Getting it back - Josie's journey...

Hello Josie,

I am glad to hear you're doing better.

I am sorry to say I've been dumpy but picking up steam as of late, I haven't been keeping up with you, only this last page.

Hope to see more of you around. Keep goin Strong! :)

Lata
 
YAY!!! Welcome back!!! I have certainly missed you!!!!


glad you are a little bit better... hope things get better for you soon!! :)


ps- i really really REALLY suggest you do measurements of yourself... TOTALLY worth it girl... TOTALLY.

good luck with the gym!!! if you dont mind me asking... do you have the flu or what??? :(

yea, i was run down the week before the 4th... had a stomach flu, then after the 4th had a full out flu!! it was horrible :( HORRIBLE and i still sound stuffy and nasal. Very annoying, but at least i can eat again...

and yea, im not measuring myself any time soon. im still bloated from two weeks of sodium!
 
7/15/09

"off day"

930am - breakfast
1 slice whole wheat toast w/natty pb
1 bottle water

1230pm - lunch
turkey sammy on whole wheat
blueberries
1 bottle water

330pm - snack
forgot :(
.5 bottle water

700pm - dinner
yellow rice
veggies
haddock
2 glasses water

1200am - bed
 
It is time. - 4/25/11

Its been almost two years since I've been here, and life changing events have totally demotivated me to take care of myself since the last time I posted. I succumbed to laziness and let things slip out of my control. After all this time, I now have a different life, different boyfriend (for 1.5 years now), different job, and different schedule. Everything is on my side to get back everything I wanted to get back two years ago, and I'm back to do it. No excuses.

My goals are actually exactly the way they are posted on page 1, and my stats are similar... but since I'm treating this as a new beginning for my body, I'll start over/continue on this journal rather than creating another one. The support I received from you all in the past :beating: is something I want to hold on to... so here I go!

Currents:
Age - 32
Weight - 160
Height - 5'3
Pant size - 7/8, or 29/30
Shirt size - S/M
No measurements yet

Ideals:
Weight - 130
Pant size - 4/5
Shirt size - XS

Like I stated before, I have always carried a lot of muscle weight... when I was in my teens/early twenties, I was pretty athletic and was a size 3/4 and weighed 135-140. So its not so much scale weight for me as it is clothing size. I have an old pair of Citizens of Humanity jeans in a size 27 that fit me like a glove in 2006. They are not leaving my closet because I have every intention of wearing them again.

I usually carry my weight proportionally all over my body, so I've been able to "hide" my fat... but lately I noticed i'm developing back rolls, a bigger stomach, thunder thighs with stretchmarks, and my boyfriend "noticed" my arms were getting bigger. I cannot carry on like its no big deal anymore, and it doesnt help that I have started comparing myself to other women's bodies. Its not healthy, and I feel really down about how I look. I dont want to be someone that used to be a hottie once before, I want to BE that person now and always.

I will post every day what I will be eating (for my own accountability), and then verify and edit the posts the next day to confirm what I ate. I will also record my projected workout plan, then later on confirm what actually happened. It helps me actually DO what I write.

Please feel free to yell at me if I ever seem to be losing motivation. Sometimes I feel like I need some tough love!
 
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Challenges:
1. Live in boyfriend has horrible eating habits.. He's 6'4", 195 pounds, is totally slim and eats more baked goods and cheetos than I've ever seen in my life. He is a cookie monster and donut freak, and it drives me CRAZY that his blood sugar is fine, his cholesterol/blood pressure and weight is fine, and he doesnt gain a thing. Granted he is trying to work out with me and be healthier as we are in our 30's, but it doesnt help me when it's that time of the month and I'm looking at eating a banana, and he's in my face eating Cheetos. I'm a salt freak and in my times of weakness I'd rather be 40000 pounds and eat my junk food, than be fit and slim. THIS is what I need to get over.

2. I have my bad days just like everyone else... and when I get stressed or depressed, I dont eat or sleep at all. When I dont eat or sleep, I dont work out or take care of myself. I screw with my body's metabolism by starving it, and then when it does come time to eat, I eat a steak and cheese or something by justifying that I havent eaten a single calorie in two days or something. From here, everything spirals and I get weaker, feel lazy, lose motivation and purpose, and fall off the wagon. You'd think I would lose weight...? Yea, I lose 5 pounds of water weight in one day, and then the minute I start eating again, I gain about 10 pounds. So yes, I understand the importance of eating, and of boosting my metabolism to a healthy place again. Every time I starve myself, I'm giving my body another chance to store all the fat it can. No way. This is what happened to me over the past couple of years time and time again. NO MORE!
 
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This past Easter weekend, was my last "free for all" weekend I allowed myself since I got my period yesterday (sorry guys for TMI). I actually started my new eating plan on Friday along with cardio at the gym, and did well, but allowed myself to graze on salty stuff (cheese, pepperoni, crackers, popcorn, soup), all day on Saturday after the morning gym, promising myself that today (Monday), will be full force. Yesterday I got in a day/night long fight with the bf (not such a happy Easter :( ), didnt eat a thing until 9pm, and it was soup and bread. Today, even though I'm exhausted, I'm not letting anything interfere with my goal. After all, after all is said and done in my life, all thats really left is me and my health and my body.

Food/Exercise:

4/25 - on day

930am
.5 bagel w/cream cheese
small cup coffee w/cream and splenda
1 bottle water

1130am
1 big pineapple chunk
1 bottle water

130pm
3 slices deli turkey on
other .5 of bagel
w/1 slice american cheese
1 small cookie
1 bottle water

330pm
banana
1 bottle water

600pm
Gym - cardio
10 mins walk 4.0 treadmill
20 mins jog 5.0-5.5 treadmill
abs
stretch

(bf and i got in fight, no food for the rest of the night :( )

1100pm
bed
 
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The same day I decide to continue my journal, the bf and I got in another massive fight that continued on to the next day (yesterday) and lo and behold, I barely ate a thing yesterday. We are better now (really, much better...hopefully you'll never read about us fighting again), and I have a full days meals ahead of me, but it doesnt make up for yesterday (7 red grapes and 2 crackers). I know this isnt the best start to the journal, but I am promising myself to step it up. I may even try to eat slightly more cals today than promised, just so my body isnt starving from yesterday. Projected meals:

4/27 - off day

930am
.5 bagel w/cream cheese
small coffee w/cream and splenda
1 bottle water

1130am
2 pineapple chunks
1 bottle water

130pm
2 (or 3) tacos w/ground turkey
lettuce, tomato, light sour cream, salsa
1 bottle water

400pm
small cube cheddar cheese
1 small cookie
1 bottle water

700pm
4 small steak tips
cup of greek salad
1 bottle water

1100pm
bed
 
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Exercise for this week: Cardio/abs only (week 1)

Week 4/25

Mon/Fri/Sat - on days
Sun/Tues/Wed/Thurs - off days
 
4/28 - off day

830am
.5 bagel w/cream cheese
small coffee w/splenda and cream

1030am
papaya
1 bottle water

1230pm
.5 deli turkey sandwich w/light mayo
1 bottle water

300pm
other .5 deli turkey sandwich w/light mayo
1 bottle water

530pm
papaya
1 bottle water

*hair appt at 6p, got out at 9pm - late dinner, no food anywhere and was starving, so I grabbed what I could. Not really part of my plan, but I figured it had to be better than starving and watching my metabolism plummet? I dunno

930pm
1 piece garlic bread
olives
2 pieces cheddar cheese
1 glass water
2 slices pepperoni (oops)

1200am
bed
 
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4/29 - on day

900am
1/2 bagel w/cream cheese
1 bottle water

1100am
other 1/2 bagel w/cream cheese
1 bottle water

100pm
1/2 grilled chicken sandwich w/artichoke
papaya
1 bottle water

300pm
other 1/2 grilled chicken sandwich w/artichoke
1 bottle water

630pm
gym - 30 mins cardio
5 mins walk 4.0
20 mins jog 5.0-6.0 mph
5 mins cooldown
abs
stretch

830pm
breaded baked halibut
1/2 can green beans
2 glasses water

12am
bed
 
had AMAZING sleep last night, went to bed at 1100pm, woke at 12noon! Hadnt done that since I was twenty years old. Felt great... Late start though, but its ok. did cardio on an empty stomach, waited an hour after my workout to eat... not too many meals today, and going to a baseball game later, but i'll allow myself today.

Also weighed myself at the gym and i'm at 157 lbs.
lost 3 pounds this week, i'm sure mostly water, but I feel great!

4/30 - on day

200pm
cardio
5 mins walk 4.0
20 mins jog 5.0-6.5 mph
2 mins cooldown
abs
stretch
2 bottles water

400pm - lunch
grilled chicken salad
1/2 turkey sandwich
1 bottle water

700pm - red sox game - dinner
no diet here, but wont go tooo crazy with the junk food. Maybe nachos and beer.. or maybe chicken fingers or popcorn.

12am - bed
 
Welcome back to your diary :) I had the exact same stats in January but I slimmed down since then. I'm at about 135 now but I have less muscle so if we stood side by side I think your 135 would look better then mine! When I was 160 I was having to buy medium/large and my 8's wouldn't fit me at all.

Your eating/exercise plan looks really good :)

When my fiance and I fight I tend to want to eat more instead of less. He is much taller then me and can eat quite a bit and not fatten up. I just ignore what hes eating since I'm eating healthier and I like the food I'm eating :) I think that's an important part of it since if i only ate salads I would be angry at him.

Congrats on the weight loss!
 
Welcome back to your diary :) I had the exact same stats in January but I slimmed down since then. I'm at about 135 now but I have less muscle so if we stood side by side I think your 135 would look better then mine! When I was 160 I was having to buy medium/large and my 8's wouldn't fit me at all.

Your eating/exercise plan looks really good :)

When my fiance and I fight I tend to want to eat more instead of less. He is much taller then me and can eat quite a bit and not fatten up. I just ignore what hes eating since I'm eating healthier and I like the food I'm eating :) I think that's an important part of it since if i only ate salads I would be angry at him.

Congrats on the weight loss!

Thanks for the words of encouragement, I am definitely using you for inspiration. Doesnt matter how our bodies actually looked or how different they were, it still feels amazing to hear how you went from 160 to 135! Congrats!

My boyfriend's food this weekend ALL consisted of a side of cheetos. :banghead: I would sneak in a bite, and then get all mad because I wanted the whole bag every time. He is really testing my willpower! :toetap05: good thing I love the man!
 
Sunday was an extremely busy day, and I didnt eat as much as I liked, and when the evening came around, I gorged on popcorn :banghead: Its not that I'm not allowed it, but it's not such a great thing to be eating it at 9pm and eating the whole bag.. I tried to make myself feel better by saying its the weekend, its ok... but reality is I didnt do so well this weekend, and I need to make up for it this week.

5/1/11 - off day

1100am
egg/cheese sandwich
1 bottle water
medium decaf coffee w/cream and splenda

400pm
grilled chicken nuggets
1 bottle water

600pm
walnut cucumber salad
grilled buffalo chicken
1 glass water

900pm
bag of popcorn :piggy:
piece of cheddar cheese
1 glass of red wine
1 glass water

1100pm
bed
 
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Today's plan

5/2/11 - on day

900am
plain croissant
small coffee w/cream and splenda
1 bottle water

1100am
pineapple
1 bottle water

100pm
1/2 turkey sandwich
mango
1 bottle water

300pm
other 1/2 turkey sandwich
cubed cheddar cheese
1 bottle water

645pm
cardio
5 mins warm up 4.0
20 mins jog 5.0-6.0 mph
5 mins cooldown
stretch
2 bottles water

900pm
turkey chili
small piece of bread
1/2 can green beans
1 glass water

1130pm
bed
 
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Exercise for this week: Cardio/abs only (week 2)

Week 5/2

Mon/Tues/Fri/Sat - on days
Sun/Wed/Thurs - off days
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5/3/11 - on day

900am
oatmeal
1 bottle water

1100am
pineapple
1 bottle water

100pm
1/2 turkey sandwich
1 bottle water

330pm
other 1/2 turkey sandwich
banana
1 bottle water

700pm
Gym - cardio
5 mins warm up 4.0
25 mins jog 5.0-6.5 mph
5 mins cool down
abs
stretch
2 bottles water

900pm
salad
1 glass water

1130pm
bed
 
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After week 1, I can feel my progress.. It hasnt been the "perfect" week with the lack of eating last week and then the sodium intake this weekend with the activities, but it could have been worse. So since my first week wasnt ideally by the book, my progress could have been more apparent. The 3 pounds I lost, I "gained" back 2 pounds when I weighed myself yesterday, since I wanted to see how much water all the salt had me holding. I want to almost drain myself of all water weight like wringing out a sponge, I'd probably drop 2 sizes if I could! I'd like to have no mishaps this week to see how fast the water drops off again. I'll update when I see a change. So technically I "lost" 1 pound after week one. I think losing 1-3 pounds a week is a good target.

So for this week (week 2), I will hopefully do much better with the food in relation to working out/sleeping. My original plan had me not eating starch/sugar within 4 hours of working out or sleeping, but I felt that was way too restrictive for me right now. I edited to be 2 hours and though that's not by the book, at least it will help me ease back into things and it will be easier to stick to. After all, my problem is finding a happy balance to make this my way of life. And really, I've cut most junk out of my diet, so I think the results will still be effective. Maybe not as fast, but effective nonetheless.

My energy level is getting better after week 1, although I'm sure its because of the lighter diet and heavier water. I am soooo sick of peeeing :toetap05:, but that means Im on the right track. After this week, I will be incorporating weights to my workouts, so we'll see how my body reacts. I know its early on, but my body is already craving exercise. I feel better, feel happier (endorphins have been asleep for a while), feel calmer and thinner afterwards and can breathe better in spite of these spring allergies. So far so good..
 
Hi. I find it quite scary to see someone, especially someone as small as you , drinking so much water. Your body doesn't need this much water. I find if i drink it by the glassful only, i don't develop the thirsty habit. I think that all this water is just making your organs such as you kidneys work harder than necessary.

You might find wikipedia on water intoxication interesting reading.

We only need about 2 litres of water a day, unless we are in extreme heat conditions through climate or hard prolonged exercise.

I was curious about why you don't allow yourself to eat within 4 hours of a workout.

I've recently read the sports experts say its best to eat something soon after workout that contains both proteins and carbs. The given reason is so that you recover faster but i think the nitty gritty of it is that proteins help you repair the muscle and tissue damage from your work out and carbs will give you back vital energy that if your energy supplies are depleted, will prevent your body getting it by converting muscle into energy.

I'd like to congratulate you on your weight loss progress but i can't find mention of it on this last page.
 
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