Cowboy - too funny! I really appreciate you checking in on me - it really means a lot. I've been too lazy to get on the board - how sad is that. I'm guessing that I don't want to come on here and be accountable (even if only to myself) about my actions.
Have I fallen off the wagon - well perhaps two-thirds off - I'm still hanging in there with some exersie - not as much as I would like (and crave) but due to poor planning (and being too lazy to go back to the store), my eating has been down right rotten! There have been a couple good meals...but not many - and the junk just tastes awful and makes me feel sluggish. I've been trying to figure out why I've been so tired and have minimal energy - duh - what I was doing before (eating right and exercising daily) WORKS!!!
I've also had to face old demons recently and have been really uncomfortable. I usually do not like attention (aside from that of hubby) - especially when my weight is the focus of it. I've had people telling me lately "Oh my gosh, you've lost sooooo much weight". I'm really trying hard to hold back my snarky comments (such as where was the comment of "Oh my gosh, you've put on so much weight" when I was packing on the lbs). I know people are trying to be nice...but I really only care about what I can see and if hubby notices. I guess with comments like that I really feel that my weight has/is defining me - and it shouldn't! Needless to say, the 4 lbs ended up staying with me.
I've also managed to have things to do right after work or have worked late at least 3 days of the week the past few weeks - what the heck - I finally get my hours changed so I can get my exercise in earlier and I find things to do besides work out. Meeting my friend tomorrow morning for a 3 mile walk - think I might jog down to the lake (our meeting point) and jog home to get in some extra running. I really need to focus again - the next 5k is coming up quickly.
I met up with a friend for lunch today - she's always been tiny in my eyes (and still is)- she has been really happy the past couple years and very comfortable with a new romance - she's put on a few lbs and is up to 130 (heaviest she's ever been) - Really struck a chord with how my own body image issues are sooooo distorted. I have several inches in height on her and I remember when I was that weight - my ribs were showing....but I still managed to find that my lower tummy was too big - my thighs were not perfect - my arms were too fat....blah blah blah. Maybe I need some professional help. LOL
Until then......it is focusing on getting back into my routine...going grocery shopping (with a list this time!), eating the same thing for breakfast, lunch, and snacks - and working out daily! I'm excited - we are celebrating my mom's b-day and father's day early (tomorrow) and going on a guided hike! Possibly going for mexican food for dinner (not sure yet) or Frozen Yogurt after - so no cake! Yay!