I'm nice to everyone too...it's like because I'm heavy I have to be to compensate. In cali it's normal to be friendly or....weird I guess but once I moved to Ohio I got alot of flack for being "nice". People thought I was up to something...go figure.
I guess I've always been nice to people because that's just the way I was raised. My parents did their best to raise kind, responsible children. As far as responsibility goes, 3 out of 4 isn't too bad!(me being the irresponsible one... Maybe it's because I'm 17?
) Haha...
And don't stress about the license....I didn't get mine until I was 23. I was terrified and the longer I waited the worse it got. Plus my mom was not the best teacher...you had to peel her off the car roof before the engine started and she'd panic and yell.
My parents are like neurotic about riding in the car people. Especially my dad. He will never let my mom drive because he freaks out and thinks she speeding, but in reality, my dad's like the slowest driver under 60 alive. My mom said she's going to call the driving school and get me lessons. She's been saying that for about a year now... and I haven't prodded her.
As far as huge crowds go I can hide in those so that's not a total problem unless I don't want to deal with the noise. But at party size gatherings I've always felt out of place. It's taken me 3 years to feel comfortable around my husband's family during holidays and it still sneaks up.
This past thanksgiving there was so much drama in my family (the bulimic cousin asking what way home had the most bathroom stops, the no-show drug addicted cousin who almost lost her arm to a dirty needle, my aunt praising the bulimic for how much weight she's lost, that kind of thing. Oh, and by the way, that's all one family. Lyn, the mother, and her daughters,Claire, the bulimic one, and Callie, the druggie. And there's Victor, her husband. Who no one knew she was married to until 6 months after the wedding. AND they live off of my Granddad, who is 87 (88 in july). He pays them EACH $2,000 a MONTH to take care of him, and he eats takeout every single meal because Lyn doesn't like cooking. BAH!) that I just took my book (Twilight, New Moon... I finished the whole series in a week. Four books. Huge books.
) and found a quiet place in the deserted family room, and stayed there until dinner, and then went back afterward. I hate that branch of my family, but there's nothing any of us can do about it.
But ya know...it's great to be in this forum and not be the ONLY one. Not that I'd wish weight problems on anyone but the longer I'm here and know I'm facing the same stuff it makes it alot easier. Also confirms my thoughts about how much it IS my weight holding me back. I always bought into that "being thin won't make you happy" crap. Well why not? It's the only thing that's making me unhappy! Anyway hope you have a great rest of the weekend
Ha... yeah, I know exactly what you mean. I think being thin will make me a lot happier, because then I'll finally be comfortable in my own skin. They underestimate how happy self confidence makes you!
Love the new pic of you; you look GREAT!
Thanks so much! I'm not quite there- about thirty pounds to go, but I do look so much better in photographs!
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I'm getting a little confused. I've been working at around a 1000 calorie deficit for a little less than a week now, but when I got on the scale, I weigh the same... Granted, I did just get off the treadmill where I gulped down two bottles of water, but I was hoping for something a little more... exciting. I've been waking up at around 9:30 am recently, AND I've been eating breakfast, so maybe it's different because I used to get up at noon and not have anything to eat or drink, because I was asleep, and then get on the scale. Do you think I should do that again? Because when I weigh myself at 9:30, it's about the same (anywhere from 182.5 to 180.5).
Grr.
I just want to see the 170's so badly.
oh well, that's life, right?
Hope you guys had a good weekend!
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Yes ma'am! 
