Hajni's Diary: I will do it because I can

:cry: WOW I can't say any better then YARAMIAH DID!sHE HIT THE NAIL RIGHT ON THE HEAD.Ok I have been sick to the breathing crap and sore throat head explode and I PRAY it doesn't turn into brinchitis because OMG I had that last winter and the simplest walking up the steps would get me CHOCKED up ,a constant tickle in your throat grrr I hope that goes away FAST for you.
Also you have done so great don't let a few days of sick/needed rest times slow ya down and also don't over do it because that would mean more down time.Your embarassed over oreos geeesh I couldn't even post my menue today:blush5: it was BAD but I said to myself I will wake up and even if I am not better I will hit the grocery store and buy my some healthy foods,I am out of fruits and veggies,and I will get some exersicing in so I can start the feeling better process if not physically well emotionallay.SO you and me both back on track ASAP..(as soon as ya feel better)I hope you feel better soon,Tammy:hug2:
 
yarmiah said:
Ok stop . . . take a deep breath (well as best you can without coughing like a nut).

You need to refocus.
Firstly- don't feel guilty about not exercising. You need to concentrate on getting better. Maybe because your routine for so long has been diet AND exercise together, it feels weird to do one without the other.

Secondly- Don't allow a bad day or 2 sabotage all your progress. Sit and rethink why you have been so successful- you are worth it! Re read the first days of your diary- why you wanted to start your journey and why you will succeed.

Thirdly- Think about the future, beginning with tomorrow. Know that tomorrow you WILL do better, you will eat healthy and stay in your range. Think about how close you are to your goal. THink about how HAWT you are gonna be at Christmas!

Haj- you have been, and continue to be an inspiration for me. You having a bad day (prompted by illness, btw) only proves to me that you are a regular person, with temptations and not so perfect days too. All the more to inspire me, and others I would suspect as well.
Get your rest and get on board tomorrow. You will get thru this- YOU CAN DO IT!
(don't make me come thru the monitor and slap ya silly! :rofl:)

:hug2:
-your friend, Jen (aka Yarmiah)
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Thank you Jen, your words meant a lot to me and all so true!!
Just what I needed to re-focus myself and get out of this self-pity I was sitting in.
I would have given up many times without the continued support I am getting here!!! So many friends I made and so many inspirations...
I am back on board as of this morning... thanks to you!!!!
 
Ok, keeping on track as far as food goes will not be so hard this week... The antibiotics is making me soo sick to my stomach , I can't even think about food. I cancelled boot-camp today again, hoping to make the one on Thursday but I want to ease back to exercising and not over-do it , so I think today and tomorrow are still rest-days.
Have my menu prepared just in case I am hungry... LOL
 
Monday

Nothing exiting to report for today.
I managed to somehow force down 1000 calories today but I felt like :puke: the whole time. I started to feel better today.
Saturday and Sunday over-eating sure showed up on my scale today. 147.8 this morning. Ouch. I wonder how much damage control I will be able to do by this Sat. weigh in. Even if I just get back to the 144.6 I will be happy.
Forgot to mention after my oreo disaster we went over to MIL's and celebrated her birthday. You guessed it, I totally pigged out :piggy:. I had 1.5 slices of pizza, 2 slices of apple pie and 1 slice ice-cream cake (not a small slice either).... i felt pretty disgusted afterward from all the sugar... won't be doing one of these any time soon.
I am back to this today but it still feels weird not exercising... I don't feel up to it quite just yet.
 
I had 1.5 slices of pizza, 2 slices of apple pie and 1 slice ice-cream cake (not a small slice either).... i felt pretty disgusted afterward
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This is kind of a good thing- you thought you wanted it at the time, and turns out, it really wasnt worth it. Just another lesson learned. ;)

I don't feel up to it quite just yet
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Do only what you feel you can- Don't push yourself it will only make it worse in the end.

Glad you are feeling a LITTLE better anyway.
 
Feeling better as far as the bronchitis goes, but the medicine is kicking my butt. Dizzy and nauseated all day.. Only 5 more days left..
Boot-camp was cancelled yesterday so I did not miss a thing. Feeling better about that.. LOL
Trying to keep on with my calories today, I can tell i won't make it. I can't even think about food.
ok, I am going now.
 
Hey girl, sorry I haven't stopped by lately. I hope you feel better soon and that your meds stop making you so dizzy and sick to your stomach. I hate when my meds do that to me.. anyways.. i got great news today and wrote about it in my diary but i'll tell you here too.. dh called about 2:30 this afternoon and told me his commander called him and told him that his paperwork came back and that he will get to come home on the 20th of this month.. So this is going to be a very happy thanksigiving for us as its the first one we will get to celebrate together since 2003 when i found out i was pregnant with alexander. woohoo i am so happy. i about scared the hell out of alex when i screamed when dh told me that he was going to be home next week. well hope you get better and lets keep on going with this goal of losing weight and getting healthier for ourselves and our families.

heather
 
hajni said:
Feeling better as far as the bronchitis goes, but the medicine is kicking my butt. Dizzy and nauseated all day.. Only 5 more days left..
Boot-camp was cancelled yesterday so I did not miss a thing. Feeling better about that.. LOL
Trying to keep on with my calories today, I can tell i won't make it. I can't even think about food.
ok, I am going now.
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:hug2:Aaawww:hug2:Just 5 more days and one day at a time...you are sick and you need to take care fo you...everythign else will fall into place as you get better:):hug2:
 
Thanks Heather and Cindy for visiting.

I knew this was going to happen... once I start with the stupid over-eating..I will have a hard time to stop. For two days i could hardly eat anything because of the meds, but my stomach-ache went away last night and I was soo hungry all of a sudden and of course I couldn't talk myself out of it. Normally I would just go to exercise and the craving would have been gone,...
I am afraid I ate well over 2000 cals last night (just at night alone) which brings my day up to around 3000 cals...
I have to get a grip... not everything is lost yet...
I am planning to hit the gym tomorrow for boot-camp and hoping it will knock some sense into me.
Oh, the scale this morning : 148.4 (ouch.)
I am going to re-read Jen's post.. she summarized it so well and I am going to re-read some of my diary pages from the beginning... to bring that motivation back.
This last 1.5 week was tough with the sickness and all. Now I won't reach my own mini-goal for Thanksgiving (142) but I think the 140 by Christmas is still doable as long as I kick myself in a butt right now to get back on track..
 
Hey Hajni.. I think both of us seriously need to get back on track cause we are not going to hit our goals with things going this way. ugh this totally sucks.. the scale this morning said 235.2 and i am hoping to hit 233 by thanksgiving.. ugh.. i hate this up and down bit with the scale i wish it would just go down and stay down.. lol

Well hope you are feeling better.. take it easy and ease back into the exercise thing when you have been sick.

talk to you soon. heather
 
Both of you will get back into it, don't stress. Day by day. Haj, your body is just making up for lost calories. You'll be normal again soon!
 
Howdy Hajnai,
Sorry I disapeared for a couple days I needed to breath LITERALLY hahaha I still have the crap not as bad but bad I started re eating better yesterday and hope to continue to do so even with TURKEY DAY AHEAD lol.Don't sweat the 148 it will be gone just as fast as it came ptobally lots of water.Just get to feeling better soon girly..Your not doing bad even with the cheating a lil here and there.Have a gr8 night Tammy
 
momma4alex said:
Hey Hajni.. I think both of us seriously need to get back on track cause we are not going to hit our goals with things going this way. heather
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You said it right Heather. I need to seriously get back on track. My last hope is tonights boot-camp.. I am going no ands and buts about it. Looking forward to getting exercise back in my life.
I feel better, the mornings and the night is still rough and then all day is rough because of this medicine. I feel sick to my stomach so I don't eat all day and I go home, and I guess the medicine wears off around dinner time because I want to eat everything and anything... rummaging through my pantry like a starving bear... and TOM is around the corner which does not help. Hoping to brake that cycle today.
 
niapage said:
Howdy Hajnai,
Sorry I disapeared for a couple days I needed to breath LITERALLY hahaha I still have the crap not as bad but bad I started re eating better yesterday and hope to continue to do so even with TURKEY DAY AHEAD lol.Don't sweat the 148 it will be gone just as fast as it came ptobally lots of water.Just get to feeling better soon girly..Your not doing bad even with the cheating a lil here and there.Have a gr8 night Tammy
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I hear you Tammy I hope you are getting better as well.
I get so impatient with myself :banghead:but then again: it took me over two years to get where I am , so a week "off" is not so bad, even with gaining a couple of lbs... i just have to know that it will take a mite longer to reach my end goal.
Maybe it is just a wish but somehow I feel that taking this week off (even that it was forced by sickness) is going to be a positive thing in a long run. All the foods I ate (the ice-cream, the sugary things, the pies...etc) really did not "hit the spot". If anything my stomach was just hurting from all the sugar and fat...and what not. I will be even more focused after this week, took some rest, so it is time to get back in gear.
I was shocked to have hubby agree with me on this. When I said I am now 148, he just said: "so? give yourself time to get better and then it will come right off! Don't sweat the small stuff". You gotta love the guy.

So I AM GOING TO THE GYM TONIGHT and I am super exited about it... might have to take it easy , I won't overdo it I promise.
 
I am back from the gym...

and feel totally AWESOME.
I have now eaten my planned dinner, no snacking, no cravings... HURRAY!!! Knock on wood but I think I am back to the healthy way of living!!!
Gym was great tonight.. I can't believe how much I missed the class... And I was able to do 30 min elliptical before hand as well, no problems.. I think I sweated a little more than I usually do but all and all no problems...
I think my exercise minutes still won't be enough for the challenge and I am not making the calorie bonus this week either. None of the days in fact.
My calories are a little low, but my stomach is still hurting from the medicine that's all the food I could eat today.
Instead of homemade muffins I made homemade oatmeal breakfast squares tonight. Its yummy: dried fruits, walnuts, banana, oatmeal, wheat germ, ground flax meal, coconuts..apple sauce are the ingredients and pretty much it. None of the un-pronounceable ingredients you can find in the store ones. I got 12 squares out of the recipe so it will be on my menu quite often for the next week.

Breakfast: 1 ww. bagel (150), 2 tbs ff cream cheese (30) 2 tbs sgf jelly (20), 1 c. ff milk (90), 1 coffee (50) = 340
Snack: none
Lunch: Brunch banana Bread pudding (340) =340
Snack: 1 blueberry muffin (154), 2 tbs jelly (20) =174
Dinner: tofu sandwich: 4.5 oz baked tofu (67) 1 joseph’s Lawash bread(100), 1 tomato (10), 2 tbs hummus (35), 1.5 c. steamed broccoli (50) =262
Dessert: 1 frozen fruitsickle (25) = 25

Total calories for the day : 1141
Exercise.:. 30 min elliptical (300 cal burn) , 30 min boot-camp (320 cal burn ) = 620 cal total.
 
Howdy girl,
Glad to see ya back in motion way to go
getting out and hitting the gym.Ok now do you have the recipie
for the bannanah bread pudding this is my MOMS favorite desert
in the whole world,when I take her out to eat and they have that at
1 of the buffett bars her eyes light up lol,note she weighs like 112
so it won't hurt her to have some well maybe the diabetic part but
she still does have her tteats lol.
I am glad your feeling better and hopefully that will spread myway!
Have a nice night Tammy
 
niapage said:
Howdy girl,
Glad to see ya back in motion way to go
getting out and hitting the gym.Ok now do you have the recipie
for the bannanah bread pudding this is my MOMS favorite desert
in the whole world,when I take her out to eat and they have that at
1 of the buffett bars her eyes light up lol,note she weighs like 112
so it won't hurt her to have some well maybe the diabetic part but
she still does have her tteats lol.
I am glad your feeling better and hopefully that will spread myway!
Have a nice night Tammy
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HI Tammy,
I will PM the recipe to you. It is a highly modified recipe to suit my weight-loss needs, might not be sweet enough for your mom but it is good for diabetics since it has no sugar.
 
Hurray for the new me

Ok, back to routine. got up at 5.30 am, and walked on the treadmill at 3.7mi/hr and incline 3 for 34 minutes. I am glad I did and I will be exercising tonight as well.
After taking the meds in the morning, my stomach is upset again, only one day left. I am one of those people who dislikes any kinds of meds but when I have to take it I stick with it and follow the drs orders fully.
I am exited about next week for numerous reasons:Thanksgiving on Thursday, I will be off on Friday, my BIL is coming home from Florida, it has been a while since we last saw him.
I am really starting to get into the Holiday spirit, not the shopping frenzy part of it. In fact we are very lame when it comes to Christmas presents : we give out gift cards to everybody... I know some people look at it as impersonal and they are probably right... I give what I want to get... :hurray: Now only if my MIL would get the message... :rolleyes:
 
hajni said:
and feel totally AWESOME.
I have now eaten my planned dinner, no snacking, no cravings... HURRAY!!! Knock on wood but I think I am back to the healthy way of living!!!
Gym was great tonight.. I can't believe how much I missed the class... And I was able to do 30 min elliptical before hand as well, no problems.. I think I sweated a little more than I usually do but all and all no problems...
I think my exercise minutes still won't be enough for the challenge and I am not making the calorie bonus this week either. None of the days in fact.
My calories are a little low, but my stomach is still hurting from the medicine that's all the food I could eat today.
Instead of homemade muffins I made homemade oatmeal breakfast squares tonight. Its yummy: dried fruits, walnuts, banana, oatmeal, wheat germ, ground flax meal, coconuts..apple sauce are the ingredients and pretty much it. None of the un-pronounceable ingredients you can find in the store ones. I got 12 squares out of the recipe so it will be on my menu quite often for the next week.

Breakfast: 1 ww. bagel (150), 2 tbs ff cream cheese (30) 2 tbs sgf jelly (20), 1 c. ff milk (90), 1 coffee (50) = 340
Snack: none
Lunch: Brunch banana Bread pudding (340) =340
Snack: 1 blueberry muffin (154), 2 tbs jelly (20) =174
Dinner: tofu sandwich: 4.5 oz baked tofu (67) 1 joseph’s Lawash bread(100), 1 tomato (10), 2 tbs hummus (35), 1.5 c. steamed broccoli (50) =262
Dessert: 1 frozen fruitsickle (25) = 25

Total calories for the day : 1141
Exercise.:. 30 min elliptical (300 cal burn) , 30 min boot-camp (320 cal burn ) = 620 cal total.
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:hurray:This is great to see and hear and read!!!Im happy you had an on track day and exercising was good and felt awesome - good for you chicky...dont worry too much abt your weight - one day at a time...plus you have been sick and knocked on your ass!!!I would be interested in the oatmeal square recipe if you wanted to share it...:waving:
 
Hello all.
I will post that recipe tomorrow, I have to type it up first...
I think I already wrote this in here so it might be a repeat: hubby and I decided that whatever weight I end up by Christmas is the weight will be. And I will go into maintanence mode.
He has been complaning lately that the amount of exercise I am doing is taking too much time away from him and my DD. He is right, I have to slow this down, lately it has been ruling my life. And even when I am home I am calculating my calories and figuring out my meals for the next week...
So I gave myself the next 5 weeks and I will put all my might into it and that will be it.
I am planning to watch what I eat but no calorie counting and also I will be exercising probably 4 times a week, twice in a gym at my class and twice at home doing something I feel like doing at the time...

As of right now, my weight was at 147.6(but TOM is coming within the next couple of days) this morning so I need to lose a little over 7 lbs in the next 5 weeks which should be doable if I keep on track.
 
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