Know what? I bet you have a gorgeous smile! You have a good face and beautiful eyes, so maybe shine those pearly whites and don't look so defeated my good man! Sir! you have started changing your mindframe, and are working on being the you you are on the inside, you cannot be defeated if you've already won!
Best luck!!!
I expect some smiling pics very very soon, mmmkay!
whens that bday you speak of? far off?