Thanks rainbow. Yeah. Today has been a better day though. I've been to town and did not succumb to any temptations. IN fact i wasn't tempted. I still think as far as my diet goes, there isn't a better approach Amy, for me. LImiting hte damage is best. But if i get that hormone thing happening or whatever it is that says in my head "gimme sugar" then i simply have to have it and have it until i am stuffed. I can actually stuff myself with other things and that might enable me to limit the amount of sugar i would be able to take in (and fat). I don't know. Maybe next time i'll try that.
Yeah money is better spent on getting help but help is not at hand when needed unfortunately and i am spending money on that too. But next time i go shopping for junk food, i will definitely try not to buy so much of it. I was tempted the morning after to throw it all away but jane said to give it to john and dad - when we talked about it. But i didn't want to give it to them because then they'd have seen how much i ate so i felt it better to eat it myself - particularly once i started. I could have thrown it down the sink or somewhere though. OH well next time.
That done, i am now trying to be gently back on teh wagon. I had a good brekkie and a good lunch although i had two courses then.
I do want to resume running or walking though as i know activity is really important for me to keep the weight from going up too fast.
I am even not bothering to get on the scale. I don't htink its that i am afraid of what i will see but to be honest, i don't feel energetic or motivated that's why i'm not being rigorous and following my reporting format of before.
I know that i can only follow my diet really well when my mood is right. The challenge is to get my mood right and to keep it there. Everything else will follow from there.
Thanks ladies for showing support.
Yeah money is better spent on getting help but help is not at hand when needed unfortunately and i am spending money on that too. But next time i go shopping for junk food, i will definitely try not to buy so much of it. I was tempted the morning after to throw it all away but jane said to give it to john and dad - when we talked about it. But i didn't want to give it to them because then they'd have seen how much i ate so i felt it better to eat it myself - particularly once i started. I could have thrown it down the sink or somewhere though. OH well next time.
That done, i am now trying to be gently back on teh wagon. I had a good brekkie and a good lunch although i had two courses then.
I do want to resume running or walking though as i know activity is really important for me to keep the weight from going up too fast.
I am even not bothering to get on the scale. I don't htink its that i am afraid of what i will see but to be honest, i don't feel energetic or motivated that's why i'm not being rigorous and following my reporting format of before.
I know that i can only follow my diet really well when my mood is right. The challenge is to get my mood right and to keep it there. Everything else will follow from there.
Thanks ladies for showing support.
