Here I am! Rock you like a Hurricane (hehe)

[M_Marie]

Hey way to go at the gym....Im making myself restart p90x tomorrow!I gotta fit it in somewhere adn we all know me, I gotta exercise, exercise, exercise!!!LOL

hat movie you going to see? We say Public Enemies on Tues night and it was pretty damn good, I enjoyed it...

Have fun and good luck with the scale tomorrow but it will def be down...

Hey girl! Yeah I saw public enemy last week and omg... amazing. Loved it so much!!! But... anything with Johnny Depp in it is pretty much incredible if you ask me... he is yummy hehehe... love that guy.

Anyways, we went to see bruno tonight.... freakin stupid. Sorry guys but it certainly was no borat. And... to be honest borat was funny... but a bit too crude for me. ( i know... thats saying ALOT) But Bruno had its funny parts... but all in all... id give it 2 stars. There was one creepy part though where a weiner talks to you through its pee hole.... that was scary. i will have nightmares more likely!!

Food intake for today (since im off to bed and wont be eating anything else)

Breakfast
1 coffee w/ sugar free cream and splenda
2 homemade oatmeal rasin cookies


Lunch
Grilled Chicken salad from Mcdonalds, unsweetned iced tea

snack 2:30- 90 cal special k bar

snack4:30- 12 reduced fat wheat thins

Dinner
Ham and steamed veggies ( broccoli, cauliflower, carrots)

Snack- welches fruit snacks, 1.5 cups of popcorn

 

[bmohearn]

Great job at the gym and with all the healthy food. I thought Bruno looked sort of dumb... just not funny in the commercials. I'll probably see it when it comes out on DVD just for the heck of it.

 

[M_Marie]

Today was a nice day... well somewhat. weather was really crazy... normally its eiether nice out or crappy out. It was sunny but really windy most of the morning and then around 4:00 rained really hard.. then cleared up and got muggy... then all night now there have been flash lightning... but no thunder or rain... strange.

This morning i woke up and made plans with my preggo friend to get some breakfast at Denny's and shoot the shit.... been friends since 8th grade so it was great to catch up. We are pretty close... her kiddo is calling me aunt mel once its born hehe... im excited... i have no nieces or nephews so this is fun!

Then i met up with my sister. I got her to agree to go to the mall and do some shopping... and then go work out. So we did a TON of wallking at the mall and i got some cute little capri pants and a shirt... then we grabbed lunch and went to work out. Our work out consisted of 30 minutes cardio on the eliptical, circut, and hardcore ab workout!! It was a decent day but not nearly as intense as yesterday which is good because i was pretty sore!

Here is my food intake for the day (I am going to bed soon so this is COMPLETE)

Breakfast:
2 scrambled eggs, 2 slices turkey bacon, english muffin (buttered UGH came buttered!!), grapes, 1.5 cups of coffee


Lunch:
Chicken Gyro w. lettuce, onion, tiny bit of mystery sauce.... no clue what the hell it was!, 1/2 banana strawberry smoothie... made with splenda and low fat


snack- 1/2 cup chex mix

Dinner:
15 mini ravioli's and 2 slices of LIGHT wheat bread

snack6:00 - sm. iced carmel latte, 1/2 choc chip cookie

snack 10:00 - 4 pretzals, part skim string cheese


Also- I am offcially over my 129 hump and i went to the gym today and it was after i had just eaten lunch and i was 127 so i am def down where i want to be so far at this point!!! I am thinking im more like 126 in the morning before food happens... but im gonna stick with the scale the last two days and call it 127

Night all!!

 

[M_Marie]

7/12 FOOD INTAKE

Breakfast
1 Cup of Coffee w/ half and half and splenda
1/4 cup oatmeal with tiny bit of brown sugar and rasins
2 strips of bacon
English Muffin

Lunch
2 hotdogs ( 1 with bun 1 without, onions ketchup musturd)
1 cup of cheddar chex mix

snack- Angel food cake w/ pineapple and fat free cool whip

Dinner
sm. steak
grilled cabbage
1/2 baked potato w/ broccoli, cauliflower, cheese, margarine


dessert
2 whole wheat waffles w/ fat free cool whip and mixed berries

 

[BansheeBabe]

Hey girl! Just checking in on you! Looks like you are still doing AMAZING and plugging along well. I know these last few pounds are going to be a BITCH, but you can do it! So, I read that Bruno was dumb... I'll take your advice and just wait for it to come out on DVD.... I could barely stand Borat with the whole hotel fight scene... GROSS, but funny! Have a good day sweetie!

 

[M_Marie]

Hey girl! Just checking in on you! Looks like you are still doing AMAZING and plugging along well. I know these last few pounds are going to be a BITCH, but you can do it! So, I read that Bruno was dumb... I'll take your advice and just wait for it to come out on DVD.... I could barely stand Borat with the whole hotel fight scene... GROSS, but funny! Have a good day sweetie!

Hey girl thanks so much for checking in! Yeah Bruno was a bit much for me.... i was ready to


Haha... and thats saying alot... plus it was sort of dumb in a lame-o kind of way.
Anyways, yeah im still plugging away... planning to post in a bit about some feelings ive been having that id like to share... but hey hanging in there! ill stop by ur place in a bit hehe

 

[M_Marie]

alot of questions... about life. dont read if you are expecting my typical posts!

So I have been throwing a lot of things around in my head lately. Why is it we are never totally content with where we are in our lives? I mean really… it seems to be a huge downfall of most people to never really feel like their very best is good enough. Now those of you who feel everything you touch is gold… tune out now… cause this wouldn’t make any sense to you…. But I personally just found myself yesterday picking everything about myself a part.
I don’t keep my house clean enough
I haven’t tried to improve my communication skills
My relationship with my father has been on the fritz for 4 years now.. .why am I so stubborn
I hate the way my hair lays
Why have I lost 26 lbs but still have chubby thighs
I still get out of breath when I pass the 2 mile mark
Why do I criticize everything my significant other does in my head
Why do I concern myself with other peoples problems
Why am I such a jealous person
Why do I give in on issues I should stand firm on
Why do I get so lazy at work sometimes
I let people get to me SO EASILY
I have so many blessing in my life.. why do I focus on that bad things
What happened to my goals I had made for my life
I never went back to school… why not?
I do not save money like I should… now look what happens…


Just all kinds of stuff like that. I honestly can say that this weight that I have successfully gotten rid of the last few months is the FIRST THING that I have done for myself and by myself that that has been a challenge, and actually stuck with it. Of course I am only 23 years old… but still… it’s the very first self improvement that I have decided on and stuck through it for 6 months now. That is something I should be very very proud of….. but I still feel like its not good enough. Why am I so freakin hard on myself. I am happy I have succeeded in what I have lost so far… but I keep thinking… what next? I look at myself

 

[kureransu]

maybe you are the anomaly here. i think a lot of people settle, and give in. those who question themselves generally strive for more, so its nothing unorthodox about questioning where you are in life. it just means you fell you got more to do here and are just putting two and two together as to why you aren't there yet. nothing is ever going to be perfect. so question too much will kill your self esteem if you don't realize that. while i'm only a half decade older, i feel like i want more, but not much more. i felt like much older than i am, and apparently i carry myself in that manner as well. I guess i question why i DON'T want things. like a house. i've no interest in owning one. lol. the only exception is if were to start a fam. I find myself being a man of convience, which sometimes leaves me in places and situations i'd rather not be in for longer than need be. but i'm content with that. and i know when the time is right, i'll move my but in gear. just like weight loss, i should have been done this, but i was content with being big. didn't bother me. but one day i said you know what, i need to do this and i did. then this year i said i need to finish this and i am in the process of it. but hey pour brains are crazy! so keep pondering and throw them at me i'll bounce them right back at cha!

 

[BansheeBabe]

So I have been throwing a lot of things around in my head lately. Why is it we are never totally content with where we are in our lives? I mean really… it seems to be a huge downfall of most people to never really feel like their very best is good enough. Now those of you who feel everything you touch is gold… tune out now… cause this wouldn’t make any sense to you…. But I personally just found myself yesterday picking everything about myself a part.

Guess what? Most of America is like this. We are the responsible ones and we are the one's who are the perfectionist in life. You are your own worst enemy and guess who you sound like?? ME....

I don’t keep my house clean enough

Who does?

I haven’t tried to improve my communication skills

Please elaborate.

My relationship with my father has been on the fritz for 4 years now.. .why am I so stubborn

I haven't spoken to my real dad in 2 years... he is toxic for me and I don't owe him anything... my happiness is more important than me giving in to the man that just gave me his DNA

I hate the way my hair lays

Change it up chica!

Why have I lost 26 lbs but still have chubby thighs

Hey, let's start a Thunder Thigh club! I have chubby legs too.

I still get out of breath when I pass the 2 mile mark

Google breathing techniques and practice a couple of times of day. That will increase your lung capacity. It's not the rest of your body, it's your lungs.

Why do I criticize everything my significant other does in my head

At least you keep it to yourself... but I would say if it's something that is significantly bothering you, you need to get it out or you will resent him.

Why do I concern myself with other peoples problems

You are a very caring person. It's understandable that you you want to be involved. The thing you need to maybe look into is Detachment. Know that you have no control over what others do and that you are the only one to make decisions and have an affect on the outcome.

Why am I such a jealous person

Alot of it may be insecurity, but I highly doubt it. You are such a fun person, who wouldn't want to be with you!

Why do I give in on issues I should stand firm on

Once again, this may be you wanting to take care of other people before yourself. It's all about you. It's ok to be selfish!!

Why do I get so lazy at work sometimes

Who doesn't? No one loves their job THAT much.

I let people get to me SO EASILY

Detachment, detachment, detachment... Out of your control.

I have so many blessing in my life.. why do I focus on that bad things

Who doesn't want to make themselves be better?

What happened to my goals I had made for my life

We all lose track... there still is time to start back on them! No better time than the Present!

I never went back to school… why not?

If this is goal, this about if this is something you still want. If not, no biggie. I never went to college either and my life is working out for the better, in my opinion.

I do not save money like I should… now look what happens…

It's hard to save. I haven't saved a dime quite yet. You need to at least spend some of your money on yourself some of the time, or you will feel like all your hard work is for the future. Try to make a goal of saving $25 a paycheck. Start small.

Just all kinds of stuff like that. I honestly can say that this weight that I have successfully gotten rid of the last few months is the FIRST THING that I have done for myself and by myself that that has been a challenge, and actually stuck with it. Of course I am only 23 years old… but still… it’s the very first self improvement that I have decided on and stuck through it for 6 months now. That is something I should be very very proud of….. but I still feel like its not good enough. Why am I so freakin hard on myself. I am happy I have succeeded in what I have lost so far… but I keep thinking… what next? I look at myself

I am so pround of you for being so open and I hope you don't mind me commenting on each thing. I care about you, even though we have never met and want the best for you. It's good to vent to try and see things clearly. You sound exactly like me and I can so relate to everything you are saying. If you every need anything, I am here for you! And YES, what you have accomlished is amazing! You look so great and I wish all the best for you!!!

 

[M_Marie]

Food Intake for 7/13

Breakfast
special k w/ berries and skim milk
1.5 cups of coffee w/ sugar free cream and splenda

snack- 5 nuts

Lunch
6 inch Ham and provolone sub on whole wheat ( lettuce, pickle, yellow pepper, vinegar, fat free honey musturd
Light and fit strawberry yogurt

snack2:30- LOTS OF NUTS
snack 4:00- choc. carnation instant breakfast w/ skim milk

Dinner
frozen ravioli in tomato sauce( left over from other night, 2 slices of wheat bread)

snack 9:30pm- angel food cake w/ pineapple and fat free cool whip

 

[Karebare]

hi M...thanks for stopping by my journal...7 pounds to go. GReAT job!!!!

I want to suggest something that helps me when I am thinking that life just isnt the best it should be....I practice gratitude. Instead of focusing on things I think could improve I look to things that make me grateful. I lost my dtr 2 years ago to a car accident and everynight I would lay my head on my pillow and I would go through my "thank you list"....sometimes it was easy..but at the hardest times it sucked and I would be like FAK!!! I CANT THINK OF ANYTHING....then I would pull something out of my butt like "I am thankful to have a warm blanket, or I am grateful for diet pepsi........."...anyway..it takes practice but it does work really.....trust me

anyway...lifes ebbs and flows.......gotta lub em

 

[M_Marie]

hi M...thanks for stopping by my journal...7 pounds to go. GReAT job!!!!

I want to suggest something that helps me when I am thinking that life just isnt the best it should be....I practice gratitude. Instead of focusing on things I think could improve I look to things that make me grateful. I lost my dtr 2 years ago to a car accident and everynight I would lay my head on my pillow and I would go through my "thank you list"....sometimes it was easy..but at the hardest times it sucked and I would be like FAK!!! I CANT THINK OF ANYTHING....then I would pull something out of my butt like "I am thankful to have a warm blanket, or I am grateful for diet pepsi........."...anyway..it takes practice but it does work really.....trust me

anyway...lifes ebbs and flows.......gotta lub em

That is very good advice Karebare.... thanks for the reminder. I am generally a very thankful person... i appreciate many many things... but this is good to keep in mind when i am down.... help get myself out of my slump and think on the positive things.

Thanks so much for that tidbit..... if you can do that with what you went through and be successful... im sure that i could def improve myself by trying that as well!

<3

 

[cinderelly]

Hey Sweetie

Ya know i think it is normal to question life, I question my regularly...lol...SOmetimes i think im slumped in wiht accepting what i have and not wanting anything more but maybe a siggy other ya know...why dont i really want more, lol, well I do, My prob is I have so much i wanna do that I dont know where to start...and being a single mom and lack of money has always ruled my life...Plus I spent half my l.ife with a kid in tow doing everythign I had to do and to better myself for my daughter (and also always putting myself last for everything, I dont even know how to break that cycle I cannot put myself first or take care of myself)and create a good life for us for years only to have that safe haven torn down and to need to rebuild and etc, lol...

Im content in the fact tha ti love my job even thou my shift sucks but i do love my job and my shift for the most part...I have two beautiful awesome kids that give me alot of joy...Im managing, i make enough to live of off more would be nice but im content...

I hear ya thou Im always beating myself up emotionally physically, verbally...I always look at my downfalls and failures...but ya know what doing that wont get me anywhere else in life

If things are bugging ya make a list as you do and in order put down things ya wanna accomplish/improve...you started with you and your lifestyle and if you can do that you can do anything

Im gonna tell you something I hear ALOT...

I wish I could make you see yourself as everyone else sees you

I really do love ya Hun...Your on of my fav ppl here

 

[M_Marie]

Hump humpity hump day

Good Morning Guys. I took a little break yesterday from the gym. Have had a few very stressful moments the last two days and the gym was not sounding so appealing to me at that point. I went over to my friends house and I went for a brisk walk with her and my other friend w/ his dog. It was nice to get outside and have some fresh air in my lungs. I am a NON smoker… but I craved a cigarette yesterday and smoked about 3 of them…. Cause I was stressed. That was stupid and I feel guilty about that. How am I going to run longer and faster if I am putting chemicals in my lungs that inhibit my breathing!?!?!

Stupid stupid stupid.
Anyways, just since a lot of you I consider friends, my last great grandmother living is in the hospital today. She fell last week and cracked her head pretty hard… blood gushed pretty bad. It stopped bleeding and she got a hemotobia…. And I guess this week the internal bleeding caught up with her which happens sometimes with an elderly person, and she is throwing up blood and on oxegyn. So she is not doing so well. Keep her in your prayers. She is 86 years old… lived a good life… but is kind of losing it now at this point and I think she is just ready to go. Poor lady.

God… too many deaths this year….. hate it hate it hate it!

Enough personal stuff. SO.
Food Intake for 7/14
Breakfast- Special K w/ berries and skim milk, 1.5 cups of coffee ( sugarfree cream and splenda)
Lunch- 1 Lean Pocket ( mushroom, chicken, spinach 260 cal), 1 Cucumber w/ fat free ranch ( 2 tablespoons)

Snack 3:30- 2 graham crackers, mixed nuts, sobe life water ( 0 cal, 0 sugar)
Snack 6:00- Pretzals, granola bar
Dinner- 2 sm grilled chicken tenders w. seasoning, ½ cup of veggie rice, greentea gingerale ( 120 cal)

I did measurements this morning…. And def saw a small bit of progress. Losses were in my neck ( weird!!), boobs (LAME),upper and lower thigh, and bicep. These were all tiny like ¼ inch losses from last week but still a loss!!

Here is some very exciting news. Since August 2008 when I first joined here…. I have lost…. DRUM ROLL PLEASE…. Dadadadadaddadadadad
28 ¾ muther effing INCHES!!!!


That is very very exciting guys. Just thought id share. Hitting the gym tonight I will update on grandma and how im feeling later!!! LOVE YOU ALL

 

[jmlls07]

hi melissa! its been a while and boy have i missed a lot! you are doing so great and i wanted to tell you i am officially jealous of you! hahaha..

its hard staying motivated without seeing results quickly, so the fact that you've done it for this long and still see results is really amazing.

great job!

 

[Derrick]

Sorry to hear about your grandma. Thoughts and prayers sent.

Congrats on the measurement. I think that is a good idea to reflect on just how far you have come. Keep up the good work.

 

[M_Marie]

Good Morning all. This will most likely be a short one… im super busy at work today and to be honest feel like total dog crap today…..


Bad cramps… feel like im dying… it sucks being a woman one week out of the month haha. ( sorry boys)

Anyways, I had a pretty good day overall yesterday… minus family stuff. Still do not know what the deal is with Grammy… she was admitted in the hospital and there is a tube in her stomach sucking the blood out…. Ick.

Went to the gym yesterday and focused just on cardio… was starting to feel yucky so I just did the Cybex machine for 30 minutes and then I ran 1 mile at a pace of 6.5-6.8 .
Food Intake for 7/15
Breakfast- Special K w/ berries and skim milk, 1.5 cups of coffee
Sobe life water
Lunch- 6 inch ham and provolone on wheat ( banana peppers, lettuce, pickles, fat free honey mustard,vinegar, oregano)
Apple slices
Fuze greentea w/ honey and ginseng
Snack- 2 sugar free wafers, some cheese stick thingys
Dinner- ham on wheat flat roll w/ spicy mustard and TINY TINY bit of mayo, cottage cheese (45 cal) , greenbeans w/ garlic powder and sm bit of parm cheese shaken on it.

Dessert- 1 wheat waffle w/ fat free cool whip

Plan is to go to the gym tonight …… it really depends on how I feel though. Wish me luck!! hehe

 

[BansheeBabe]

Bad cramps… feel like im dying… it sucks being a woman one week out of the month haha. ( sorry boys)

UGH! I'm supposed to start today.... gag me...

Anyways, I had a pretty good day overall yesterday… minus family stuff. Still do not know what the deal is with Grammy… she was admitted in the hospital and there is a tube in her stomach sucking the blood out…. Ick.

Ew, that doesn't sound pleasant! My prayers are with you and her girl.

Went to the gym yesterday and focused just on cardio… was starting to feel yucky so I just did the Cybex machine for 30 minutes and then I ran 1 mile at a pace of 6.5-6.8 .

I just discovered the Cybex thing a couple of weeks ago too! It's the Arc Trainer, right?

Plan is to go to the gym tonight …… it really depends on how I feel though. Wish me luck!! hehe

Kick ass honey!!

 

[jmlls07]

Breakfast- Special K w/ berries and skim milk, 1.5 cups of coffee
Sobe life water
Lunch- 6 inch ham and provolone on wheat ( banana peppers, lettuce, pickles, fat free honey mustard,vinegar, oregano)
Apple slices
Fuze greentea w/ honey and ginseng
Snack- 2 sugar free wafers, some cheese stick thingys
Dinner- ham on wheat flat roll w/ spicy mustard and TINY TINY bit of mayo, cottage cheese (45 cal) , greenbeans w/ garlic powder and sm bit of parm cheese shaken on it.

Dessert- 1 wheat waffle w/ fat free cool whip

i think im going to start copying ur breakfast. im starting to forget to eat again because everything i eat is so cardboardish. blah

 

[Karebare]

awe, how is your grandmother doing...poor thing....

i will keep her in my prayers.

28 3/4 inches WWWWWWWHAOOOOOOAAAAHHHHHH...YAY YOU...thats great....i have lost alot of inches too. I still hate my reflection in the mirror but i am working on that self esteem thing.

thanks for stopping by my journal and giving me a litta kick in the bootay....i have lost 33 pounds and i have to be prouder of that accomplishment..i also have been exercising regularly and i should pat myself on the shoulders for that too (PATPATPATPATPAT)....

this is a lifestyle change!!!!! we are doing great!