kimmy.j
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I'm new here, but I've always wanted to keep a real journal about my weight loss, but I'm too embarrassed to share it with people who I know in real life!
I was never concerned with my weight, until I turned 20. All through high school I was a 5'1" 118ish girl in size 2 or 3 pants.
I started working in the fast food industry when I was 16. I worked in pizza, then I worked in Mexican food, then I was back to pizza, then traditional burgers and fries. I would eat bad because of the long hours and stress of it all.
When I was 18, I made a life-change and became Vegan. This wasn't for weight loss reasons, or really even for health reasons. I did it because I wanted to save the animals and I didn't want them to go through the suffering and the horrible lives they were living.
Two years later, I made a decision that would change my life forever. I decided to spend six months in a foreign country. I was offered a place to stay by some friends I knew only through the internet. When I was 20 years old, I took a 15 hour flight to a place I had never been with lots of people I had never met. Initially, things were good. Everything was different and exciting.
After two months, I had become a lazy, depressed, and a big fat pig! I realized what was happening, and hated what I was seeing in the mirror and started dieting. For a little over a month, I cut calories like crazy, and walked a ridiculous amount (sometimes more than 20 miles) per day. I was eating less than 800 calories a day and all I thought about was food. I had decided I wanted to be thin, but I went about it in all the wrong ways.
Of course, that extreme diet didn't last very long. After about 6 weeks (and 15 or so pounds gone), I had personal issues with the people I was living with. I moved to a new house and became more depressed than ever before. I would sit at home and watch tv, all day, every day. I had started drinking (I never had a drink in my life before that). Somehow in the last three months I lived there, I gained 30+ pounds. I was up to 152, at 5'2" and always the size 2 girl in high school, this wasn't acceptable.
When I moved back home, I quickly changed everything. I started working out at least 2-3 hours per day (which included some sports, running, swimming, yoga and weight training). Within 70 days, I was back down to 120.
I was able to stay around 120-125 for a few years. I stopped going to college, move to another state to be with my boyfriend (now husband). I started gaining a little, but it didn't really bother me. I got the most bothered by it when I weighed in a few months ago and I was above 130.
Now I'm back on the dieting rollercoaster. I've gotten down to 120 in a little over a month, but I'm having a hard time passing that. I'd really like to get down to 110 and fit into a size 3 comfortably again. I eat around 1200 calories a day. I'm not hungry often. I excersize, but not excessivly. I blame most of my plateau on my crappy sit at a desk all day job.
I'm not happy with the weight I am. I want to look better. I want to be thinner. I think I have some self esteem issues. Blah. That's all.
1. What is your current height and weight? 5'2 / 121 lbs
2. If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be? 107 lbs
3. At what weight would you like to be at four months from now? 107 lb
4. Why do you want to lose weight? To have an awesome body and feel good in whatever I wear!
5. Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? If so, when is that event? No specific event.
6. What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals? Taco Bell and Cheese, too lazy for the gym!
7. Why do you think that you now have a weight problem? I am a healthy BMI but sometimes I am too lazy
8. What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight? A NEW JOB!
9. Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight? Yes. I lost 30 pounds in January - March of 2006 by taking exercise classes in college: racquetball, swimming, running, weight training, yoga
10. Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back? I gained it back since I got a desk job in July of last year and didn't do anything to counter it.
11. What, if anything, has not worked for you in the past in helping you to lose weight? When I try to lose weight, I do.
12. Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time? I do. I don't want to anymore because I become obsessive.
13. Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook? Very often. From eggs to pasta, to burgers, enchiladas, burritos...
14. How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go? Not often. Olive garden, Burger King's veggie burger, sometimes I get veggie burritos from del taco or taco time.
15. What are your three favorite foods? Burritos, Quesadillas, Pasta!
16. What are your three favorite restaurants? The Blue Plate, Sipz and Super Sergios!
17. If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different? My body will never be exactly the way I want it. My waist would be small, my arms would be thin and toned, my pouch would be non existent, my legs wouldn't rub together anymore. I would go shopping!
18. Do you eat when you are not hungry? No. I'm just always hungry.
19. Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)? Sometimes I make excuses "It's my birthday, I can eat whatever I want!" - bad idea.
20. Do you hide your food or eat in secret? Never
21. Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed? Yes...not too much...I just don't starve myself during those times.
22. Do you eat as a reward? Not anymore.
23. Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer? I eat breakfast in front of my computer at work. Sometimes we have the TV on during meals, but it's meal time, not TV watching time. We just don't want to miss our sports!
24. What do you normally eat for a meal? Oatmeal, Boca Burgers, Avocado Sandwiches, Burritos
25. What type of snacks do you eat? Fruits and fruit juice popsicles!
26 In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing? Cardio 3-4 days a week (for at least 40 minutes) and strength training afterwards.
27. Where do you go for exercise? 24 hour fitness near where I work
28. What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise? Kick boxing, stair stepper, and anything with an exercise ball.
29. What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals? The way my clothes fit, mostly. I want to be beautiful.
30. Do you have rewards for certain goals? No, I don't
I should though. I'm afraid to ask my husband.
31. What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food? More protein, more fresh veggies and less tortillas!
I was never concerned with my weight, until I turned 20. All through high school I was a 5'1" 118ish girl in size 2 or 3 pants.
I started working in the fast food industry when I was 16. I worked in pizza, then I worked in Mexican food, then I was back to pizza, then traditional burgers and fries. I would eat bad because of the long hours and stress of it all.
When I was 18, I made a life-change and became Vegan. This wasn't for weight loss reasons, or really even for health reasons. I did it because I wanted to save the animals and I didn't want them to go through the suffering and the horrible lives they were living.
Two years later, I made a decision that would change my life forever. I decided to spend six months in a foreign country. I was offered a place to stay by some friends I knew only through the internet. When I was 20 years old, I took a 15 hour flight to a place I had never been with lots of people I had never met. Initially, things were good. Everything was different and exciting.
After two months, I had become a lazy, depressed, and a big fat pig! I realized what was happening, and hated what I was seeing in the mirror and started dieting. For a little over a month, I cut calories like crazy, and walked a ridiculous amount (sometimes more than 20 miles) per day. I was eating less than 800 calories a day and all I thought about was food. I had decided I wanted to be thin, but I went about it in all the wrong ways.
Of course, that extreme diet didn't last very long. After about 6 weeks (and 15 or so pounds gone), I had personal issues with the people I was living with. I moved to a new house and became more depressed than ever before. I would sit at home and watch tv, all day, every day. I had started drinking (I never had a drink in my life before that). Somehow in the last three months I lived there, I gained 30+ pounds. I was up to 152, at 5'2" and always the size 2 girl in high school, this wasn't acceptable.
When I moved back home, I quickly changed everything. I started working out at least 2-3 hours per day (which included some sports, running, swimming, yoga and weight training). Within 70 days, I was back down to 120.
I was able to stay around 120-125 for a few years. I stopped going to college, move to another state to be with my boyfriend (now husband). I started gaining a little, but it didn't really bother me. I got the most bothered by it when I weighed in a few months ago and I was above 130.
Now I'm back on the dieting rollercoaster. I've gotten down to 120 in a little over a month, but I'm having a hard time passing that. I'd really like to get down to 110 and fit into a size 3 comfortably again. I eat around 1200 calories a day. I'm not hungry often. I excersize, but not excessivly. I blame most of my plateau on my crappy sit at a desk all day job.
I'm not happy with the weight I am. I want to look better. I want to be thinner. I think I have some self esteem issues. Blah. That's all.
1. What is your current height and weight? 5'2 / 121 lbs
2. If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be? 107 lbs
3. At what weight would you like to be at four months from now? 107 lb
4. Why do you want to lose weight? To have an awesome body and feel good in whatever I wear!
5. Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? If so, when is that event? No specific event.
6. What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals? Taco Bell and Cheese, too lazy for the gym!
7. Why do you think that you now have a weight problem? I am a healthy BMI but sometimes I am too lazy
8. What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight? A NEW JOB!
9. Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight? Yes. I lost 30 pounds in January - March of 2006 by taking exercise classes in college: racquetball, swimming, running, weight training, yoga
10. Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back? I gained it back since I got a desk job in July of last year and didn't do anything to counter it.
11. What, if anything, has not worked for you in the past in helping you to lose weight? When I try to lose weight, I do.
12. Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time? I do. I don't want to anymore because I become obsessive.
13. Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook? Very often. From eggs to pasta, to burgers, enchiladas, burritos...
14. How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go? Not often. Olive garden, Burger King's veggie burger, sometimes I get veggie burritos from del taco or taco time.
15. What are your three favorite foods? Burritos, Quesadillas, Pasta!
16. What are your three favorite restaurants? The Blue Plate, Sipz and Super Sergios!
17. If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different? My body will never be exactly the way I want it. My waist would be small, my arms would be thin and toned, my pouch would be non existent, my legs wouldn't rub together anymore. I would go shopping!
18. Do you eat when you are not hungry? No. I'm just always hungry.
19. Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)? Sometimes I make excuses "It's my birthday, I can eat whatever I want!" - bad idea.
20. Do you hide your food or eat in secret? Never
21. Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed? Yes...not too much...I just don't starve myself during those times.
22. Do you eat as a reward? Not anymore.
23. Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer? I eat breakfast in front of my computer at work. Sometimes we have the TV on during meals, but it's meal time, not TV watching time. We just don't want to miss our sports!
24. What do you normally eat for a meal? Oatmeal, Boca Burgers, Avocado Sandwiches, Burritos
25. What type of snacks do you eat? Fruits and fruit juice popsicles!
26 In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing? Cardio 3-4 days a week (for at least 40 minutes) and strength training afterwards.
27. Where do you go for exercise? 24 hour fitness near where I work
28. What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise? Kick boxing, stair stepper, and anything with an exercise ball.
29. What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals? The way my clothes fit, mostly. I want to be beautiful.
30. Do you have rewards for certain goals? No, I don't
I should though. I'm afraid to ask my husband.31. What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food? More protein, more fresh veggies and less tortillas!
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