You don't have to give up on me per say, but I'm not going to stop weighing myself and using it as a way to determine my level of success. At my size, its all I've got. my pants are not going to fit loser until I'm down at least another 20 lbs, I know this because I wore these pants 18 lbs ago at 176. and I won't be able see my muscles or bones for about another 50 lbs. I am obese, just barley shy of morbidly obese by only a few meager BMI digits. Right now the scale is the only measure of success I have and if my personality needs to see the numbers go down to feel that i have made any progess then thats just how its going to be.
I appreciate that whatever you do works for you, YEAH, go FOCUS! But it doesn't work for me. Before and after pics don't cut it, it literally takes months to see progress using that method. Measuring doesn't cut it for me. when I was 234lbs my chest measured 40 inches, now it measures 39...wooohooo! I lost an inch on the tape measure...and 40 lbs on the scale...whats the more motivating number there?
So the scale is up, big time. that means I'm not working hard enough at my goals. If I didn't weigh myself I'd keep on going the same direction not knowing I was actually going backwards instead of forwards. adjustments need to be made. That means that my move to eat more calories last week totally screwed me over. Less calories and more excercise is what I need to do to keep the scale going in the right direction.
I only worked out three times last week doing cardio because I did two nights of strength training (still on the small weights learning my form...I am uncoordinated). So maybe I need to do four nights of cardio, two nights of strength and one rest day. Or just do one day of strength for now and five nights of cardio. IDK, excercise is a hard thing. I've read that for weightloss I should be doing at least 75 minutes of moderate activity 5 nights a week (The Duke Diet Book). Of course, it doesn't give a very good explanation of what "moderate activity" is. It says aerobic activity is moderate but at what level? What percentage of my maximum heart rate should I be aiming for? When I look for answers to my questions I just find more questions! It says, at a rate where I can still comfortable talk in complete sentances...um...even when I'm huffing and puffing I don't LOSE the ability to talk in complete sentances...I need numbers here.
At any rate, since yesterday morning when I got that nasty surprise I've been doing a lot more goal setting. Well, more like re-setting since all my goal markers are now blown to hades. I'm weeks behind my old goals so no use trying to achieve them on the old timeline. I'm never going to reach 176 by my trip to san fran as it is currently scheduled so I am going to have to push that trip back, there is no way I'm letting B see me like this when he's anticipating me being successful and looking a lot better.
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