Here i GO!!!!
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minus86
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Well, we are all going to have "bad" days, but you know what... as long as you continue, you haven't given up. You don't even need to consider this a setback. Just keep truckin along. Think about the reasons you rushed home to stuff yourself. It was more from your mood then your desire to eat bad foods, right? Well, now, instead of feeling guilty, concentrate on the good. You did stop before you ate two sandwiches, and you were truthful about what happened. Yea for those things.
Sorry, my "cheer you up factor" is a little off right now, so I just have to go with the honesty. Believe me, I know how bad you feel (definitely been there) but you will move on and learn from this. Otherwise you wouldn't have been honest and posted to us what happened.
Sorry, my "cheer you up factor" is a little off right now, so I just have to go with the honesty. Believe me, I know how bad you feel (definitely been there) but you will move on and learn from this. Otherwise you wouldn't have been honest and posted to us what happened.
Phoenyx
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What minus86 said. 
So you 'fell off' the diet wagon... that's ok. Just get back on it.
Look at it this way. This is much like kicking an addiction. No, its exactly like that. If its anything like I went through at first... your body is so used to the 'crap', its addicted to it. Plus from reading your questionnaire, I am guessing you have some emotional issues with food too. (Please correct me if I'm wrong, I want to make no assumptions here).
So, since you've essentially kicked the habit cold turkey, your body and mind are going into withdrawals. Your working at that restaurant is like having an alcoholic tending bar. What it seems to me that you need to do is try to separate your mind and emotions from your appetite. How much of your hunger pangs are real, and how many of them are your mind and emotions?
And yes, some of it may be true hunger, even if you've eaten 'enough'. If you are used to eating a lot at one sitting, your stomach has stretched out a bit. Until your stomach shrinks back down, it is going to feel empty with a 'normal' portion of food.
How about trying a different angle with it while you are working on sorting the physical vs mental and emotional with your hunger? Instead of completely denying yourself what you are craving... try looking at it as a treat rather than your day to day sustenance? And then, as a treat... consume in moderation. A couple bites instead of the whole thing. And maybe once or twice (at most) a week instead of every day? And don't 'punish' yourself if you slip up. Learn from it, yes. Self flagellation? No.
So you 'fell off' the diet wagon... that's ok. Just get back on it.
Look at it this way. This is much like kicking an addiction. No, its exactly like that. If its anything like I went through at first... your body is so used to the 'crap', its addicted to it. Plus from reading your questionnaire, I am guessing you have some emotional issues with food too. (Please correct me if I'm wrong, I want to make no assumptions here).
So, since you've essentially kicked the habit cold turkey, your body and mind are going into withdrawals. Your working at that restaurant is like having an alcoholic tending bar. What it seems to me that you need to do is try to separate your mind and emotions from your appetite. How much of your hunger pangs are real, and how many of them are your mind and emotions?
And yes, some of it may be true hunger, even if you've eaten 'enough'. If you are used to eating a lot at one sitting, your stomach has stretched out a bit. Until your stomach shrinks back down, it is going to feel empty with a 'normal' portion of food.
How about trying a different angle with it while you are working on sorting the physical vs mental and emotional with your hunger? Instead of completely denying yourself what you are craving... try looking at it as a treat rather than your day to day sustenance? And then, as a treat... consume in moderation. A couple bites instead of the whole thing. And maybe once or twice (at most) a week instead of every day? And don't 'punish' yourself if you slip up. Learn from it, yes. Self flagellation? No.
Ugotwillugotway
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oh wow minus and phoenyx you really did kick some sense into me with what you said, thank you 
I am an emotional eater.
If i'm feeling down, or stressed or just moppy ,food can fix it for me, it's a really bad thing so last night was a little crazy for me, i realized that I really need to be tough when my moods down. And yes I agree, my stomach is probably streched out a lot and making me think that I'm hungry after I've eaten pretty good for the day so that must explain why it feels like im starving sometimes ha ha.
I felt like I was gona lose it last night go all crazy on my fridge and cupboards, but thank god I stopped myself. I logged on here right away went thru some before and afters and read my diary and I started to cool down and think straight.
This is an addiction and it really sucks.
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Day 5 10.07am
WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I just got up, not hungry at all go figure after my incident last night.
So here are some lyrics that I feel like I can relate to
No more gas in the rear
Can't even get it started
Nothing heard, nothing said
Can't even speak about it
I'm alive, I'm ahead
Don't want to think about it
Feels like I'm going insane
Yeah
It's a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
It's too close for comfort
Put on your brake lights
We're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice
Watch out you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight?
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia
Faded pictures on the wall
It's like they talkin' to me
Disconnected unknown calls
The phone don't even ring
I gotta get out
Or figure this shit out
It's too close for comfort
It's a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
I feel like a monster
Put on your brake lights
We're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice
Watch out you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight?
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia
Release me from this curse I'm in
Trying to remain tame
But I'm struggling
If you can go go go
I think I'm going, ah ah ah
Put on your brake lights
We're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice
Watch out you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight?
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia
Song: Disturbia
Artist: Rihanna
I am planning on biking today once again for a good hour and I am also going go hit my treadmill for about 20 minutes.
I am an emotional eater.
If i'm feeling down, or stressed or just moppy ,food can fix it for me, it's a really bad thing so last night was a little crazy for me, i realized that I really need to be tough when my moods down. And yes I agree, my stomach is probably streched out a lot and making me think that I'm hungry after I've eaten pretty good for the day so that must explain why it feels like im starving sometimes ha ha.
I felt like I was gona lose it last night go all crazy on my fridge and cupboards, but thank god I stopped myself. I logged on here right away went thru some before and afters and read my diary and I started to cool down and think straight.
This is an addiction and it really sucks.
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Day 5 10.07am
WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I just got up, not hungry at all go figure after my incident last night.
So here are some lyrics that I feel like I can relate to
No more gas in the rear
Can't even get it started
Nothing heard, nothing said
Can't even speak about it
I'm alive, I'm ahead
Don't want to think about it
Feels like I'm going insane
Yeah
It's a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
It's too close for comfort
Put on your brake lights
We're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice
Watch out you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight?
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia
Faded pictures on the wall
It's like they talkin' to me
Disconnected unknown calls
The phone don't even ring
I gotta get out
Or figure this shit out
It's too close for comfort
It's a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
I feel like a monster
Put on your brake lights
We're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice
Watch out you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight?
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia
Release me from this curse I'm in
Trying to remain tame
But I'm struggling
If you can go go go
I think I'm going, ah ah ah
Put on your brake lights
We're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice
Watch out you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight?
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia
Song: Disturbia
Artist: Rihanna
I am planning on biking today once again for a good hour and I am also going go hit my treadmill for about 20 minutes.
artmonster
New member
Nice
Music is always a great comforter/motivator/and relates to how you feel.
I always have music going depending on my mood.
....I have early Nine Inch Nails blasting now.......getting ready to test my weight lifting limits....
Im proud of you girl.
You actually are doing great.....you'll see.
Music is always a great comforter/motivator/and relates to how you feel.
I always have music going depending on my mood.
....I have early Nine Inch Nails blasting now.......getting ready to test my weight lifting limits....
Im proud of you girl.
You actually are doing great.....you'll see.
maverick2
New member
I love that song.
Yeah, eating is definitely an addiction. As far as feeling full, I like to eat two boneless, skinless chicken breasts (frozen and cooked in the microwave for 10 minutes) because they're lowfat and good for you, but they're also bulk protein so you feel more full.
And in a pinch, if you're feeling super hungry and you're between meals, one chicken breast is a great snack and is really great at squashing any cravings without breaking your caloric budget.
Good luck! Way to hit the gym and keep motivated!
Yeah, eating is definitely an addiction. As far as feeling full, I like to eat two boneless, skinless chicken breasts (frozen and cooked in the microwave for 10 minutes) because they're lowfat and good for you, but they're also bulk protein so you feel more full.
And in a pinch, if you're feeling super hungry and you're between meals, one chicken breast is a great snack and is really great at squashing any cravings without breaking your caloric budget.
Good luck! Way to hit the gym and keep motivated!
Ugotwillugotway
New member
^^Aww thanks gurlie.
Yes I love that song, the words are really sumthin.
*I have a question*
It's weird and out of nowhere but I am very curious to know if some of you are having the same thing going on. Since I started to eat healthier and be more active, I've gone to the "bathroom" a lot, is this normal?
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I had a good play with my toddler, he sure made my arm muscles work while catching him and throwing him so it felt good and it was fun as ever.
So now I'm off to a bike ride with him We will bike to the mall instead of me driving there like always and I will go buy some measuring tape since I read that it's so much more better to use since the numbers on the scale don't always move much so im hoping my inches will start moving instead he he.
Yes I love that song, the words are really sumthin.
*I have a question*
It's weird and out of nowhere but I am very curious to know if some of you are having the same thing going on. Since I started to eat healthier and be more active, I've gone to the "bathroom" a lot, is this normal?
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I had a good play with my toddler, he sure made my arm muscles work while catching him and throwing him so it felt good and it was fun as ever.
So now I'm off to a bike ride with him
We will bike to the mall instead of me driving there like always and I will go buy some measuring tape since I read that it's so much more better to use since the numbers on the scale don't always move much so im hoping my inches will start moving instead he he.
Ugotwillugotway
New member
its 3pm, I just came back form the store and sadly I did not bike my mother wanted to tag along with us and she isn't too fond of bike riding so we took my car but it's okey as soon as I put my booger to sleep for a nap and have the grandparents watch him while i go out and have a nice ride on my bicycle.
Right now I'm snacking on my no-fat yogurt only 35 calories yay
I bought a energy bar, full of protein and fibre but it's so sweet YUK!!
I had 1/4 of it and put it down, sure it's chocolate brownie but it feels like mud in my mouth , too thick and too sweet, no thanks!!!
I bought a digital scale, I figured they'd be more accurate then anything. Haven't lost any more weight yet, but that's because my body responds to losing a lot of sweat and it's only the beginning so i'm very pumped today and I couldnt find a measuring tape in 3 freakin stores, like whats up with this world????
Ill go check out the dollar store im pretty sure they have EVERYTHING!!!!
Anyway...it looks very cloudy please don't let it storm!!!!!!!!!
If it does I will go run on my treadmill in my basement even tho I was hoping for a nice long ride on my pretty bike.
8.25pm
I just finished with my run/fast paced walk, i was on my treadmill for 30min, burnt 219 calories, covered 1.5 miles, it's pretty darn good for someone who hasn't ran in FOREVER if I may say so myself.
I was sweating like a cow, seriously tho, sweat was pouring out of me by gallons i was amazed and shocked and then i went because I realized that all that sweat was my fat cells slowly mealting off of my body yay
I did like 30 sit-ups lol i ended up getting a little cramp in my stomach so i slowed down a little since I realized that i havent done that kind of work out in 4 years.
I turned my fave music up even higher and did a little dancing alone, twirrling around and attemtping some belly dance moves I've learned a while ago in a fitness class, so overall I had a blast exercising *highfives self*
I'm off to a nice long cooling shower
Right now I'm snacking on my no-fat yogurt only 35 calories yay
I bought a energy bar, full of protein and fibre but it's so sweet YUK!!
I had 1/4 of it and put it down, sure it's chocolate brownie but it feels like mud in my mouth , too thick and too sweet, no thanks!!!
I bought a digital scale, I figured they'd be more accurate then anything. Haven't lost any more weight yet, but that's because my body responds to losing a lot of sweat and it's only the beginning so i'm very pumped today
and I couldnt find a measuring tape in 3 freakin stores, like whats up with this world????Ill go check out the dollar store im pretty sure they have EVERYTHING!!!!
Anyway...it looks very cloudy please don't let it storm!!!!!!!!!
If it does I will go run on my treadmill in my basement even tho I was hoping for a nice long ride on my pretty bike.
8.25pm
I just finished with my run/fast paced walk, i was on my treadmill for 30min, burnt 219 calories, covered 1.5 miles, it's pretty darn good for someone who hasn't ran in FOREVER if I may say so myself.
I was sweating like a cow, seriously tho, sweat was pouring out of me by gallons i was amazed and shocked and then i went
because I realized that all that sweat was my fat cells slowly mealting off of my body yayI did like 30 sit-ups lol i ended up getting a little cramp in my stomach so i slowed down a little since I realized that i havent done that kind of work out in 4 years.
I turned my fave music up even higher and did a little dancing alone, twirrling around and attemtping some belly dance moves I've learned a while ago in a fitness class, so overall I had a blast exercising *highfives self*
I'm off to a nice long cooling shower
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purpleshirt
New member
sounds like a great work out. How often are you going to do that? Isn't it great to feel that rush when you know you are done and you worked your butt off? The first week that I started working out every day, I was so sore everywhere. I mean it took me 5 minutes just to sit down haha. But I just stretched really well and and worked through it. Now I get sore occasionally, but it's a lot harder to do.
Do you think you'll be hurting tomorrow?
Do you think you'll be hurting tomorrow?
minus86
New member
AWESOME workout. Darn it, now I feel like I should go do even more ab work on my fitball. I think I let myself off to easy today. I LOVE to workout to music. I get obsessed with certain songs, and can listen to the same one over and over and over again. Right now, it is "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz. Anyway, got a little off track.
I have a hard time with energy/protein bars, too. Maybe we can both try some and find one we like. I HATE the Odwalla Superfood bar.
But I did like the Strawberry/Pomegranate bar that I ate yesterday. I didn't look at the nutrition label, though. He he...
I have a hard time with energy/protein bars, too. Maybe we can both try some and find one we like. I HATE the Odwalla Superfood bar.
But I did like the Strawberry/Pomegranate bar that I ate yesterday. I didn't look at the nutrition label, though. He he...
Ugotwillugotway
New member
hehe Yes It sure did feel GREAT^^^^^^
Aww Minus whatever you did, it was awesome because we could have easily done nothing and just sat there watching tv.
I dont want to think of the sorness tomorrow lol.
I plan on chaning things up everday because I get bored easily, I'm not a gemini for nothin
I want to go bicycling one day then running the other, turbo jam, or a long long walk outside, u know change it because if i run all the time Ill get bored of it very fast.
But I def want to do some kind of activity daily.
But it is on my to do list to do running at least 3 times weekly to get that bulk of sweat out and melt this darn fat away.
it's almost 11pm I am watching 'So u think u can dance' after it's done I will go read my book and then call it a night to avoid any sudden dangerous cravings.
HERE IS WHAT I ATE TODAY!!!!
Breakfast - Meat pie with diced potato's with colslaw home made with vingear salt and pepper. *for those who do not know, i'm 1oo% I come from Bosna which once was in the former Yugoslavia and the meat pies are our specialties, its our home food it cant be avoided lol.
Lunch - I tried 1/4 of a energy bar it was nasty so I threw it out and decided on a no fat blueberry yourt instead with tons of h2o.
snack- yogurt again
Dinner - Again some meat pie and two slices of chicken bologna with tons of water.
So the meat pies are pretty doughy and I havent counted my calories today but I'm sure it came above 1400. I know I underate again but I will be sure to go the store tomorrow and fill up on vegetables specially corn and more snacks, I dont want to go into starvation mode and not lose the lbs.
Have a good night everyone.
Aww Minus whatever you did, it was awesome because we could have easily done nothing and just sat there watching tv.
I dont want to think of the sorness tomorrow lol.
I plan on chaning things up everday because I get bored easily, I'm not a gemini for nothin
I want to go bicycling one day then running the other, turbo jam, or a long long walk outside, u know change it because if i run all the time Ill get bored of it very fast.
But I def want to do some kind of activity daily.
But it is on my to do list to do running at least 3 times weekly to get that bulk of sweat out and melt this darn fat away.
it's almost 11pm I am watching 'So u think u can dance' after it's done I will go read my book and then call it a night to avoid any sudden dangerous cravings.
HERE IS WHAT I ATE TODAY!!!!
Breakfast - Meat pie with diced potato's with colslaw home made with vingear salt and pepper. *for those who do not know, i'm 1oo% I come from Bosna which once was in the former Yugoslavia and the meat pies are our specialties, its our home food it cant be avoided lol.
Lunch - I tried 1/4 of a energy bar it was nasty so I threw it out and decided on a no fat blueberry yourt instead with tons of h2o.
snack- yogurt again
Dinner - Again some meat pie and two slices of chicken bologna with tons of water.
So the meat pies are pretty doughy and I havent counted my calories today but I'm sure it came above 1400. I know I underate again but I will be sure to go the store tomorrow and fill up on vegetables specially corn and more snacks, I dont want to go into starvation mode and not lose the lbs.
Have a good night everyone.
artmonster
New member
Right on girl !!!!
the motivation factor was HUGE!!!!!! for you today !
that's awesome!
The dancing is really really good for you, talk about using all your muscle groups ( was it Jerry Rice the football widereciver who said that dancing with the stars was the hardest work he ever did ? ...lol )
belly dancing .....
(( "me" belly dancing: ))
anyway, thanks for the motivation girl !
"Hvala lijepo"
the motivation factor was HUGE!!!!!! for you today !
that's awesome!
The dancing is really really good for you, talk about using all your muscle groups ( was it Jerry Rice the football widereciver who said that dancing with the stars was the hardest work he ever did ? ...lol )
belly dancing .....
(( "me" belly dancing:
))anyway, thanks for the motivation girl !
"Hvala lijepo"
Ugotwillugotway
New member
Right on girl !!!!
the motivation factor was HUGE!!!!!! for you today !
that's awesome!
The dancing is really really good for you, talk about using all your muscle groups ( was it Jerry Rice the football widereciver who said that dancing with the stars was the hardest work he ever did ? ...lol )
belly dancing .....
(( "me" belly dancing:
anyway, thanks for the motivation girl !
"Hvala lijepo"
DAY 6 wohhoo
Lol artmonster u crack me up.
And just for you 'HVALA ZA KOMENT'.
When I first started on my treadmill last night, I walked for 10 minutes (fast) and it took that much to get me in the mood, once I felt pumped then i was really happy about it, so at first you ppl who don't like exercising give it time and see that mid-way thru funny enough instead of getting tired from walking or something your body gets pumped and you work even harder.
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It's 12.29pm right now, I had breakfast about 1 hour ago or so, 2 eggs with one sausage and some sour cream and as I was eating I was feeling very not hungry, 4 bites in and I felt set but I knew that I was undereating as it is so I finished my plate and about 1 hours late I was running to the bathroom, I guess this my body trying to get used to this and getting out all the toxins at least that is what I read.
I went to the store and I bought a bunch of goodies such as CHerries,lots of red raspberries and more peaches I bought cucumbers since I love to snack on those and tomato's. I also bought those slim fast bar's, their like bran muffin bars,whole wheat, so those will be for my snacks during the day.
I almost bought benefibre but then I didn't, I felt like instead of powder I can do natural, why not buy foods that are high in fiber, I want to after all learn to love the healthy food and by exhacnging those with some powder then that won't ever happen.
Anywho I'm off to do a litte house cleaning and if it doesn't storm like yestreday I'm off for a nice long bike ride.
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minus86
New member
Have a great rest of the day! Let me know how you like the slim fast bars. Still trying to find something I can keep in my car for emergencies.
Way to go natural. You are already increasing your fiber, as I think you might be noticing... he he.
Keep up the motivation, you have done GREAT the last two days!
Way to go natural. You are already increasing your fiber, as I think you might be noticing... he he.
Keep up the motivation, you have done GREAT the last two days!
Ugotwillugotway
New member
Have a great rest of the day! Let me know how you like the slim fast bars. Still trying to find something I can keep in my car for emergencies.
Way to go natural. You are already increasing your fiber, as I think you might be noticing... he he.
Keep up the motivation, you have done GREAT the last two days!
Aww thanks sweetie
I was just about to get check your diary to see how you have been doing.
Yes I think I notice the fiber too lol *rolls eyes*.
Okey so now im off to go visit you!!!!!!!!!!!!!
********************* Day 6 (3.54pm)
I had a slim fast whole grain muffin bar around 2pm, filled me up nicely.
Went on a bike ride for about 35min or so, it was a little hard on my calf muscles and thighs because of the running last night on the treadmill, I didnt think I'd make it thru the bike ride but I pulled thru.
I am at home now, realaxing, had about 12 cherries to snack on very yummi and sweet, kinda like me dessert for the day.
Im having bean porridge for dinner and it's home made with lts of carrots in it celery, onions, beans (duh), and bits of beef.
I usually eat this with bread, i crumple bread inside the bowl, mash it all up and eat it, yes it may sound gross but its delicious thank you very much.
Today I am leaving out the bread, I bought bagels (6grain whole wheat bagels) but the genius me forgot to buy whole wheat bread for occassions such as this one today.
Darn!!!!!!!!!!!!!
its 4.52 pm I had dinner but I did eat it with a little bread, some habits are hard to break i've been eating my bean porridge since I was able to eat on my own so yah, u see my point buts that fine tho because we make it like once a month or twice a month.
Here's the bad news.
My family well my dad, came and decided that it would be AWESOME to bring us a bunch of little european cakes, when i saw him putting them all down on the table I went into shock, everyone else of course was all exidet and happy but I ran into my room and had to tell myself that this is officially a real test of my strength.
Since it's almost my one week mark tomorrow, I ate half a bite of these chocolate balls mixed with a little rum *DEAR GOD IT WAS AMAZING* and half a bite of this other little cake and actully I was proud of myself for only having a bite instead of eating it all like I would before. Im hoping that ppl will eat these cakes really fast so they are out of my damn fridge.
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minus86
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I was just thinking about how the hardest time of day for you seems to be late at night after you get home from work. Try preparing a nice hot bubble bath and a cup of sleepy time tea. It might help you relax and unwind from your day, plus it is a definite treat to look forward to, and hopefully it will keep your mind off food. You have had such a great couple of days, I just wanted to suggest something that might help this coming week. GOOD LUCK!
Ugotwillugotway
New member
Thank you minus I will def take that in mind when time gets rough.
It's 8.15pm, I just came back from the park with my son, we were there for about an hour n half, I'm a bit tired from the bike ride and walking but I'm still considering the treadmill.
I feel so bored today. I did all these activites and yet something is missin still and I think I know what it is.
TV and food. I'm starting to miss sitting infront of the tv and just snacking away on stuff, I'm scared of this feeling and I hope it leaves me soon.
There is so much crap in the house right now and its hard watching others enjoying themselves and me sitting on the sideline just watching and not being able to go near any of that, not that I want to stuff my face with it but it's still hard, i'm still a newbie.
K i'm done talking.
It's 8.15pm, I just came back from the park with my son, we were there for about an hour n half, I'm a bit tired from the bike ride and walking but I'm still considering the treadmill.
I feel so bored today. I did all these activites and yet something is missin still and I think I know what it is.
TV and food. I'm starting to miss sitting infront of the tv and just snacking away on stuff, I'm scared of this feeling and I hope it leaves me soon.
There is so much crap in the house right now and its hard watching others enjoying themselves and me sitting on the sideline just watching and not being able to go near any of that, not that I want to stuff my face with it but it's still hard, i'm still a newbie.
K i'm done talking.
minus86
New member
I've seen several people talk about how hard the first week or two are. Plus, I think I read somewhere once that it takes 28 days to break (or create) a new habit.
So, just keep taking it one step at a time, one day at a time.
We are still doing this! And will continue to still be doing this! Remember, this is the beginning, not an end. Good night...
Have a fun, healthy day tomorrow.
So, just keep taking it one step at a time, one day at a time.
We are still doing this! And will continue to still be doing this! Remember, this is the beginning, not an end. Good night...
Have a fun, healthy day tomorrow.
Ugotwillugotway
New member
11.59pm
Confession 1:
I messed up. You know how I told ya'll about the sweets brought today by my father, well I had 2 more of them probably packed with calories, fat and sugar *tear* but to add the cherry on top my brother decided that it would be a great idea to go get TacoBell n brought stuff for everyone.
At that point i caved. I took a tacobell mexican pizza fairly small and fries supreme with an Iced Tea *cries*.
Half way thru the food my family decided that since they're over it would AWESOMEEEEE if we all took a turn on the digital scale I bought a few days ago and of course no one knows im on a healthier path and exercising regularly so after they all were done they begged me to step on,telling me that I shouldn't be embarrassed, I was soooo embarrassed and scared.
But of course stuborn them kept going at it and I finally told them "look I'm 260 something pounds| and they went into shock, they didnt want to believe it and told me that there is NO WAY im 130kgs and that just brought slight tears to my eyes because I knew I was and then I remebered what I was eating and I just took the food and threw it all down, I was so *Bleeping* angry that I could have allowed myself to even go near all that crappy shit and stuff my face with it.
When I did step on the scale it revealed 129kg and then they started to say well see you don't carry much of your weight with JUST fat like usual ppl do , you have a larger frame and thicker bones, bla bla blaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
Keep the pity comminnnngggggg family because I know damn well how big I am. Of course I love them to pieces and they love me the same but it just kinda hurt to be exposed like that, I feel very weird now, I feel so bad for allowing myself to eat that junk today.
Tomorrow is another day thank god and I will fix what I broke.
I will go have a nice run AND bike ride, I will not eat junk and I won't allow myself to cave into anything AGAIN!!!!
But what I do have to remeber is.
I'm only human.
Confession 1:
I messed up. You know how I told ya'll about the sweets brought today by my father, well I had 2 more of them probably packed with calories, fat and sugar *tear* but to add the cherry on top my brother decided that it would be a great idea to go get TacoBell n brought stuff for everyone.
At that point i caved. I took a tacobell mexican pizza fairly small and fries supreme with an Iced Tea *cries*.
Half way thru the food my family decided that since they're over it would AWESOMEEEEE if we all took a turn on the digital scale I bought a few days ago and of course no one knows im on a healthier path and exercising regularly so after they all were done they begged me to step on,telling me that I shouldn't be embarrassed, I was soooo embarrassed and scared.
But of course stuborn them kept going at it and I finally told them "look I'm 260 something pounds| and they went into shock, they didnt want to believe it and told me that there is NO WAY im 130kgs and that just brought slight tears to my eyes because I knew I was and then I remebered what I was eating and I just took the food and threw it all down, I was so *Bleeping* angry that I could have allowed myself to even go near all that crappy shit and stuff my face with it.
When I did step on the scale it revealed 129kg and then they started to say well see you don't carry much of your weight with JUST fat like usual ppl do , you have a larger frame and thicker bones, bla bla blaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
Keep the pity comminnnngggggg family because I know damn well how big I am. Of course I love them to pieces and they love me the same but it just kinda hurt to be exposed like that, I feel very weird now, I feel so bad for allowing myself to eat that junk today.
Tomorrow is another day thank god
and I will fix what I broke.I will go have a nice run AND bike ride, I will not eat junk and I won't allow myself to cave into anything AGAIN!!!!
But what I do have to remeber is.
I'm only human.