Hajni's Diary: I will do it because I can

Skipped my morning exercise i was just too tired. I am still going to the gym tonight .
For some reason I felt super hungry today, right after I ate my lunch I could have eaten it again twice over...
Had to stop at the grocery store to pick up milk and I almost broke down. I was eyeing a white milk chocolate bar or a bag of oatmeal cookies... and i was eyeing it for a long time!!! Then I walked out with a bag of sugar free fat free hard candy, 40 cals/5 piece. I am proud of myself for that. But boy it was hard to convince myself!!!!
Anyway another hour at work and I am on my way to the gym. We'll see what tomorrow's weigh in will bring, I feel that a lot of water is leaving me today...:smilielol5:
 
Great way to resist that temptation!

Let us know what you decide to do to celebrate your anniversary. I am planning my 20th as I mentioned before (but its 2/8, not 1/8 as previously typed). I hoping to book a nice Bed & Breakfast 2 night stay in Gettysburg- only about 40 min away. This time of year is a great for discounts!

Gratz again on your anniversary!
 
Wtg hajni on the walking away from the tempation i know how hard that is. Specially when it comes to chocolate for me.. haha anyways sounds like you did great.
I hope the scale works with you and shows you a lighter number tomorrow. either way you know you workout out hard this week. hope you had a great workout tonight. see you tomorrow.

heather
 
So today is weigh in day for the V-day challenge.
I am 144.0 as of this morning. A loss is a loss and anyway it still comes out to 1.5 lb/week average which I was shooting for.
I worked harder this week and eat less, and lost less. go figure.
Anyway I am focusing on next week, I should be 142.5 by then to stay on track.
Friday night is going to be grocery shopping night so I won't be making the gym, I will try to make up for it by doing more in the morning but I am not sure.
My babysitter called in sick this morning, DH is home with DD until MIL gets home... so I am not sure about the gym tonight either... it all depends.
 
yarmiah said:
Great way to resist that temptation!

Let us know what you decide to do to celebrate your anniversary. I am planning my 20th as I mentioned before (but its 2/8, not 1/8 as previously typed). I hoping to book a nice Bed & Breakfast 2 night stay in Gettysburg- only about 40 min away. This time of year is a great for discounts!

Gratz again on your anniversary!
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Hmm, I think it supposed to be a surprise but I think DH booked a massage for a both of us in the nearby town... I surely can use one!!!
So far MIL is going to watch DD on Sunday and that is going to be our celebration day. Besides the massage I am not sure.... We are not big on eating out, lets face it : it is very hard to find nice vegetarian meal somewhere which is not an everyday thing on our menu already.
Since my DD was born I never spent a night without her. not because i wouldn't like to get away a little bit but because the opportunity never rose.
 
A massage, how lovely! I bet it's going to be very relaxing (and romantic).

I'm sorry for the little weight loss this week, but you know how these things go: you'll probably lose twice next week.
 
yarmiah said:
Great way to resist that temptation!

Let us know what you decide to do to celebrate your anniversary. I am planning my 20th as I mentioned before (but its 2/8, not 1/8 as previously typed). I hoping to book a nice Bed & Breakfast 2 night stay in Gettysburg- only about 40 min away. This time of year is a great for discounts!

Gratz again on your anniversary!
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Wow! Congrats on 20 years!!!
And what a wonderful idea to go to a B & B. Dh would love to go to Gettysburg someday.
We are figuring in a few more years when the kids are older and can really appreciate the history of the area will be a good time.
As for vacations this year we are actually taking seperate ones! But both of us will be going to Canada! Me (w/o kids!) to visit a friend from high school and him to go on a bear hunt.
 
hajni said:
Hmm, I think it supposed to be a surprise but I think DH booked a massage for a both of us in the nearby town... I surely can use one!!!
So far MIL is going to watch DD on Sunday and that is going to be our celebration day. Besides the massage I am not sure.... We are not big on eating out, lets face it : it is very hard to find nice vegetarian meal somewhere which is not an everyday thing on our menu already.
Since my DD was born I never spent a night without her. not because i wouldn't like to get away a little bit but because the opportunity never rose.
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Massages......together.......w/o dd..........oh ya baby!
 
Congrats on the 1.5 lb down!

I think it's great you and your dh are going to go out. And don't worry the little one will be just fine! Sounds like she's in good hands.
 
Hi India, SweatPea and Bella, thanks for stopping by!!

Last night at the gym was torture. I had no energy, no mood and just alltogether felt like blah...:ack2: I even know why. I overdid my exercises again. I was exercising twice a day for 3 weeks straight and it caught up to me. I do know I need rest days but I was not following common sense. And anyway when I have a rest day the next time my work-out rocks.
So today is a rest day and I might declare Sunday (the celebration of my anniversary) as a rest day as well. My problem is this : the days I am not exercising, I am hungry like a wolf and eat way too much food, so this is the first thing I need to get under control.

I am not doing this right. I know I lost a lot of weight but for some reason i think I could have done it smarter. I somehow have to find a middle-ground. I either let myself go and eat until I am up to my eyeballs or I go the other extreme, restricting my calories too much and exercise like a banshee. This is not a lifestyle change I am looking for. Oh, please give me strenght to somehow correct this.
I had a talk with the trainer in the gym and this is what she suggested:
Increase my calories to 1500 (and make sure these are not empty cals)
Exercise 4 times a week in the gym ( a good hr exercise, at least 45 min cardio)
the days I don't exercise in the gym I can do something light at home like a 25min jog on my treadmill BUT it is not required.
Definetely don't do both on the same day.
One day rest day is a must.
Drink plenty of water (which I already do)

I will try and we shall see.

Last night after I got home from the gym I just felt famished, so i ate. I probably ate about 2000 cals worth yesterday, which made the scale go up 1.6 lbs this morning (it is just the extra food in my stomach, it is not a real gain).
I am always on the look-out for new recipes and since I have a sweet-tooth these recipes are almost always desserts... LOL Anyway if anybody interested this is the latest find : "Ice-cream sandwich"
1 sheet of red. fat graham crackers broken in half
2 tbs fat free whip cream
Just spoon the whip cream between the graham crackers' halfs and freeze. When whip cream is frozen it taste like vanilla ice-cream (it really does, I tried). It is 59 cals/ sandwich.
 
That's sounds like good advice from your trainer.

The "ice-cream" sandwich sounds delish! I'll have to try it, I know the kiddos will like it.
 
I think I'm going to try those ice-cream sandwiches!

I know it's easy to over-exrcise sometimes, because we always feel we could be doing much more than we are now and get where we want to be faster...So don't be too hard on yourself, just learn the lesson and be wiser next time. Mistakes are made to give us the possibility to learn.

Enjoy your anniversary celebration!
 
Hey hajni.. just stopping by really quick to wish you a happy anniversary and hope you aren't too hard on yourself for over exercising.. we are all guilty of it at one point in this journey.. haha i know i have been.

anyways. my laptop died on me so i am only on for a quick bit till the start during the day when its just me and alex since mom and dh want to use the puters too. since we only have the desktops till my laptop gets fixed and dh gets his back from overseas when he was in afghanistan.

talk to you tomorrow if your online if not for sure tuesday before i start school that night.. yikes..

heather
 
HI all!!
Thanks for visiting.
My anniversary celebration was great!!! We had a wonderful day!
MIL watched DD and we went and both got a massage. DH won a ticket for a free massage on the radio so it only cost for one of us. I had the Sweedish-deep tissue combination massage which was an hr long. after that 20 min sauna and took a shower in the hot steam shower.!!! It was a very nice place, after changing into bathrobes we were just hanging out in the inside lounge area, sipping hot herbal tea and looking at books and magazines. I wish I could do this every weekend!! LOL
Then we went to this organic vegetarian restaurant not far away from us. DH had a Reuben I had a cuban something, portebello mushroom and cheese and spinach on foccacia bread. I over-ate without question. For dessert DH got a banana-cream pie (OMG it was the best banana cream pie I ever had!!!!) and I had a vegan german chocolate cake.
Then we went home and celebrated some more... :blush5:

All and all it was such a relaxing day, being pampered sure does put you in a better mood!!

Apart from that I am not happy with myself. I seriously over-ate, starting Friday night. I don't know why but I think I have a sweet-addiction. I had some coconut and white choc. chips that were going bad so needed to be used up quick. So I made these cookies with the intent for DH and I had most of them. One cookie was over 150 cals and I had at least 30:blush5::blush5: between the two days. I know I definetely gained and I am not even going to step on the scale for a while. DH made a comment that I look good I don't need to lose anymore weight and I would be happy if I somehow could figure out the secret for maintainance. It seems I am either on a strict calorie counting or I am eating anything and everything in sight. Sorry, I don't want to be a downer or anything but I am really struggling with this, afraid I will be back where I started in no time.
 
hajni said:
Apart from that I am not happy with myself. I seriously over-ate, starting Friday night. I don't know why but I think I have a sweet-addiction. I had some coconut and white choc. chips that were going bad so needed to be used up quick. So I made these cookies with the intent for DH and I had most of them. One cookie was over 150 cals and I had at least 30:blush5::blush5: between the two days. I know I definetely gained and I am not even going to step on the scale for a while. DH made a comment that I look good I don't need to lose anymore weight and I would be happy if I somehow could figure out the secret for maintainance. It seems I am either on a strict calorie counting or I am eating anything and everything in sight. Sorry, I don't want to be a downer or anything but I am really struggling with this, afraid I will be back where I started in no time.
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Hi Hajni!
Congratulations, glad you had fun at that restaurant, sound delish!
I know where you're coming from, because I was in the same situation. Sometimes over-exercising causes a person to overeat, especially starchy, sugary carbs. My advice to you is to really avoid making or keeping around trigger foods. Because I'm the same, I can never seem to eat just one serving of say, Organic Cheddar Bunny Treats, or vegan cookies, or whatever: chocolate, etc.

I recently went on a raw food diet (or at least 90% raw) and it totally makes hunger disappear. I can feel good about everything I eat, and the fat has been melting off at a very quick rate. My body seems to store simple carbs as fat really easily, and makes me overeat them at the same time. But with the complex carbs and sprouted, dehydrated goodies, I'm always satisfied, seldom hungry, can always stop eating, and I always have a deficit at the end of the day. I'm not suggesting you go raw (although I think it would cure your issues and get you to your goal weight quickly), but I'm just saying it works for me, and it seems like your body may be similar to mine. I don't know, of course, but I wanted to help :) Have a great day!
 
Curvie Girlie said:
Hi Hajni!
Congratulations, glad you had fun at that restaurant, sound delish!
I know where you're coming from, because I was in the same situation. Sometimes over-exercising causes a person to overeat, especially starchy, sugary carbs. My advice to you is to really avoid making or keeping around trigger foods. Because I'm the same, I can never seem to eat just one serving of say, Organic Cheddar Bunny Treats, or vegan cookies, or whatever: chocolate, etc.!
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You are absolutely right about not keeping around or making the junk food. I guess I am just sorry for DH since he is not on a diet and like sweets. A lot of times I can still make these healthier than the store bought sweets by using at least organic ingredients and avoiding white sugar or flour or etc... But I think I have just stop making cookies and cakes all-together (except for special occasions) it's not like DH really need to eat a lot junk either.

Curvie Girlie said:
I recently went on a raw food diet (or at least 90% raw) and it totally makes hunger disappear. I can feel good about everything I eat, and the fat has been melting off at a very quick rate. My body seems to store simple carbs as fat really easily, and makes me overeat them at the same time. But with the complex carbs and sprouted, dehydrated goodies, I'm always satisfied, seldom hungry, can always stop eating, and I always have a deficit at the end of the day. I'm not suggesting you go raw (although I think it would cure your issues and get you to your goal weight quickly), but I'm just saying it works for me, and it seems like your body may be similar to mine. I don't know, of course, but I wanted to help :) Have a great day!
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Thanks for the suggestion!! At this point I am about to try anything that has a slight chance of helping me with my food-sweets craving. I am not even concerned about the weight issue anymore, I just want to be able to learn to control my body. Of course I heard about the raw food diet, but I was never brave enough to try it. I wouldn't mind trying it for a week or two just see how it makes me feel.
Ok, I am going to go and research it. Thanks again for the idea!!
 
Apart from that I am not happy with myself. I seriously over-ate, starting Friday night. I don't know why but I think I have a sweet-addiction. I had some coconut and white choc. chips that were going bad so needed to be used up quick. So I made these cookies with the intent for DH and I had most of them. One cookie was over 150 cals and I had at least 30 between the two days. I know I definetely gained and I am not even going to step on the scale for a while. DH made a comment that I look good I don't need to lose anymore weight and I would be happy if I somehow could figure out the secret for maintainance. It seems I am either on a strict calorie counting or I am eating anything and everything in sight. Sorry, I don't want to be a downer or anything but I am really struggling with this, afraid I will be back where I started in no time.
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As I have mentioned to you before, sometimes I think we are on the same schedule. I have been struggling the past 2 weeks, off and on. The scale confirmed a gain at last weigh in, to which I was not surprised.
What we both have to realize is not to let this frame of mind "take over". We need to be accountable, stop the cycle and find the motivation that got us on track . . and get back on it! :smash: We have both made too much progress to start back pedalling now!

LETS DO IT . . . together!!!
 
hajni said:
Thanks for the suggestion!! At this point I am about to try anything that has a slight chance of helping me with my food-sweets craving. I am not even concerned about the weight issue anymore, I just want to be able to learn to control my body. Of course I heard about the raw food diet, but I was never brave enough to try it. I wouldn't mind trying it for a week or two just see how it makes me feel.
Ok, I am going to go and research it. Thanks again for the idea!!
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I did a brief research. It seems it would take some considerable effort on my part to try this diet , starting with getting a food processor and a powerful blender... and some ingredients i am not so used to yet (I don't mind trying, I just don't want to use 1 tbs of something and throw it out). i can definetely increase the amount of raw vegetables and fruits in my food intake. I think I am going to start there for now.
 
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