Here we go! A diary for 'the last 20'!!

[thelast20]

Hi everyone,
I love your postings, am new today at wlf, its my day 13 of actually caring what I'm eating!

Actually, maybe I should pull finger and go from walking to a bit of jogging - am scared that at my weight I may do myself an injury... oh well baby steps. Wow running in snow - must be good for you.

Its spring over here in this part of the world... am glad my husband is not into Mac Donalds - just as well for me... although in some ways its a bit of a pain being married to a skinny! Afterall he knows everything about being healthy and what I should do!!!!! lol
Love him anyway, but yeah on my bad mood days I am often angry with him and its his fault.... don't know how he puts up with me!

Have a great day everyone! michele

Thanks Michele, and welcome to the forum. It is a magical place!!

I don't think it really matters what our husbands are like, they're great on most days but when they're not... they are NOT

I would like to start running but I have this fear that it will be too hard and I wont be able to do it.
Talk to you later.
Kristie

I have hated running my whole life, but after listening to everyones stories about the rush, and how much they love it I gave it a shot. I started only 2 weeks ago for 1min at a time (first min was the LONGEST min of my life ), and now when I try to just walk I feel like I might as well be sitting on the couch. I had always heard about the 'runners high', but now that I've experienced it for myself... it's pretty awesome!!

Lol and HOLY SHOVELING! Wow.... this makes me really not want the snow to come!!! EEK! Musta been a good workout though

~ Sarah

I think it was. My arms, quads, and intercostels where quite angry with me by the end, and I was breathing pretty heavy. I was going to go to the gym tonight, but it was storming and the road where so bad I figured I would just come home. I was going to shovel again, but my husband made it home before me and almost had it down. He got stuck at the bottom of the driveway and had to shovel himself out... or else I'm sure it would have all been waiting for me when I got home

Not sure what is going on tonight but holy man do I have the munchies. We had a late supper (7pm), and for whatever reason all I want to do is raid the cupboards. I did have a couple of the new Frerio Ronwar (i could get up and go look at how to spell that properly... but then I would eat one ). I had 1 before supper and then had another one right after. They are heavenly, and in my defence, they are DARK chocolate. So they are actually good for me

Oh well. I just did an abs workout, now I'll grab a nice big glass of water and walk away from the kitchen... I can do this... I am strong... damn it!!

 

[chubbygirl]

You are doing so good resisting those snacks! i'm so proud! I like what you wrote about the running high because it's so true!
Your also very right about what you wrote in my journal - I suffer from low self esteem and it's a battle to get over. I am making baby steps though like last night I was able to look at myself in the mirror while doing the 20-20-20 class and I didn't need to look away right away.
thanks for you help - I can't wait to see your results at the end of the week! Your kicking butt!

 

[M_Marie]

I get cases of the snackies as well!!!! lol


way to stay FAR WAY from the cupboards hehe.....


you are doing great girl... keep it up

 

[thelast20]

You are doing so good resisting those snacks! i'm so proud! I like what you wrote about the running high because it's so true!
Your also very right about what you wrote in my journal - I suffer from low self esteem and it's a battle to get over. I am making baby steps though like last night I was able to look at myself in the mirror while doing the 20-20-20 class and I didn't need to look away right away.
thanks for you help - I can't wait to see your results at the end of the week! Your kicking butt!

Thanks!! I'm pretty proud of myself too. This no snacking thing is so hard, and yet so easy at the same time. I stopped for a few groceries last night and hubbie says "grab me a bag of chips". So all night I was just WAITING for him to open that bag of chip so I could have 'one'... but he never did. So many times I went to offer him the bag and had to stop myself. Then we're sitting watching tv and I'm telling him how I have the muchies SOOO bad. He just kept saying "oh your not hungry". I just wanted to scream at him "DON'T TELL ME HOW I FEEL. HOW DO YOU KNOW I'M NOT HUNGRY. YOU CAN'T FEEL MY PAIN!!!" Then I would just laugh at myself and drink some more water

Anyway, it's been 2 days since I've been to the gym. Both girls are healthy, it's stopped snowing (still have to shovel alittle before I leave though ), the roads are good and I'm VERY excited to get there this morning.

Day 2 of KICK ASS WEEK pt 2 and I am ready to KICK SOME ASS!!! JK

 

[gymfreak1]

I am proud of you for resisting the kitchen! I didn't do so good last night, I got up and ate two times and I am a little upset at myself. I am going to try today to drink more water when I get the munchies.
Today I am meeting with a trainer at the gym and I get to see how fast I can run a mile. I am a little nervous but excited at the same time. So I hope I do ok.
Nice talking to you and stay positive.
Kristie

 

[chubbygirl]

I ordered the book and now I anxiously await it's arrival! I'm pretty excited. I haven't gotten into a book in a while. I think I will pass it on to my mom and sisters when I am done reading because they will probably benefit from it too!
Thanks Marie!

 

[thelast20]

I get cases of the snackies as well!!!! lol


way to stay FAR WAY from the cupboards hehe.....


you are doing great girl... keep it up

Thankyou!! It seems so hard at the time and then later it's like "that was so easy, what was I thinking". I just keep trying to remember the 'after' feelings... crappy vs happy

I am proud of you for resisting the kitchen! I didn't do so good last night, I got up and ate two times and I am a little upset at myself. I am going to try today to drink more water when I get the munchies.
Today I am meeting with a trainer at the gym and I get to see how fast I can run a mile. I am a little nervous but excited at the same time. So I hope I do ok.
Nice talking to you and stay positive.
Kristie

It's taken me 2mths to get to this point... believe me, it doesn't happen over night. Don't beat yourself up!!

Good luck with your mile. How exciting!! I'll be anxious to hear how it went. Keep me posted!!

I ordered the book and now I anxiously await it's arrival! I'm pretty excited. I haven't gotten into a book in a while. I think I will pass it on to my mom and sisters when I am done reading because they will probably benefit from it too!
Thanks Marie!

AWESOME!!! You'll love it, and will probably just tell them about it b/c you won't want to give it away. I like keeping me copy as a reference. Hope it comes soon!!




So today......! I was trying to get the driveway shovelled quickly before taking the girls to school and fell on my ass The whole thing was covered in ice and man did it hurt!! When I got to the gym I just didn't feel like doing anything... but I got on the treadmill and gave it all I had.

2min - walk incline 3
5min - jog incline 3
2min - walk incline 3
3min - jog incline 3
2min - walk incline 3
2min - walk incline 3
4min - walk incline 10
10min - 5min run/5min jog incline 0
4min - walk incline 10
2min - run incline 0
3min - walk incline 5
1min - run incline 0

I was so tired. I did 4.5k in 40 min. I really wanted to get to 5K, but I was pushing as hard as I could so I refuse to be dissappointed!!! My husband brought home french onion soup and a boston cream donut, and a lg coffee for lunch. I ate half the soup, and the whole donut ( ). I just came in from chipping all the ice off the driveway and I think I'm done for the day But my cals are still pretty low for the day... so I really should probably eat something

 

[thelast20]

I am sooooo sore today!!! And feeling very sorry for myself (BOO). I haven't had the guts to look outside yet and see if I have to shovel today... god I hope not!!

I'm pretty sure that untill a miricle happens, I won't be seeing the 130's this week And not like I was really expecting too... it would just be so nice. I looked this morning and am 141.0lbs... which is still great don't get me wrong!! I'm not sure if I'll be able to go to the gym today. My little one was so sick last night. She slept on me for hours, but has also slept right through the night (almost 15hrs total), so you never know. She might be just fine this morning. It's tough when your completely relyant on other people. I was thinking maybe 1x/wk I could go before my husband goes to work... but he leaves at 6:15am. I would have to be up at 4:30am to be at the gym right at 5am and leave just before 6am Not sure I'm 'that' hardcore One part of me thinks, 'maybe you need a day off'... but then the other part of me says, 'yet, but I don't WANT a day off'. Oh well, if I have to stay home maybe I'll do some yoga and pilates.... 20min on the crappy elipitical.

Question??? Doesn't anybody else's feet go numb on the elipitacal???

 

[skkroll]

I am sooooo sore today!!! And feeling very sorry for myself (BOO). I haven't had the guts to look outside yet and see if I have to shovel today... god I hope not!!

I'm pretty sure that untill a miricle happens, I won't be seeing the 130's this week And not like I was really expecting too... it would just be so nice. I looked this morning and am 141.0lbs... which is still great don't get me wrong!! I'm not sure if I'll be able to go to the gym today. My little one was so sick last night. She slept on me for hours, but has also slept right through the night (almost 15hrs total), so you never know. She might be just fine this morning. It's tough when your completely relyant on other people. I was thinking maybe 1x/wk I could go before my husband goes to work... but he leaves at 6:15am. I would have to be up at 4:30am to be at the gym right at 5am and leave just before 6am Not sure I'm 'that' hardcore One part of me thinks, 'maybe you need a day off'... but then the other part of me says, 'yet, but I don't WANT a day off'. Oh well, if I have to stay home maybe I'll do some yoga and pilates.... 20min on the crappy elipitical.

Question??? Doesn't anybody else's feet go numb on the elipitacal???

141.0!! That's great You're doing so good, there is no reason that you can see the 130's soon enough! I am the exact same way about not WANTING a day off but sometimes you just NEED one! Always listen to your body and you'll know just what to do

My feet go numb on the elliptical sometimes... I remember last year at my other university I took a step class that was pretty intense and my feet were completely numb then!!! It's quite a frustrating feeling... not sure if there's a way to make it stop or why it happens (well I guess maybe the constant pressure on your feet?) but it is normal and I know exactly whatcha mean!

Have a great day! Let's finish this week out strong again... we can do this!!! It's hump day so let's get over this hump and rock it til the end!! lol
~ Sarah

 

[chubbygirl]

I'm with Sarah! Let's rock it to the end this week!
My feet went numb when I first got my new shoes - they are a little bigger than my previous pair so I blamed it on that. I do notice it happens on some of the machines too - it is annoying. When I push down harder or increase resistance I find it goes away.
I love french onion soup! I heard Tim Horton's is selling it now and I was going to check out how many WW points it was and try some if it wasn't too high. I might wait till after Friday because I know it's really salty but oh so yum!

 

[gymfreak1]

I hope your little girl is doing better. I also hope you didn't have to shovel your drive today!
Well I went to the gym and worked out for two hours doing weight lifting and then a circut class and then it was time to run my mile. I was so scared but I did it! It took me 11 minutes and 30 seconds, which is a long time but I was just so happy I actually ran. I don't know why I am so afraid to push myself.
I am doing it again on Sunday to see if I can beat my time, so I better practice.
Well I agree, we should finish this week strong! We all can do it and maybe drop a few more pounds too!
I think it's normal for your feet to go numb. Sometimes mine do and then it will go away but it is uncomfortable at the time.
Any suggestions to beat getting up in the middle of the night to eat? I have been doing this for a long time and I can't seem to stop! Sometimes I get up and eat and don't even remember do it! HELP!
Good Luck everyone and remember to stay strong.

 

[skkroll]

2min - walk incline 3
5min - jog incline 3
2min - walk incline 3
3min - jog incline 3
2min - walk incline 3
2min - walk incline 3
4min - walk incline 10
10min - 5min run/5min jog incline 0
4min - walk incline 10
2min - run incline 0
3min - walk incline 5
1min - run incline 0

I was so tired. I did 4.5k in 40 min. I really wanted to get to 5K, but I was pushing as hard as I could so I refuse to be dissappointed!!!

Ok... how did I miss this before?!?!!?

AMAZING WORK!!!!!!


You and the treadmill are really hittin' it off... I think it's love!!! LOL

Work it girl! You rock

~ Sarah

 

[thelast20]

Thanks for the feet info. I needed to know it was normal!!

141.0!! That's great. You're doing so good, there is no reason that you can see the 130's soon enough! I am the exact same way about not WANTING a day off but sometimes you just NEED one! Always listen to your body and you'll know just what to do

Have a great day! Let's finish this week out strong again... we can do this!!! It's hump day so let's get over this hump and rock it til the end!! lol
~ Sarah

Thanks, I needed that. I don't want to be so focused on 139, that I'm dissapointed with anything else, or like you said... not listening to my body. I am the BIGGEST advocate for listening to you body so that would make me quite the hippocrate

I AM READY TO ROCK

I'm with Sarah! Let's rock it to the end this week!
I love french onion soup! I heard Tim Horton's is selling it now and I was going to check out how many WW points it was and try some if it wasn't too high. I might wait till after Friday because I know it's really salty but oh so yum!

It's funny how my attitude towards food has changed. While I was eating the soup yesterday in head I'm thinking, "you know... it's ok, but not work all the cals" so I ate some of it to taste and put the rest in the fridge for my daughter. Then I had a big salad with nuts dressing... it was so much better!

I hope your little girl is doing better. I also hope you didn't have to shovel your drive today!
Well I went to the gym and worked out for two hours doing weight lifting and then a circut class and then it was time to run my mile. I was so scared but I did it! It took me 11 minutes and 30 seconds, which is a long time but I was just so happy I actually ran. I don't know why I am so afraid to push myself.
I am doing it again on Sunday to see if I can beat my time, so I better practice.
Any suggestions to beat getting up in the middle of the night to eat? I have been doing this for a long time and I can't seem to stop! Sometimes I get up and eat and don't even remember do it! HELP!
Good Luck everyone and remember to stay strong.

Sam seems to be much better thankyou. I think she needed the day off too. AND THE SUN IS SHINING!!!!

Way to KICK ASS at the gym!! You should be VERY proud of yourself for running the mile. Running straight for 11.5mins is amazing in my books. Keep it up!!

That's crazy you don't even wake up. You could put bells on your door...
You need to 'wake up' in order to make the decision NOT to eat.

Ok... how did I miss this before?!?!!?

AMAZING WORK!!!!!!


You and the treadmill are really hittin' it off... I think it's love!!! LOL

Work it girl! You rock

~ Sarah

LOL I believe it is love. Thankyou for introducing us

 

[thelast20]

Stayed home from the gym today... but it did workout at home. I decided I was going to do a Pilates video. I got about 12 min into the first one and turned it off. I don't think I like pilates. It makes me feel fat All I see is all my "rolls" looking back at me, and I don't think I should partake in any activity that makes me feel bad about myself. I tried a different one, but it made me feel the same so I stopped after 10min. Feeling completely shitty, I didn't want to jump on the eliptical b/c I new I wouldn't have the umph to push myself so I through in a kickboxing video. I forgot how much I love the kickboxing video. The girl in charge is awesome... so motivating. One thing she says over and over is, "All you have to do is WANT IT... and you will have it". LOVE THAT!!! It fits very well with my "wishbone/backone". I wasn't able to work at a 10 the whole time,(my arms are so sore) but I honestly worked as hard as I could for today... and I'm very proud of that!!

 

[gymfreak1]

That is great that you found a workout that was right for you! I think that is awesome!
Glad to hear about your daughter.
I know how you feel about being sore, I feel you. I am really sore too. I went to the gym and my class was canceled. I tried to stay and lift weights but I couldn't do it. So this time I did listen to my body and went home. I did go for a run today and it went pretty good. I need to try kickboxing.
Keep up the good work.

 

[thelast20]

So, I need to change things up a bit. Last week, I worked my butt off, felt amazing at the end of the week and thought I had it down. This week however, I've worked very hard and feel extremely weak. I spent the better part of yesterday afternoon doing some research and went back to everything I learned about the body in school. It's really stupid how much you forget I'm not being smart and I need to start (ooo, I'm a poet and didn't even know it... sorry).

Anyway, the biggest thing I learned/remembered is the idea of muscle building. I've been so focused on the treadmill I haven't been paying enough attention to muscles. Cardio is great and will burn cals for 1-2hrs after... Muscle training, on the other hand will burn continue to burn cals for 1-2days after. You can't litterally burn cals 24/7 with the right program. Crazy!!

Now, speaking of cals. I've said this already this week... I'm starving myself. I should be getting b/w 1400-1500 cals/daily. This week I've been getting b/w 900-1100. My body is at the point where it is literally eating my mucsle for energy, instead of the fat. Hense the reason I feel so very weak.

So, to apply all of this to real life, here is how I plan to change things up a bit...

1- I can quit being so hard on myself for not getting to the gym everyday. I really only need to go 3-4x/wk which works perfect for my schedule!!
- 30min treadmil - continue with the interval training I've been doing (I want the body of a sprinter (lean and toned) vs marathon (skinny and sometimes sick looking)
- 30min weights - heres where I need to be pushing myself more, working towards complete exahaustion of the large muscle groups and adding a few more multi-joint exercises like squats and lunges to bring my 'resting metabolic rate' up
- dividing my cals up into 5, 200-300cal meals/day and making sure I have a little protien at each meal

To me, this sounds very doable (that's a word right??) and I KNOW this is going to take me where I want to go to meet my goals!!!

 

[chubbygirl]

Your new plan sounds good! I hope it brings you the results you are looking for. That is so awesome about the work out videos yesterday! I love doing those at home too - it's a nice change sometimes.
I think I pushed a little too hard last week too and just can't keep it up this week. I also don't feel bad about it because I know I need breaks every now and then. I do like the feeling of going hard though when my body can take it. One day at a time is my new attitude and I'm not in such a rush to get to my goal - I will get there eventually though, I'm not stopping.
I do feel the side effects of muscle strengthening for days after compared to my sore legs from the treadmill - so good post!
Have a great day.

 

[skkroll]

Well I'm happy that you are listening to your body and adjusting your working out / eating accordingly! You gotta do what works for YOU! not what you feel you SHOULD do. And you can still make great progress with your new plan without pushing yourself to much!!!

TISK TISK on the calories this week!!! Some tricks to add up calories when you come up short could include adding peanut butter - on a sandwich, with an apple. It's quite high in calories but good for you at the same time Or mayo or cheese on a sandwich. Little things to add taste but at the same time don't make you feel like you're eating MORE to make up for the calories!

You have a nice plan for yourself. My mom's personal trainer had advised me to eat 3 meals a day that equal 400 calories each and 2 snacks a day from 200-250 calories to reach about 1,500 calories. You could try that out?

You are on the right track with knowing what you want and how to get there. Good for you!

I'll chat with ya tomorrow!
~ Sarah

 

[gymfreak1]

Sounds like you have set some great goals for yourself. Keep up the good work, you can do it!

 

[thelast20]

Thankyou guys so much for the support. It's always nice to hear that I haven't gone completely crazy I talked to the trainer I worked with at the gym this morning too and she was very positive about it all and said I was definately on the right track

So, my workout this morning went a little something like this:
30min treadmill
incline 3
-3min walk at 6.0k/hr
-2min run at 9.0
-3min walk at 6.0
-2min run at 9.0
incline 5
-3min walk at 6.0
incline 0
-2min run at 8.0
incline 15
-4.5min walk at 5.5
-30sec run at 9.0
incline 2
-2min walk at 6.0
-1min run at 9.0
-2min cool down walk

I then my machine curciut with max weights 3sets of 12rep along with plies w/ a 12lbs weight and ball squats = 30min

I felt great when I was done and look forward to doing it again on Sat

So far I've had 3 meals close to 300cals each.

Thanks again everyone.
marie