AHeloooooo! Well, I haven't been doing too fabulously if I am honest eeek.
Right at the beginning of my diary, I said that the reason I am finally going on this diet and losing weight is because my debts were under control, my house was nearly sorted (even tho I've been too lazy to finish decorating till now lol), and I would have enough money to be able to save for a tummy tuck. It was that thought, that at the end of all my hard dieting work I would actually have a presentable figure that kept me going. I have wanted a tummy tuck since I was 20. I have been looking at before and after photos on the net, and I can't find one single before tummy photo that is as bad as mine was when I was twenty. I didn't even have a belly button when I could fit into size 8 clothes, just this disgusting mass of wrinkled skin that fell into four flaps around it. My tummy is bad now, but I know the more weight I lose, the worse its going to get.
I have had lots of anaesthetics before for ear operations, and my cheeks, so I know that its not likely I am going to die because of that. I have found a brilliant surgeon called Dr. Cerna, the web is filled with nothing but nice things about her, her results are fabulous as well. She won't do more than one operation at once, because she said that the healing time for each procedure seems to take longer, because the body has only so much healing capacity. And that makes me respect her even more, so even though I would ideally like both ops done together, I think that I will get my tummy done in January, then my boobs can wait till the summer. And the price is only £1746. And I think that price is more than worth it for the joy it will bring me. I have stretch marks above my belly button so I know my tum will never be perfect, but still. I think that cosmetic surgery is a wonderful thing. I have to live in my own body my whole life. I want uninhibited sex, there is no way I would show my tummy. Ever. So in my opinion, the risk, and the money is worth it for that alone.
I went on to "face in hole" and stuck my head onto a bikini ladies body, photobucket isn't working for some reason tho. But it looked good
I ate about 1900 calories at a guess yesterday, and about 2500ish today. I think the problem is that I haven't done shopping online in ages now, and I've been leaving it to nick to buy dinner. But the good new is, that the shopping's coining tomorrow, yeehaaaaaa.
I feel quite miserable for some reason, hopefully I'll snap out of it soon.
I started an April weight loss challenge if your all up for it.... http://weight-loss.fitness.com/t/54076/april-challenge#post_825913.