I think the penny finally dropped...

I find the more you eat veggies the more you will begin to like them. It's just like water, the more you drink it the more you like it. Your body gets used to getting this jolt of good nutrients and you begin to crave veggies. Here is the kicker though, you need to mix it up with them, like Ferocity said, pick up a good recipe book that encourages healthy eating and you will find a million diffrent ways to cook healthy meals.

It is too bad your husband is not more supportive, but maybe in a few months when you start looking diffrent it will inspire him to support your cause. You are doing so good right now, keep it up!
 
I've read about this crystal lite a lot, but never actually saw it in a store...what is it?
I don't like coffee without sugar, and can't handle sweeteners...hate the taste, they give me headaches and other stuff which I don't want to go into detail about...*lol*

If you don't do artificial sweeteners, Crystal Light () isn't for you. It's sweetened with aspartame (Nutrasweet - E951) and/or sucralose (Splenda - E955).
 
Ferocity -
Thanks for your encouragment. You actually made me sniffle a little with that, you know that? In a good way though, in a 'yeah, right, I'm a warrior now, I can do it!' way. Helps a lot! :)
I think the biggest problem for my husband is that I was this big when we got to know each other, he doesn't know me any other way. My guess is he's worried that what happens on the outside will change something on the inside as well. I'm sure he'll come around eventually when he realises that I have no intentions of slimming down and then disappearing with the next guy that comes along! *lol*
I will definitely have a look at that book...at the moment I am struggling to come up with healthy and low cal ideas for food, so that will help a lot!
Thanks again! :)

nc_bmac08 + allyphoe -
Thanks for letting me know about that crystal lite stuff. Shame that there's sweetener in it. They put sweeteners into everything nowadays...:(

Biggreen -
I'm trying, got myself some cucumber and carrotts yesterday, some of the few veggies I like. Maybe once I had those, I'll find some more that I like. I never used to like fruit either, now I eat it regularly...might work with the veg as well, who knows?
And I know what you mean about the water...I used to drink very little other than coffee, and never really felt thirsty...but since I started drinking more water, I actually get thirsty and *want* to drink. Which helps! *lol*
 
August 20th

breakfast - 2 slices of crisp bread, 1x cheese, 1xcream cheese (spread thinly)
lunch - low fat rhubarb yogurt
snack - 2 pears
dinner - mushroom savoury rice

5 pints of water

I'm still not really hungry, like, ever. I didn't feel like eating the yogurt or the pears, but did it anyway. I can't stop myself from hopping on the scales every morning, and from the looks of it I haven't lost anything since Sunday. Weird. I know I shouldn't be weighing myself every day, but it's difficult to resist temptation.

Wanted to measure myself, but the tape measure doesn't reach all the way around me. Bummer. Well, I'll know that things changed when it actually fits I guess. *shrugs*

I noticed I'm pretty moody at the moment. One moment I'm energetic and want to do three things at a time, the next I feel like just giving it up. Cried a lot yesterday over stupid things. Can a change in diet affect your hormones or something like that? My mother in law thinks I'm pregnant - no way, Jose! Wishful thinking on her part, but not gonna happen.

Anyway, my little bike is waiting. Let's see if I can get through 20 minutes without serious cramps today....baby steps! *lol*
 
Thought I'd do this too

1. What is your current height and weight?
5"11, 351 lbs

2. If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be?
Ideal...uhm...probably around 175 lbs, but I doubt I'll ever get there. 200 lbs will do me nicely

3. At what weight would you like to be at four months from now?
Hmm...4 months...that would be Christmas...about 325 maybe?

4. Why do you want to lose weight?
I just don't want to be fat anymore, my blood pressure is going through the roof, and I'm sick and tired of seeing that fat old cow in the mirror!

5. Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? If so, when is that event?
No, just want to be healthy enough to make it past my 40th birthday (which isn't for another 7 years!)

6. What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals?
I love food. Food's my security blanket. I eat when I'm happy, sad, lost, angry...you get the picture. And I get discouraged quickly.

7. Why do you think that you now have a weight problem?
Because I know that 350 lbs are just too much. I've known that I have a weight problem for about 20 years, I just never managed to do something about it.
Also, having grown up with an abusive stepfather, then ending up in an abusive relationship, followed by drug abuse wasn't helping at all. I always thought that I needed to be big to feel secure, the more people hurt me, the bigger I got. For a long time, I did hide behind layers of fat, thinking that I was safe there. I think I have finally left all of that behind, and am ready to face the world without my protective barrier.

8. What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight?
Eat consciously, have a more regular lifestyle, exercise

9. Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight?
I had gastric-banding about 9 years ago, and lost 70 lbs in 6 months. Unfortunately, that wasn't down to the band actually working, but because I couldn't keep anything down, no solid food, no drinks, nothing. I spent most of those 6 months in hospital, believing doctors who told me that I just needed to 'adjust' to the band, and everything would be fine soon. I eventually fell unconscious while driving, had a crash, and ended up in surgery. They removed the band while I was under - turned out I am allergic against silicone, which the band was made of, and the area around the band was swollen and infected, completely blocking the entrance to my stomach. Needless to say, after it was out and things had healed, it took only a very short time for the weight to come back.

10. Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back?
I went back to eating normally, and after basically starving for 6 moths, my body just constantly signalled that it was hungry, so I ate....

11. What, if anything, has not worked for you in the past in helping you to lose weight? Why do you think it did not work?
Any kind of diet. I tried them all, most of them are expensive, time consuming or both. And they don't work. If you need to lose 10 lbs, fine, but if you need to lose a large amount of weight, they won't work, unless you're willing to diet for the rest of your life. I'm not.

12. Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time?
I am doing that at the moment.

13. Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook?
I hate cooking, and I'm bad at it. All the stuff I can actually do is full of cream, fat, cremé fraiche and other high calorie stuff. I need to learn to cook other stuff, but can't really motivate myself yet.

14. How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go?

I don't go out to eat at all.

15. What are your three favorite foods?
Hmm....beef in creamy white wine sauce, pasta with cream and garlic mushrooms, Lamb Korma (See where the problem lies?)

16. What are your three favorite restaurants?
Hardrock Cafe, McDonalds

17. What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food?
Don't eat piles of chocolate/cookies/cake etc, don't eat 4 portions for dinner, eat some fruit and veg for a change

18. If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different?

Hmm...everything and nothing really. I would feel more confident, but probably also more nervous to go out and possibly attract attention. I don't think I could deal with that yet.

19. Do you eat when you are not hungry?
Yes, all the time.

20. Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)?
I usually do that at least once a day, at dinner time. I don't know the feeling of being full, all I know is hungry, or being so full I feel sick.

21. Do you hide your food or eat in secret?
No.

22. Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed?
Yes.

23. Do you eat as a reward?
Yes.

24. Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer?
Yes, I can't remember the last time I had dinner at the table. We don't do family dinners.

25. What do you normally eat for a meal?
Normally as in before trying to lose weight? Usually pasta, loads of it, and creamy sauces, curries, and loads of meat. Now I try small portions, more rice, vegetables, and no gravy.

26. What type of snacks do you eat?
Before I tried to lose weight...anything that was in sight. Chocolate, cookies, whatever. Now I'm eating mostly fruit.

27. In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing?
2 x 20 minutes on my mini-exercise bike, hoping to make it more and more with time.

28. Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym? Home?
Home. I won't set foot into a gym yet.

29. What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise?
Hmm....walking on the treadmill really. That's it.

30. What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals?
Not sure to be honest. Just wanting to be healthier and less heavy I guess, and showing everybody else that I can really do it.

31. Do you have rewards for certain goals?
I am planning on getting some new tattoos over time. Also, new clothes when I actually drop a size or two. Every now and again just something small...maybe a body lotion or something like that. Not sure yet.
 
August 21st

breakfast - 2 slices of crisp bread, one with cheese, one with beef spread (thin)
snack - 100 gr of cucumber (veggies - yay me!)
lunch - carrot+apple salad (gave me the hiccups from hell)
snack - 1 low fat yogurth
dinner - beef stir fry with rice

I also did 2 x 20 minutes of exercise with my little bike, and walked around the block at night, about 30 minutes. The good thing is, I know that I can actually walk briskly, the bad thing is that my calf muscles are absolutely killing me today. Ouch! :(

Still moody. Oh, and after an argument with hubby about my new 'health craze', he threw out a challenge, saying he could lose more weight than me, and faster. I just shrugged, it's not a race, if he wants to lose 100 lbs in 3 months that is his prerogative. He's done it before, lost 100, gained 200 after he started to eat normal portions again. But he seems convinced. Good for him.
I'll keep taking it slow, because once the weight is off, I want it to stay off. And I'm not interested in starving, thanks a lot!

Nothing else to write really...resisted the temptation to go on the scales this morning. Don't want to weigh myself until Sunday. Hopefully something will have come down then, even if just a little bit...is that too much to ask?? :angelsad2:
 
Slow and steady wins the race, in this case it's true, you didnt gain weight over night, you won't lose it over night. Hopefully your hubby will do it the right way, by eating well and getting physically fit.
 
Please forgive my bluntness...

I'm wondering if he's feeling threatened by your decision to work on getting healthier and taking weight off? Sounds like he's got his hackles up and doing that male posturing and chest beating by claiming he could do it faster than you.

Sure, he could probably lose it faster than you if he wants to potentially damage his body by starvation (anorexia, anybody?) but can he keep it off afterwards? Sounds like from past history, I'd say no. I'm sorry to hear he's not being supportive in this. If you'll forgive my saying so, he's being somewhat of an ass about it. I'm not saying he's a bad person (hell, we all have our flaws), but it seems if he can't be supportive, the very least he could be is not so negative. Putting you down because you want to change... that's not constructive to you or to your marriage.

But, as someone pointed out, people are often resistant to change. And if he's not ready to change his health like you are, he's going to resist you wanting to. Maybe when he starts seeing your success, seeing that you are feeling better, health-wise and about yourself, he will start to come around.

Good luck, hang in there, and I hope you don't give up because of his negativity. Just keep up what you're doing! :hug2:
 
San, you're doing great. And next time he makes a bunch of noise about "I can lose weight faster than you," smile serenely, take a deep breath, and say, "I'm sure you can. But I'll bet I can keep the weight off longer than you."

(If you say it nicely enough, you won't seem like you're being an agitator - maybe. Boys are so weird sometimes. . . )

When you're ready for a new vegetable, try sugar snap peas. They're usually pre-washed in little bags in the bagged salad section. They're really good and you can just eat them plain.
 
Okay, long time no post - I had a crappy weekend, and yesterday I couldn't log in, the whole day....:cry:

Anyway, not much to say, weight loss wise. On Sunday I had 357.7, compared to last week's 361.4. I guess it could have been worse....*lol*

I'm still eating pretty much the same things, and I'm taking vitamins now as well. I can't see any changes from the weight loss yet, and neither do I notice them in my clothes, but I definitely notice a change in my skin....all that water must be getting rid off all the dirt inside. My skin has definitely cleared up, which is a nice side effect. Oh, and I have fingernails that don't break instantly, which I never had as well....who'd have thought that eating somewhat healthy could have such benefits? *lol*

Seriously though, I'm in a slightly better mood. I'm losing weight, which is good. I'm feeling more healthy (even though that's probably just in my head after such a short amount of time). Somebody said to me yesterday that I must be losing some weight, they could see a change in my face. Great...my face of all things. Oh well, maybe it will start showing in other places eventually. For starters it's nice to have only chin instead of the usual three I guess....*lol*

Now, thanks for the comments....

Biggreen -
That's exactly right. It took me 33 years to get to the weight I am....so I can't expect to lose it overnight. I planned between 2 - 3 years to get to a decent weight, I think that's realistic. As for hubby....all talk, no action. He hasn't done absolutely anything, neither fast nor slow. *lol*

Phoenix -
I agree totally, he's being an ass about it. Which surprises me, because usually he's okay. Yeah, we've got the occasional argument, but nothing serious. This weekend we had a big row, however, in which I told them how absolutely shitty I think his attitude is, and that seems to have done the trick. He seems to have finally realised that this is not some sort of fad, or a crash diet, but that I'm seriously trying to lose some weight for good, and that I'm trying to get a little more healthy.
He's not doing anything himself, yet, but at least the stupid comments have stopped. Which is a good start. And as you said, maybe with time, he'll get around to trying it himself. The ironic thing is....he's a health and fitness teacher at college. He KNOWS what he should be doing, yet he's piling on the pounds. Then he goes and tries to teach people about fitness. I told him, if I was one of his students, I'd laugh at him and tell him to go practice what he preaches.

Ferocity -
That's actually what I did. *lol*....And well, turned out it was all hot air. He didn't even try for a day. *shrugs* His prerogative. He'll start when he's good and ready, and if he doesn't....well....he's got a good life insurance. I can't force him to stop eating, so it's his decision entirely.
And THANKS so much for the idea with the peas....got myself some and absolutely love them!! Another veggie for me! YAY! :)
 
Okay, long time no post - I had a crappy weekend, and yesterday I couldn't log in, the whole day....:cry:

Anyway, not much to say, weight loss wise. On Sunday I had 357.7, compared to last week's 361.4. I guess it could have been worse....*lol*

I'm still eating pretty much the same things, and I'm taking vitamins now as well. I can't see any changes from the weight loss yet, and neither do I notice them in my clothes, but I definitely notice a change in my skin....all that water must be getting rid off all the dirt inside. My skin has definitely cleared up, which is a nice side effect. Oh, and I have fingernails that don't break instantly, which I never had as well....who'd have thought that eating somewhat healthy could have such benefits? *lol*

Seriously though, I'm in a slightly better mood. I'm losing weight, which is good. I'm feeling more healthy (even though that's probably just in my head after such a short amount of time). Somebody said to me yesterday that I must be losing some weight, they could see a change in my face. Great...my face of all things. Oh well, maybe it will start showing in other places eventually. For starters it's nice to have only chin instead of the usual three I guess....*lol*

Now, thanks for the comments....

Phoenix -
I agree totally, he's being an ass about it. Which surprises me, because usually he's okay. Yeah, we've got the occasional argument, but nothing serious. This weekend we had a big row, however, in which I told them how absolutely shitty I think his attitude is, and that seems to have done the trick. He seems to have finally realised that this is not some sort of fad, or a crash diet, but that I'm seriously trying to lose some weight for good, and that I'm trying to get a little more healthy.
He's not doing anything himself, yet, but at least the stupid comments have stopped. Which is a good start. And as you said, maybe with time, he'll get around to trying it himself. The ironic thing is....he's a health and fitness teacher at college. He KNOWS what he should be doing, yet he's piling on the pounds. Then he goes and tries to teach people about fitness. I told him, if I was one of his students, I'd laugh at him and tell him to go practice what he preaches.

3.7 pounds... that is good! You don't want to see too much in one week, that's not healthy. It is said that the average of 2 pounds a week is what you should be looking for. There will be weeks with more, and weeks with less. Remember, this is a lifestyle change, and you didn't put the weight on overnight. (I know, blah blah blah... everybody hears and says that at one point. lol!) Be encouraged by it. And :hurray: for the side benefits.

Your husband is a what? A health and fitness instructor? Yikes! He's not providing a good example to his students then, unless he's out to prove how not to be healthy. I find that a bit disturbing. Its like the Physical Education teachers in grade school that were packing a lot of excess poundage. Its an oxymoron.

Funny, you just gave yet another example of 'knowing vs wanting'. The last post on page 2 of my diary (post #30) is something I wrote about knowing vs wanting in losing weight. While he 'knows' he should get down to a healthy weight you 'want' to. Until he hits that 'want' he's not going to do anything. I hope he does, if not for himself, at least for you.

Keep up the great work!
 
I know I shouldn't really be losing more than 1 -2 pounds per week, but you know, it's kinda nice to see the scale drop a little more. And before you say it, the scale isn't everything, but as I am not seeing any other changes at the moment, the only indication that I am losing weight right now is the scale...plain and simple. Hopefully at some point my clothes will become an indicator as well...oh, to be able to just go into any old clothes store and by something of the shelf - would be nice. Maybe one day! *lol*

Yepp, my husband is a college tutor and he teaches health and fitness at the local college. I find it ironic as well, and I don't know how he can expect students to take him serious. It's as if an AA supporter came to the sessions completely plastered all the time - it just doesn't work. Practice what you preach, or stop preaching.

I know exactly what you mean...because I have *known* for a long, long time that I needed to do something and lose weight. But in my head, I simply didn't want to, for a myriad of reasons - until one day, I woke up and WANTED to do it. That's when I started to seriously do something, and have kept it up so far. Didn't have a single piece of chocolate for three weeks now, and have no cravings for it - usually I would eat two full bars a day!!
But yeah, knowing and wanting are two completely different things - and he knows damn well, and has the theoretical knowledge to do it as well...guess it just hasn't 'clicked' in his head yet.
Considering how long it took until that happened for me, maybe I just have to be patient. And I'm darn sure once I lost enough weight for people to notice, and one of his colleagues comments on it, he might think 'Darn, people are noticing it, I better do something as well!'....or something to that degree anyway. ;)

Just had a handful of sugar peas....I love them little things, you can just munch on them every now and again, and much healthier than chocolate!!
 
Okay, I'm such an idiot....I just realised that most of the time when writing my diary, I mixed up my kgs and my lbs, making a complete mess out of everything.

So, to clear things up....

I started out with 369 lbs on August 8th, and am at 347.7 right now.

That's what you get for weighing yourself in lbs, kgs AND stone all the time...*sigh*
 
Okay, I'm such an idiot....I just realised that most of the time when writing my diary, I mixed up my kgs and my lbs, making a complete mess out of everything.

So, to clear things up....

I started out with 369 lbs on August 8th, and am at 347.7 right now.

That's what you get for weighing yourself in lbs, kgs AND stone all the time...*sigh*


I know stone always messes we up. I try to stick with lbs..
 
I know I shouldn't really be losing more than 1 -2 pounds per week, but you know, i

1 percent of your body weight is a reasonable expectation - the higher the start weight the more you can lose at a time... just don't expect big losses continually :)
 
1 percent of your body weight is a reasonable expectation - the higher the start weight the more you can lose at a time... just don't expect big losses continually :)

Believe me, I know....as nice as it would be to keep losing at this rate, it's just not going to happen. Wish I wasn't so damn impatient!! *lol*
 
342.2 as of today....not too bad I guess. I've been doing my exercise bike thingie every day, started at 20 minutes, now I'm on 45. Starting wednesday, I will add walking to it as well, guess about 30 minutes will do the trick for starters. Usually the only walking I do is from the door to the car, and maybe through the store when I do the grocery shopping once a week, but that's pretty much it. So any extra step will be an improvement.

Other than that, things are going okay I guess. I noticed that I'm pretty hungry occasionally, but not to the point that I really go into a binge. I just drink a glass of water quickly, which takes the edge of it. I'm still eating okay, breakfast, lunch, dinner, 2 snacks in between, even though most of the time I don't even want the snacks.

Weird....food used to be my lifeline, my whole day revolved around it, now I get much more gratification from looking at what I DON'T eat. Hubby asked me to get him some chocolate bars while paying for gas yesterday, and I wasn't even tempted to get one for myself. Guess something in my head well and truly made 'click'. I really WANT to lose this weight now.

Last night hubby complained that I never eat the same stuff he does anymore. I said if he eats what I eat, we can eat the same. He insisted on Curry, so I made it. Piles of cream, sour cream, sugar and whatnot. Didn't bother me. I used to love it, and eat it until I was sick. Yesterday I made myself a stir fry with bean sprouts, turkey breast and mushrooms, and it was delicious. I didn't feel ready to burst when I was done, didn't feel sick. It's a nice feeling NOT to over-eat.

I saw a neighbour yesterday who's been away for a while, and she kept looking at me, and eventually came over and asked if I was on a diet, because she could tell a difference, my face looked smaller, and she was like 'I've seen you in these jeans before, dear, and I tell you, they were much tighter!' *lol*
I don't see a difference yet, but others seem to do, and let me tell you....to hear something like that makes you feel SO good!! :)

Not much more to say....I keep reading the forums, reading other people's diaries and stuff, and it's really motivating me and giving me good ideas. I'm really glad I found this place! :)
 
Sounds like it has been a very victorious few days for you. Not huge victories, but several little ones which I think is even better.

Kudos to you for not caving in to your husband's complaints about not eating like he does. And good for you on not succumbing to temptation when he (insensitively) asked you to pick up candy bars for him. I'm glad you are getting to the point where that doesn't phase you anymore.

Remember you do need to eat enough. That's the weird part to losing weight... its not good to under-eat, just like its not good to overeat. You'll find that balance eventually.

Yay, you!!! :hurray:
 
Yeah, it's weird. After all this time of nearly eating myself to death, all of a sudden I have to make sure that I actualy eat enough! *lol*...I'm trying make sure I eat enough, but most of the time I'm not even really hungry. Usually I get hungry *after* I ate something....which is even more weird...*lol*
 
Same here. I thought the calorie count they gave me on SparkPeople was insanely high, but I lost 3 pounds last week.

It seems counter-intuitive to eat when you want to lose weight, but it really does seem to work.

I'm so glad you like the sugar snap peas! You can steam them too if you want, and have them with dinner. Most brands can be steamed right in the bag.

Now, how do you feel about cucumbers, LOL?
 
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