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laureelee07

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This is the ump-tenth time I'm making a diary and as each time, I'm farther right on the scale. This time it's different though. I mean it! My body is reacting poorly to all this extra weight. My blood pressure is soaring, I've been diagnosed with PCOS, body aches, weakness, laziness, and loss of motivation.

I just want a place where I can keep track of my numbers and what I eat.

I used to want to be skinny, now that isn't even in my horizon. I just want to be healthy again. I don't want to feel lethargic.

So, let's go baby, let's go! I got a lot of work ahead of me.

12.26.2012
AM: 207.0lb
BMs: 3 (just got back from back to back vacations to the Carribeans and LA)

Food:
3 homemade peanut butter cookies
1 mrs. field packaged cookies
4 boiled eggs
3 persimmons
6oz cow neck meat
1 cup brown rice
1 slice double fiber bread
1 tbsp nutella
2 tbsp peanut butter
Calories: 2400

May seem a lot, but certainly a lot less than being on a 7 night cruise!

Goal
+ Be compassionate to others and myself!

LONG-TERM GOALS
@177LBS: REORGANIZE SKINNY CLOTHES (GOAL MARCH 1)
@157LBS: SIZE 6 DIAMOND BAND ($300MAX) (GOAL MAY 1)
@147LBS: SHOES and PURSE ($1000MAX) (GOAL JUNE 1)
@127LBS: NEW CLOTHING ($1000MAX) (GOAL AUGUST 15)
 
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Hey there welcome back, you can do it!

I'm sure that you'll be feeling healthier and less lethargic really quickly!

Good luck
 
I woke up today at 3:45 to do a hospital shift, so I forgot to weigh myself! I'm a lot more active at the hospital than the private practice, so I'm sure I got some exercise...but I will go tothe gym tonight so I can stop by JCP. I am having some serious heartburn though, it sucks so bad! I keep drinking water to keep it at bay...

12.27.2012
BM: 1

Food:
1 slice double fiber bread
1 tbsp peanut butter
1 tbsp nutella
2 boiled egg whites
1 persimmon
1 string cheese
1 chicken drumstick
6oz pork neck meat w/ kimchi
1/2 cup brown rice
1 cinnamon cookie
Calories: 1,500

Positives:
*walked the dogs twice
*did not get tempted to eat when stressed
*check in to my diary ;)
*did not buy fast food while commuting home :)
Outcome for today is success
 
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12.28.2012
BM: 1
Weigh in 204.2

2 cheese sticks
2 cups chicken noodle soup from trader joe
5 gingerbread cookies from trader Joe's
1.5 persimmons
.5 cup Brown rice
2oz pig neck meat
8 large steamed shrimp
4oz beef (Kalbi)
1 cup sreamed broccoli
.5 Kimchi with mushrooms
Calories: 1,200

I woke up today and weighed myself before my bm, usually I bm right when I wake up, but got outta bed a bit late for work. it was freezing cold today so apparently there was frost on my car. Another opportunity to walk to work. I did a lot of data entry and box moving. I came home and cooked my meal, I am very proud that I cooked broccoli and added mushroom to the kimchi. Small positive steps right? Nothing outrageous...

I do need to go to the gym eventually and make it a habit! Or be more active at home. Yesterday was a failure of activity after coming home from work. Not going to dwell on the past.

Let's see 199 on new year's eve!
 
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12.29.2012
bm:1
Weight: 203.4lb
total Lost: 3.6lb

Food
1 Starbucks protein bistro box without egg yolk, 300cal
Mcdonalds 1 double cheeseburger, 440cal
mcdonalds Kids size fries, 230cal
1 bite fruit cake and small reeses cup, 100cal
Homemade pizza with toppings: ham, cheese, tomato sauce, onion, mushrooms
2 cups of cranberry juice concentrate
Calories: 1,900

Didn't exercise again, but did go shopping. Shrug, I'm feeling a standstill with my diet and exercise, but that is because I'm not exercising. Lowering my calories is the very first step because I was consuming way too many.....now I gotta make sure my metabolism isn't shot.

The good news is I didn't have one burp of heartburn pain....yes!!!!!!!!! Those are the worst reminders of where I am in terms of health.

Positives/goals
*go to bikram yoga as arranged with friend
*be optimistic and patient...the weight will come off!!!
 
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Although your calories may not be to high, have you considered the quality of those calories, is it possible to avoid McDonald's and Pizza ? I don't know what the nutritional mix is for Starbucks, because we don't have that where I live.
 
Thanks for stopping by.

Yes! I was out and about, I'm trying to make my change a gradual one....

Before in a typical day
Jack in the box
Taco bell
Enormous portions costing me money, my credit card debt was probably all food! But my cc debt is taken care of now, achieved one of my before 2013 goals :)

Must I make drastic consistent changes to achieve goal of 10lbs/day???

Now
Don't spend money on fast food, I used to easily spend 10 bucks, but that meal cost 3.58. The Starbucks box had a boiled egg, apple, grapes, bread and peanut butter.
 
Hi everyone,

Did not weigh in, felt a bit doughy bloated today, does it matter that the pizza dough was thin crust?

12.30.2012
Breakfast:
4 dimsum, 400cal
3 fresh Viet shrimp rolls w sauce, 150cal
2 dimsum, 200cal
1/2 homemade pizza (3 slices), 400cal
5 clementines, 150cal
Calories: 1,300

Exercise
20min ADHD jogging treadmill (1.18miles)
10min stairclimber
10min lunges, jump roping, twists


Positives
*plated 5, but ate 4 dimsum
*drank 4 cups of water with breakfast
*went to the gym!!! paid off my annual membership fees!
*ate some fruit!
 
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12.31.2012
Weigh: 203.0
Bm:2

Food
1 cup seabass spicy soup with upon noodles, 200cal
.5 banana, 50cal
2 dimsum, 200cal
Cheese, crackers, smoked Salmon, salami, 4oz white wine, 700cal
8oz red bull, 4oz crown royal, 3oz white wine, 500cal
Falafel sandwich, 500cal
Shot Hennessey, 1 corona, 250cal
1 jack in the box grilled chicken sourdough, 450cal
Calories: 2, 850cal

I am not surprised I woke up to 203.0, I knew it'd slow down especially with the quality of my calories.

Today is the last day of 2012!!! Booked a hotel, but first going to volunteer at a homeless kitchen. Ringing the new year on a good deed, going dancing tonight too, alcohol will be consumed.

Positives
*drink water
*had a great time without being nasty drunk
*gave time to the poor, passing trays in the kitchen
 
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1.1.2013

Food
Breakfast
Chorizo egg scramble, potatoes, fresh squeezed o..j., wheat toast, 700cal
Lunch
Ricecake soup w/ bits of beef, 6 steamed dumplings, seaweed salad, 2 oranges 700cal
Snack
French bread w/ custard, cream cheese walnut bread, 300cal
Calories: 1700cal

Slept at 4am, woke up at 9am for breakfast. Delicious and loved being in the city. Next year! Going to spend time with family now, possibly watch les miserables!

Chorizo wasn't the best choice, my tummy feels like it's on fire. Boy, am I tired today. I went over to family homes and cheered happy new year and now I am on my bloated belly on my bed. What an eventful past 36 hours!! Chorizo tore me up, I am never ever going to have that again. I haven't even pooed yet today!!
 
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1.2.2013
Bm:1

Food
Breakfast: banana, Clementine, 150cal
Lunch: 1cup brown rice, 2oz pork meat with kimchi jjigae, 400cal
Snack: cheese stick, 1 Clementine, 100cal
Snack: 4oz pineapple, 50cal
Dinner: 4oz pork meat with kimchi jjigae, 1cup brown rice, 500cal
Calories:1,200

Workout
40min 2.5-3.0mph walking on treadmill 2.0 incline

It was so cold this morning I refused to weigh myself. Standing naked in 57 degrees inside temperature won't happen. I will probably do some treadmill tonight though, I mean we have it so better use it.

The sun is shining and is warm, but this house is cold. A disadvantaged of excellent insulation. I know I'm not eating like I used to cause my bowel movements are a third of what they used to be.

I can't get myself motivated enough to break a sweat, but motivated just to move. Does that matter? I think so. I moved that has to mean exercise that mean boosted my metabolism.

Positives:
* did not help myself to the open box of goodies at work
* not eat a second helping of lunch, I love the meat!!!!!
* plan on exercising, but don't dwell on it. Just do it, second nature, don't over think it.
* no heartburn today!
 
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Well done on starting the diet, you seem to be eating so much food for so few calories!

Its lovely of you to volunteer at the homeless shelter, I think I would be too scared to do it tbh.

Watch Les Mis, its AMAZING!

Good luck x
 
Thanks overtherainbow, portions have been drastically cut.

That Jack in the box sandwich? Ate about half of it.
The chorizo scramble? Left a third on the plate.

My bowel moves are so small, but feel healthy.
 
glad to hear your doing so well! keep it up :D We dont' have a 'jack in the box' here...maybe I should be grateful? lol
 
Thanks overtherainbow!

Sorry for some of my posts coming out a bit choppy. Most of my posts are from my tablet and it's just a bit harder to type on that thing than a regular ol' ultrabook. Sorry for being a bit vulgar about my movements, but I have to be cause that is something that is important to me!

I definitely need to drink more water tomorrow, my lips are parched right now. I can't tell in the mirror, i think i look the same if not worse. BUT i feel better overall. Being control over my body feels pretty good.

I'm thinking I will begin my exercise with time goals, i.e. walk on the treadmill for 30 minutes. Eventually, I will focus on distance goals, i.e. don't stop until 3 miles.

Walking while dinner was getting ready was so easy, effortless, walking beats sitting on the couch right? I guess i'm not used to any movement unless I bust out in a sweat. I hate being on extremes! Let's be in the middle!
 
maybe eat alot more vegies ?

will fill you up a little bit more and way better for you

look foward to hearing your progress :)
 
1.3.2013
Bm: 1 large
Weigh in:203.4

I was not happy about weighing that much. I eat less and thought I've been making better choices. I guess not. So mad, but after I ate jack in the box this morning, I took a huge Poo and I feeeeeeel good and light. How odd.

Food
Breakfast
Supreme crossiant with hash brown, 650cal
Lunch 1cup rice porridge with 2oz beef, 300cal
Cheese stick and 2 clementine, 150cal
Banana, 100cal
Dinner: 1 cup porridge, 3oz beef, 2 cups bean sprout kimchi soup, 2 cup mixed salad with balsamic vineageatte, 650cal
Dessert: 4 slices of salami, 4oz cheese, 5 crackers, 450cal
2 Clementine,
Calories: 2, 150

Positives
*establish two goals: exercise 3miles daily and eat 1,400 calories per day.
*no low feelings after weigh iin
* no heartburn
*mindful ordering at jack in the box, looked at calories and got black coffee
*my mini goal for Jan 31is 13lbs, I have plenty of time.

I really thought any movement would amount to weight loss, but I was so wrong.

Could it have been due to my nye drinking? The food?

I was so full after eating lunch today, I had to force myself to finish the cheese stick and half of a clementine. My feet hurt from running around in the ED today. Gawwwwd,felt like a long day.

Goal of 193lb by January 31!!
I gotta figure out what to do when I'm tired from work, rather than digging out.
 
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