Frogged's Lily Pad

[imaninjadangit]

Omg...I have had two cars with rogue doors. I had a station wagon, my first car, that the driver door wouldn't latch completely. I discovered it the first time when I made a very sharp right turn and my door flew off. lol

The second was my Tracker. I loved my Tracker. It was as close to owning a Jeep as I'll probably ever get...I love Jeeps. The top hinge of my driver door rusted, kind of like yours, and broke. If I opened it, I had to life it up to keep it from breaking the bottom hinge. It was a while before I could get it fixed, so I eventually just started climbing through the passenger side to go anywhere. It was a manual, too. I loved that car to pieces, though.


95 minutes on the treadmill is not impressive? Sweetie, that's amazing! You are doing such an amazing job. Reading your before and after post, and now reading your journal...you are such an inspiration. Don't ever stop being so awesome.

 

[Frogged]

lol! I was contemplating having to climb in through the passenger side as well, but damn would that have been annoying seeing as I have to dismount several times during the day depending on the volume of parcels and how many signatures I need to collect Eesh, I couldn't handle manual for my job. It HAS to be automatic!

Damn rust. I feel for you, Robyn. I had to lift my door up just to try and get it to shut properly. After nearly falling off though, it was virtually impossible


Thank you for the kind words too! :biggrin:


I'm doing my best not to disappoint! Hearing compliments like that, and knowing I'm possibly inspiring other people on this forum, always helps keep me motivated :biggrin:


Thanks again for stopping by, Robyn

 

[Frogged]

Breakfast: 1 bowl of Kashi with Clover Honey and 1 Tbsp of Peanut Butter (~600 cal)

2 hours later: 1 Fiber Bar + 2 Cups Skim Milk (320 cal)


I had 1 peach and 1 slice of peach cobbler pie that my grandmother made about an hour later. Couldn't resist! It was a very small piece! Probably about 200-250 calories for both)


2 hours later: Boost Plus (360 cal)

2 hours later: Lean Cuisine (230 cal)


I just finished the first 3.5 miles of my daily routine (46 minutes and 548 calories burned) :biggrin:


Now to pick up my Jeep and pay a small fortune for the repairs, followed by one more small meal around 5:30ish and then the completion of my daily 7 miles

Ok, just got back from picking my Jeep up from my mechanic. Only $763 this time! lol, I thought it'd be a lot worse honestly At least he was able to keep it under $1000, hah. hah.


Ate a 6'' veggie sub from Sheetz while riding to pick it up with my roommate. Not sure how many calories, but I had it with wheat bread, mayo, shredded lettuce, banana peppers, and some pickles. Probably around ~300 calories.


Now to do the remaining 3.5 miles on my treadmill at about 7pm

Done!


Final Treadmill Tally: 87 minutes, 7.000 miles, 1089 calories burned

 

[Loch]

AEwww mayo.

Sorry, couldn't resist!

Boost plus, is that a protein shake/drink? If so, is it any good? I'm thinking of trying a protein drink. I don't think I get enough...

Also, your exercise, do you only use a treadmill? I'm thinking of buying a used one (they're waaaay cheaper). Winter is coming, and I know I have a gym membership but I want to believe that I'd get more use and actually use a treadmill more (and walking 30 min there and back in the winter is going to suck). I just wonder if it's enough. Argh why does exercise have to be so hard to get into?

Also...I'm glad I don't own a vehicle xD that's very expensive!

 

[Frogged]

Originally Posted by Loch

Ewww mayo.

Sorry, couldn't resist!

Boost plus, is that a protein shake/drink? If so, is it any good? I'm thinking of trying a protein drink. I don't think I get enough...

Also, your exercise, do you only use a treadmill? I'm thinking of buying a used one (they're waaaay cheaper). Winter is coming, and I know I have a gym membership but I want to believe that I'd get more use and actually use a treadmill more (and walking 30 min there and back in the winter is going to suck). I just wonder if it's enough. Argh why does exercise have to be so hard to get into?

Also...I'm glad I don't own a vehicle xD that's very expensive!

I like mayo, but I'm not a big fan of miracle whip I'll still eat both though, but I prefer real mayonnaise


Yeah, Boost is a nutritional energy shake


It's really good! There's a couple different flavors and varieties. There are protein versions, nutritional versions, and a plus version that has a little more calories than typical ones. The 3 primary flavors are chocolate, strawberry, and vanilla. I've tried them all and chocolate is by FAR the best :biggrin: If I had to describe the Boost Plus chocolate, I'd say it was like a liquified brownie So good!


And you may not think it, but it really does fill you up. It has a lot of protein (14g) in the little bottle. Even when I'm feeling really hungry, after I drink it and wait about 5-10 minutes, suddenly I feel content - like I just had a decent serving of food If you want to know where to get them, feel free to send me a PM. I order them about once a month and I drink one every day.


Yeah, treadmill is my primary tool. Although I do own a 35lb kettlebell that my uncle gave me a few months ago, I only do light strength training Mon/Wed/Fri.


I keep my treadmill facing my computer, so I just watch videos I've compiled while exercising :biggrin: I've always been a big geek, so it's mostly superhero-related, sci-fi, with some adventure The Hulk, Superman, Spider-Man, Iron Man, Terminator 2, etc. I just added some clips of Thor and Green Lantern too. I edit out my favorite scenes and make a nice 45-55min montage and then go to it


Sure makes the time go by faster, and I don't mind watching things over and over again, so I don't get bored Some vids I've probably seen about 1,000 times so far


So far today, my meals have been:


Breakfast: Bowl of Kashi with Clover Honey + 1Tbsp Peanut Butter (600 Cal)

2 hours later: 1 Fiber Bar (140 Cal) + 1 Cup Skim Milk (90 Cal)

1 hour later: 2 Nectarines (140 Cal)

1 hour later: Boost Plus Shake (360 Cal)

2 hours later: 1 Fiber Bar (140 Cal) + 1 Cup Skim Milk (90 Cal)


I have to factor in the gum I chew throughout the day too, which is probably about 100 calories. I chew 3 pieces at a time (15 cal), and I usually have that about 6-7 times throughout the day.


So far, I've probably had about 1700 calories today.


It's strange. Even though I'm watching and adjusting my calories and increased the duration of my exercise, I seem to be in a bit of a plateau this week. I weighed myself this morning and I'm 189. Hmmm, so I need to drop about 4 pounds by Sunday if I want a loss


I haven't been on the treadmill yet today as I just got home from running 2 separate mail routes again today (kind of exhausting), but I will be after I do a little shopping :biggrin:


Just got done shopping for some things with my roommate. Ate a peach and another bowl of Kashi cereal at about 4:30pm, and a 6'' veggie sub at about 6:30pm, so that's about ~800 calories. That's it for my intake today It's probably a little high, but I'm about to go do my treadmill exercise here shortly.


Total estimated calories for today: ~2500


Final Treadmill Tally: 96 minutes, 7.000 miles, 1071 calories burned


Left foot is bothering me a little bit, so I may take it slower or do half my usual treadmill routine tomorrow.


Feeling rundown and tired

 

[Daybehavior]

ADude you seem so calm about the $763 repair bill. I would've gone through the roof LOL. That's pretty cool how you edited your clips like that, but I really can't watch anything while I'm working out. I get fatigued really fast if I try to watch something while on the treadmill, but I think that's just my mind and body being retarded. I need music to keep me focused and my mind off the pain.

Hmm I would say good luck with your plans and all that other motivational stuff people say in diaries, but I'm gonna refrain from that because I know it's just a matter of time before you hit that goal

 

[Frogged]

Originally Posted by Daybehavior

Dude you seem so calm about the $763 repair bill. I would've gone through the roof LOL. That's pretty cool how you edited your clips like that, but I really can't watch anything while I'm working out. I get fatigued really fast if I try to watch something while on the treadmill, but I think that's just my mind and body being retarded. I need music to keep me focused and my mind off the pain.

Hmm I would say good luck with your plans and all that other motivational stuff people say in diaries, but I'm gonna refrain from that because I know it's just a matter of time before you hit that goal

Yeah, I'm pretty mellow in real life. I've already experienced enough drama and heartache to last a lifetime when I was in my teens, then of course growing up morbidly obese until a few years ago, so I'm just trying my best to go through life without stressing over everything I just want to be happy, comfortable, and not miserable anymore.


I only get frustrated sometimes when I'm at work


These repair bills are just something I'm used to. They're part of the job unfortunately


Also, yes, it's only a matter of time! :biggrin: But that can be said for anybody and everybody as long as they don't give up!


My week so far has been good in terms of exercise and diet, but pretty crappy in terms of results on the scale. I weighed myself this morning and I'm still around 189 - 189.2


My left foot was still bothering me a bit, but I did 3.5 miles earlier. It feels a little better now though, so maybe in an hour or so, I'll do my final 3.5 for the day.


Food has been as follows:


Breakfast: Kashi Cereal with Clover Honey and 1 TBsp of Peanut Butter (600 Cal)

2 hours later: 1 Fiber Bar and 1 Cup Skim Milk (230 Cal)

- I had 2 small bites of a snack food that someone in the office had brought in. The one thing was a peach pie, the other was some kind of ham/cheese/egg dish. Really good! Probably about 100 Cal.

2 hours later: Lean Cuisine with 1 Cup Cottage Cheese (220 Cal)

2 hours later: Boost Plus Shake (360 Cal)


Then the gum of course (105 Cal)


Just had a wheat roll with some peanut butter, apple butter, and 1 peach at 5pm (~300 Cal)


Total estimated calories for the day, ~1900


In 2 hours, I'll be back on the treadmill :biggrin: Gotta go out now for a bit.


Done.


Treadmill Tally: 84 minutes, 7.000 miles, 1107 calories.


Feeling weak, really hungry, and a little depressed right now :[


Hrmmm. Not a good sign. My left foot is still aching. Perhaps tomorrow after work, I'll either do half my routine, or just take a rest day. I'm still upwards of 188, so I still need to drop roughly 3 pounds by Sunday if I want a loss to count for this week :\


Just feeling crappy in general atm.. blegh.

 

[Loch]

AI tried that gum tip, it works great! Thanks for that .

 

[Frogged]

Originally Posted by Loch

I tried that gum tip, it works great! Thanks for that .

Np, Loch :biggrin:


Yeah, I put no limit on how much gum I chew! Sometimes my jaw hurts at the end of the day, but you save soooo many calories and it keeps you sane in case you have a major sweet tooth like I do

 

[Frogged]

Felt like crap today - emotionally and physically.


Breakfast: Kashi Cereal, Clover Honey, Peanut Butter = ~700 cal

2 hours later: Boost Plus = 360 cal

2 hours later: Fiber Bar + Milk = ~230 cal

2 hours later: Fiber Bar + Milk = ~230 cal

2 hours later: Lean Cuisine = 230 cal

2 hours later: Peanut Butter Chewy Bar = 140 cal

Misc gum chewing: ~100


Food Total: ~2000 cal


Exercised today, but only did about 4.7 miles as my feet were bothering me and I had absolutely no energy today whatsoever. Lasted about 57 minutes and burned (according to the treadmill) 744 calories.


Weighed myself a minute ago and I'm still up about a pound from my last weigh in, despite the increase in cardio and watching my calorie intake. Hopefully a long night's sleep will see me under 186 tomorrow.


Eh, whatever. I'm going to bed.


Trying to keep a positive outlook on things on days like this is tough.

 

[Loch]

AYou do workout a lot, maybe you're gaining muscle? Try not to get too upset over the scale, I know I do, and it sucks . You've done such a great job so far.

I could only hope to run for that long!

 

[Frogged]

Hi Loch

Yeah, that's possible about the muscle gain. My legs have definitely been getting a workout!


Thank you for the kind words

Although I don't run for the entire duration, I walk at about a 3.5 for most of it, but when I do run, it's usually about an 8-9mph for a few minutes with sprints of 10-12mph mixed in. It all depends on how I'm feeling and what videos I'm watching in my compilation

So after sleeping in a bit (woke up about 8am), I weighed myself and I actually managed to skate by with a loss this week! 185.6 - only a 0.4lb loss. Not much, but it's something :biggrin:


I'm going to pig out today. Not because it's my cheat day, but because I think it may be helping me avoid plateaus.


Last Sunday, I was pretty light on my consumption, thinking maybe it could give me an edge for the following weigh in. I thought maybe if I didn't eat as many calories, I could lose more weight faster. Well, that didn't really work out. So, I'm just going to do as I've always done and shock my body by introducing a large influx of calories today.


Although I'll feel like crap tomorrow and probably be up around 10+ pounds of retention, it should rid myself of this little plateau I'm in. We'll see. It's a bit of a gamble, sure, but I've done it many times before with success.


So far today, haha... I've eaten:


Breakfast: 1 entire peach pie (yes, an entire cylinder) and about 1/3 box of Fruit Loops with non-skim, Vitamin D milk (probably about 2 cups worth)


1 hour later, I boiled up some water for pasta. I made about half a pound, but couldn't eat the whole thing. I mixed in some mozzarella cheese, butter, and a chicken burger. I only ate about half maybe before I started feeling really full.


I went out to put it in the fridge and grabbed 3 of these little creme-filled cookies I bought last Sunday for my cheat. They look like mini ice cream cookies (75 cal per), and drank a cup of skim milk with that.


Oh, and I also have 2 QT jug of Snapple Peach Tea I've been drinking today too


Yeah, it's a bit shameful, but I think it's almost a requirement in my regimen to keep me losing. I'm not trying to justify binging, but everyone is different, and for me, I think this is necessary for my body to avoid plateaus.


Later, my roommate and I are going to be helping a friend move in to his new apartment, and with the heat and humidity out there today, I'm sure I'll be burning and sweating off a lot of what I ate already.


But then, we're gonna go get our typical Sunday Pizza & Ice Cream :biggrin: There's 2 different pizza places near my house that we alternate between every Sunday. The one is just down the road and they serve AWESOME sicilian! We're probably gonna get another meat lovers 16'' pie (sausage, pepperoni, and ham). Then we go to Giant and each get a pint of Ben & Jerry's (Cinnamon Bun is unbelievable!)


The other place we go to is La Bella's Italia where we get a large white sicilian pie. We used to get subs along with it, but it proved too much even for us big boys to finish

My roommate is about 6' 5'' and 290ish, so he can really put stuff away when he's hungry, haha.


Anyway, feeling full and content right now.. as is the case when I pig out on junk food. I'm sure I'll be feeling all sluggish and gross here soon, but that's just a good reminder of the kind of life I don't want to go back to as well.


Edit: Ok, it's now 3:40pm and I'm near unconscious from all the food I've eaten so far. I don't even have an estimate of how many calories I've consumed today.. oy. Let's see, aside from the peach pie, cereal, and a bit of pasta I had before noon. I also had a few jumbo marshmellows, a nectarine, a peach, 3 chocolate-dipped cereal bars, a little bit of a broccoli salad with egg salad and a poached egg. Then, I had 2 ice cream sandwiches, some tostitos with mild cheddar cheese dip, and a few m&m's.


I feel like crap. Absolute crap.. lol. My roommate and I have decided to not get our usual pizza today seeing as we picked up some bite-sized corn dogs and then the ben & jerry's from Giant earlier. I may also finish off that pasta from earlier so it doesn't go bad. I only touch that kind of stuff on a Sunday, so it will sit in there for a week unless I eat it today.


Yeah, definitely getting a huge infusion of calories today. I think it's safe to say my body is being shocked


Edit: 8:15pm and I'm done with my calorie intake for today.


Easily over 5000 calories today. I just finished a pint of Ben & Jerry's that was 1000 calories by itself. After what I listed above, I also had a little more pasta from the same bit I made earlier. I only had a few spoons, I couldn't finish it. I also had about 2 of the mini corn dogs and a cheese stick. I really wasn't that hungry once we got home. I also had a glass of sweet tea.


So yeah, I was 185.6 this morning, so I'll be curious to see what my number will be tomorrow


I will update tomorrow with the number, but for now, I think I'm just gonna slump over for the rest of the evening.. lol

 

[Loch]

AHoly crap! You weren't kidding about a cheat day xD that's so much! I think if I were having a cheat day, I'd be at maybe...2000 for the day.

Ah well, I suppose if it works, it works. It just seems so scary, because it's so much bad food in one day lol.

Mmm ice cream...

 

[Frogged]

Yeah, and we ended up not helping our friend move. So... aside from the walking we did in the grocery store, I did absolutely no exercise whatsoever. hah


It was a lot of bad food, but I'm also super strict Mon - Sat, and I've done this many times before, so I'm not worried

Some Sundays were even worse than this one! It's quite shameful on occasion. I basically revert back to my old mindset in a big way! It makes me glad I never got surgery or anything like that so I can really take advantage of these days without worrying about any physical complications (other than feeling like I'll throw up)

Although tomorrow, I'm going to feel like a slug


Edit: 12:45am and I should have gone to bed a while ago.


Broke down and had another bowl of fruit loops right before midnight, so I'm a tad wired from the additional sugar.. sigh.


My old friend depression is hitting me hard tonight. The junk food is really taking it's toll right now

 

[jen_renee]

AWow...that was quite the cheat day...lol. Hope you're feeling better today!

 

[tetemcg]

AFrogged....I am a firm believer in the cheat days or zig zag days!! I have lost almost 40 pounds by enjoying them!!! Enjoy your bad days....as long as they don't turn into back weeks or months...we will be ok!!

 

[rainyforest138]

Frogged- I love your logic! absolutely love it!!! ;0) lol For one its working for you so that is great. Two I also found that for plateaus it helped to fluctuate my calories... when I would stop losing with very low calories I would have to go back up then back down. Third- I Love Pie!!! I have tried to quit junkfood and fastfood for my lifestyle changes.... but no matter what I might manage to quit, I know I can never completely quit pie. When I eat pie I always want to keep going and eat it all, so I LOVE your routine and that it is working. The hard part for me is not eating it again the next day. But if you get it all out of the household before your new week its probably not so hard, plus knowing that you can have another Sunday!!! What a motivator I could make my Sunday bake a pie day and eat it with ice cream on top. That would so be worth being perfect all week. I really think this may be a new and exciting way to make my weight loss journey more fun but structured at the same time because normally my junkfood episodes are accidents, at least if I plan them I can be more structured and easier to resist knowing when I will have junk again.... I am going to try your method. Also maby just knowing I get it every week would help me not go crazy when I get it. Thanks for your diary I love it.

 

[Frogged]

Originally Posted by jen_renee

Wow...that was quite the cheat day...lol. Hope you're feeling better today!

Yeah.. it was pretty bad.


I've actually done worse to myself if you can believe it. There was one Sunday when I told my roommate I may have to seek medical attention because my stomach was feeling so terrible :\

Originally Posted by tetemcg

Frogged....I am a firm believer in the cheat days or zig zag days!! I have lost almost 40 pounds by enjoying them!!! Enjoy your bad days....as long as they don't turn into back weeks or months...we will be ok!!

Yeah, definitely not going to turn back into this kind of lifestyle. It's horrible and just makes you feel so sluggish and depressed

Originally Posted by rainyforest138


Frogged- I love your logic! absolutely love it!!! ;0) lol For one its working for you so that is great. Two I also found that for plateaus it helped to fluctuate my calories... when I would stop losing with very low calories I would have to go back up then back down. Third- I Love Pie!!! I have tried to quit junkfood and fastfood for my lifestyle changes.... but no matter what I might manage to quit, I know I can never completely quit pie. When I eat pie I always want to keep going and eat it all, so I LOVE your routine and that it is working. The hard part for me is not eating it again the next day. But if you get it all out of the household before your new week its probably not so hard, plus knowing that you can have another Sunday!!! What a motivator I could make my Sunday bake a pie day and eat it with ice cream on top. That would so be worth being perfect all week. I really think this may be a new and exciting way to make my weight loss journey more fun but structured at the same time because normally my junkfood episodes are accidents, at least if I plan them I can be more structured and easier to resist knowing when I will have junk again.... I am going to try your method. Also maby just knowing I get it every week would help me not go crazy when I get it. Thanks for your diary I love it.

Great rainy! I'm glad it might prove useful to you I hope it does work out and you get the same success!


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Yeah, so as expected, I put on quite a lot of retention the following Monday morning. I didn't post it on the day of because I had to travel to see some family for a Labor Day cookout.


So on Monday, I weighed myself and I was 193.6. I put on 8 pounds of 'weight' from all the junk I ate on Sunday.


Not so bad. I've seen upwards of 10+ before, so I wasn't flustered.


Well, at my family's cookout, I think I went a bit overboard. I did well for the first half of the day. I had my usual Kashi Cereal + Clover Honey + 1 Tablespoon of Peanut Butter. Then, I had a Boost shake followed by a Fiber bar. All that was up until about 3pm when we started the cookout. I must have had half a bag of Tostito's chips, followed by a plate of potato salad, 2 hotdogs (no bun), some of this cheese dip, and some baked beans I could feel myself becoming stuffed similar to a Sunday. After the cookout, we then celebrated my cousin's birthday along with my grandparent's anniversary! I had a piece of pie, dirt cake, and yellow cake with chocolate frosting.


Not good. I mean, it tasted great! But as far as my regimen went, it was downhill that day.


I got home around 9pm, still feeling full, but decided to get on the treadmill for a bit to try and burn off some of it before it got too late.


Well, I almost threw up after 1 mile. I was pushing upwards of 10-11mph sprints and all the food in me didn't have a whole lot of time to digest, so I had to break for a bit because I was feeling so queasy. I sat down for about an hour, then got back on and did another 3 miles for a total of 4 :\


No surprise tomorrow, I was up again.. this time, I weighed in at an impressive 198.4! Holy crap.


I'm almost breaking the 200 border again :[ Not good at all. It's game time.


So far today, I had:


Breakfast: Kashi, Clover Honey, Peanut Butter

2 hours later: Boost Shake

2 hours later: Peanut Butter & Jelly Sandwich with Skim Milk

2 hours later: Fiber Bar

2 hours later: Fiber Bar

2 hours later: Lean Cuisine with 1 Cup Cottage Cheese


I had about 5 cheeseballs (don't ask) in between the lean cuisine and my last meal.


I had another small bowl of Kashi, Clover Honey, and Peanut Butter about an hour ago, so that's it for me today. Now it's only the treadmill left.


Ugh. This week has not been going very well physically or mentally.


I also made the decision recently to go off my anti-depressants cold turkey. I felt like hell yesterday and this morning. I feel better now, but damn.. I hadn't felt despair like that for a while. I've only been on them for about a month, but I just don't like the idea of taking them anymore. The side effects alone are startling enough, but the zombie-like state it puts you in... just sucks.


Plus, I feel like I'm stronger than that. I feel like if I can lose this much weight on my own with everything I've dealt with in my life, then I can deal with and manage these feelings without taking friggin pills. I've been fighting depression forever, it's just that lately it's been heavy enough to throw me off balance in my life a little bit. I think I have a handle on it now though, so I'm quitting it.


I haven't talked to my doctor yet, but I will at some point.


I'm done.

 

[silash]

Hey Frogged


Sounds like you had a rough couple of days but keep your chin up!

I had a similar weekend last weekend where two days were basically just a write-off. The most important thing is to get back into your routine and it seems like you are doing it


About the anti Depressants it's kind of scary that you decided to go off them cold turkey if you have only been on them for a month it's not so bad but you really should discuss it with your doctor just to be sure and keep him updated on where you are at. I admire your decision to do with out the pills, it's the harder route for sure but I believe it is the better one. When I was much younger (a couple of years after my mom died) I was prescribed anti-depressants and I would fall asleep the second I got into a car (I wasn't driving yet luckily ) and walked around in a daze most of the time so I know what you me about being zombie like.


You are a great guy with a really good support system here, it's also important to remember that support works both ways, you are always writing to, helping and encouraging other people you need to know when to accept support as well.


Today/tomorrow depending on which time zone you are in, is a sparkling brand new day and I hope that it is a really good one for you!

 

[jen_renee]

ABe careful going on and off meds like that. I can tell you from experience that it can be very awful. I'm notorious for going on and off my anxiety meds..... My doctor yells at me every time, but I don't learn..hahaha! Just be careful, ok? OK!