I think the penny finally dropped...

Hey, San. First off, you are not losing slowly but surely. You are kicking ass. Over ten pounds last month (if I remember correctly.) That's nothing to sneeze at. Second, husby is probably seeing that you are not giving up on your "fad" diet, so now he's moving into phase two of whining. He'll get over it.

Smaller jeans are always fun! :D
 
Thanks everybody for your comments! :)

Ladyumbra: Yepp, he's been cutting down quite a bit, has binned the sugary pop, crisps and other junk food. He isn't eating the way I am, with smaller meals and snacks in between, he basically makes it two bigger meals a day. But I guess that's up to him...as long as it gets the desired results, I'm not gonna complain! And yepp, smaller size = cheaper price is okay...well, for the ones wearing the smaller sizes anyway! *lol*

Trusylver: The jeans showed up today, and guess what? I have to send one pair back because they are too BIG! I haven't sent anything back because it was too big for 20 years or so....*lol*...nice feeling for sure!! :)

Trops: Thanks a lot for saying that. And I know I shouldn't be complaining at all, I see others on this forum having to fight for every pound, and they seem to be coming off me quite easily. I think it's because I have so much to lose in the first place! Anyway, I just stepped off the scales and am pretty chuffed....nearly 5 lbs last week. And that's despite a chinese order out! :)
So, no more whining from now on, I'm losing weight and I am not starving in the process, I actually feel pretty darn good, so I don't have a thing to complain about! :)
As for hubby, he's actually getting better, and even trying to be encouraging...in his own weird way...*lol*....but yeah, I think he just needed to realise that I wasn't giving up on my 'diet' at all, that I am actually serious about it. He's stopped the stupid comments and all, so that helps a lot. And he actually went and bought me some new kitchen scales because I was complaining that the old ones we had weren't working properly (they were like 15 years old). So, he's trying to be supportive, but he still has a lot to learn. *lol*

As for the smaller jeans....yeah, definitely fun. And it might be stupid, but I was grinning like an idiot when I realised that the one pair was actually too big. Funny how something so trivial can actually have such an impact...certainly gave me a boost and made me want to lose more....:)
 
Yup, guys are naturally stoopid. :iamwithstupid:

I picked up a pair of small sized jeans last night. I didn't try them on in the store on purpose. I thought I'd use them for motivation and was pleasantly surprised when I could actually fit in them. I little snug, but that might be because I'm used to wearing jeans that are two and three sizes too big. Now for a little running to get these jeans to be on the loose side.
 
Okay, 20 days without an entry. I am such a slacker! :(

The thing is, there is really not much to put in here. When I look around at other people's posts and diaries, I always feel a little stupid to have a diary at all. Because nothing ever really happens. I read about other people going on marathons and stuff like that, going on holiday, belly dance classes and who knows what else, and I realise that I seriously need to get a life.

My typical day looks like this:

Get up at 7 am
Get ready for the day
Get kid ready for the day
Get kid on school bus
Drive husband to work
Drive back
Have breakfast
Do shopping/housework/whatever needs to be done
Babysit 80 year old mother in law
Try to squeeze in about 30 minutes of exercise
Sit at the computer
Do more housework
Make dinner for when the kid comes home
Giver dinner to kid and make sure he eats properly, doesn't choke etc.
Pick husband up from work
Run after the kid
Run after the kid
Run after the kid
Run after the kid and try to make dinner at the same time
Have dinner
Get kid to bed
45 minutes exercise
answer emails
go to bed

That's it. Nothing ever really happens. I can't go anywhere because of the kid, he needs constant supervision, and I couldn't even go shopping with him or anything like that. I have, however, applied for some voluntary work at the RSPCA, which will hopefully involve some walking with dogs or other physical activities. Sitting in this house all day is driving me berserk!!

I used to be pretty active, be out and about a lot, and went on holidays three times a year. I had three jobs at the same time, so very little time for myself, but that was okay. But since I moved over here, I'm more or less constantly stuck in this house. And not really knowing anybody is not making things any better.

Anyway, enough of my moaning an complaining, and on to something better. At least the weight loss is still going okay. 315.6 lbs as of this morning, so I am quite happy with that. I'm really hoping I will make it under 300 by the end of the year, it seems to be kind of a magic number for me. *lol*

I find that I quite like the strength exercises I am doing, they are difficult occasionally and I still end up with cramps on a regular basis, but they give me the feeling to have achieved something, and when I'm a little sore afterwards I just take that as a sign that I actually used muscles that I am usually not using, which is a good thing.

On the health front, I still can't get my blood pressure or my blood sugar up, and my doc wants to put me on higher medication. I told him to sod off. *lol* My blood pressure is 110/65 most of the time now (I have a portable thingie that has a wireless connection to my PC and it monitors me constantly), and I know when my blood sugar goes too low, and if that happens, I'll just have a teaspoon of honey or sugar or whatever is handy. Why do doctors always want to pull out the big guns and not try less drastic measures first?

I find myself getting less and less hungry, and I am definitely full much quicker than I used to. I don't know if it is all in my head, or if my stomach has really already started shrinking, but in either case, it's a good thing, so I am not complaining! :)

Right, shopping is waiting, we got paid today, so it's THE BIG ONE! I hate, hate, hate shopping of any kind, so anybody who's got a spare moment, cross your fingers and send good vibes. All I want is to get through it without hour-long queues, rude or insane shoppers, and without standing in front of empty shelves again because the lazy buggers haven't restocked! *lol*

I'll try my best to update more from now on....but it might be horribly, horribly boring, so read it at your own risk! ;)
 
Hey, San. It's your diary so anything goes. If you want to type the phone book, go ahead. I might not stop in as often, but I'll still check on ya from time to time. :D

The little things that are part of your daily routine do make a difference. What are you eating. How have you changed your exercise or intensity. These things that may seem boring to you are how this lifestyle change happens. Besides, I'm always stealing food ideas from people's diaries. I've found that the more I write in my diary the more motivation I'll have to make something to put in it.

How old is "the kid"? For some reason I thought you had older kids. Also, you mentioned that since you moved over there. Where did you move from?
 
Hi San,

Finally found the time to read through your diary, and I think its amazing how well you've done!!

I'll keep checking back to hear about your continuing success!!

Keep up the GREAT work :hurray:

:seeya:
 
Trops -
Thanks for stopping by. And you're right, I guess stuff that I think is boring could be interesting for others. I'll try put a little bit more effort into it, because I actually realised that it is quite fun to write, even if it's just about every day things. And people can decide if they want to read it or not anyway, so if they think it's boring, nobody forces them to read it. *lol*

'The kid' has just turned 9, but he has autistic spectrum disorder (which I think is just a fancy word for being mentally retarded). He's hard work, especially because when he was younger a lot of stuff that should have been done hasn't been done, and he is much worse than he could be. But we're working on it, and making little baby steps. It can be extremely frustrating at times though.

As for where I moved from, I used to live in Germany, born and bred there, and moved to the UK about three years ago. Went from being single and pretty much care-free to being married, having a special needs kid and a 80 year old mother in law I need to take care of as well. Fortunately I'm a nurse and used to work in geriatric care, so at least the latter is not a problem....*lol*

I think the biggest problem that aside from my husband, who is at work all day, I don't know anybody around here. There's my husband's sister and her partner, but they are pretty wrapped up in their own lifes and I don't really have anything in common with them. Besides, they're drunk out of their minds half the time, so I stay well away. I left all my family and friends over in Germany, and while they visit every now and again, it would be nice to have somebody on a day to day basis. I guess I could always hang out with the neighbours, but sitting outside in my bathrobe with a cup of coffee and gossipping about everything and everybody is just not my cup of tea! *shrug*

Right now I am sinning, by the way. I am having pasta with creamy mushrooms, chicken, and roasted garlic. 600 calories - but I skipped breakfast and will only have a light dinner, so that should even things out. Or at least that is what I hope! *lol*

Synyster -
Thanks for reading, and thanks even more for the encouragementand kind words! :) It means a lot, probably more than most people are aware of. So....thanks! :)
 
Hey, look at that. My daughter just turned 9 on the first of this month. We have 3 autistic kids in our lives. Two cousins (one high functioning and one low) and a friend (pretty high function).

I was only in Germany once, and not for that long. I was in Nordenham and wanted to get over to Bremerhaven but didn't have the time. My Grandfather lived in Bremerhaven for many years of his youth, but he had passed before I was there. Had some fun in Nordenham. :D
 
I came by to say hello. I see you are in the birthday challenge! I look forward to seeing you reach your goals. : )

LOL, you are too funny! Of course you have a life! You know there are lots of people on here just like you.

Keep on working it San!!
 
I understand the work involved with special needs kids, 2 of my three sons are ASD
 
May I ask why you moved to the UK? Did you meet your husband online and went to persue him did you just one day decide "eh...Germany's not for me" and left? I always love hearing how one person got to another area, like, what brought them there :)

You aren't boring! You're just lacking in not having as much to say about certain subjects, it's ok! I have the same problem. lol. But you do talk about other things, therefore, you're interesting.
 
Just stopping by to say hi! :seeya: First off, congrats onthe weight loss so far. You are doing a truely amazing job, keep it up!

Second, i read your post on the ballon thread and you are so right. Although some people need that type of help there are some that try to take the easy way out. That is why i admire the people who do it "the right way".

Keep it up!!!


Matt
 
Sorry for being MIA so long again....*sigh*

Been a lazy week, husband and son both had a week off school, which means I'm even more stuck in the house than usual. *ugh*

Trops -
He's not actually diagnosed with autism, it's called ASD, autistic syndrome disorder. Basically it means they don't know what exactly is wrong, but there are some symptomps which are similar to autism. The thing is that he has a lot of traits which speak totally against autism, so I think it's just a fancy name for something they just don't know anything about.

As for Germany, I lived in Berlin, which was okay, but as a whole, I am not the biggest Germany fan to be honest. Even though now that I can compare it to the UK, it seems so much better all of a sudden....*lol*

MissJellyBelly -
Thanks for stopping by, and yepp, I'm in the birthday challenge. Not sure if I will reach my target, but I will try my best! :)
And thanks for the kind words....it's just that sometimes I feel like I've got the most boring life there can be....*lol*

Trusylver -
I can only admire you for being able to cope. I knew that my husband's son had ASD when I came over, but I wasn't totally prepared for it. Thought I was, and I guess I'm dealing with it best I can, but it's hard work. I can't even imagine how it would be to have 2 of them.
My stepson doesn't speak at all, and has basically no understanding of what is being said to him at all, which makes even the smallest things difficult. He was in diapers until last year, and it took me weeks of hours spent in the bathroom to get him to use the toilet....*sigh*....he's in a special needs school, but to me it seems like a better kindergarden....I want him to learn to eat properly, to keep his fingers out of his nose and pants, wash his hands and brush his teeth on his own, and to leave things alone that aren't his, and they have him put glitter on a blob of glue and paint on the walls....go figure. Of course he tried to paint on the walls at home as well...thanks a lot....sometimes I feel as if that bloody school does more damage than good.

PaperAirPlanes -
I moved over to the UK because I met somebody. Originally I came over to visit a friend, who introduced me to another friend and so on. My friend fell ill with skin cancer and I spent nearly a year over here taking care of her, but she died in 2005. I went back to Germany short after the funeral, but stayed in touch with the people here, then came back for Christmas and things just developed from there, and I moved over in June 2006.

And thanks for saying I'm interesting....;)

Matt -
Thanks for the congrats! :)
And it's not as if I am totally against the balloon....hell, I tried to have a gastric band myself, but that is exactly why I know that it doesn't work! For some people a balloon might be a good starting point, but let's face it....if you don't have the willpower to start changing your eating habits and lifestyle without the balloon, then you won't have it with one either. And a gastric balloon for 76 kg (~165 lbs at 5"3') ? PLEASE! *lol*

Anyway, I am happy with things right now, I even had some McDonalds tonight, not healthy, but perfectly within my calorie allowance for the day. :)

Made it under the 310 lbs mark this morning....no more weighing until next friday now. I am trying not to weigh myself every day, don't want to get obsessed with it. Gotta take measurements at some point this week though, it feels as if my clothes are getting seriously too big now....*lol*

Will update later this week, if anything noteworthy happens....;) Thanks again for stopping by everybody, and sorry for the ranting and raving!
 
Well, a few days have passed, I got a new keyboard with an English layout, as opposed to the German one I used so far, so I apologise in advance for any typos and stuff like that. It's difficult to get used to lots of the keys being in different places! *lol*

In other news, I went on a shopping spree a few days ago, and ordered piles of stuff out of a catalogue. It arrived today, and I am pretty happy because so far, I dropped 4 pants sizes (from a tight 32 to a tight 24), and I ordered some tops as well, one size smaller than usual, and they all fit as well. I didn't keep any of them because they were too short (or I am too tall, depending on how you want to look at it), but it was still nice to see that I could actually get into them without being afraid that the buttons would rip off or something.

I also got myself some new underwear, 3 sizes smaller than usual, and some fancy stuff, not the old granny slacks with big flowers on that I used to wear. I tried one of them on and they fit, and they actually looked quite good - wonder what hubby will make out of them....*lol*

Speaking of hubby, he made a 180 degree turn all of a sudden, keeps telling me how good I look and that he can see the changes, and told me to order myself some new clothes because the others, according to him, are falling off me. *lol* It's nice to hear him say stuff like that, even though I suspect that half of it isn't actually true, he's just saying it because he wants to make me happy, but who cares? *lol* He also tried to explain why he was so against it and so NOT supportive, and he says that he simply didn't think I would make it for longer than 2 weeks or so, and he said he thought if he went all supportive and then I screwed it up, I would have felt even worse. In a way it makes sense, because he knows that I have pretty much no willpower, or at least didn't use to have, and chances were high that I wouldn't stick with it. So I guess it's okay, we had a long talk, and I think he understands that I mean it this time.

In other news, I took my measurements today, and it looks as if I lost ~1.5 inches off my arms, 3.5 inches off my chest, 5.5 inches off my backside, 2.5 inches off my thighs and about 1 inch off my calves. For some reason my belly isn't really shrinking, but if the fat keeps disappearing from the other places, the belly fat will start to melt eventually as well.

I will head off to the charity shop now and donate some of my old clothes. I have some pants that are really miles too big now, even though I am keeping the biggest pair as a reminder, and to have a comparison later on.

I tried to get a voluntary job (I think I mentioned that), still no luck though. One of the places never rang back, the other had no application forms (what's wrong with just taking my name and address??), and the third had no vacancies. But I went to a dog shelter yesterday, and while she didn't have anything at the moment, she told me that they would move into a bigger location in January, and would desperately need people who have some sort of building abilities. When I told her that I can do plumbing, electrics, plastering, painting, wallpapering and pretty much anything else that has to do with DIY and building, her face lit up like a christmas tree. *lol* Guess having a DIY obsessed stepfather who taught me everything from the scratch was not too bad after all!

So I'll have something to do in the new year. That's good, will get me out of the house. I am still looking for a job during the christmas time, but since I have never worked in this country before, and have gone to school in a different country, it's difficult. Oh well. *shrug*

I have noticed that workout gets easier. I can do my biking for longer without problems, and I actually enjoy doing the exercises. There's less pain as well, even though my muscles are still complaining every now and again. Guess that's what I get for not using some of them for so long.

Did I mention that I got my 'Lost more than 50 lbs' tattoo? It's a celtic type tribal bracelet with a chinese symbol worked into it. The symbol means 'dream'. So now I have 'dream' on one side, and 'determination' on the other. Because I think you need both of them, and it is what keeps me going. My dreams of things that I want to achieve and want to do, and the determination to turn these dreams into reality. My next tattoo at 275 will be a Phoenix, which I wanted since I was about 16. Now the problem is just to find a good tattooist to do it. Any recommendations for good tattoo shops in the Manchester area? I'm willing to travel a while, but the places close by aren't that good. They can do some tribals or chinese symbols, but I wouldn't trust them with anything elaborate!

Sorry, didn't want to write a novel, guess I'm just bored at the moment, so I'll kick my butt into gear and get something done now!

Hope everybody is okay out there and doing well on their weight loss journey. Love ya' all!! :grouphug:
 
Wow, San. Looks like you are really on your way. We all knew that you were in it for more then the two weeks. :cheers2:
 
Thanks! :)

To be honest, I wasn't entirely sure myself at the beginning....but I'm glad I managed to prove myself wrong! *lol*
 
Hey San, thought I'd finally stop by and say hi :) You're doing awesome on the weight loss. I'm stealing your pet food donation idea btw. I like pets better than most people anyways :X After you posted that in our Nov. challenge I found a local small group that's getting off the ground and currently doing foster care for cats and dogs so I'm gonna donate to them for this month and December too. Glad you posted the idea :biggrinjester: ~Lisa
 
*lol*....I was thinking the same thing, I like most animals more than people, and in addition, the food banks here get large donations from supermarkets etc., while the smaller animal rescue places don't get anything like that.

We have a pet rescue place just up the road, and I will work there as a volunteer from January onwards...so until then, I'll donate the food to them.

Even though with things going as they are, the poor animals are going to starve....:( Lost a whole of 0.6 lbs last week, and according to my scales, my body fat percentage is actually going UP. :( I sweat to every entitiy possible that I haven't changed my eating habits at all, no treats, no sinning, nothing....I have no clue where the fat comes from. Maybe I'm just a genetic freak???
 
I beginning to think that those BF% on the scale is mostly bunk. If I calculate it right, I've lost 45 pounds and according to the BF scale I lost 10 pounds of fat and 35 pounds of lean mass. Uhm, I don't think so. Perhaps the other way around. I don't look at that so much anymore.
 
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