Here I am.. Finally starting my Journey.....

Thanks for stoping by MakeMeHappy.
I am not eating Low calories. If anything I am eating more calories than I am suppose to. I have noticed I eat pretty healthy at work but when I go home, I eat more fattening food. It doesn't help when my mom lives upstairs and cook delicious FOOD!...lol...

Neha, I go to gym after work. And it's near my house. I really don't like going to gym, therefore even if I pass the gym and I have my gym bag with me, I still dont go in...lol.... But now adays I go to gym thinking that I will do for 10 - 15 min and end up doing 1.5 hrs...
I have been taking the classes at the gym... Yesterday I took 2 classes. The first one, we learned the dances to the Thriller video.. It was so fun and I was sweating too. The second was total fat burner: aerobic and steps. There I was sweating alot. and felt good....

Even though I haven't been eating that well this week, I am proud that I have been going to gym.... I will keep on going....
 
Today some guest came over our house. This is the first time I have ssen them and when I went in front of them, I felt like a big fat blob... I felt embarassed. I don't know why I felt like that. I go out everyday and never feel like.. I always complained to my husband about my weight but I was never embarassed in being in front of people.. it was strange. It wasn't a good feeling... Feeling a bit sad now...
 
HI, just checking in seeing how you're doing.

I had a couple of lazy days this week- I did fine at the start of my week then didn't exercise Thurs or Friday- except for a little walk at the track last night.

I went to a family gathering a month ago and felt like a fat blob. I looked around and swore I was the heaviest person there.. ok I wasn't, but I felt like it- I really wasn't feeling good about my appearance... anyway, everyday is a new day. If I slip up I try not to beat myself up about it and just get back on track the next day. You can do this!!
 
Hi Khaleda- sending you good energy from here. There are good days and there are bad days. And from the numerous entries I have read so far there will be days like that. I had a really really crappy week, where I felt like I was worthless coz I wasn't making any progress. I came here for support and avoided thinking what the rest of the world may be thinking of me.

From what I have read of your diary, you are doing your best, working hard. I admire you for spending 1.5 hrs in the gym. Think of yourself last month and now. You recognise that you need to stay healthy and are taking charge of things. We all have our slip days. Plus, you are doing this for yourself, not someone else. Stay strong, sweetie. We are here if you need to talk/vent.
 
Hello Khaleda, just dropping by.

I always complained to my husband about my weight but I was never embarassed in being in front of people.. it was strange. It wasn't a good feeling... Feeling a bit sad now...
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You have been thinking about your health and image a lot recently, probably a lot more then usual.. It's no wonder you were feeling self conscious. You havent done anything wrong. try to cut yourself some slack, and slow things down a little :) It's all too easy to get into a binge cycle of ectasy and depression if you're on 'weight alert' all the time.

I have a habit of doing that, so at the moment im making myself stick to weighing once a week. i know that if i do more, ill get depressed and obsessive and lose sight of why im losing it in the first place.. suddenly a good day will become hour upon hour of when i didnt exercise, and when i ate a bit too much, and find that im never happy.. and that's when i start losing it..

The one thing you can be sure of is that your body is getting healthier everytime you chose to eat well for a change, or do some exercise.. When you don't like how you look, it can be hard to see where the line's drawn between 'getting better!' and 'not enough!' Sometimes it's worth asking 'which do i prefer to think at the moment, and why do i?' You can get all sorts of answers.

it sounds like to me you're doing really well in helping to change your lifestyle. i really like your attitude towards going to the gym.. never do more then you're able, and you won't be disappointed.. do more then you thought you were able, and feel fantastic :D

have you experimented with many gym classes?
 
Hi Juni. Thanks for checking up on me. I haven't been dieting since it's the month of ramadan. I will be fasting until Sept 20th. After that I will get back!.. It's hard to eat healthy right now... After 15 hours of fasting, I eat whatever I see in front of me. Right now, I eat whatever my mom cooks. I get tooo tired cooking after work.... Anyways I am not pigging out but eating in portions, even if I am eating the bad foods... hopefully I don't gain too much weight... I hope you'll be here once I get back. I haven't checked you journal yet, hopefully are doing well... Take care and thanks again for keeping in touch!
 
Hey Khaleda,
Its great that you are fasting. I gave up mid way, because I badly needed to loose weight + I was working out roughly around 2 hrs daily so I had to eat obviously. And I dont touch iftaar foods that are made at home (i'm visiting my family right now, and most of the people in the family fast...or atleast eat iftar)...fattening chana and puuri and all desi sin-full stuff you can eat basically! I dont touch, ANYTHING.... I havent had a single pakora during the whole ramadan...lol. Its hard work, but its all about detaching yourself from liking certain food groups. I sit with the family when they eat there meal, but I have my own salad or cereal or whatever I'm eating...and I eat my own thing, and everyone eats there own thing..... but gladly my family is very supportive about my decesionn to loose weight....Anyways ramadan kareem and eid mubarak! If you cannot loose too much during ramadan then atleast you can have a GOOD start after eid! :)

Goodluck anyway!!
 
So, I will be back tomorrow.. Ramadan was gr8 and Eid was wonderful... tomorrow the day I start...I really don't want to weight myself. I know I gained weight this month.,,,. but whatever, I start again... it's all good!......
 
Thanx Juni... Well tomorrow became a week later... Today started my journey again.... I did 20 min of Jillian's 30 day shred. I have big audit today, so if I have time, I will work out more after work....
I am planning to order the P90X. It looks very intimidating. My friends told me to order it and do the modified verision of those exercises and work my way up.. I am still thinking about it... Has any1 tried those DVD and what did u think about it? Your advice will really help!
 
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