Here I am, on the road again

KaraCooks said:
Those reverse crunches are killer, aren't they? I did some today and I can still feel it!

I love reading your journal, Mgr. You always make me laugh! :)
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Actually, it was the prone bridges that really made an impact on me. Thanks Kara, and if I make you laugh now I should post some pics sometime- I look as goofy as I act =D

And now to business. I splurged a lot the last few days, and I have been back up to 198 the last two days. But I'm sure it will pass.

Got the car squared away so I can keep running pizzas for cash without burning it out.

Ate clean all day, but not enough cals yet. Holding at 1500 before the dressing, so not even 1800 at best. Got all my veggies and 1-2 servings of fruits. A clif bar. Two servings of salmon and a big, fat chicken fajita.

Mmmm, skillet fajitas. I mean, I'd rather grill and had a steak out (a freaking filet even) to go with the grilled chicken last night, but it fookin rained me out. I was already on the stove for chicken chili though and fajitas was on the menu and doable inside. So....

May not eat much more, since I slept a lot today. (but I smell another few hundred cals, I need something) Even between shifts, so I ran late tonight. Like 8:20-something to 9:11. Around 45 minutes, at about 5-10 bpm higher than normal. Felt good, and my.....erm.......buttocks -or- "hip engines" felt strong on the hills tonight. Dunno why that matters, but there's my day for ya.
 
Good work on those lifts, man.

I have switched to the bar for my bench presses (for a while, anyway), and am up to 120.

Have yet to try a bar press, though. I work out at the little fitness centre at the pool, and there isn't much room for a barbell press or a deadlift.
 
Wow, I'm behind once again. Let's see, ate mostly clean the last few days- even at Outback with my mom. Did have a little sugary stuff here and there, but nothing out of bounds or over my limits.

I also did bounce up to 198 for a couple of days after the last spate of bad eating, but then bounced it down to 197 today. I even saw 196 later, on a curiosity weigh-in, but it wasn't the a.m check so forget it.

I'm still doing the same two weight routines in rotation and I added 5 pounds to everything each session. However, on the bench press I failed totally on my 1st 170 attempt, so I dropped it back to 165 and did what I could. Part of it was lifting too soon after getting up and eating and - perhaps - too much of a warm up on the bench. So weights twice, and 35 of cardio yesterday.

Other than that work sucks and I wanna jam on my xbox.
 
I vomit on your monitor here, my apologies

I'm having a couple of fuckit days here. Work has been shit for 5 or 6 weeks now and so I'm stressing bills. I cannot even go catch a movie shit is so to the bone. I mean, I could, in theory, if I wanted to scrap my protein or veggies for a couple of days.

The exercise seems to aggravate things too. I'd think it was all me but back in infantry school (Army) you could tell how hard the drills had worked us in morning PT by how many fights broke out in the chow line. Harder work always = more fights. I blame the testosterone in part.

And the rest is cause I'm an asshole so the big t is like gas on a fire for me. My tolerance for pettiness starts to disappear. I have had words for 3 people at work in the last two weeks. I need a second job or a replacement job or something.

I want my old life back but some bad shit happened to put it on hold. So now I have two student loans and two other BS bills to pay on top of the day to day shit, and my income has been cut by half easy. I'm not even sure I can get a job back in my sector right now either so my money is currently limited to sustenance level crap.

I don't like to go out much either, but from time to time it's good for the soul and I have been stuck like this for nearly a month and a half now. It's starting to stink up my attitude now too. I can't talk much to people right now, cause I don't really have a lot of good to say. I can hardly even drag myself into other journals or the newcomers section since I feel so negative it's like I'm an outsider.

It's not the diet either. I am eating just fine overall. No fatigue or headaches, continued progression in both exercise fields. Down to 195 for the 1st time this morning too, just a shitty string of weeks and I am feeling the stress really hard the last week.
 
Yow. You know ... WTF is going around that we're all having shitty weeks? I am so with you on everything.

I am about to take a huge financial hit - I'm shelling out money I don't have (literally, I'm taking out a loan) to pay a lawyer to deal with an issue that I have to resolve and it's sucking me dry. The days of fun shopping are over - no more movies, no more pedicures, I cancelled a gym membership, I'm dropping cable from the TV ... stuff I haven't had to do since I was in college. It f'ing sucks.

Hang in there. At least you're not alone!
 
Word.

The shit really seems to be getting spread around to all of us, isn't it?

We're here with ya, so hang in there and you'll pull through fine.

What I find is working with me is the exercise. When I'm in a shitty mood, lifting some iron or swimming some lengths really helps.
Lifting in particular. I got back from the gym tonight and even though one might call it a little disappointing, I felt great by the time I got home.
Good enough to go back and start checking in on my journal buddies, who I have neglected most of the summer because I have been wallowing in my own self-absorption.

Then again, you say that the workouts may actually be increasing your aggression, in which case weightlifting-as-meditation may not work for you. :)

BTW - you're not an outsider. You're one of us, whether you like it or not. :)
 
Sorry about the lousy time you're going through. It's hard when you don't like your job because you spend so much time there. I hope things are looking up soon.
 
Thanks to all the friendly rsponses guys. I am hanging in there still, but it's been a slippery slope. I binged and ate bad for a bit, and am still stalled at around 197. I've seen both 190 and 200 this week, but you know how that can go.

The exercise has gone steady and fine though. Bench is up to 170, squats around 135, and press over 100. Progression continues on pushup, curlups, pullups, reverse crunches and reverse rows.

I am, however, calling this week a "rain week" and not working out. Not because I want to. rather, because I don't but I know I need to. It has been roughly 4 months straight or better without dropping more than 2 sessions from rotation in any given month. It's time.

Anyways, I'll try to get active here again for the extra kick in the caboose, and I hope all of you are doing well.
 
You're back!!!

I was wondering just today about where you were and how you were doing. I hope things are ok.

I think calling a "rain week" once in a while can be a good thing. Give yourself a break, relax, and when you come back to it, you'll be more recharged.

I hope you'll keep posting - you've been missed! :)
 
Okay, so I'm not back to posting full-time like I wanted just yet. I am, however, still around and kicking. I am currently still holding steady at 195, which is surprising as bad as I have eaten recently+a week with no fitness.

I was going to go back hardcore this week, but after one sessions of squats my legs cried, so I did 3 weight sessions but held off on the cardio, which I will add back in next week if all goes well.

Not much else to add, but I hope everyone else is well.
 
Hey there. Welcome back - again! :D

It's good that you're just being aware of where you are. It makes a difference over gaining it all back - right? :)
 
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