I'm doing it for me because I love myself and so should you :)

B - Multigrain bun toasted with a slice of real cheddar cheese, two slices of tomatos slightly salted.
S - Medium coffee triple milk and sugar
L- Activia fibre yogurt + Salad w.meat (beef)
S - Orange
D- Catelli Smart spaghettini with chicken and sour cream sauce with garlic and vegeta for seasoning ( Yesterdays left overs)
Under calories by 464

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It could very well be that, that time of the month is visiting any day now but I am having cravings like no tomorrow. I had my dinner my plate of pasta and chicken and I still feel hungry. My guess would be hormones or the lack of calories. I am trying to hard not to go for seconds, but seriously HELL no, even though it is smart pasta whole wheat, I really do not want pasta period. I will try to make myself a nice fruit bowl of fresh raw fruit and plenty of water to fill this gut. I am gonna go check that gym out tonight for sure in my building and try to get some muscles back into this flimsy body.
I really REALLY want my body back I once had not too long ago. I have my American Eagle skinny jeans, really sexy ones and they refuse to go past my thighs, gotta shrink this booty and gut. THere has to be a balance between being a mother a wife and a full time worker, there just has to be.
OH! This morning I went on youtube and try to find some home exercise videos and I found one, hip hop dancing or something, tried it out, had a little sweat going, but nothing i'd call a work out really.
 
welcome back
you are doing awesome keep it up, you will be amazed how quick the weight comes off once you start burning some calories :)
 
Tasha - Thank you :) Yes you are right, cant wait :)


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Went to use the exercise room in my building yesterday, sadly it was closed to to renovations. I called the office about 5min ago to ask if it's available and the lady informed me they are just painting the walls and it should be done in a few days, she isn't sure when, but I am so estatic, there is a womans section and a mens and you get your own key and the doors are always closed and no one can enter unless you have a key given from the office :) YAY! I was kinda scared about sharing it with men, specially since I'll be down there late evening so this is amazing news. Hours are 8-10 every day to use so my God this is just super super super.... Until then I decided to do my own home work outs, some sit ups and some dancing to some videos online that will help me break a sweat and prepare me a little better for the official work outs. SO far the day has just started for me, heading to work in about 40min, having my coffee, not sure what I want for breakfast, im so lazy to eat :S but I know I will have to. Hope everyone else is good and the weekend is almost upon us :)
 
Today went very well :)

B - multigrain bun with 2 slices of tomatos a squirt of mustard, a slice of oven roasted turkey deli meat and a slice of swiss cheese.

S - Activia fiber yogurt

L - Garden Salad with Balsamic dressing

S - None

D - Jasmine steemed rice, Satueed beans in garlic and some butter, ground beef pattis home and hand made with arabic spices and garlic, a cucumber onion tomato salad.

Today was much better, NO cravings and I have no hunger cramps and I feel very satisfied :)

I CANNOT wait until my condominium gym is ready im so PUMPED!

Ps : Side note, I feel and see my shape returning. My clothes fit so much better, the tummy isn't so puffy anymore and the hubby sure noticed too ;) I feel SO much sexier even if it is probably around 10lbs down by now. April wedding here I come :D:D:D
 
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Not a good start to this morning :( woke up feeling so weird, I think I have the stomach flu went running to bathroom twice in 5 minutes. Must be this weather too because it went from being humid and nice outside to freezing cold, ice rain and snow all in two days. Everyone is getting sick. I have no desire to eat or drink ANYTHING, my stomach just feels so heavy and sick so today I think I will take it easy with eating because I really can't handle anything right now. I'm going to bring tea to work, a few bags of green tea and hope for the best.
 
Yesterday was horrible, didn't go to work. It was bathroom day all day. I lived off of ginger ale and peptobismol, def the stomach flu. I was so pale and sick that would was a horrible chore to eat.

B - chicken noodle soup

S - None

L - European meat pie with sour cream (diary bad) but I forgot lol

S - Im gonna have to say Ginger Ale and chamomile tea

D - Golden Grain Rye Bread 2 sliced with Pure raspberry jam

I was under my cals by about 249.

This morning is much better, thr ginger and pepto help settle my stomach. This morning I am off to see my doctor for a check up :) It's snowing really bad here, the husbands off to work the son is at the grandparents house, so I have all day to myself :D Tomorrow is weigh-in day I am excited, hopefully I went down a few numbers :)
 
WEIGHT LOSS UPDATE -
CW - 243lbs
LOST 1.5LBS ( before it was 244.8, now it's 243.4)


Well even though the 1lb isn't much, it's still going in the right direction and I don't mind it expecially since I haven't exercised at all yet. This weekend was not bad, had to have ginger ale (not happy about it) since it's pop, but let's just say I had the worst kind of stomach bug you can imagine, I lived in the bathroom and had the worst upset stomach, so Peptobisom and GingerAle were my two bffs all friday and saturday. Last night us and a few friends all decided to go to a chinese buffet, I'm not gonna lie and say I was good, I TOTALLY pigged out and ate way too much (CRAP) probably would have lost 2lbs if I didn't consume so much unhealthy chinese fried food. Anywho today was MUCH better. I am proud that I can once in a while pig out and then get back to it right away and not give up like I used to before.
Todays Menu

B - Slice of Golden grain rye bread with raspberry jam
S - Coffee
L - Whole wheat pita with lettuce, baby tomatos, ceaser dressing (1tsp) * had no healthier option at home and mayo for me is a NO NO), and chicken breast.
S- none
D- None so far, I really am NOT hungry at all but with about 950cals left to spare I need to get in that kitchen and spruce up something healthy, maybe I will just have some food. I think my stomach is not back yet fully to it's health so my appetite is really small. Ugh I don't know I'm tired of trying to figure out this damn body of mine and what's going on with it daily. I think I have a bipolar system. One day it's like I could eat ANYTHING in my path and another I don't crave the air I breathe let alone food. Good thing is that I've been very disciplined throughout all of my crazy moods and cravings.
Tomorrow back to work, not looking forward to it, I'm feeling really lazy today and weak...bla bla bla.
 
Okay I don't know what else do to but come here and just splatter my mood all over this page. I have a huge headache just popped two advils and I am under my calories by about 700 because I decided that healthy choice chicken noodle soup was enough and that was about 1.5hrs ago and I am NOT hungry but I am craving MORE. It's 9pm, way too late to eat and I am seriously batteling myself from not eating ANYTHING at this point. I think I'm more angry at myself for wanting to eat and I think I think deep down inside I'm trying to punish myself by under eating a lot lately. I KNOW my body needs a proper amount of nutrition daily and that NOT eating will put my system in starvation mode and with ALL this knowledge my stubborn ass refuses to fix these mistakes. I am also SO angry at myself for being to lazy to at least get up and do some home exercises until my damn gym in the building is ready for use. Even tho I am so motivated sometimes it seems like I expect to drop these 20-30lbs by april by just eating right. Yes they'll drop but not in 2 months. I need start seeing 3-4lbs loss a week not this 1lb crap. GRR!!!!!!!!!
 
B - Golden Grains rye bread (2 slices) with some sour cream and chicken Bologna

S - Coffee
L- Veggie burger multigrain bun with mustard, ketchup, lettuce, onions, tomatos and a activia blueberry yogurt.
S- None
D- Homemade mashed potatos, chicken thigh roasted no skin with seasoning, small amount of gravy and some olives on the side.

Under calories 541. HOW? This is one thing that is confusing me because I feel like I eat so much and yet it's never enough. I can't snack too much because of my work schedule we get one 30 min break. At home I try not to load up on dinner with carbs and nonsense but at the end of the day I'm left with too many calories left to spare. I need to rethink this eating thing. Perhaps I need to have bigger breakfasts and maybe sneak in a snack at work after breakfast and after lunch. Going snack shopping RIGHT NOW!
 
Hey wow a lot of things have been happening!! how s your tummy? feeling better?
Hope you are recovered from that! btw you can get diet ginger ale (with stevia -not artificial sweetener) - the brand is zevia. I like it occasionally.
The minute you start exercising you'll be dropping more than just a 1lb a week - I promise you!!
Well done for checking out the gym!! Good intentions :) btw - you can just go for a walk for an hour - that's already calories bruns or get a DVD - I do it sometimes when i have no access to the gym.

Oh just read - you were off the snack shopping....how did that go?
Bigger breakfasts are definitely a good idea. (for me smaller dinners work great).

Good luck!
 
Justina - Tummy is offically better, it was a little hump I had to get over but I did it and it's all good now, thanks for asking :) Like you're saying there def is NO excuse as to why someone isn't active, for me it's just that push I need when I come home from a long shift which is me standing on my feet all day. But I did it before, hit the gym daily right after my gym and managed to drop around 85lbs in 7months by pure working out and eating healthier, no special diet or pills.

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I found my Turbo Jam fat blaster DVD in the basement the other day with a nice layer of dust on it so I will put that baby to use this morning as soon as I'm done blogging. Haven't wrote in here in two days but things have been going smooth. I try now to not be so low on cals, so mostly if I am it's only by about 200ish. I probably mentioned before that my condominuim has 11 floors which means A LOT of stairs, WHICH MEANS an amazing exercise method for someone trying to lose day so my MINI goal for today is after work, I will try to walk up all 11 floors without dieing lol.
I feel GREAT I feel empowered and I feel like I have so much self control and believe me temptations are every where. One co-woker KNOWS I'm on this healthier life style thing and every day she offers me sweets or snacks like chips and pretzels and every single day I said "no thanks", I want my body and my self confidence back so badly that none of it matters anymore to me, it is just not worth it. I think about the months ahead and how awful I will feel not feeling right in summer clothing or that dress for the wedding, and how much I will be ashamed of my body, it just makes me sick to my stomach and it builds a hate for all that s**t people keep eating.
Today for dinner I plan to make some white sea bass fillets with a greek salad. Okay off to do some fat blaster work out :)
 
Hey, i m glad you are feeling better!
Have you worked out with the DVD? Did the stairs?
Well done for refusing unhealthy snacks at work! You are champion!! Eyes on the ball!
 
Justina - Yes in the morning I did the dvd plus added my own sit ups to flatten out this fluff ball of a tummy. Felt great but I could tell how much I actually am out of shape. Suckkkyy!!!
Didn't do the stairs, came home only to realize that at 645 I had to be at my sons grade school for parent teacher night.

Today went GREAT, except I am again under my calories by A LOT , around 500ish. Dinner was fairly small, don't have much of an appetite lately, I've been moody and just icky all week. Must be hormones playing their games I've even missed you know what this month, no bun in the oven either, so I don't know maybe my body is just adjusting to everything, detoxing from crap.

Tomorrow is friday (tgif), can't wait to have a few days off and just sit back and relax and focus on ME and let this body rest. Work is just killer, 8 hours standing straight minus the 30 min break I get.

Hope this sunday shows better improvement in weight loss *fingers crossed*
 
Great work on the exercise and resisting temptation - that is huge cause it takes sooooo much self control. Well done! Rest and enjoy the weekend and try and get those calories up so your body doesn't start holding on to the calories you consume.
 
Mands - Thank you, you are very right about the calories, gotta work on that big time. :)

Well as we speak I am eating breakfast it is 8.20am, and this is what is on the menu.
-Pumpernickel Rye Bread 1.5 slices (120 cals)
-Pure Raspberry Jam 1.3 tbsp (63cals)
-Cup of 2% white milk 130cals
Total 313, Left for today 1387 calories.

* I'm on my second slice and I'm having a hard time finishing it. It was meant to be 2 slices, but I can't it's not going down. There are two factors playing here a) I am so NOT a breakfast person b) this jam tastes a little too sweet. I'm having my milk, I feel like I have been a little low on diary these past two weeks so Im having my cup of milk right now.

QUESTION FOR YOU GUYS? Anyone have any suggestions as far as what kind of Shake I can get that I can sip for snack to give me a extra boost in nutrients and kind of help me cover the calories I am missing all day. I am going to go to Edge nutrition after work and See I can get a good one to have that I can gulp down at work as a snack. ANy suggestions would be appreciated :)
 
Yesterday finished good, had a rough last night because of some personal problems but dinner was very good. Made homemade chicken rice steemed veggie teriyaki, it was delicious and so filling. Ended up feeling very hungry around midnight, stomach was gurgeling and all and I don't get it because I was only about 90 below my calories but I ignored it drank my water and went to bed. This morning I made myself a nice healthy breakfast.
2 boiled eggs, turkey bacon, and some sliced up raw tomato's salted. I went into my closet to try some clothing items that were starting to be too fit on me and it was all becoming lose and fit properly. I notice the change when I look in the mirror and now I notice it on my clothes :) SO HAPPY! I feel like I'm coming back to life again. The husband made a funny comment last night, I was cleaning and he was looking at me and said "don't you disappear on me now", he says he sees a change big time in my shape and face and soon enough I am going to be posting some pictures so everyone can see the progress I've made so far. Tomorrow is my 3rd weigh-in and I am so curious to see if I lost more than 1lb this week, if I could have my way I'd be gunning for 3lbs, but let's see. At the end of the day even 1lb is 1lb in the right direction and I am just happy to be going towards my goal than farther away from it like a month ago. I feel better, I feel more energized, I feel pure now that all this garbage is out of my system. I haven't touched sodas, fast food, snacks like chips and a big one chocolate in 4 weeks now and I feel SO great! I feel in control and that is the big one. I wish to fit into my old skinny jeans by april, they are a size 12 American Eagle jeans, actually the way they were designed they are around a size 10. Now I believe I'm a 14, so 2 sizes is a good goal to try to drop by April because when I wore those and they fit like a glove was when I was around 200lbs, the lowest I got was 198lbs and for my height (5'8) and large body frame that was a weight that made me look like 170lbs. My ultimate goal would be to be down to 180lbs. Every specialist I've talked to said that I shouldn't go under 175 because it wouldn't suit me and I would look TOO skinny. And my goal is not skinny, my goal is curvy, shapely, elegant and classic female looks with some meat on my bones. *pats self on shoulder*...so far so good :) going the right direction :) <3
 
Today I am going to weigh myself, but as soon as I head over to the parents house, because they're the ones with the digital scale. Hopefully there's some change

Okay so last night I had a cheat night. The husband and I and another couple who are close friends of ours went out to town for some much needed fun and relaxation. We hit the casino first and I had a virgin strawberry daiquiri , it's my most favorite drink at the casino and I never have it, only when we go there which is maybe once a month or even less than that. We all went out to a bar did some dancing, I DID NOT DRINK AT ALL *happy dance*, but after wards they were all so stuck on going to get some shawarmas, and at first I declined to order one but temptation took over so I had a whole wheat shawarma with chicken, garlic sauce lettuce, turnips and onions and a middle eastern drink which I've always loved, which is called Leben, and it is mainly made out of plain yogurt, water and salt. I checked the calories for it it was surprisingly low 84calories for the whole bottle, which was 500ml and I had 3/4 of the bottle I couldn't have more I was full. The shawarma probably hit around 300 calories. At the end of the night I probably consumed 500 calories more than I should have but my confidence in this is that because of ALL the walking we did walking around town and dancing burnt a lot of those but I still couldn't help but feeling so terribly guilty at the end of the night and I kept mentioning to my husband OVER and OVER again how much I shouldn't have done that but he made me realize that living a healthy lifestyle doesn't mean you are a walking zombie, he told me these things where you let go once in a while are good to do. To go out and have something you shouldn't is good for you and he is right. Yes I ate late, had that sugary drink at the casino, but this is not my everyday thing I do and so I am now feeling much more confident about it and I stopped beating myself up over it. It's done...life goes on and the lbs will drop.

Now I'm off to make some breakfast :) and I will update of any weight loss later today.
 
Sadly I did not make it to the scale yesterday, from the mountain of laundry, shopping and cleaning I was doing it skipped my mind completely so it will have to be today that I see if there is any change in my weight from last week.

Yesterday was a weird day as far as eating went. Had my healthy breakfast (2 hard boiled eggs with a couple of strips of chicken bacon and raw tomato wedges lightly salted), then as the day went by and it's duties came I had no snack, ended up having lunch at 3 pm and it was ONE chicken bacon strip a pear and some V8 Peach Mango juice. Dinner was coming and I had NO IDEA WHAT TO MAKE. My son kept asking me to make it a Taco night, he loves taco nights where he is allowed to make his own shells and just go all messy on mama :) so I said what the heck and made it a taco night. At this point I was DIEING of hunger it was almost 730 pm. I was feeling so nauseous and light headed that I felt like I could eat the kitchen table ( NOT EATING IS BAD BAD BAD!!!) won't ever do that again. I had 1 taco shell with some extra lean ground beef, some sour cream, fresh tomato's and a sprinkle of real cheddar shredded cheese, as soon as I finished that one the buzzer rang and my husband's aunt decided to visit. Stopped eating, and sat with her for 2 hours. At this point my hunger came back, I was starving. The guilt of starving at 930 PM scared me but I had to realize that the way I was feeling was not just hungry I felt sick of how much I was actually hungry. I went against my own self and had 2 more shells lightly filled. Then I showered and went to be bed called it a night. Today is a new day and as much as I love my weekends I love my work days more, I feel more organized, in control and I know when I will eat what I will eat. The weekend is just kinda scattered around. I am sitting here eating my delicious oatmeal and then once I come to work I will have some coffee. I hope that I really did bump some numbers down on that darn scale :):)
 
Sometimes I have the same problem...leaving eating sooo late...small snack all day - and when I shouldn't eat (late in the evening) i just eat out the fridge...that's why i feel planning a good idea..but i know it's not always possible...
Anyway you were asking about a shake to have to make up for nutrients/vitamins/kcal.
Well we don't do shakes, but we do green juice (brand - amazing grass) - we buy the green superfood (powder). It tastes ok - and defo gives you tons of nutrients. You just have to add some water.
 
Hmm gonna have to try to green juice... :) Ty!

So after a whole month of my missed cycle, I got it last night "YUPPI!" :/:/:/:/
Not happy....no wonder I've been so sugary hungry and weird all week. Last night we had Roz rice with roasted chicken, turnips a few pickles, some lebanese pita bread and garlic sauce. Went under my calories by about 90. I bought a middle eastern desert called Halawa, it's SO high in calories it's 160 for 28g, so I had a tiny tiny bit just to taste and trust me I wanted to eat the whole lb of it lmao. I told my husband to take it away from my sight. And afterwards I just wanted SUGAR so badddd I even allowed myself some juice not the natural kind the crappy artificial "5 citrus" juice. but I had a few sips not the whole carton. So i'm sitting here this morning NOT hungry at all...not wanting breakfast. I had 3 sips of my coffee and threw it away. Just not feeling it right now, stupid hormones. When I get to work I'll make myself a little breakfast just to keep the engine running for the whole work day. For dinner I am going to make vegetable dumpling soup, with a european style food called Cevapi, it goes into a big fluffy warm bread bun home made with onions and sour cream on top of the meat but I will sub that beautiful bread for half a pita bread, less carbs.

Didn't weigh myself, I don't know I'm nervous because now that I'm on you know what, I know that I am retaining more water, I'm bloated and there's just too much extra weight there that will be gone in 5 days. I think I'll wait till sunday.
 
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