ASorry, I have gone quite awol again haven't I? I have thought about you all, but I haven't even had a peek on here .. The truth is that I am eating a shit load of shitty foods, and revelling in it. Yep, thats right. I just don't want to eat healthily. I am happy stuffing my face, and I am happy not doing any uni work. Something outside of me is looking back on myself and acknowledging that this is a major life downwards spiral, that I will end up fat again and also being kicked out of college again. But for the main part I am just thinking soddit. Sod it all.
Jasper hasn't commented. I hope she isn't doing the same as I am.
Coming on here and saying how I feel has made me reflect on what I am doing a bit more. Whether that will be enough to make me change, I don't know.