diehardcutie
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Bonjour Everyone!
It's finally time that I started doing my diary, I've been wanting to for awhile but let my insecurities get the best of me.. no more! Hope I'm doing this right
Not sure where to start but I'll start with the basics. The names Hollyy (yes I do prefer to spell it with two y's, no typo), I'm 19 years young and I'm from Canada. I'm pretty short at 5'2ish. I'm very obese (classification II "very high risk") weighing in at 234lbs. I don't know what to say about that, I was always a very tiny child from when I was born (5lbs14oz) to about grade 3. I was as tiny as a mouse, which is how everyone used to describe me as. Once I was in grade 3/grade 4 I started to add weight, not much but I was chubby. By grade 5, I was overweight for my height and age. I remember at my grade 8 graduation I was over 200lbs. It was horrible. I can't blame anyone else but me. I was inactive, I was unhappy with myself and turned to food. Started 'dieting' in high school. Lost weight, put it back on, continued to lose weight and gain it back for years.
After deciding that I need to get to the root of my problem instead of focusing on the symptom (obesity), I found out that I am an emotional eater to the extreme. I eat when I'm happy, sad, angry, nervous/anxious, you name it! So from now on I need to find different outlets. I need to rewards myself with something other than food. If I'm angry I need to find a better way to deal with that than eat, so on and so forth.
Found a wonderful set of questions that I thought would be awesome to share in my diary and here they are:
What is your current height and weight?
234lbs (09.22.10)
If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be?
In the 120's
At what weight would you like to be at four months from now?
Under the 200 mark and into ONEderland :]
Why do you want to lose weight?
For a number of reasons: healthy, family history of heart disease/heart attacks, I want to be active. The biggest reason being that I was diagnosed back in January '10 with PolyCystic Ovarian Syndrome. It was pretty hard to take since my boyfriend Matt and I both want a family in the near future. After researching about PCOS, I read that losing weight and becoming healthy can significantly decrease the side effects and help with the infertility, so a very good reason to lose this weight!
Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? If so, when is that event?
My immediate family (mother, brother) always take a trip each year. This year it's Paris, France. Being a French Canadian and thick French Heritage, I couldn't be more exicted. I'm going in alittle over 21 weeks, so enough time to get down to a good size and go shopping.
Everytime I go somewhere or out with family, I always hide away from family pictures. I do NOT want this to be the case in France. I want to take thousands of pictures and not cry when I see them. I want to live life and love who I am on the outside. I love me and who I am, just not happy with my outside appearance.
What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals?
Honestly, I'm at this point in my life where I have no choice and nothing will stop me. I'm pre-diabetic. My dream career is to be a military fighter pilot, and you cannot join with diabetes. I will NOT become diabet, I will NOT allow myself to get to that point. So I have to lose this weight and I will. I'm very confident in that. I've been doing good so far! Very proud :]
Why do you think that you now have a weight problem?
Emotional eating and not being active!
What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight?
Stop emotionally eating, be active, no more pop (I'm addicted)
Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight?
I've tried everything from the "Cabbage Soup Diet" to going to "LA Weightloss Clinics", they work but they were treating the sympton not the problem, so I gained it all back. I do NOT recommend the Cabbage Soup Diet, at all.
Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back?
Like I've said, treated the sympton not the problem. I need a lifestyle change, I need to mend my relationship with food all together. Food is not the enemy!
What, if anything, has not worked for you in the past in helping you to lose weight? Why do you think it did not work?
Fad diets like the Soup Diet, not realistic, they're not for life they're temporary. I need a lifestyle change and change my habits.
Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time?
I want to, I think that would be an excellent idea! I plan to do so
Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook?
haha yeah right, I can't even make toast without it burning. I'm going to start cooking though with my lovely mother's help! She's an awesome cook as is my entire family (minus me unfortunatley)
How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go?
I used to go out a lot, until this month where I've changed that. Jackastor's is my favourite place to go!
What are your three favorite foods?
French food, specifically poutine (French Canadian)
Chinese/Japanese/Thai
Pizza mmm
What are your three favorite restaurants?
Jackastor's
The Keg
Prince Albert's (very very greasy lol)
What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food?
Portion control! We eat so much nowadays. For me, I need to learn portion control. I need to watch my sodium and sugar intake. Sodium is good you need it, but don't overdue it! I need to stop when I'm full and eat slowly!
If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different?
I would be so outgoing. I would hangout with friends more, I wouldn't stay couped up at home all the time. I would be the outgoing person that I used to be.
Do you eat when you are not hungry?
Yuhp
Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)?
Yes, especially at night
Do you hide your food or eat in secret?
I hate eating in public, I feel so embarassed.
Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed?
Definetly
Do you eat as a reward?
Mhm, bad habit!
Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer?
I do unfortunatley
What do you normally eat for a meal?
Hard to say really, anything that's in the house that looks good. I'm VERY picky as weird as it sounds.
What type of snacks do you eat?
More salty, like chips. I'm not a chocolate/sweet fan really.
In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing?
Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred and No More Trouble Zones. Really kicking my butt! I also have a Siberian Husky named Diesel, who I need to take on long walks (he's a working breed, not that I need to explain haha)
Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym? Home?
Mostly home, or walks around the neighbourhood. I'm starting to go to a gym on Friday!
What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise?
I love strength training, especially upper and lower body, I feel that I excel at it. So exercising pertaining to those areas. I need some core work thats for sure!
What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals?
With wedding planing, France, hopeing for a family. Those things are all motivation for me. I have a very supportive boyfriend and family. My boyfriend's in the US Marine Corps (yes I do know him, get that a lot..) and very athletic so he keeps making sure I get my daily exercise in.
Do you have rewards for certain goals?
Every new size, I'm going to buy myself an outfit, or some makeup, a new history/political book (huge junkie). Stuff like that, no more food rewards!
Current Statistics (09.22.10)
Weight: 234lbs
Bust: 43"
Waist: 37.5"
Hips: 50"
Neck: 14"
Left Arm: 14.5"
Right Arm: 14.5"
Left Thigh: 28.5"
Right Thigh: 28.5"
Left Calf: 16.5"
Right Calf: 16.5"
I started my life style change the beginning of September 2010. I started at 240lbs (at my highest ever in April '10 at 255lbs). So I've lost 6lbs and 19 off my total body. Very happy, but have a long way to go :]
Anyways, that's all for today. Sorry, it's pretty long
but I have the gift of the gab! When I start talking (or typing hehe) I just can't stop!
Thanks for reading! Have an awesome week everyone,
hollyy
"Tout est Possible!" (Everything is possible!)
It's finally time that I started doing my diary, I've been wanting to for awhile but let my insecurities get the best of me.. no more! Hope I'm doing this right
Not sure where to start but I'll start with the basics. The names Hollyy (yes I do prefer to spell it with two y's, no typo), I'm 19 years young and I'm from Canada. I'm pretty short at 5'2ish. I'm very obese (classification II "very high risk") weighing in at 234lbs. I don't know what to say about that, I was always a very tiny child from when I was born (5lbs14oz) to about grade 3. I was as tiny as a mouse, which is how everyone used to describe me as. Once I was in grade 3/grade 4 I started to add weight, not much but I was chubby. By grade 5, I was overweight for my height and age. I remember at my grade 8 graduation I was over 200lbs. It was horrible. I can't blame anyone else but me. I was inactive, I was unhappy with myself and turned to food. Started 'dieting' in high school. Lost weight, put it back on, continued to lose weight and gain it back for years.
After deciding that I need to get to the root of my problem instead of focusing on the symptom (obesity), I found out that I am an emotional eater to the extreme. I eat when I'm happy, sad, angry, nervous/anxious, you name it! So from now on I need to find different outlets. I need to rewards myself with something other than food. If I'm angry I need to find a better way to deal with that than eat, so on and so forth.
Found a wonderful set of questions that I thought would be awesome to share in my diary and here they are:
What is your current height and weight?
234lbs (09.22.10)
If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be?
In the 120's
At what weight would you like to be at four months from now?
Under the 200 mark and into ONEderland :]
Why do you want to lose weight?
For a number of reasons: healthy, family history of heart disease/heart attacks, I want to be active. The biggest reason being that I was diagnosed back in January '10 with PolyCystic Ovarian Syndrome. It was pretty hard to take since my boyfriend Matt and I both want a family in the near future. After researching about PCOS, I read that losing weight and becoming healthy can significantly decrease the side effects and help with the infertility, so a very good reason to lose this weight!
Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? If so, when is that event?
My immediate family (mother, brother) always take a trip each year. This year it's Paris, France. Being a French Canadian and thick French Heritage, I couldn't be more exicted. I'm going in alittle over 21 weeks, so enough time to get down to a good size and go shopping.
Everytime I go somewhere or out with family, I always hide away from family pictures. I do NOT want this to be the case in France. I want to take thousands of pictures and not cry when I see them. I want to live life and love who I am on the outside. I love me and who I am, just not happy with my outside appearance.
What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals?
Honestly, I'm at this point in my life where I have no choice and nothing will stop me. I'm pre-diabetic. My dream career is to be a military fighter pilot, and you cannot join with diabetes. I will NOT become diabet, I will NOT allow myself to get to that point. So I have to lose this weight and I will. I'm very confident in that. I've been doing good so far! Very proud :]
Why do you think that you now have a weight problem?
Emotional eating and not being active!
What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight?
Stop emotionally eating, be active, no more pop (I'm addicted)
Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight?
I've tried everything from the "Cabbage Soup Diet" to going to "LA Weightloss Clinics", they work but they were treating the sympton not the problem, so I gained it all back. I do NOT recommend the Cabbage Soup Diet, at all.
Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back?
Like I've said, treated the sympton not the problem. I need a lifestyle change, I need to mend my relationship with food all together. Food is not the enemy!
What, if anything, has not worked for you in the past in helping you to lose weight? Why do you think it did not work?
Fad diets like the Soup Diet, not realistic, they're not for life they're temporary. I need a lifestyle change and change my habits.
Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time?
I want to, I think that would be an excellent idea! I plan to do so
Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook?
haha yeah right, I can't even make toast without it burning. I'm going to start cooking though with my lovely mother's help! She's an awesome cook as is my entire family (minus me unfortunatley)
How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go?
I used to go out a lot, until this month where I've changed that. Jackastor's is my favourite place to go!
What are your three favorite foods?
French food, specifically poutine (French Canadian)
Chinese/Japanese/Thai
Pizza mmm
What are your three favorite restaurants?
Jackastor's
The Keg
Prince Albert's (very very greasy lol)
What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food?
Portion control! We eat so much nowadays. For me, I need to learn portion control. I need to watch my sodium and sugar intake. Sodium is good you need it, but don't overdue it! I need to stop when I'm full and eat slowly!
If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different?
I would be so outgoing. I would hangout with friends more, I wouldn't stay couped up at home all the time. I would be the outgoing person that I used to be.
Do you eat when you are not hungry?
Yuhp
Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)?
Yes, especially at night
Do you hide your food or eat in secret?
I hate eating in public, I feel so embarassed.
Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed?
Definetly
Do you eat as a reward?
Mhm, bad habit!
Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer?
I do unfortunatley
What do you normally eat for a meal?
Hard to say really, anything that's in the house that looks good. I'm VERY picky as weird as it sounds.
What type of snacks do you eat?
More salty, like chips. I'm not a chocolate/sweet fan really.
In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing?
Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred and No More Trouble Zones. Really kicking my butt! I also have a Siberian Husky named Diesel, who I need to take on long walks (he's a working breed, not that I need to explain haha)
Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym? Home?
Mostly home, or walks around the neighbourhood. I'm starting to go to a gym on Friday!
What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise?
I love strength training, especially upper and lower body, I feel that I excel at it. So exercising pertaining to those areas. I need some core work thats for sure!
What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals?
With wedding planing, France, hopeing for a family. Those things are all motivation for me. I have a very supportive boyfriend and family. My boyfriend's in the US Marine Corps (yes I do know him, get that a lot..) and very athletic so he keeps making sure I get my daily exercise in.
Do you have rewards for certain goals?
Every new size, I'm going to buy myself an outfit, or some makeup, a new history/political book (huge junkie). Stuff like that, no more food rewards!
Current Statistics (09.22.10)
Weight: 234lbs
Bust: 43"
Waist: 37.5"
Hips: 50"
Neck: 14"
Left Arm: 14.5"
Right Arm: 14.5"
Left Thigh: 28.5"
Right Thigh: 28.5"
Left Calf: 16.5"
Right Calf: 16.5"
I started my life style change the beginning of September 2010. I started at 240lbs (at my highest ever in April '10 at 255lbs). So I've lost 6lbs and 19 off my total body. Very happy, but have a long way to go :]
Anyways, that's all for today. Sorry, it's pretty long
but I have the gift of the gab! When I start talking (or typing hehe) I just can't stop!Thanks for reading! Have an awesome week everyone,
hollyy
"Tout est Possible!" (Everything is possible!)
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