would be a great thing to do. A former co-worker of mine was an RN, and she has gone on several trips like that all over the world. She loves it. One place they went to, the village only had a doctor once a year when a group like hers came through. Can you imagine? We are very lucky to live where we do--even if our health insurance system sucks ass, it could be worse.

I hope you're back to eating well and exercising. You'll feel so much better physically and mentally when you are. :)
 
Hey K cimberly, thank you for stopping by.

I thought by now I was despised by the whole forum community.

How typical, eh? A person comes in with all this motivation and dedication and falls off 10 days later.

How sad. Sigh*

Well, I'm creeping back in. Day by day, hopefully I can have each and everyone of you believe in me again. =)

Points to think about while i was OFF the wagon....
1. Going to bed with a full stomach has to be a bad sign
2. Waking up with a full stomach has be a bad sign
3. Sure, everything else in life was going well (school, job,...) but my physical body was lacking so much which leads to mental stress..sigh sigh
4. The whole to-go container of nachos were good, the chicken breast and microwaveable pizza was good, the cinnamon roll was good, and the Safeway deli sandwich, and the jalapeno cheese bread, and the Lays potato chips, and the ice cream also making tempura 3 times a week was great
but i wish i was rich enough so I can eat really really good food everyday....steaks, fresh steamed veggies, salmon, lobster..
5. I am not much of a snacker, my skinnier friends like to snack...but I prefer a nice hearty meal...not some chips, drinks, and gum.
6. I never wore jeans
7. I remained constantly full....I probably ate 3 whole meals a day, whole meaning the whole order/container/leftovers too.

Good news?
MY SKIN IS SMOOOTH. I use benzoyl peroxide for my acne and it really clears off the "rough" dead skin cells. <3

Today's Foodlog
700: 1/2 cup of oatmeal
**** 1/4 DRY oatmeal + 1/4 cup of water = 1/2 cup of oatmeal FROM NOW ON...
730: 1 banana (cause i was bored)
1100: 1 orange
130: 1/2 of medium apple
400: 3 cups of pasta/pork chops/chicken breast/bok choy/valvetta/mushroom pasta sauce/large can of diced tomatoes
some multigrain wheat thins with spicy black bean chip dip, 2 fried eggs <-------HELLA FULL LIKEAOIAFSHFAWERASFDKLJ
530: 1 lemonade bar (ice cream?)

upside:
pasta was free + used up alot of my foods
downside:
i'm effin' full.


Today's Sched.
class from 8-850
volunteer 930-130
work from 2-4
work on lab report
NO gym. i'll be on my feet allllll day...

I have a whole lot of rotting fruit, so I expect to eat all of it. Plus i'm broke. so......

i'm heading back to the lab to finish up some work. =(

at least it's free parking. i'm going to take my laptop so i can work there...i bet i'll be efficient over there! =)
 
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Good for you for not completely letting the bandwagen roll away! It is OK to fall of it, but never let it roll away!

I think the idea with Bolivia is great. I have been and it is a very beautiful and fascinating country! I don't know if you read or not but I am moving to africa (don;t even know where yet) and as soon as I know where the man's placement is I will get in contact with the red cross to make sure I find a hospital to volunteer in. I would love to travel around immunizing children, or otherwise work in the labour ward of a rural hospital! But we will be "stationed" in the capital, so I am not sure how close to my dream I may get!

Have a great week! Take every day one by one, don;t think about tomorrow, or the day after. Just one by one!
Camy
 
Hey Camy!!! Yeah...the trip interview is at 9:30pm tonite woohoo they said "dress comfortably" wooooooot wooot! I do horrible in interview, i have really bad anxiety. =/

all my fruit is rotting...this sucks -_-. I have 3 bananas left and about 7 apples with bruised spots and 2 pears

Today's Foodlog
745: 1/2 banana
1200: 2 slices of pepperoni & veggies pizza made from scratch at the campus "coho" aka coffeehouse
1245: 1 medium apple
0430: 2 cups of pasta from yesterday, some wheat thin chips, 8 ounces of sugar free rockstar
0600: 1 scoop of ben and jerry mango mango FREE CONE DAY! =) but didn't eat the cone

Workout:
15 minute BIKE RIDE HOME
15 minute CYCLING at gym
the pizza sucks but i was hungry.....

my feet were so tired yesterday...sigh*
 
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WOW! I'm so excited for you. I know the experience would be GREAT for you!!!! Don't worry about your little splurge, the important thing is that you're here now and doing GREAT!
 
I am slowly losing weight, like a pound a day. Getting down to 170 i hope, without much effort =).

FEELING: i just want to note how PACKED my stomach/mid section feels.

Honestly, I have NEVER EVER seen/felt my mid section feel so flabby...it's gross.

Today's Food Log
800- 1 apple
830- 1 bbq pork vietnamese sandwich
1030- 1 cup of pasta w/ 2 fried eggs




Today will be a LONG day. skipped class at 8am, but got to 1) volunteer 2) work 3)club meetings

Sorry y'all, I haven't had a moment to read everyone's journals...i'll probably do it this weekend! yay! i'm going hooomeee

this whole house fiasco is crazy, our loan officer JUST GOT MURDERED....how crazy is that. -_-
 
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I am having some stressful non-food, non-school related issues.

It's pretty sad, I guess it mostly has to do with my outlook in life and my self-esteem and confidence...just all the aspects that can affect the success of my life.

I, obviously, if not already implied by my time of absence, that I have failed at my weight loss success. Like always, I lost weight too fast.

I was not eating enough calories.

I just got the new issue of Shape magazine and am going to use their bikini body diet plan to make sure I eat enough. Each day roughly consists of 1500 calories, which is where I need to eat. And looking at the list of food, I was definitely below 1500 a day.

I really need to lose weight. I link it with my self-esteem and happiness. I let it control the level of my happiness.

I am not happy with my life.

I stopped talking to a friend of mine for a few months, and then got back to talking to him, and called it quits again last night. It was a very emotionally-unhealthy relationship.

Gosh, I just want to go back and talk to him. but i won't.

I need to lose weight....i want to lose weight.
 
laureelee07 said:
I thought by now I was despised by the whole forum community... hopefully I can have each and everyone of you believe in me again. =)
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Girl PU-LEASE! If weight loss was easy, we'd all be thin. Besides, that's what this place is for! No where does it say, "Only perfect people who never eat bad and never skip a day of exercise and who lose 5 pounds a week can join!" You are right where you need to be! We will ALL help each other through this! You're back at it and that's what matters most! :hurray: Five days of slacking is nothing! lol I'm coming off 2 weeks of slacking! YOU CAN DO IT! Just take it one day at a time!
 
thanks soooooooo much paulab =)

Bad news:
I roll out of bed, first thing I do, I check my e-mail. Drum roll? Not needed. I did not get the Bolivia trip.....once in a lifetime trip, kind of, goodbye.
had the worst cramps EVER and bloating EVER

Good news:
-Started my period (I enjoy my periods because the idea of "bad" blood going out, is just great)
-<3 Organic Light Soy milk Vanilla!! woohoooooo....no farting here!

I've been about 50% better than my slacking off-period...1) not eating really late even though I REALLY WANT TO 2) eating a healthy breakfast 3) keeping myself hydrated!

hey, at least it's a start....

I EXERCISED TODAY!!!
20 MINUTES ON THE EFFIN' TREADMILL
KEY TO LONG TERM TREADMILL? WARM-UP @ 3.8MPH FOR 3-4 MINUTES

and 10 minutes on that interactive bike thingy
and did i tell you I biked to and from campus today? sweeeeeet (sweaty).

i feel so good...so so good damn endorphins..hahaha!
 
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Today's Food Log
~ 1 cup of Light Soy Milk
1 cup of GO LEAN CRUNCH

8 ounces of potato chowder
10 large french fries (thick cut) <3
3 packets of ketchup

1/2 turkey sandwich Blimpies? Blimpie?
1/2 back of BBQ Cornnuts
1 6-pk of Oreos
1 6-pk of wheat cheese crackers
1 kit kat bar
1 fun size peanut M&Ms

1 banana

This week is National Nurse's Week so the Nurse Manager put out a bunch of goodies at the nurse station, one nurse invited me in, I couldn't help myself. hehehehe.

not sure what's for dinner.
 
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today's freakingly long schedule

630-wake up
8-850: npb 102 class
drive 20 miles
930-530: volunteer at the hospital
drive back 20 miles
600-800: work at the lab changing clean water vials

now I have to go to the gym to work out, but that's not until 930, my feet sooo need to rest...surprisingly though, maybe it's my mood (psychological thing?) but my feet don't ACHE as much as I think they should.

whew, i'm tired. I'll tell y'all how my workout goes tonite
 
Congrats Laura on your success!! You have totally showed determination and it's sure paying off. I can closely relate to you I'm 2o yrs old and 175 ish lbs. But my only set back is that I don't know how to get started in this forum. I don't know how to post anything or where to get stared in making my own post. I would greatly appreciate if you can please email me at misswendy_54@yahoo.com. Many thanks and keep up the good work.
 
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