Frogged
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Originally Posted by silash
Hey Frogged
Sounds like you had a rough couple of days but keep your chin up!
I had a similar weekend last weekend where two days were basically just a write-off. The most important thing is to get back into your routine and it seems like you are doing it
About the anti Depressants it's kind of scary that you decided to go off them cold turkey if you have only been on them for a month it's not so bad but you really should discuss it with your doctor just to be sure and keep him updated on where you are at. I admire your decision to do with out the pills, it's the harder route for sure but I believe it is the better one. When I was much younger (a couple of years after my mom died) I was prescribed anti-depressants and I would fall asleep the second I got into a car (I wasn't driving yet luckily) and walked around in a daze most of the time so I know what you me about being zombie like.
You are a great guy with a really good support system here, it's also important to remember that support works both ways, you are always writing to, helping and encouraging other people you need to know when to accept support as well.
Today/tomorrow depending on which time zone you are in, is a sparkling brand new day and I hope that it is a really good one for you!
Hi silash
I'm sorry to hear about your mother
I've always had that feeling in my head ever since I was younger. It's like, why worry about me when you probably have your own problems and there's bigger issues going on in the world? I sit there and rattle on about my issues when I begin to think that they're probably either wondering what they'll have for dinner that night, or what the current score of their favorite sports team is. It's a bad way to think, I know.. but it's just how I am.
Anyway, I know on this forum it's sincere when someone posts since we're all in similar situations and are doing our best to fix what's broken in our lives.
I know tomorrow will be a new day (not sparkling probably since it's done nothing but rain here on the east coast, hehe), but I will try to keep my head up and continue on as best I can
Thank you for the kind words as always, silash
Originally Posted by jen_renee
Be careful going on and off meds like that. I can tell you from experience that it can be very awful. I'm notorious for going on and off my anxiety meds..... My doctor yells at me every time, but I don't learn..hahaha! Just be careful, ok? OK!
Hehe, well, I don't think my doc would ever yell at me. We go back a ways and he and my mother were close. He was with our family a lot, especially during her treatments, so he does care about me probably more than the average patient. I was actually his first ever patient when he started his practice back in 1983. I was just born and had some kind of infection that nearly killed me. Luckily, he's a good doc and I had attentive family members, so I pulled through
I will be careful, even though I am feeling like absolute hell right now.
I've also decided to do something this week that I've only done one other time. I'm going to recalibrate my body a bit.
Basically, I believe at certain times in my regimen, I'm tip-toeing dangerously close to the 'starvation' mode threshold. I notice on occasion that whenever I eat something outside of my meal plan, regardless of the calorie content or size, my body seems to hoard it and I either have no loss, or I gain.
So I'm spending this week laxing on my calorie intake. I'm not going to count calories, I'm going to eat whenever I feel hungry (regardless if it's 10 minutes or 2 hours after my last meal), and I'm not going to focus on just eating healthy things. I will and have already eaten numerous bad items, including pizza, marshmellows, sugar-filled cereals, and chocolate bars.
I'm attempting not to 'binge' every day, but again, I'm not going to let it concern me. I'm fully expecting a gain this week, however drastic, it won't diminish my resolve. This is a life style change, not a diet, and I can't go through the rest of my life eating fiber bars and shakes as my only intake every day. I need to be allowed to have bad stuff sometimes without rocketing up 4-5 pounds the following morning.
It's a bit crazy to say this, but I've already gained 23 pounds of retention. So obviously, my body was not in a very good state prior to this. It's hoarding everything! All the calories, all the sodium, etc etc. I am drinking a lot of water to try and flush it out, and I still exercise on the treadmill - but I'm limiting my speed as I obviously feel a bit lethargic with this junk food. I did about 6 miles yesterday, but my highest speed running is 7mph atm.
I'm unofficially back in the 200's. I was 185.6 on Sunday morning, and now this Thursday morning, I weighed 207.8.
I think it may also have a bit to due with quitting my meds. I think the combination of that, plus the leisurely eating, has definitely played a bit of havoc internally with my biology. Mentally, I feel drained too. I feel tired and just.. blegh, in general. And the rain... rain, rain, rain. Dreary isn't a good enough word to use to describe what it's like outside right now, so I doubt that helps either with my mood.
Regardless, I have done this before, and it will take a few weeks to recover and get back to where I was, but I expected it and I am prepared for it.
I just hope this will pull me out of this 'starvation' area I've been slipping toward like it did last time. I also hope the meds will fully be out of my system here soon and then I plan to re-assess my meals. I'll still eat the fiber bars and shakes, but I need something more substantial I do believe.