How Kathar Shall Regain Her Old Self Back

Meeeee TOOO!!!! I hope that THIS becomes a lifestyle for you, and I hate cottage cheese too for more than one day......YOU should try more filling carbs and proteins.....I WOULD HATE IT TOO IF I WERE doing that mostly....or not even mostly, REPEATEDLY often! BUT I'm stilllllll ROOTING FOR YA!!!

KEEP up the hard work!!! ;)
 
It isn't about filling food, either. I'm never hungry, and I'm never full. I almost don't know what they feel like. The foods I eat are pretty filling, in any case. Almost everything is whole grain.

The food isn't boring; I really like it. I look forward to my bowl of cereal in the morning. It's just the act of eating that I need to like a bit less.

Anyway.

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Breakfast: 1 and a quarter cups of cereal, 200 calories (I switched cereals, from Good Friends to whatever the probiotic one is. I don't like it as much, but it's still decent.

Lunch: A pouch of smoked salmon and some carrot chips, 200 calories
Lunch: 2 Wasa crackers, 100 calories

Snack: Granola bar, 200 calories
Snack: Carrots with peanut butter, 100 calories
Snack: A peach, 100 calories

Dinner: Grilled chicken thighs, 300 calories (The way I calculated this was rough. 4 ounces was 140 calories; the package I grilled was 2 pounds, or 32 ounces. Originally there were 5 pieces; I cut them into nine and then had two smaller pieces. But they were uneven sizes, so. I really have no idea. It was pretty good, though. I used white pepper, coriander, garlic powder, and some basil. Earthy, kind of spicy.

Dessert: Tapioca pudding cup and a plum tomato, 150 calories
 
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hay there did your mum show you how to use the grill as i see for dinner you had grilled chicken?
 
My grandmother did it for me. My mother didn't get home until 9:00.

And I fell off the wagon again. I ate the entire bag of carrot chips, as well as a few handfuls of cereal, some more chicken, and some of the hummus. I don't know how to stop.
 
Iam glad that someone showed you how to use it now you can experiment with different ways of cooking :)
Sorry to hear that you have fallen off the wagon again, but try to look on the bright side as least all the stuff you ate was healthy :)
 
She didn't show me how to use it. She just turned the grill on, and I still have no idea how she did it. She's also angry at me today.

I was quite proud of myself this morning, in an awful deprived way. My sister needed me to pick her up lunch from some fast food place, but I didn't order myself anything.

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Breakfast: 1 mango, 150 calories

Lunch: Pita, 60 calories; 2 tablespoons sugar-free strawberry preserves, 20 calories; two pieces of chicken, 300 calories.

Rounding up to 550 so far.
 
Snacks: 1 Wasa cracker and a yogurt, 700 calories. (That's for the day, not for the snack.) And I haven't eaten anything else that I didn't list.
 
Why apologize! This diary is first and foremost for yourself. If they don't like it they don't have to check back in. Just keep doing whatever you need to do to stick with it and don't worry about annoying others. I am awfully annoying and you don't see me apologizing, do ya? :D

Good job not grabbing any fast food for yourself. Little victories are important.

Hope you have a good day.
 
I'm apologizing because of my other thread. I don't want people to be upset with me.

Anyway.

Late afternoon: Granola bar, 140 calories; 7 strawberries, roughly 60 calories (rounding up again). Total now is 900.

The chicken from lunch made me sick, so I threw the rest out. I'll just have cereal or something.
 
kathar said:
I also apologize if anyone doesn't like my posts.
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It's not that people don't like your posts...

you want honesty?

You ask for advice... you ask for opinions.. then spend an inordinate amout of time refuting everything.

You asked about what to do about eating when you're bored -the solution is -don't be bored... and you took a lot of offence to that suggestion... Find something to do... Why do you have to spend 15 hours in the house - go find something to do...

The choice is entirely yours.. you can either lose some weight or not - it shouldn't be as stresful as you're making it -and if it is so stressful for you - then maybe it's not the right time for you to be trying...

I'm sure you look fine as you are - 150lbs isn't really that overweight, unless you're 4'6.... but if you're struggling with every aspect of it -maybe you do need a break from it and try again when it'll feel easier..
 
I'm just in a horrible mood today. Being woken up at 9:30 AM when you got to bed too late last night, in order to run out the door and be a food chauffeur, will do that to you.

I'm 5'2 and 139, actually, but I'd rather not "take a break" because I'm clinically overweight and I don't want to be. I don't look good and none of my clothes fit. I can't see my collarbone anymore. I probably couldn't see it for a long time, but I just noticed it last night and it was depressing.

Today has been OK so far, except for the fact that I'm at 1200 already and I've still got over six hours to be awake. I think I'll go to the gym, even if I can only do cardio today. My nighttime snack will be cheese and another cracker.

Dinner: 1 1/4 cups cereal, 170 calories; rice pudding, 90 calories; carrot sticks, 40 calories. I realize this is an odd dinner, but last night's chicken made me really sick and I needed something easy on my stomach.
 
dont be sorry! you can write whatever you want in your diary! i will always be here for you to cheer you up if you have a downfall or to celebrate your victorys! Iam sure that you will find that something just clicks inside of you and weight loss will become easier for you! I know that you are finding it hard at the moment but just keep on going and i promise you that you will see results in the long run!
 
Kathar, have you thought about getting a summer job while you are home from school? That could help keep you from being bored around the house which could prevent you from the casual grazing tendencies & just get your mind off dieting.

Honestly, you seem depressed a lot of times and I can totally relate. One thing I noticed a few years ago was that the times I was at my lowest was when I was the least busy. I know it's hard to manage going back and forth between different jobs and school, but if you put some effort into developing a plan to stay busy, your mind and body will reap the benefits. Some of the days where I realize my best mood is when I'm busy from 6am-10pm. If you find a job that keeps you active, that will make a huge difference in your metabolism. I remember working as a bus boy some years ago and I naturally lost about 15lbs without even trying (I wasn't really eating healthy though).

At your age, I believe it's really important to start getting some work experience (any experience whatsoever, no matter how menial it seems) to prepare you to move forward and eventually develop a career. You've got the whole summer, what are you going to do with it?
 
I've been reading your posts for awhile now.... I really enjoy them. Keep it up. I think you're doing great and I know you can reach your goal!
 
Sorry for the lack of posts; we had circuit issues.

I'm trying to find a summer job and have submitted over 10 applications, but nobody is hiring. Or perhaps they're just not hiring *me*. I don't know. Either way, it isn't working out.

Calorie-wise, today was average to below average, but I did make it to the gym and did more walking than usual.

Tomorrow is an unavoidable cheat day. We're going out for my mother's birthday to someplace without nutrition info. All I can do is go in on a 200-calorie breakfast/lunch and hope for the best.

I don't like that. I don't need a cheat day now. That's the LAST thing I need. I need to get serious. I need to stop snacking, even on small things. But I can't seem to do it.

And I'm not losing weight. If anything, I look and feel fatter than ever. I weighed myself the other day and I broke 140 again. (up not down.) I'm not doing great at all. I'm doing horribly, so of course I'm depressed. I'm depressed because I'm bored all the time, and because I'm fat, because I look terrible, and because none of my clothes fit. I'm also depressed because I've tried for over five years to lose the weight and ended up putting on ten more pounds instead. Everybody in my family is overweight or obese. It's led to a lot of problems I'd rather not get into here.
 
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So we didn't end up going out after all. Today was average, about 1500 calories. It may be worse because we had a lot of leftover non-diet food in the house.

We're going out sometime. But it wasn't today.

I still feel depressed and I still look horrible.
 
kathar said:
<snipped> two pieces of chicken, 300 calories. .
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I just wanted to address this one part of your post. What kind of chicken are you eating that 2 pieces has 300 calories? I can eat 8 oz of chicken breast (grilled) for 200 calories. 8 oz is a good sized chunk of meat. Are you eating breaded/deep fried chicken?
 
Make that about 1600 for today. I really hate myself sometimes.

And they were chicken thigh portions. 4 ounces = 140 calories. The package was 2 pounds. It came with five pieces, but I cut them into eight. 32/8 = 4. 140 times 2 is 280, and I always round up.
 
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