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SoCoSideshow

SoCoSideshow

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Hey everyone! Whippin' up a new weight loss diary for 2011, as I've determined it's the first year of my life wherein I spend the entire thing making healthy decisions for my body.

For anyone stopping by who hasn't met me, I'm Alyssa, and have been on WLF since October of 2010. I started my first successful weight loss journey in late June of 2010 at 268.6 pounds and, as of January 15, 2011, weighed in at 175 pounds. I've been using Weight Watchers' points system as well as cardio 2-3 times per week at the gym, as well as recently started incorporating a little bit of weight training.

New year, new diary.
2011, SHOW YOUR GUNS!!

This week has been solid on the physical front, though not as much on food. My aunt (who isn't a personal trainer, but might as well be) had me in the gym Sunday, Tuesday and Wednesday kickin' my ass on every lifting machine she could find, each time AFTER about an hour of cardio. Definitely sore as things stand right now.

Been cheating a little bit (at least definitely pushing it) on food, as I'm down to 26 WW points allowed per day, and have not learned how to snack responsibly. Time to make some adjustments, for sure.

Feel free to stop in and say hey anytime!
 
Hi, I'm still not back into it properly since christmas and then my holiday in England. I'm going to start doing water aerobics soon, 3 times a week with my friend and daughter and as from next week I'm going to start walking regularly with friends. I really need to get back into running as I've been really lazy this last couple of months.
Have a great year for weight loss and fitness :)
 
Hey SoCo,
Love your attitude, I feel the same about starting the new year with gusto!
Well done on the gym session -sounds like one hell of a workout!

This year's going to be a healthy one :)
 
Must have been fun to write down your January weight! I tend to forget how far people have come, it's fun to see it written out now and then. Here's to an amazing 2011!
 
You are such an inspiration! I saw your post on my thread in "before, after and inbetween" and looked at your profile to check you out. Been reading through your threads and we're so much alike! I'm 21 too, 5'6 and started my weight loss journey at 280lbs., which I know is more than you weighted, but it's near it! Seeing how much you've lost and how quickly has totally made my jaw drop! You look amazing and must feel awesome! Do you have any advice for me?
 
kmt8889 said:
You are such an inspiration! I saw your post on my thread in "before, after and inbetween" and looked at your profile to check you out. Been reading through your threads and we're so much alike! I'm 21 too, 5'6 and started my weight loss journey at 280lbs., which I know is more than you weighted, but it's near it! Seeing how much you've lost and how quickly has totally made my jaw drop! You look amazing and must feel awesome! Do you have any advice for me?
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Hey girl, thanks for stopping by, and thanks for the Wednesday morning pick-me-up :) I appreciate your kind words.
As far as advice goes, I'd just say stick with it -- no matter where in your journey you are, because it gets a little easier and feels a little better to start turning into the person you deserve to be with EVERY day that passes. I'm also very fortunate to be able to surround myself with a lot of supportive people; I hope the same is true for you. Best of luck to you, doll! xo

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Alloooo, everyone, happy Wednesday.
So my dad got the tredmill back up a couple days ago, and I've been sweatin' it out on that and using it as an excuse not to bear the cold and make it into the gym, which is unacceptable.

I was thinking of going today after I left campus, but there is something terribly wrong with the condition of my back right now... the muscle relaxers I was given do very little to alleviate the pain (and in fact do nothing except make me irritable and tired, but not even a "it would feel really good if I fell asleep right now" tired), so I'm starting to believe it's not a muscular problem. I think I might need to hit up the chiropractor.

Been cutting myself back down to smaller breakfasts, because I feel like I'm eating heavier at night than I used to, and wanna keep things even. Also am jumping on the trend of drinking a full glass of water before every meal to fill up faster; surprised it works so well.

Less than 5 pounds away from the big 100-pound loss; wish me buenas suerte!!
 
I don't know what I can even say anymore. I don't feel like the strong person I was when I started here a few months ago, even though I'm continuing to lose weight.

I can't find a job in this home health care field (which, frankly, I'm not sure I even want to do anymore), I have adopted a pill addiction like nobody's business, I feel the need to drink every single night that I CAN'T find pills, my self-image is still so shot for so many reasons, and I'm just... tired.

There is no reason I shouldn't be able to pull myself out of this slump and make better decisions for myself. I have a very advantageous life chock full of supportive people who would be appalled at the things I'm doing, and the life I've started to live.

I'm proud of myself for losing weight, sincerely, but only because it's the one thing I'm doing well for myself at the moment. I don't know how much longer people are going to buy the charade.

I'd call it a crisis of faith, but I suppose that would mean I had a god to believe in in the first place, which would be nice... it's just not how it is.

Sighs, heavy hearts, all of that jazz.
Everyone have a wonderful week.


Wasn't it easier in your firefly-catchin' days, and everything out of reach, someone bigger brought down to you?"
Wasn't it beautiful runnin' wild 'til you fell asleep, before the monsters caught up to you?"​
 
It still amazes me how well you've done in the last six months! I really hope things start looking up for you and that you can really start to enjoy 2011 soon. Best of luck with the endeavours ahead...
 
I have adopted a pill addiction like nobody's business, I feel the need to drink every single night that I CAN'T find pills, my self-image is still so shot for so many reasons, and I'm just... tired.
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Come on woman, get yourself some help. I care about you but I wont sugar-coat this at all. A pill addiction? :( Please PM me, or someone you trust (or like!!) or seek support elsewhere. It's not healthy. I struggle with my drinking and I know the need to seek a replacement when you can't get what you want but neither of these things are good for you. Please, please keep us updated. I'll worry awfully. And then you'll feel awfully, awfully guilty for making me worry ;) Hugs and smushy stuff being send your way, darling. Hang tough.
 
Hey Alyssa

Sorry to hear things are tough for you today. I think its a big change for all of us when we lose a substantial amount of weight, and maybe we don't take the time during the journey to recognise the emotional and psychological stuff.

Remember what you have achieved, and maybe its time to start some new goals that aren't related to wieght loss? Just an idea, I'm sure some others (like sunflower)will have some other good ideas too.

Keep posting.

Annabanana
 
Thank you everyone for being supportive and wonderful; I should have expected only so much.

Things are looking a little better... I was offered a home health care position at Bronson that would allow me to keep my current job, which would be helpful, as this new job runs on fairly inconsistent hours. I'm looking forward to it.

Also, skeezy as it is, a couple'a hot bar guys were apparently discussing in painful detail how bad they wanted to hit it the other night when I wasn't working (this conversation recalled from a close friend of mine), so that perked me up a bit, slut that I am ;)

I still don't know how to work out all these problems of mine, but I know how to distract myself for a bit, at least.

Next weigh-in in... seven hours.
Root me on!
 
WOOT WOOT!!!!:party: Congrats on the loss!! The pics look great too!

I hope you got the help you needed! Pills are BAD!!!!! Sex is good but pills are BAD!!!!
 
Hi Alyssa :D I love your name, it always reminds me of something exotic and beautiful :)
SoCoSideshow said:

I'd call it a crisis of faith, but I suppose that would mean I had a god to believe in in the first place, which would be nice... it's just not how it is.
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Unfortunately I know exactly how this feels and it is terribly unstable which opens the door for unhealthy habits to start. I think I'm starting to come out of this now, so I don't have a lot of nice fuzzy everything will be okay things to say about it, but what I've learned is that the change has to be within me and the way I respond to the world. I can't change people or the hell I face, but I can put the hell out in me:D I try not to dwell on negative things, I do like you do and distract myself with worthwhile things (school in my case) and I try not to over-think things (which comes naturally to me). Sometimes though I really think it can be hormonal ...but I won't elaborate on that because that is more my case and something that should be in my diary :D

Hope you could find any of it useful...took me many months to smile and mean it.
SoCoSideshow said:
100 pounds down

Can I get a woot woot?
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:party::party::party:
AWESOME! totally AWESOME!
 
I was very, very naughty last night.
The Thursday night plan: 3 beers and light popcorn.
What REALLY happened on Thursday: 8 beers, cheeze-its and M&Ms.
I love my best friend, but we have been fat together for... forever. She brings out the fatty in me.

Woops.
Oh well. You fall down, you get right back up.
Got a sassy ass new haircut and a pair of size 9 jeans, which psychs me up like nobody's business.

Have a great weekend, everyone!
 
Haven't been by in awhile...
been busy with work, and new job training, and a giant ice storm.
Lost another 3 pounds, but I really gotta start making it into the gym again before I blow up. Bleh. This weather is just so off-putting.

Hope everyone is doing well! <3
 
Keep it going, darlingthing! You're doing so well :) Sucks about the slip-up..At least it was just one evening (unlike my 3 day binge!!)
 
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